Ch. 91..100

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 91-Rescued Fuck, it hurts Emma screams in agony, making me come out of my shock just in time to see the man raise his pistol. I scramble to take the gun that I had dropped and immediately fire. He drops to the ground I get up and rush to Emma, who was writhing on the ground. I don’t even check if the man was alive or dead. Right now, it didn’t fucking matter to me. Not when I’m pumped full of adrenaline and Emma was bleeding on the ground. “I’m dying aren’t I?” she asks with tears filling her eyes. I could have told her to stop being a cry baby, but I don’t. Not when she’s the one that shoved me and took a bullet that was meant to be mine. “No, you are not” I respond as I examine her. She’d been shot in the shoulder, and it was bleeding a lot. I was worried. First of all, she might just bleed to death, and second, we were still in danger. Someone was bound to find us eventually. “You’re lying!” she hisses when I put pressure on the wound. “If I’m not dying then why the hell does it feel like I am?” I don’t answer. Choosing instead to focus on stopping the bleeding. As teachers, we are required to know basic first aid. The bullet was still lodged inside, so I couldn’t remove it. Not without knowing the extent of the damage. Instead, I rip the hem of my dress and tie it tightly around her shoulder. “Damn it, I should have just stayed in that fucking room” she grumbles, glaring at me. Her eyes showed the pain that she was trying to hide. “Come on. We have to keep moving” I say as I slowly help her up and we start moving. Fuck. Rowan was going to kill me. Not only did I put Emma in danger by dragging her into my escape plan, but I also got her shot. I didn’t know how to face him when we manage to get free. Sure, others might reason that it was Emma’s decision to take the bullet for me. That I didn’t ask her to do it, but Rowan might not see it that way. He will take one look at his bleeding precious, Emma and blame me. Sighing, I pull her up straight. I was currently supporting her weight. She was leaning into me as 1/4 pace we were going I estimate that it won’t be long. I don’t know for how long we were walking. Maybe an hour or a few minutes, I couldn’t tell, because it felt like an eternity. I was starting to get tired from carrying both our weights. My legs were aching, my hands were shaking and my head was pounding. Emma had now almost slumped all the way forward and she was weakening from the blood loss. “Maybe we should rest” I pant. “Yesss. That’s a gooood idea” she slurs, tipping forward, almost tripping both of us. I look for a hidden place, before gently lowering her down. I then sit next to her and lean my against the old car. head This place was like a fucking maze. It felt like we have just been going round in circles from the moment we escaped that room. I was so tired and hungry that I didn’t care if they found us. I just wanted some pain meds, food and a nap. “Emma, I’m not sure we can escape” I tell her but receive no answer. I face her. Her eyes were closed and her mouth slightly open. “Emma?” I call again, but she still doesn’t answer. My heart starts going haywire and panic begins setting in. I shake her and her body tips. I catch her before she falls to the ground. Twisting her, I make it so that she’s laying on my lap. I whisper her name again, but she’s still unresponsive. With shaky hands and bones laden with fear, I check her pulse, afraid of not feeling anything. I sigh in relief when I feel it. It was a bit weak, but it was there. I breathe a sigh of relief. I don’t know what I’d have done if I hadn’t found a pulse. Tears start filling my eyes. We were stuck here. Emma was bleeding and weak. I was tired and aching and we were right in the middle of the enemy’s camp. I don’t stop them when they fall. I was just fed up. Why was all this happening to me now? I wanted nothing, but peace, but I am yet to achieve that. I hated this. Hated everything that was happening. I keep my finger on Emma’s pulse just to assure myself that she was okay. We will probably never be close, but that doesn’t mean I want her to die. 2/4 what we have here a weaver say “Twed of running? Or is your friend dead already? Lees 7 sig novelbin scary song than saving at with nothing but evil intent. For a moment I see my life and before my eyes Remember when I said that I don’t care if they find us? Well, I take those words back. I didn’t mean any of them I’m definitely not ready to die “ease” I beg him as I watch him raise his gun Part of me knew he wouldn’t shoot me For Reaper’s plan to work, he needed both me and Emma alive. Still, that doesn’t stop me from being afraid. He cocks the gun and removes the safety latch. “Boss doesn’t want you dead” he says, confirming my suspicion. “But that doesn’t mean I can’t hurt you for the trouble you’ve caused us.” The evil glint in his eyes widens Looking at him, I see the evil that resides in him. He didn’t choose this kind of job because the money was good or because he had no other choice. He chose it because he was genuinely evil and he liked to hurt others. I close my eyes when I realize there is no escaping him. Waiting for him to just get it over and done with. I hear a shot, but I don’t feel pain or the impact of the bullet. I frown and open my eyes. I am shocked to find Rowan standing before me like an avenging angel, with the man on the floor and a bullet hole in his skull. “Rowan” I whisper in relief, but then it quickly turns into dread when his eyes shift from me to Emma, who was unconscious. Damn it. I had forgotten about her. I don’t know which fate was worse. Facing Ronny or Rowan. “We need an ambulance. She got shot and is bleeding. She lost consciousness a few minutes ago” I tell him, my voice barely above whisper. He doesn’t answer. His face was stony, and that scared me more than anything. I was sure of one thing: Rowan was going to retaliate against me when Emma wakes up and tells him that she took. a bullet that was meant for me.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 92-His pain Gabe.

I groan in ecstasy as I release my load onto her back. This was just what I needed. The best way I knew to unwind and relax.

“So when will we do this again, Tomorrow?” she asks, her eyes shining.

She looks more relaxed. I guess she needed this just as much as I did. I help her wipe my cum off her back, but I don’t say anything. She knows the drill. I call she answers, not the other way around.

After I’m done, she starts getting dresses. It’s past ten at night and I want to get some shut eye before my busy schedule tomorrow.

Like I said, she knows the drill. She doesn’t spend the night and vice versa. We are nothing more than fuck buddies.

“Gabriel?” She’s the only one that calls me by my full name. I hate it the name. Mainly because it reminds me of the archangel when I am literally the opposite of an angel.

“Shut it. You don’t call the shots. We’ll do this when I decide” I growl, already feeling suffocated by her damn question.

I see an emotion similar to hurt pass through her features. I ignore it. She knew very well what she was getting into when she agreed to this.

“So meanwhile I wait till it’s my turn? I wait till you’re bored with your other women?” she whispers.

I’ve never kept it a secret. She knew she wasn’t the only fuck buddy I had. I liked variety. Today I was in the mood for having a taste of her. It might be the same tomorrow. Or I might develop a taste for someone else.

“Yes” I tell her firmly.

The light that was shining in her eyes dims. She tries her best, but I see her fighting her emotions. Fighting the hurt I had caused.

1/5 Fuck! I hate this. Hate it when they develop feelings. We’ve had this arrangement for two years and it worked fine until now. Looks like it’s time to nip this at the bud.

She didn’t have time to date and I don’t date. So this became the best solution. Besides, she’s just my secretary. Even if I were to date her, she wouldn’t fit in my word.

“I thought you could handle this, but I guess it was a mistake. So this will be the last time we fuck. You’ll continue working for me like nothing ever happened between us, am I understood, Eden?” She stares at me. Her eyes spearing mine.

“I don’t think I can do this anymore” she whispers. Tears filling her eyes“I love you, but I see that will never love me. For some reason you’ve closed off your heart and I can’t keep sleeping with you knowing that you’ll never reciprocate my love” She was a damn good secretary, but to hell with it.

“I guess it’s time for you to write a resignation letter, isn’t it?” I smirk, mocking her.

She doesn’t reply. Just shakes her head before she turns around and quietly leaves. I sigh, but I don’t follow her. Instead I use my phone to unlock the gates for her. Once she’s gone, I collapse on my bed.

She’s right. I closed my heart off. Promising myself that I will never fall in love. Sure my parents have an amazing marriage, and they love each other so much, but their case is one in a million.

I’ve seen how love can fucking destroy you. Seen how it can kill you on the inside and leave you as nothing but a shell.

Love all but destroyed Rowan when he lost Emma. It was like living with a zombie for months, until Noah was born. He used to drink himself to oblivion. Seeing all this why would I give any woman such immense power over me? Why would I give them the weapon to destroy me?

He was destroyed when things went to shit with Emma and now? Now I am afraid of the same thing happening.

He doesn’t realize it yet. That he loves Ava. When it finally hits him, it will destroy him. Knowing that he has hurt the woman he loves over and over again.

I release a breath I was holding and go to the bathroom for a shower. Ten minutes later and I am still anxious. I don’t know what was causing it, but I have a good damn feeling that it was Rowan.

I get out of the shower, dry myself and put on a pair of sweats. I was just about to get my phone and call my brother when my security system unlocks. There is only one other person who has authorization. Rowan.

I get downstairs in time to see him stumbling through my front door.

“Rowan? What the hell man?” I ask as I help him up, supporting his weight.

He was drunk. It wasn’t a hard guess. He usually stays clear from drinking too much because of what happened. Today things seem different. It fucking worried me because the last time he drunk this much was during his dark times.

I help him take a seat then take mine beside him.

“What happened Ro?” I ask worriedly.

“You were right. Fucking right as always” he stammers. “I messed up big time. How the hell am I going to fix what I destroyed with my bare hands?” I feel the pain in his voice and it kills me. I love my brother more than anything. When he suffers, I suffer right along with him. I would do anything to take away his pain. His heartaches. But I know I can’t. Not really anyway.

“Explain to me why you think you’ve messed up and where exactly have you messed up?” He looked distraught. Like his world just collapsed down on him.

“I love her Gabe. I fucking love” he yells.

“Who?” “Ava!” he shouts. “I fucking love her. It hit me today” And it hit him hard. This is what I was afraid of. When he finally realizes the fucking truth. My prediction came to pass. The realization is his undoing. (1 “Why didn’t I realize it sooner? Why did it take me this long? She’ll never believe me if I were to tell her that I loved her. I all but killed her love for me. Spent most of the nine years making her pay for that night. I hurt her so fucking much. She’ll never believe me” A tear drops down his face. Pain marking his grey eyes that are similar to mine. I feel my heart lurch as waves of pain radiate from him.

“What am I going to do? How am I going to fix all that 1 broke? How the fuck am I supposed to mend her broken heart when I broke it?” I grip his shoulder and bring him to me. Rowan isn’t one to show weakness. Even when Emma left him, he didn’t show how broken he was. He didn’t cry. Didn’t lament on how he would fix it. He didn’t agonize on how he would fix what was shattered. He just drank.

His shoulders shake as he tries to fight his emotions. My heart goes to him. He is my twin and I fucking hate seeing him like this. I have no idea how to help him.

Nine years of pain and heartache wasn’t going to be easy to fix. Ava had grown into herself. Risen up from the ashes like a damn phoenix. She wasn’t going to easily allow those that hurt her come near her.

“I don’t know Ro, but you’re Rowan fucking Woods and you always get what you want. You’re going to fix this and you’re going to get Ava back. You never quit, so don’t start now” (2 He straightens and looks forward. His eyes staring at nothing. Completely lost in his mind.

“What if she doesn’t take me back?” he whispers more to himself.

This isn’t my brother. Rowan is assured and confident. The fact he is doubting himself just proves the power Ava has over him. I fucking believe she has more power than Emma ever had.

The love he had for Emma was young and easy. Puppy love. That’s why it never lasted. That’s why it crumbled at the first sign of trouble. I believe, though not entirely sure that what he may feel for Ava may be stronger. Way fucking stronger.

“You’ll just have to give it your best” I whisper back.

We stay seated, lost in our own heads, until he falls asleep. I stand up and help him to one of the bedrooms. The one he uses while he is here.

I deposit him on the bed and watch him for a while as he struggles even in his sleep. I want to be confident that he will win Ava back, but I am not. Nine fucking years. That’s how long he has hurt her.

I would be surprised if Ava gave him a chance after that. I can only hope. Hope that the love she had for him isn’t entirely gone, because I’m not sure he’ll survive losing her.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 93-She deserves better. Rowan.

My eyes snap open. Rays of light hitting me square in the face. I groan in pain. My head was pounding as if there was someone using it as a fucking drum.

It takes a while to register that I am in my room, in Gabe’s house. It’s something we both did. He has a room at my house, and I have one in his.

Groaning, I stand up and head to the bathroom. I turn on the shower and step under it. Using my hands for support, I lean against the wall and try to put my jumbled thoughts in order. I don’t remember much of last night except drinking.

Fuck! How the hell did I get here? How is it possible that I fell in love with Ava and didn’t realize it sooner?

The moment the realization hit me, I went straight to the club. I rarely get drunk. I promised myself not to ever get butt drunk after Noah was born. Normally, I just take a class or two, and that’s enough. Yesterday, though, I needed it. I needed it badly.

There is no remedy for what I was feeling. No fucking cure. How do you even begin to deal with the realization that you love the woman that you hated? The same woman you spent nine fucking years hurting?

I sigh and get out of the bathroom. Feeling like I have aged at least thirty years. I haven’t been this out of sorts in years.

After getting dressed, I head downstairs. I find Gabe having breakfast.

“Where is June?” I ask, referring to his housekeeper.

“She’s made us breakfast and left. She said that she wanted an early start to the market so she could get fresh veggies.” June had a thing against buying from grocery stores. For some reason, she believed that they weren’t as fresh or organic as they wanted us to believe. She buys all vegetables, fruits, meat, eggs, and milk from the local market, which is owned by a bunch of farmers.

“How are you feeling?” Gabe asks as I pour myself some coffee.

“Like I’ve been hit by a truck.” +16 BONUS When I realized that I loved Ava, part of me wanted to rush back to her house and tell her immediately. I would have if my rational side hadn’t won. It was too soon to tell her. She wouldn’t have believed me at all.

I’ve never been scared, but with this new awareness, I was fucking terrified. Is this how she used to feel? Loving me but also knowing that I hate her?

About yesterday,” Gabe begins, “I thought you swore never to get drunk ever again.” “I know, but I needed it. I needed to numb the pain. You can’t understand how difficult it was to realize that I love Ava. That all this time I’ve caused her nothing but pain. It was suffocating me to know that I may have lost my chance with her all because I couldn’t let go of my bitterness” I pretend I don’t notice it every time I show up to pick Noah up, and she frowns at me in disapproval. Or when, at times, she looks at me with nothing but hate and resentment.

I ignore it, trying to let it not affect me because I crave her. I follow her around like a damn lost puppy, begging for any scraps of affection she’ll give me. Even if it’s bitterness, I take it because it’s the only way to be near her.

I never thought of what she went through at my hands. What she is dishing out is nothing compared to what I did to her. Yet it still fucking hurts. How the hell did she survive me for those nine fucking years?

She wants nothing to do with me. Wants me to be completely out of her life for good. I want to give her that because she deserves better, but I can’t let her go no matter how I fucking try.

“How did that happen? The last time I checked asks me, looking puzzled.

were sure you were in love with Emma.” Gabe “Yes, but weren’t you the one that insisted that I had suppressed feelings for Ava?” I remember how adamant he was about that. He wouldn’t let it go, even after I told him countless times that I wasn’t in love with Ava. I guess he just knows me better than I know myself. He saw something I didn’t want to recognize.

“My gut was telling me you loved Ava, but your insistence at times made me doubt that maybe I was wrong.” I sigh. “You were fucking right. My only wish is that I had relegalized this sooner. Maybe then it would have been easier to mend what I broke” +15 BONUS I stare off into space. Lost in the bitter memories. Memories where I had her, but instead of cherishing her I ruined her. I broke her. My actions and words chipped at her heart slowly by slowly until there was nothing left.

I honestly don’t wish to be in your shoes” Gabe whistles and I glare at him. “But you still haven’t answered me. I want to know when it happened. When did you fall for her?” (2 “I don’t know. I can’t pinpoint the exact time. Maybe it happened when we were still married, or maybe it’s a recent thing. All I know is that I love her now.” I run my hand through my hair. I was frustrated and fucking scared. What a lousy time to realize you love someone!

“I think it was always there. Probably came after Noah was born. I also think you didn’t allow yourself to love her because you held on to the memory of Emma. She was your first love, so you assumed she was your true love. You can’t live with someone for nine years and not feel a thing for them. I know you, Ro. You wouldn’t even have touched her if you didn’t feel something for her.” “Sex is a biological process. I just got what I needed from her while still hating her. I am ashamed to say there were times I imagined she was Emma.” I tell him, feeling sick to the core at how I treated her. 1 1 “Really? Did you imagine you were fucking Emma because you missed her or because you needed something to hold you back? Something that would guard you from enjoying the intimacy between you and Ava because you felt that enjoying sex with her would be a betrayal to the memories of Emma that you held on to for dear life?” 4 I sit on the stool completely dumbfound I thought about it like that. I admit I was attracted to her; otherwise, how would I explain how the hell I was able to get it up and going?

Maybe Gabe was right, and I used Emma as an escape from what I truly felt for Ava.

In my head, I had already betrayed the love of my life once; how then could I betray her over and over again by sleeping with and enjoying Ava’s body? It all made sense in my head then, but now I’m starting to realize that Emma was never the love of my fucking life.

“Fuck. I messed up big time,” I holler, feeling like a crashing weight was on my shoulders.

“Do you love Emma?” he asks and I shake my head in a no.

“Are you sure? Is all the love you had for her completely gone?” *15 BONUS i think about it for a minute before answering.

“Tes When she first came back, I thought that it would be our second chance at love. It took a while to realize that it felt all kinds of wrong. I didn’t even allow her to kiss me for fucks sake That should have been my first clue that I was done with her. That and the jealousy I felt towards Ethan” I can’t begin to explain the rage I felt every time imagined Ava and Ethan together. It was all consuming and volatile.

I guess it took losing her to make you realize what you felt for her. It took seeing her happy with another man to bring forth the love you suppressed. You held on to Emma because of the way things ended abruptly between the two of you. None of you got any closure. That’s why you held on to each other’s memories for so long” I get what he is saying, and fuck does it make sense, but it doesn’t help my case. So much damage has already been done. I said words I could never take back. Did things that will forever be imprinted on her mind. I destroyed her with my own two hands.

“What are you going to do?” he asks me after a while.

“I don’t know. I was blinded by Emma before, but not anymore. Ava is fucking beautiful, and she can get any man she wants. There are already some who are sniffing around her, as Noah clearly likes informing me.

I feel so dejected. What is to stop her from falling in love with someone else?

She was not only beautiful but also intellige and she loves fiercely. Any man would be luck, aring, kind, and loving. She has a heart of gold, have her.

I mean, fuck, she was able to change Ethan. I saw it in his eyes. He had fallen for her. Any woman who is capable of making a man change his ways is a fucking saint. I was a fucking idiot for not realizing the treasure I had.

Gabe claps me on the shoulder. “I’m sure you’ll figure it out. I’m positive of that” I wish I was as confident in myself as he was in me, because deep down I know I don’t deserve her, and my biggest fear is losing her to someone who does deserve her love.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 94-Their insistence Ava Howe you doing? mom asks through the phone. “And how are the baby and Noah?

Once again they were out of the country for a business meeting. It didn’t come as a surprise to me that they had their own private jet since Rowan did too. He had his own and there was also a family one. I have never used his. Never been inside it. Probably because we rarely went to any trips together.

When my wealth rose to great heights, I thought of buying a jet of my own, but I quickly shot the idea down. What the hell would I use it for? I rarely went anywhere that will necessitate me needing one of my own. If I had to go somewhere, I usually hired one or I’d just fly business class.

“Ava?

“Sorry mom. We’re all doing well. We just miss you guys so much” And it was true. They’ve been gone for a week and they’ll be away for another week. Noah and I missed them like crazy. It’s surprising how they’ve become such a big part of our lives in such a short time, “We miss you too. Your dad says hi by the way. He said he’ll talk to you in the evening when he isn’t so busy” “That’s all right” “So, have you bought anything new for the b our months isn’t long. Soon he or she will be here” just as always, excitement rings in her voice when she talks about the baby.

“How am I supposed to buy anything when everyone around me already has? This baby will have more than in enough and a lot to choose from” I laugh.

The baby’s room was full of stuff. I thought that mom, dad, Letty and Corrine were bad. That was before Reaper came into the picture.

He has been sending cute little gifts since I allowed him to be part of his or her life. I don’t even get when or where he goes shopping when he is in hiding. Everything he has bought is in color pink. Just like with Noah and Ethan, he also believes that it will be a baby girl.

My smile falls as soon as thoughts of him pass through my mind. I know I promised him, but I not have gotten along with Father, but he still raised me.

I can’t wait for the baby to be bom. I missed Noah’s birth so I’m making up with this baby” her voice pulls me from my black thoughts.

Can I call you back mom? I was meeting up with Letty and Corrine for a lunch date and I see them pulling up It probably wasn’t them, but my mood had already been shot down to hell.

“Sure. Talk to you later. I love you Ava” I love you too mom” I say, then hang up the phone.

I sigh as I place my phone down at the table. The moment I do that, my conflicting thoughts immediately attack.

Father wasn’t the only issue associated with Reaper. There was also Rowan. Sure, he wasn’t my favorite person, but he was Noah’s father. Reaper was hell bent on revenge and losing Rowan would destroy Noah.

There was also the likelihood that he would go after those Rowan loved. Noah loved the same people, well except for Emma that is. I just didn’t know what to do because part of me felt like I had made a mistake giving him a chance. The other part just told me to trust my instincts and my instincts told me it was the right move. 3 “What are you thinking so hard about?” Corrine’s voice startles me.

“Fuck, you scared me” I put my hand on my t as if that would slow down my beating hard.

“Sorry. I thought you saw me coming in” she says looking sheepish.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I hadn’t realized that they had entered the private booth.

“It’s okay…I just have a lot on mind” “Care to share?” Letty asks, taking her seat.

I shake my head. “Not really” It’s not that I didn’t want to share, it’s just that I didn’t know how to. How do I even begin telling them that the criminal everyone is tirelessly searching for is my baby’s uncle? Or that we have been in contact and as if that wasn’t worse I permitted him to be in my baby’s life?

2/5 *15 BONUS Does this have to do with Rowan again?” Letty leans forward. Her eyes sparkling for some odd reason. Travis said that Rowan called him a few days ago and he was butt drunk” I frown at that. I can’t remember the last time Rowan got drunk. He stopped drinking too much after Ncan was born. Plus he’s gone radio silent since that night he showed up unexpectedly at my house.

I still can’t believe that I punched him. It felt good because I’ve wanted to do that for a long time.

“Why was he drunk?” Corrine asks, seeming curious.

Letty shrugs her shoulders as she answers. “Neither Travis or I know, but I bet Gabe knows and I double bet that Ava has an idea❞ They both turn to look at me expectantly. I shift uncomfortably on my chair.

“Spill it, Ava” Letty commands.

“Honestly, I don’t know anything. The last time I saw him, he turned up unexpectedly at my house at night. His behavior was odd so I asked him to leave” “Describe odd?” Corrine pushes.

“He got jealous when Noah mentioned that Re-” I catch myself before I can say his name. “Noah mentioned something about suitors and he went ballistic saying I belonged to him and he wasn’t going to allow me to whore myself to other men” I still get pissed when I remember his words. Like what the hell was wrong with him? I belonged to him? Since when? Plus I am not a fucking object. I am a human being.

“Ooh, so possessive. I never thought I would see the day when Rowan becomes possessive towards you” Letty says all dreamy. 1 I just look at her like she was losing her grip on reality.

“You can’t be serious, Letty. This is Rowan we are talking about. The same man that told me over and over again that I meant nothing to him. That he would never love me because he hates my fucking guts” The pain I used to feel was mainly replaced by anger. All the heartbreak I went through and all for what? He is still a thorn on my side.

“I honestly think he has come to the realization that he wants you. Why do you think he wants to “Even if that’s true, which I highly doubt, it doesn’t matter It’s a little too late. I gave him countless opportunities during the nine years we were married and he wasted them all. He gave me nothing return except pain. I just don’t see things the way you guys do” They’re quiet Both staring at me like they want to say something, but don’t know how. For now, all I want is to let this Rowan issue go. I don’t want to think about him or his sudden change in behavior. I already had too much on my plate without adding him to the mix.

“Look, I know you guys want to see me happy and for some reason you think I’ll find that happiness with Rowan, but you’re wrong. Our relationship was doomed from the moment we said ‘ I do‘ years ago. We are toxic for each other. I loved him and hated him at the same time while he only hated me. I tried transforming myself into something I’m not just so he would love me and that didn’t work. Even if I were to try now, it wouldn’t work. The love I had for him is buried under tons of pain, heartbreak, resentment and bitterness. So please I beg you, let’s just let this issue go okay?” You can’t force the heart to want something it doesn’t. That’s what Corrine and Letty were trying to do. Force feelings that didn’t exist. They want me to get my fairytale ending and they believe that will only happen with Rowan. Why couldn’t they understand that just because they want him to love me doesn’t make it a reality?

Sure, Rowan was acting differently, but I believe it’s just a phase. Men like what they can’t have. He wants me now because he can’t have me. Soon enough he’ll get bored of the chase and go back to his true love. If I give in I’ll be left in another load of heartbreak after he realizes I am not what he wants.

“Let’s just focus on what we came here fo 1 them after silence descends on us..

“Alright” Corrine replies.

“Fine” Letty grumbles.

I sigh in relief. Happy they were willing to let it go for now. I know Letty will look for an opportunity to bring it up again, but I’ll deal with it when she does.

“Can we go to an ice cream shop or something? For some reason this fancy ass place is getting on my nerves with all the snobbish waiters and waitresses” Letty says out of nowhere.

“We could go to my restaurant” Corrine adds.

I don’t know why they didn’t think of that in the first place. Instead of saying anything, I keep quiet “Nah. Have you ever been to an ice cream shop or a fast food restaurant?” Letty turns to face Comine whose eyes shift nervously.

She shakes her head. “Not really” “Great Today is your lucky day. We’ll have lunch at a fast food restaurant then have a froyo or ice cream at an ice cream shop, then we’ll head to your office to discuss our business progress so far” I smile at the deer caught in headlights look that Corrine has plastered on her face. It’s time we introduce her to the normal world. Which in my opinion is way better than the stuck up people who surround us.

Letty pulls Corrine up, while I stand up.

“What if I get food poisoning? I heard that such restaurants aren’t entirely hygienic when they handle food.” Corrine complains as she tries to wiggle out of Letty’s grasp.

“So what? You’ll get a bad case of diarrhea and after a few days of pooping your intestines off, you’ll be good to go. Trust me. This fancy stuff has nothing on greasy food” Letty answers.

Laughing, I walk behind them as I listen to their banter. It was so refreshing.

I was contemplating on how thankful I am for having such friends, when her bitter voice kills every single joy I was feeling.

“Look what we have here? It’s the pregnant whore” I turn to my side to find Christine staring at me with nothing but hatred in her eyes. As if that wasn’t enough, Emma was standing right next to her. 2 I close my eyes and let out a breath while wondering why the hell did god hate me so much.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 95-Chapter 95 There’s just something…

Calvin had called immediately he got the missed call notification. He’d explained that the reason he didn’t pick up is because he was in a meeting and his phone had been silent.

He wanted to come home right away, but told him that everything was now fine. That I had taken care of the situation and that Gunner was fine. He wasn’t crying anymore. Neither was he sad.

That was enough for me.

He was reluctant, but he finally agreed given that his meeting would run late.

Now here I was cooking dinner for us. With thousands of thoughts running through my head. It’s like I can’t get a break from my own thoughts. They’re constantly there and now there some that are added concerning Gunner.

“What are we having for dinner mom?” Noah asks sitting down at the counter.

“Yes, what? I am starving” Gunner adds smiling at me.

There it was again. That damn smile. It’s not that I hated it. I could never hate any smile Gunner gives me. It’s just that it fucking bothers me so much. There was something about it that I just couldn’t place my finger on.

“I’m not sure” I tell them. “Why don’t we see what my craving will pick?” Noah smiles wide and turns to Gunner. “Mom has insan cravings. Sometimes they’re really great and other times it’s totally disgusting” Gunner nods his head. “Can I help?” “Sure. Why don’t you flow the chicken?” I tell him.Noah wasn’t really that helpful in the kitchen. In fact he was a complete disaster. That’s why he normally never helps unless it’s something he can actually do. Something he won’t mess up.

I got out the marinating sliced chicken breasts and the Ziploc bag of seasoned flour and handed them over to Gunner.

He took them willingly with a smile on his face. One thing I learned about him was that he loved food and he also loved cooking.

He was going to make a very lucky woman happy one day if he continued like this.

“As for you, Noah, you can help with the dessert” I turn to him “At least that’s easy and I won’t mess it up” he says grinning, making both me and Gunner laugh He was self–aware. I liked that about him.

“Now, if you get the buttermilk marinade on your fingers, don’t get it near your eyes. It’ll burn, because of the Tabasco and salt that is in it I warn Gunner.

“Okay” We get to work. Chatting and simply having fun. I was so glad that I could give this to Gunner. So happy that I was able to give him happiness. I couldn’t take away all his pain and sadness, but this had to be enough for now.

He was a lovely boy. Shy at first, but when you got to know him, you realize how amazing he is. I just couldn’t understand why his mother would do this to him.

From what little I gathered. She doesn’t want to be in his life. I don’t know if it’s by choice or maybe forced circumstances, all I know is that it was hurting Gunner. The last thing I want is for him to grow up with issues just like me.

“This is what I’ve always wished and prayed for” his low voice pulls me back to the present.“What?” Noah asks him.

Gunner takes deep breath before answering. “This. Having a mom by my side. Watching her cook and cooking alongside her. That kind of thing. Don’t get me wrong, dad is amazing but he is a dad.

He can never be my mom” Damn it. There goes my heart shattering into pieces for this little boy. If I could, I would give him the world, but that is not sible. Some things just aren’t possible. Like how Noah wants Rowan and I to get back together.

“You okay, honey?” I ask him.He smiles up at me. “Yes. I have you, Noah and dad. That is enough. I know you’re not my real mom, but you’re like a mom to me already.” I leave what I am doing and give him a hug before kissing his forehead.

“Damn!” Noah groans.

“Language!” I chastise him and he goes quiet.

“I’m sorry mom ” Noah says after a while “I’ve been pushing and pushing for you and dad to get back together without realizing how lucky I am that you’re both in my life. Will you forgive me?” I open my arms for him and he immediately steps into them. I close them around him before kissing his forehead too.

“You’re forgiven” I tell him while letting him go.

“I’ll keep praying and hoping, but I’ll stop pushing so much.”“Thank you” I say We get back to work and eventually finish cooking. They both help me set the table and we sit down to eat.

With the three of us, or should I say four, we almost clean everything, but I put my foot down for some left overs. Calvin was probably going to come home tired and hungry. He won’t have time to cook something.

After dinner, I make them shower and then it is off to bed for them.

It was after they were asleep that the idea came to me. I had a five bedroom house. There was still an extra room even after turning one of them into a nursery. The last remaining bedroom could be Gunner’s room.

He could sleep there anytime he was over and it could also be his safe space while he was here. I quickly get excited about the idea. Immediately I take a note pad and started scribbling down what I would need.

I’ll have to ask Calvin for be helpful when it com know what he likes.

rmission, but I was sure he’d agree. Well I hoped he would. Plus he’ll the design of the room. He knows Gunner better than anyone. He’ll I was just finishing up the list of essentials when the doorbell rang. I wiggle up and go to open it, pretty sure that it will Calvin on the door. I wasn’t wrong.

“Hi” I tell him.“Hi to you too” he says, giving me a tired smile.

I step aside and he comes in. We move to the living room.

3/5 *15 BONUS “It’s quiet Are they asleep?” he asks “Yes” I didn’t know what to say. I had so many question, but I was afraid of stepping out of boundary.

“About today? Gunner was crying because of his mother” I start slowly.

The moment I say those words, his face turns stone cold.

“Don’t mention that bitch to me again! She has done nothing, but hurt me and my son over and over again. What kind of woman abandons her son? I get and understand that she doesn’t love me and she never will, it hurts, but I learned to accept that.

Turning her back on Gunner is something else. I will never forgive her for that” he was breathing hard and his voice was cold.

Unrequited love. Wasn’t it just a bitch? I’ve suffered through it since I first fell for Rowan. I didn’t want my friend to go through it, but it looks like he has.

“Every time I call and she refuses to come see Gunner kills me. He is amazing, yet his mother wants nothing to do with him. I tried hiding it from him, but as he got older he started to understand things. He started to understand that his mother doesn’t want him and she wants nothing to do with him. Fuck I hate her so much, but I also can’t stoploving her” he says before continuing. Pain radiating from his eyes.

“I want to give Gunner the world, but the one thing he wants is totally out of my reach. I regret ever falling in love with her. Regret ever meeting her. But the thing is, regretting her means regretting Gunner and that is one thing I can never do”Please bookmark site novelxo.org to read lastest content. If you want to read lightnovel please visit allnovelnext.com to read fastest content.Where have I heard those words from? Yeah from my own lips. Didn’t I tell Rowan the same thing?

That as much as I want to regret him, I can’t because it means regretting Noah.

“I don’t have the right Is for you. Hell. Our situations are the same, but different at the same time. All I can tell you is, De there for Gunner as best as you can. Love him so much that he doesn’t miss the love of his mother. Show him that he is enough and that it’s his mother’s loss not his” Those are the only words I can offer. I wanted to say more, but I didn’t have the words to comfort him. He nods his head and we stay in silence.

“Thank you, Ava. For being there for me and my son” he says after a while.

“You’re welcome” “It’s quiet. Are they asleep?” he asks “Yes” I didn’t know what to say. I had so many question, but I was afraid of stepping out of boundary.

“About today? Gunner was crying because of his mother” I start slowly.

The moment I say those words, his face turns stone cold.

“Don’t mention that bitch to me again! She has done nothing, but hurt me and my son over and over again. What kind of woman abandons her son? I get and understand that she doesn’t love me and she never will, it hurts, but I learned to accept that. Turning her back on Gunner is something else. I will never forgive her for that” he was breathing hard and his voice was cold.Unrequited love. Wasn’t it just a bitch? I’ve suffered through it since I first fell for Rowan. I didn’t want my friend to go through it, but it looks like he has.

“Every time I call and she refuses to come see Gunner kills me. He is amazing, yet his mother wants nothing to do with him. I tried hiding it from him, but as he got older he started to understand things. He started to understand that his mother doesn’t want him and she wants nothing to do with him. Fuck I hate her so much, but I also can’t stop loving her” he says before continuing. Pain radiating from his eyes.

“I want to give Gunner the world, but the one thing he wants is totally out of my reach. I regret ever falling in love with her. Regret ever meeting her. But the thing is, regretting her means regretting Gunner and that is one thing I can never do” Where have I heard those words from? Yeah from my own lips. Didn’t I tell Rowan the same thing? That as much as I want to regret I can’t because it means regretting Noah.

“I don’t have the right words for you. Hell. Our situations are the same, but different at the same time. All I can tell you is; be there for Gunner as best as you can. Love him so much that he doesn’t miss the love of his mother. Show him that he is enough and that it’s his mother’s loss not his” Those are the only words I can offer. I wanted to say more, but I didn’t have the words to comfort him. He nods his head and we stay in silence.

“Thank you, Ava. For being there for me and my son” he says after a while.

“You’re welcome” After, he leaves carring Gunner’s sleeping form and the food I saved for him.

Hours after he leaves. Hours after I go to bed. Gunner’s smile still haunts my mind. His smile and his mysterious mother invade my every thought.There was something I was missing. If only I could piece the pieces together then maybe I could figure out why this whole issue bothers me so fucking much. Maybe I can figure out why my mind won’t give me piece concerning the matter.

Evelyn M.M Author ” Hi loves Sorry, due to unavoidable circumstances, today I can only post one chapter. Tomorrow, I’ll post two instead of one. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this one as we get closer to another reveal. Bye, and take care.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 96-There’s just something… Calvin had called immediately he got the missed call notification. He’d explained that the reason he didn’t pick up is because he was in a meeting and his phone had been silent.

He wanted to come home right away, but told him that everything was now fine. That I had taken care of the situation and that Gunner was fine. He wasn’t crying anymore. Neither was he sad.

That was enough for me.

He was reluctant, but he finally agreed given that his meeting would run late.

Now here I was cooking dinner for us. With thousands of thoughts running through my head. It’s like I can’t get a break from my own thoughts. They’re constantly there and now there some that are added concerning Gunner.

“What are we having for dinner mom?” Noah asks sitting down at the counter.

“Yes, what? I am starving” Gunner adds smiling at me.

There it was again. That damn smile. It’s not that I hated it. I could never hate any smile Gunner gives me. It’s just that it fucking bothers me so much. There was something about it that I just couldn’t place my finger on.

“I’m not sure” I tell them. “Why don’t we see what my craving will pick?” Noah smiles wide and turns to Gunner. “Mom has insan cravings. Sometimes they’re really great and other times it’s totally disgusting” Gunner nods his head. “Can I help?” “Sure. Why don’t you flow the chicken?” I tell him.

Noah wasn’t really that helpful in the kitchen. In fact he was a complete disaster. That’s why he normally never helps unless it’s something he can actually do. Something he won’t mess up.

I got out the marinating sliced chicken breasts and the Ziploc bag of seasoned flour and handed them over to Gunner.

He took them willingly with a smile on his face. One thing I learned about him was that he loved food and he also loved cooking. He was going to make a very lucky woman happy one day if he continued like this.

“As for you, Noah, you can help with the dessert” I turn to him “At least that’s easy and I won’t mess it up” he says grinning, making both me and Gunner laugh He was self–aware. I liked that about him.

“Now, if you get the buttermilk marinade on your fingers, don’t get it near your eyes. It’ll burn, because of the Tabasco and salt that is in it I warn Gunner.

“Okay” We get to work. Chatting and simply having fun. I was so glad that I could give this to Gunner. So happy that I was able to give him happiness. I couldn’t take away all his pain and sadness, but this had to be enough for now.

He was a lovely boy. Shy at first, but when you got to know him, you realize how amazing he is. I just couldn’t understand why his mother would do this to him.

From what little I gathered. She doesn’t want to be in his life. I don’t know if it’s by choice or maybe forced circumstances, all I know is that it was hurting Gunner. The last thing I want is for him to grow up with issues just like me.

“This is what I’ve always wished and prayed for” his low voice pulls me back to the present.

“What?” Noah asks him.

Gunner takes deep breath before answering. “This. Having a mom by my side. Watching her cook and cooking alongside her. That kind of thing. Don’t get me wrong, dad is amazing but he is a dad.

He can never be my mom” Damn it. There goes my heart shattering into pieces for this little boy. If I could, I would give him the world, but that is not sible. Some things just aren’t possible. Like how Noah wants Rowan and I to get back together.

“You okay, honey?” I ask him.

He smiles up at me. “Yes. I have you, Noah and dad. That is enough. I know you’re not my real mom, but you’re like a mom to me already.” I leave what I am doing and give him a hug before kissing his forehead.

“Damn!” Noah groans.

“Language!” I chastise him and he goes quiet.

“I’m sorry mom ” Noah says after a while “I’ve been pushing and pushing for you and dad to get back together without realizing how lucky I am that you’re both in my life. Will you forgive me?” I open my arms for him and he immediately steps into them. I close them around him before kissing his forehead too.

“You’re forgiven” I tell him while letting him go.

“I’ll keep praying and hoping, but I’ll stop pushing so much.” “Thank you” I say We get back to work and eventually finish cooking. They both help me set the table and we sit down to eat.

With the three of us, or should I say four, we almost clean everything, but I put my foot down for some left overs. Calvin was probably going to come home tired and hungry. He won’t have time to cook something.

After dinner, I make them shower and then it is off to bed for them.novelbin It was after they were asleep that the idea came to me. I had a five bedroom house. There was still an extra room even after turning one of them into a nursery. The last remaining bedroom could be Gunner’s room.

He could sleep there anytime he was over and it could also be his safe space while he was here. I quickly get excited about the idea. Immediately I take a note pad and started scribbling down what I would need.

I’ll have to ask Calvin for be helpful when it com know what he likes.

rmission, but I was sure he’d agree. Well I hoped he would. Plus he’ll the design of the room. He knows Gunner better than anyone. He’ll I was just finishing up the list of essentials when the doorbell rang. I wiggle up and go to open it, pretty sure that it will Calvin on the door. I wasn’t wrong.

“Hi” I tell him.

“Hi to you too” he says, giving me a tired smile.

I step aside and he comes in. We move to the living room.

3/5 *15 BONUS “It’s quiet Are they asleep?” he asks “Yes” I didn’t know what to say. I had so many question, but I was afraid of stepping out of boundary.

“About today? Gunner was crying because of his mother” I start slowly.

The moment I say those words, his face turns stone cold.

“Don’t mention that bitch to me again! She has done nothing, but hurt me and my son over and over again. What kind of woman abandons her son? I get and understand that she doesn’t love me and she never will, it hurts, but I learned to accept that. Turning her back on Gunner is something else. I will never forgive her for that” he was breathing hard and his voice was cold.

Unrequited love. Wasn’t it just a bitch? I’ve suffered through it since I first fell for Rowan. I didn’t want my friend to go through it, but it looks like he has.

“Every time I call and she refuses to come see Gunner kills me. He is amazing, yet his mother wants nothing to do with him. I tried hiding it from him, but as he got older he started to understand things. He started to understand that his mother doesn’t want him and she wants nothing to do with him. Fuck I hate her so much, but I also can’t stop loving her” he says before continuing. Pain radiating from his eyes.

“I want to give Gunner the world, but the one thing he wants is totally out of my reach. I regret ever falling in love with her. Regret ever meeting her. But the thing is, regretting her means regretting Gunner and that is one thing I can never do” Where have I heard those words from? Yeah from my own lips. Didn’t I tell Rowan the same thing?

That as much as I want to regret him, I can’t because it means regretting Noah.

“I don’t have the right Is for you. Hell. Our situations are the same, but different at the same time. All I can tell you is, De there for Gunner as best as you can. Love him so much that he doesn’t miss the love of his mother. Show him that he is enough and that it’s his mother’s loss not his” Those are the only words I can offer. I wanted to say more, but I didn’t have the words to comfort him. He nods his head and we stay in silence.

“Thank you, Ava. For being there for me and my son” he says after a while.

“You’re welcome” “It’s quiet. Are they asleep?” he asks “Yes” I didn’t know what to say. I had so many question, but I was afraid of stepping out of boundary.

“About today? Gunner was crying because of his mother” I start slowly.

The moment I say those words, his face turns stone cold.

“Don’t mention that bitch to me again! She has done nothing, but hurt me and my son over and over again. What kind of woman abandons her son? I get and understand that she doesn’t love me and she never will, it hurts, but I learned to accept that. Turning her back on Gunner is something else. I will never forgive her for that” he was breathing hard and his voice was cold.

Unrequited love. Wasn’t it just a bitch? I’ve suffered through it since I first fell for Rowan. I didn’t want my friend to go through it, but it looks like he has.

“Every time I call and she refuses to come see Gunner kills me. He is amazing, yet his mother wants nothing to do with him. I tried hiding it from him, but as he got older he started to understand things. He started to understand that his mother doesn’t want him and she wants nothing to do with him. Fuck I hate her so much, but I also can’t stop loving her” he says before continuing. Pain radiating from his eyes.

“I want to give Gunner the world, but the one thing he wants is totally out of my reach. I regret ever falling in love with her. Regret ever meeting her. But the thing is, regretting her means regretting Gunner and that is one thing I can never do” Where have I heard those words from? Yeah from my own lips. Didn’t I tell Rowan the same thing? That as much as I want to regret I can’t because it means regretting Noah.

“I don’t have the right words for you. Hell. Our situations are the same, but different at the same time. All I can tell you is; be there for Gunner as best as you can. Love him so much that he doesn’t miss the love of his mother. Show him that he is enough and that it’s his mother’s loss not his” Those are the only words I can offer. I wanted to say more, but I didn’t have the words to comfort him. He nods his head and we stay in silence.

“Thank you, Ava. For being there for me and my son” he says after a while.

“You’re welcome” After, he leaves carring Gunner’s sleeping form and the food I saved for him.

Hours after he leaves. Hours after I go to bed. Gunner’s smile still haunts my mind. His smile and his mysterious mother invade my every thought.

There was something I was missing. If only I could piece the pieces together then maybe I could figure out why this whole issue bothers me so fucking much. Maybe I can figure out why my mind won’t give me piece concerning the matter.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 97-Amusement park Ava “Momy, are you almost done?” Noah yells through my bedroom door “It’s almost time Vie sie going to be late.” “Just give me a sec” I yell back as I quickly put on my outfit for the day.

Nowadays, I’m more comfortable with dresses, so that’s what I had on 1 had on a cute sundress with thin straps and that reached above my knees. I paired them with sandals. Since we were going to spend most of the time walking, I assumed they will be more comfortable.

My hair was in in a curled pony tail with loose tendrils framing my face. I didn’t have much make up on. Mainly because I felt too lazy to do it. novelbin I didn’t want to do this whole thing. I easily get tired nowadays and I didn’t want to ruin the day by being worn out too quickly. The smile on Noah’s and Gunner’s faces is what made me change my mind. They were both so excited for this day.

Gunner needed this after what happened last week. He needed to feel loved and treasured. I hoped that being surrounded by those that love him will give him new memories. Memories that would replace those few painful ones of his mother.

I take my purse and open my door only to find Noah waiting for me outside.

“I’m ready. Let’s go” Just as I finished the sentence, we hear a honk outside my house. I guess that both Calvin and Gunner were also ready to go Since were going to the same place, we saw no need for travelling separately. We decided that we would take Cal’s car since it was bigger and that he would be driving.

“I’m so excited…I’ve been waiting for this day since you agreed” Noah says as he gently pulls me down the stair while being mindful of my condition. “I even called dad yesterday. He was sounded funny, but I let him know that I won’t be home today” I’m surprised that he called Rowan. He usually tells me when he’s going to call his father. He never mentioned it yesterday though.

At the mention of Rowan, I get an uneasy feeling. In the past months he has been what I can only 1/3 15 BONUS persona Pushing thoughts of him aside, I focus on the day ahead We get out of the house and Noah rushes to Cal’s car. I follow behind him once I’ve locked the door Climbing into the passenger seat, I smile at the father–son duo.

“Hello you two” I greet as cheerful as I can.

“Hey Ava!” Gunner screams with excitement.

Cal smile back at me “Hey” We all buckle up and then Cal starts the engine and drives off.

Thirty minutes into the trip, the boys are still as excited as the first day we made these plans.

They were so hyper that it was funny how they behaved.

“How long till we get there?” Noah asks, buzzing with joy while Gunner bounced up and down his seat.

“About forty minutes give or take” Cal answers.

They are quiet for a while before they start conversing on their own. Their talk mostly consisting of all the things they’re going to do while there. The games they’re going to play. The rides they’re going to try and the foods they’re going to eat.

“They’re really excited” Cal says, his eyes flashing to mine before going back on the road.

I chuckle. “That is an understatement. Noah barely slept last night and he when he did. He was up again at the crack of dawn ing me up like there was a freaking apocalypse” %

He laughs at that. Real laughter. I stare at him in wonder. Unable to tear my gaze from him.

“What is it?” he asks when his laugh dies down.

I shake my head to clear my thoughts. “Nothing. I’ve just never heard you laugh like that before.

You should laugh more often. It suits you” The smile he had earlier disappears. He was back to being unreachable and detached.

I really needed to help. Show him how to live. Whoever Gunner’s mom is, sure did a number on both father and son. I’m only grateful that Rowan only hurt me. I don’t know what I would have We drive in silence after that Mostly it’s the kids that engage us in their conversation. Those two surprised me at how in sync they were with each other. They were even finishing each other’s sentences which Calvin found hilarious.

Soon we get to our destination. We get out of the car immediately Calvin finds a parking spot.

“Where to first?” Cal asks as we faced the gate to the amusement park. There were probably thousands of people walking about.

“The rides, definitely” Noah and Gunner chorus together.

The faces were split into wide grins and their eyes were shimmering with excitement.

“The rides it is” I grin and take both their hands as we head into the sea of people.

About two hours later, my legs were aching, but I was happy. I take a seat by the bench and watch as Cal, Gunner and Noah play around.

Rubbing my feet I can’t help but turn wistful. This is what I always wanted for me, Noah and Rowan. I always wanted us to do such fun things together. Every time I broached the subject, Rowan would turn me down.

He always said that he didn’t mind spending time with Noah, so long as I wasn’t there to ruin their moment because my presence disgusted him. 2 It hurt as always, but I swallowed it down. Except that vacation we went to as a family, and which Noah insisted. We never did anything as a family. It was always either Rowan and Noah or Noah and me. Never the three of us.

“I don’t like another man p.

his voice.

ig dad to my son” I sit frozen, unable to believe that I’d just heard It’s like my thoughts had conjured him out of thin air.

Yeah. I should have definitely listened to my brain when it told me that Rowan was probably going to show up. This was sure going to be a fucking disaster.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 98-The fight I slowly turn in the direction of the sound to find Rowan seated next to me It’s like I’d wished him into existence. That wasn’t all. For the first time since I’ve known him, Rowan wasn’t wearing a suit. He had a black V–neck t–shirt and blue jeans.

“What are you doing here?” I stammer, still not believing he was here.

“Noah mentioned you’d be here, so here I am” he shrugs his shoulder casually as if what he just said wasn’t insane.

Unable to withstand his presence anymore, I stand up and walk away without saying another word. I hear him calling my name, but I ignore him.

I go to the bathroom and try to calm myself. Why now? Why couldn’t he have been like this years ago? Just when I’ve decided to move on, he gets a change in character? It doesn’t work like that.

Splashing water on my face, I harden my heart. It doesn’t matter why he all of a sudden wants to be part of my life. He and I are done. We were done before we even began.

After I feel more anchored, I step outside only to bump into someone. The scent of the cologne immediately alerts me to who the person I bumped into is.

I rip myself away from his body as if he’d scorched me. With my hormones all over the place, I didn’t want him to get the wrong idea.

“Ava” he calls, his voice husky and deep.

“What do you want, Rowan? What game are you trying to play?” I still don’t understand him and parts of me doesn’t want to. All I know is that he caused me pain. I don’t want to experience th ain.

“I’m not playing any game. I just want to talk. There’s something important I have to tell you” he says hesitantly.

I become curious. Rowan is a lot of things except hesitant and unsure. I’ve known him all my life and he has never been this hesitant. He usually gets straight to the point. Whether you like what he has to say or not, that was none of his business.

I study him closely. His grey stare at mine in a way I’ve never seen him staring at me. There was something about him. Something had changed in him. I just couldn’t tell what it is.

Apart from that, he looked almost fearful. Like he didn’t know how to tell me what he wanted to say and also he afraid of my reaction to it I get more curios when I notice how he keeps shifting from one foot to another He was nervous.

His nervousness was another thing out of character.

“What is it?” I fold my hands on top of my belly and tap mu foot impatiently against the floor.

Before he can say anything, Calvin joins us.

“Ava, is he disturbing you?” he asks standing near me in a protective stance while glaring at Rowan.

Rowan sneers. “Of course it’s you. What is it with you salivating over what’s mine? First it was Emma when we were in high school. Following her around like a damn lost puppy. Now? Now it’s Ava. Stay the fuck away from her. She’s mine” I feel pissed at what he said. He had no right to talk to Calvin like that. Besides, I wasn’t his. Never was. Never have been.

D “You’re a fucking bastard. Stop talking about Ava as if she’s a piece of meat you can claim” Calvin all but snarls.

His hands were fisted at his side. His s jaw was clenched and he looked ready to pounce on Rowan and beat him to shit.

I look between the two of them unable to believe that they were behaving like kids. While Calvin looked at Rowan with nothing but hatred, Rowan looked at him in jealousy. 1 WG There was something odd about Calvin’s look. Sure, he used to crush on Emma when she was with Rowan back then, but so did hundreds of other boys. The fact that she only had eyes for Rowan didn’t warranty the hate eyes. Besides, it was years ago. So why the hell did he hate Rowan?

“Stay out of this. This is between Ava and me” Rowan growls, his eyes flashing, a storm brewing behind them.

Calvin steps forward and pushes Rowan back. He doesn’t even stumble, but it’s enough to piss him off more that he already was.

“Guys, please don’t do this?” I plead.

No one responds. There are too far gone to hear me or even reason. some i nervously look around A small crowd was already forming Given Rowan was well know, senne already had the phones out “Don’t fucking touch me Rowan says. They were now head to head.

He was a bit taller than Calvin, but that didn’t make Calvin back down I’ve had enough of you. Enough of you controlling my fucking life. Why don’t you just drop dead and save us all the trouble” Calvin tells Rowan.

I stand there frozen unable to believe what he just said. There was malice in his eyes. Something I never thought I would associate with Calvin. Anger and bitterness sure, but malice? Never.

“Wouldn’t you wish that? Even after all these years you’re still trying to prove that you’re someone when you’re not. The truth is you’ll never be me. Emma didn’t fucking love you then and Ava won’t love you now because her heart belongs to me” Those words seemed like the push Calvin needed because he swings his fist and get Rowan in the jaw. Rowan doesn’t take long to recover before he’s retaliating. Soon, they’re full blown fighting.

I stand there watching them, wishing I could be anywhere but here.

Trying to separate them proves futile. I almost get hit in the process. The security are called and we are escorted outside. Before leaving, I go and pick the boys. I find them in the park. Seated on the bench and completely sad.

“Come, let’s go home” I tell them as gently as I could.

“I can’t believe dad and Calvin were fighting. Why were they fighting?” Noah asks.

“Noah and I are best friends. Even if they don’t like each other shouldn’t they try to get along because of us?” Gunner adds looking as disappointed in his father as Noah was in his.

“Sometimes adults fight my anger and frustration.

sure they’ll put aside their differences” I tell them trying to suppress We get outside in time to see Rowan arguing with the management.

“Do you know who I fucking am?” he snarls. “I can by this whole damn place and put you all out of a fucking job!” Calvin was pacing a few feet from Rowan. He occasionally stopped and glared at him.

3/5 “I understand Mr Woods, but you caused a disturbance the manager doesn’t get to finish “Shut up!” Rowan commands. “I hear nothing of use to me. Now, you’ll allow us to go back” 1 sigh in tedness I really should have stayed at home.

Rowan had a split lip while Calvin had a bleeding nose (Probably broken), bruised cheek and a split lip.

“Stop it, Rowan” I tell him tiredly. “Both you and Calvin have done enough without forcing this poor man to let us back in after starting a fight not only publicly but also in front of your sons.

What example are you becoming?” I stare both of them down before turning to the manager.

“I’m really sorry for the trouble. We’ll leave immediately” he nods at me before leaving.

Grasping the hands of Noah and Gunner, I turn to face their fathers.

“Both of you should be ashamed. Today was about the children and yet you ruined the day for them. They had to watch their dads fight like little kids fighting over a damn toy.

“He started it” both of them say at the same time making me even more pissed.

“I don’t give a damn who started it! My point is that you should have had more control and remembered the boys!” While Calvin looks contrite, Rowan just smirks at me. His eyes roaming over me.

“I like this version of you. It’s se…” he goes to say sexy but remembers that Noah and Gunner are with us so he stops.

Letting out a breath of f ration, I turn and leave. I had no more energy to deal with them.

“Where are you going?” Rowan shouts.

“Far away from both of you.” With that I walk away and leave them standing outside the amusement park.

I hail a cab and get me and the boys inside. It was unreasonable given the amount I would have to pay, but hell, I had the money so it didn’t matter.

“Can we get ice cream before going home?” Gunner asks lowly.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 99-Figuring it out My head was going to blow up and leave pieces of meat scattered all over my living room. I haven’t had a moment of peace at all.

Thoughts keep running through my head. Never stopping. Never ceasing. It was driving me insane, for heaven’s sake.

“Okay, now I want you to focus on the key and the insects we are studying,” I tell Mary, one of the students I tutor. “If you want to master the dichotomous key, you have to focus on those two.” I’d hoped that this would distract me from my thoughts, but I was damn wrong. My head kept straying every single damn time.

Mary nods her head, giving me the signal that she has understood.

“The first character has large wings and has small or no wings… What do you think the answer is?” She studies the insects in the book before turning to me. At first, she seems unsure, but finally she opens her mouth and speaks.

“Only one insect has large wings in this list, so the butterfly will go under that category” I smile at her, glad that she got it. “Good. So since it’s the only one with large wings, the rest will fall under the small or no wings. Given that this is like a game of elimination and they’re a lot, we will subdivide them into categories. So what do you think the next two categories will be according to the insects we have?” Her eyes go back to the book. She doesn’t say anything for a while, but she keeps throwing me glances as if she’s nervous.

“Don’t worry, Mary, just take your time,” I tell her softly.

I believe the key to being a good teacher is having patience. Understanding that not all students will get it on the first try. There are just some that are a bit slower than others, and that is absolutely okay.

“I don’t know if I am right,” she begins.

“And that’s okay. If you’re not we’ll find out where you went wrong” She nods her head. “Long rear legs or short rear legs” “Good, that is excellent. So which will go to which?” I see the moment her confidence comes back, and I smile.

“With very long legs, the category will end with mosquitoes, while for short rear legs, I’ll divide the category into another two parts. Small eyes and large eyes” I clap my hand in glee, just to make her feel appreciate. After all, everyone deserves praise when they have accomplished something.

“Very good” “Thank you,” she says, her smile shining as bright as the sun.

After that, the rest is easy for her. I give her exercises, and she excels in all of them. After our session, I give her an assignment to do at home.

“Thank you, Ava” she says at the door. “You make Biology easy to understand.” “Anytime dear” After she leaves, I head to the living room and drop down on the couch like a sack of potatoes. My novelbin mind was still wired and I wanted a distraction, I just couldn’t think of anything.

Noah was at Gunner’s house so I was alone for now.

Rubbing my belly, I try to come up with something to do. The issue about Gunner’s mother still bothered me. That, along with what Calvin told Rowan. There was just something about everything that niggled in my mind.

I stand up and go to my room to change. I put on some old clothes then head out to the backyard.

Maybe gardening will tak nind of the thoughts in my head.

I get down on my knees after getting some seeds from the shed. Today I plan to plant some carrots and tomatoes.

“You seem lost.” His voice pulls me away from my task.

I look up to see Calvin standing right in front of me. I don’t know for how long I was gardening, but I had been so lost that I hadn’t heard him when he arrived.

“Yeah…I just have a lot on my mind. I’d hoped this would help,” I tell him while wiping some of the dirt from my clothes.

2.4 “Anything I can help you figure out?” “I don’t think so He was always tight–lipped about the mother of his son. I didn’t know anything Were they married, then divorced? Were they just in a relationship? How long have they known each other?

I doubt he will ever willingly give me the information I need to piece things together. Besides, I didn’t want to cause him hurt. It looks like every time I mention her, either he gets really pissed or really angry.

“That’s okay… I get it. A lot of the time, I prefer processing things on my own,” he pauses. “But that doesn’t mean that I can’t help you with this,” he points at the small garden.

“Thank you,” I smile while he gets down on his knees.

I hand him a pair of gloves, and he follows my lead.

“What are the boys doing?” I ask.

“Playing video games… It honestly surprises me how close they’ve become. They’re basically inseparable. I never even imagined this scenario in my wildest dreams, given how much I hate Noah’s father” I frown at that. He can’t even bring himself to say his name. Why?

“Why do you hate him so much? Whatever happened between you two was years ago. Shouldn’t you have been able to get over it by now?” I ask him, referring to how he had a crush on Emma back in high school.

He had been obsessed, just me. While my obsession had been for Rowan, his had been for Emma. Just like Rowan sal, he had followed Emma around like a lost puppy. He would write her love letters. Buy her flowers and leave them in her locker. He would also buy her gifts. He really went above and beyond and that used to piss Rowan off to no end.

“It’s nothing,” he answers, but I know that he’s lying to me. There was something he wasn’t telling me. I choose to leave it at that instead of pushing it.

“Regardless, you have to set your differences aside. Our sons are best friends, so you’ll have to see him once in a while and you can’t go picking a fight with him every time.” I make a mental note to have the same talk with Rowan They both need to start acting like adults Think about what Gunner needs. This isn’t about you or what went down between you and Rowan. This is about Gunner and Noah,” I add when he doesn’t say anything.

Thinking about Gunner brings a mental picture to mind. I try to push it, but to no avail. It stays there as my mind sifts through smile after smile from my memories. It finally pauses on a smile, A smile very similar to Gunner’s.

I freeze. My bones locked tight. My heart beating wildly. It can’t be. It just can’t be. She would have said something. She would have told her family. I try to deny it, but the proof is there.

“Ava?” he calls my name, but it’s like I am in a trance.

It was no wonder his smile was so familiar. No wonder it bothered me so much. His smile was similar to hers when she was a little girl. They were identical.

“Emma,” her name slips from my lips, as if it was forced out.

I feel it as Calvin stills next to me. If my memory didn’t convince me, then the way his body locked, did.

“I need to go.” I mumble, struggling to stand up.

Finally, I manage to get up. His hand on my arm stops me. I face him. He must have seen something in my eyes. I’m not sure, and right now, I don’t care.

“You know,” he whispers. “You’ve figured out the truth.” I nod my head as tears my hands from his. I w.

oud my eyes. Without a word, knowing he will take care of Noah, I pull back into my house and get my car keys before leaving.

I can’t believe this. Not her.

I needed answers because the Emma I knew would never abandon her child. She would never be so cruel to her own flesh and blood.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 100-Her fury Rowan “Is Noan coming?” my mother asks me.

“Not today, mom. I forgot to let Ava know, and I didn’t want to spring this on her all of a sudden,” I tell her as I walk into Kate’s home.

It was our monthly get–together. Just like the last one, I didn’t want to be here. The only reason I was there was because I’d promised Mom that I would attend.

“I’ve missed him so much, and so has Kate. She really wanted to see him.” She pauses. “Now that she and Ava are estranged, the only time she gets to see Noah is during these get–togethers.” I wanted to feel sorry for her, but I don’t. That makes me a bastard, sure, but I believe that we were all getting what we deserved. This was our punishment for how we treated Ava.

“Maybe next time,” I say as I walk past her.

Mom and Kate have been friends for years. She would do anything for her best friend. The last thing I want or need is to stand there for almost thirty minutes just listening to how Kate was suffering.

I didn’t need to hear about someone else’s suffering when I was dealing with one of my own.

She follows me as I make my way to the backyard. I know Kate’s home like the back of my hand.

After all, they’ve lived here for years. This is the same house where Ava and I got married. The same house she tried to escape when she found out she was pregnant with Noah.

I stop dead in my tracks. I who was following behind me, collides with my back.

“What the hell, Rowan?” she asks, but I don’t turn around. Nor do I answer.

She comes to my front when I don’t answer. My eyes stare at her, unseeing.

“Rowan? What is it?” My throat bobbles as I try to form the words.

“I just remembered the day I caught Ava trying to escape. Looking back now, I can’t imagine how my life would have turned out had she managed to escape me.” I tell her.

1/5 15 BOR “Rowan darling. Don’t think about such things. It didn’t happen and we should be grateful to God for that ” I sigh, remembering how foolish I had been.

“Ava was eighteen and scared, mom. She begged me to let her go because, deep down, she probably knew that I would destroy her if she stayed, and I did. I broke her heart more times than I can count. Right now, I don’t know what to even think. Part of me wishes I had let her go because maybe she wouldn’t be as broken as she is right now, the other parts is grateful I’d stopped her because I wouldn’t have gotten to know Noah or the wonderful woman she is.” The crushing weight that descends on me every time I remember all I put her through is almost unbearable. I should have tried harder; maybe then I wouldn’t have this much regret weighing down on me.

“You’re taking too much on your shoulders, Rowan. Sure, you hurt her, but you forget that we all played our roles in breaking her. Both families have a hand in destroying her heart. You’re not the only one to blame for her broken pieces.” Mom puts a hand around my forearm, trying to comfort me.“Your mother is right.” I turn to find my father standing next to the sliding doors.

“We all played our part in hurting, Ava. We forgot that she came into our lives as a tiny baby girl.

We forgot how much joy she brought us. We forgot how she used to make us all laugh. We forgot that she was a girl who needed our love. That is on us. We were the parents, and you children followed our lead. We shunned her, and so you followed suit. If anyone is to blame, then it’s us. We failed as adults and that is on us,” he finishes, clasping my shoulder in a tight grip. 1 I know what they said was meant to make me feel better, but it doesn’t. The rest mainly ignored Ava and treated her like she was invisible. I did worse. So much fucking worse, and that shit is all on me.

I give them a small smile. I didn’t want to dwell on this for long.

Mom must have believed me because she takes my hand in hers.

“Come on, let’s go before the others start wondering what’s taking us so long,” she says, pulling me novelbin along while dad follows behind.

I internally groan when I spot Emma. I knew she would be here, but knowing and seeing are two different things.

“Hey Ro. I’m glad you came.” Kate kisses both of my cheeks “Yeah” it’s the only response I can master, given that I’m not really glad to be here She gets distracted by my parents, and I see that as my chance to slip away.

I head straight to my brother.

“How are things going?” he asks after the initial greeting.

“Terrible” I mumble, remembering the fight between me and Calvin the weekend before.

It wasn’t one of my greatest moments, but he just reminded me of the time he used to chase after Emma. That scared me because I was afraid that he was doing the same to Ava. Regardless of everything, Calvin is a good guy. That, more than anything, scared the crap out of me because it means that he actually has a chance if he were to shoot his shot.

“Any progress so far?” he asks.

“None. The only progress is that I managed to piss her off even more.” Gabe sighs. “What did you do?” “I got into a fight with Calvin. Turns out he is Gunner’s father” I don’t need to explain who Gunner is. Noah talks about him all the damn time. He tells everyone that he is his new best friend.

“I’m confused. Who is Calvin?” Gabe asks, looking confused as hell.

“Nerdy Cal. You remember him?” It takes a while, but it the moment it downs on him.

“You’re shitting me!” he yells. “That Nerdy Cal? The one that used to follow Emma around all the time.” “Yes, the same one” I still can’t believe it. It’s such a damn coincidence that I don’t know what to think.

“What’s going on?” Travis asks as he walks towards us.

I look behind him, thankful that Emma hadn’t followed him. In fact, thinking about it now, I 3/5 far away from Ava, then I didn’t mind at all.

“Just that nerdy Cal is Gunner’s dad, and Ro got into a fight with him,” Gabe answers.

“Seriously?” he asks before turning to me. “Why? Was it because of Emma?

Before I can answer him, we hear the front door open and then bang shut. Moments later we hear Ava’s clear and angry voice shouting Emma’s name.

“Emma?” she shouts again as she walks out of the house.

“What’s going on?” I turn to Travis.

“I have no idea” We step closer. Our eyes on Ava as she stomps towards Emma, who was standing next to our parents. Before anyone can do anything or stop her, she slaps Emma so hard that she falls to the ground.

“What the hell, Ava?” Travis shouts as she rushes to help his sister.

Emma, just like everyone else, was shocked. Ava, on the other hand, looked wired. She looked downright pissed. As if she was ready to rip someone’s head off.

“Shut the fuck up, Travis” she says at him through clenched teeth.

“What’s going on, Ava? Why would you attack your sister like that?” Kate asks as tears fills her eyes.

She was torn. She didn’t know which girl to choose, so she was waiting to see if Ava had a good reason before picking sides.

This just shows how i side.

she’s changed. The previous Kate would immediately take Emma’s “That’s what I would like to know.” Ava snarls and then glares at Emma. “I would like to know why you would do that, Emma. Why would you abandon your child? Your own son” We all stand stock still. Maybe we weren’t hearing it right. Maybe Ava got it wrong. There is no way Emma had a child. She would have told her family.

“That’s bullshit. Emma doesn’t have a child, and she would never abandon her kid,” Travis defends.

4/5 Ava laughs as if she had lost her goddamn mind.

“That’s what I thought at first, but I am not wrong” she asks *15 BONUS Said wome was now in Travis‘ arms Clutching his arm like her life depended on it. She had tears streaking down her cheeks and fear in her eyes. She was even fucking trembling. Even with all that, she didn’t answer.

Ava continues while looking at Emma like she in the scum of the earth.

“You’re Gunner’s mother, isn’t that right Emma or are you going to continue pretending that you’re not?” Ava delivers the final blow. One that none of us saw coming. A blow that none of us were prepared.

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