Ch. 161..165: I Will Never Be Yours Chapter 161-165

Chapter 161

Kian POV:

Looking down at my beautiful sleeping mate on the bed I take off my towel and soundlessly get down beside her, I don’t t want to wake her up, and at the same time I can’t resist getting her body close to mine.

Lifting the quilt I get down beside her and place my arm on her body before placing my nose on her shoulder, her scent is as addicting since the first time I met her.

I pushed her away from me and lost her for a long time, told myself it where for the best, and kept lying to myself for years until she came back into my life. She’s the best thing that happened to me besides our beautiful children she has gifted me, I’m blessed and couldn’t ask for anything more, my life is complete with them beside me!

“I do not want to get up yet, let me sleep a bit longer!” she whines beside me and I chuckle at her, she has been sleeping for several hours since I came back from my patrol and I bottle–fed our twins before I left. I know her breast will start to hurt soon if she doesn’t feed them.

“You have slept for hours and it won’t take long until you have to feed them or you will be laying in a poodle of breast milk!” I say to her neck and start placing kisses over her cheek before she turns on her back and looks up at me.

“Where have you been then?” she says and looks me all over when she sees I’m newly showered and naked beside her, she bites her bottom lip and I know where her thoughts went.

“I have been out patrolling!” I say and trace my nose down her cheek and close to her lips, knows what she wants when I get over her and climb between her legs before caging her in with my arms on each

side of her head.

“I know what you want but you won’t get it until the doctor has cleared you and it’s tomorrow!” I tell her and lean down to trace my lips over hers.

“But it’s almost a week and I have stopped bleeding, I healed up right away!” she tries to convince me but I won’t budge on this, I will hear it from the doctor himself before I will give her what she wants. She grabs my thighs and I chuckle at her when she bucks her hips against me.

“No love! You will get as much d*ck as you want once you get cleared by the doctor!” I say and capture her plump lips with mine in a heated kiss when our girl starts to scream.

Breaking the kiss I give her lips a peck before quickly getting up from her.

“I will get her for you!” I say and head over to the closet and put on some clothes before heading out of the room and over to the nursery, coming inside a nanny is watching over our children and I have a guard outside their door all the time. She has picked up our daughter and start to walk with her over to where I am and place her down in my arms.

“He is still sleeping!” she says while I look down on our daughter, she is a copy of her beautiful mother, and for every day p@ssing she only gets more like her. She already has her blond hair and the same facial expression including the same nose, she has the same color on her eyes and I hardly see anything coming from me.

Our son is a clear mix of both of us and he likes to sleep a lot more than our daughter, I already know she will be and headstrong woman just like her mother when she grows up!

“Come let’s go over to your mother!” I say to our daughter when she looks at me and small bubbles come from her lips when she bumps with her fists in the air, she will probably want to fight like her mother and her closest men always have done.

Chuckling to myself while walking out of the room and over to our chambers, I know we will have hour hands full with this one and there is a chance she will get even more headstrong than her mother since she also comes from me.

“What are you laughing at!” I hear Selena say while I walk inside the room and head over with our daughter and place her in Selena’s arms, our daughter gets furious because she doesn’t get food quick enough and once she starts sucking she takes large gulps of milk.

“Only that I realized we will have our hands full with this one, I’m certain she will be more headstrong than her mother!” I say to her and chuckle while stroking our daughter’s head when I take a seat beside them on the bed.

She sits in silence for a long moment before turning her head and looking at me.

“I have been problematic haven’t I!” she says and keeps her eyes on me, leaning closer I place my hand under her jaw and catch her lips in a kiss.

“I wouldn’t want you any other way!” I say when I hear our daughter almost choke on the breastmilk. Looking down on her I love the sound and watching them eat. Selena is silent beside me and turning my head to look at her I see her eyes glance over, I know someone is mind linking her when I hear our son wake up.

I get out of the bed and let her talk with whoever it is and walk over to get our son instead, he is often calm and can take a moment before he wants to eat. Walking inside the nursery I see the nanny changing his diaper and walk over to get some clean clothes for him while she gets him ready.

“Here some clean clothes!” I say and walk over with them to her, she starts to dress him while I walk over and look if anything needs to be changed in his crib before she is done.

“Here he is ready!” she says when I place the quilt back in his crib and head over to take him from her.

Taking him from her I start to head back to the chambers and find Selena still feeding our daughter when she hears us come inside she lifts her head and looks at us.

“Michael wanted to come over and talk!”

Chapter 162

Selena POV:

Looking at Kian when he walks inside the room with our son in his arms I smile at how gorgeous he looks, wouldn’t I already be completely hooked on him just this sight of him with our child in his arms had made me fall for him completely.

“Michael wanted to come over and talk!” I tell him when he walks inside the room and stops by the bed, our daughter is done eating and needs to be burped when we change children.

I try to breastfeed them as much I can but sometimes we give them extra milk so I can have a longer rest between, offering our son the breast he is quick to take it and start eating.

“Has he found any clue?” Kian ask and I’m not sure they have been able to solve it but when he said he wanted to come over and talk it gave me some hope for all this.

“I don’t know I hope they got some news,” I say and see him burping our daughter, I don’t know if it’s my hormones that are running havoc in my body but I get weak in my knees by just looking at him and I’m sitting down on the bed and feel how weak they are.

He gets a smirk on his lips and I can’t peel my eyes off him when he walks closers to the bed and hooks a finger under my jaw.

“By the look of it, I would say you are not satisfied with two and want to make more or are you only after my body!” he says and looks intensely at me, I feel my cheeks heat up and there is no point in denying I want him naked on the bed or in the shower with me. Heck, I’m not picky anything would do at the moment.

Biting myself on my lip to try and prevent myself from spilling my thoughts he traces his thumb on my bottom lip and pulls it out.

“Keep those thoughts until you get cleared and I will fulfill them all!” he says and I breathe out while he leans down and pecks my lips.

“What time is the doctor’s appointment tomorrow?” I ask when he starts to chuckle and peck my lips again before he rises and takes a step back.

“I will ask him to be here in the morning!” he says and I get all tingling in my body at the thought of some alone time just the two of us.

“When will Michael be over!” Kian says and starts to head for the door I guess he will change her diaper.

“He will be here in one hour, he will mind link when he is ready to be portaled!” I say when he has reached the door and stops to open it.

“I will make sure dinner is ready in a while!” he says before heading out of the door, looking down on our little son he is about to fall asleep while eating as usual. I don’t think there has been any time he has eaten without falling asleep, I know something to keep him awake and pull his sock off him before tickling him a bit under his foot.

It does the trick and he starts to eat again and looks up at me.

His little nose is just too cute and I see a lot of Kian in his facial expression, I bet he will be as handsome as him when he grows up. I’m not worried about his future in any way, it’s his sister I’m worried about.

She saved them both and for what price? To never have a wolf or forever be cut from her gifts.

Day and night I have been laying awake and worrying about what curse she will have to live with if Michael can’t find a way to lift it off her.

Our son falls asleep and I can see how full he is by his facial expression, I try not to chuckle and carefully lift him to my shoulder and place a towel under if he will burp in his sleep. Hearing the door open again Kian comes walking inside with our daughter who is wide awake and bumping her arms in the air.

“Did he fall asleep again?” he says and walks over to the bed when he lay our daughter down before taking a seat himself.

“Yes, he did and I guess he will be sleeping until the next meal!” I say when our daughter starts to bump with her fists and move her legs.

“They are so different, she is always active and alert while he sleeps instead. Wonder if it ever will change!” I say and look down at her, the doctor have her checked once a day he believes she will be needing some blood but he doesn’t know how often she will be needing it. While she is this small it can take some time before she needs to have some in her system.

“We just have to wait and see, have you thought more about the names?” he says and I have a hard time deciding what we are going to name them they can’t be nameless forever.

“I have thought about it a lot, I know you like Mateo and I think it suits him!” I say and look at Kian when he smiles at me in response.

“Then Mateo it is! Name for her then!” he says and looks down on our daughter, I do the same and see her bump with her fists when Kian takes her little hand in his.

Her name I had the hardest time figuring it out until one night when I was breastfeeding her it came to me and the more I think about it the more determined I get it’s the right one.

“Destiny! If she doesn’t have a destiny I want her to make her own!” I say and look at Kian for his response.

Chapter 163

Selena POV:

It takes a moment before he turns his head to look at me, he has a smile on his lips and I know he agrees to it.

1 It’s perfect!” he says and takes our daughter’s other hand and leans down to talk to her.

our little destiny!” he says and strokes her cheek before pulling her up with him.

“I will take Mateo over to the nursery and place him down for sleep before I change my clothes then I’m ready to head down, I say and get up from the bed and start to head for the door.

we will be waiting here for you!” he says when I reach the door and pull it open before walking out in the hallway and over to the nursery, the nanny is inside and changing the linen in one of the cribs when I walk over and place our son down in his crib.

“Our daughter is awake and we are heading down for a meeting, we will be taking our daughter with us! If he wakes up you can come down to the kitchen or Kian’s office with him.” I say when I place the quilt over him, I know he probably will be sleeping for a couple of hours and I think Michael only needs to see her.

He hasn’t been here to visit us and we haven’t heard anything since he got the book Emma found, she said it would take him some time to go through it and if he couldn’t find any answers himself he would take it to someone on the council who might have more insight of it than him. That was the last we heard from him and I have been waiting anxiously ever since hoping there will be a cure for the curse.

“I will come down if he wakes up!” the nanny says and I look at him one more time before I head out of the room, I never separate them for long moments and one of us is always close by. This is the longest

they will be apart from each other if he doesn’t wake up and the nurse comes down with him.

Heading over to the room I find them in the same place I left them, on the bed with Kian constantly talking to her, it’s adorable. Walking past them I head over to the closet and change my shirt quickly before I’m done and walk back out into the room.

“I’m ready!” I say and stop beside them by the bed when Kian picks her up and places her down in my arms when he places his arm around my waist and starts to pull me out of the room.

“I Know dinner is ready downstairs any minute now!” he says when we walk out of the room and start t to head down the hallway.

“What do we do if he can’t find anything that will help her?” I ask when we start to walk down the stairs, we have been looking everywhere we can to find someone who can know what he did. The rogues we took and interrogated only said they had no idea what kind of curse he used and they were only there to look around the area, none of them said where the camp have moved and they couldn’t get more out of them. I have this feeling in the back of my head they keep coming back for something else.

Everywhere we have been looking we have come to a dead end, the only hope I have is that Michael has found something useful.

“For her, we have to keep trying, even if we can’t find any solution right now I hope down the lane we will find something that will help and even if she doesn’t we will stand by her whatever happens!” he says and I know we both will be supporting her with everything we can.

Reaching the end of the stairs we head over to the kitchen and it smells delicious my stomach instantly starts to rumble when we walk inside, the chef is standing by the stove and the table is set when more footsteps come from behind and Emma walks inside with Cannon. Today Jessie is over at our pack with Declan and sorting some problems with the new building we have going on, I haven’t been back there since the Twins were born and Jessie has taken it on her to sort everything until I can go over.

“It smells delicious!” Emma says and walks over to me and grabs our daughter from my arms before she walks over to the table and takes a seat, she hasn’t been here since they were born and I know she has been occupied at our pack.

“I have to say you make beautiful babies!” she says and starts to snuggle our daughter while Kian pulls me in front of him and wraps his arms around my waist.

“her is only Selena’s credit, I don’t think I have much part in that one since she is a copy of her mother!” Kian says and snuggles his nose to my neck.

Now when you mention it, I have to agree with you! Selena makes beautiful babies!” Emma says and I hear she is teasing him before she starts to chuckle.

“Then what have you decided to name them, I don’t think Selena junior is a good name!” she says and snuggles our daughter when Cannon walks over and stands behind her when she looks down on them both.

“Our boy’s name is Mateo and her name is Destiny!” Kian says when Emma snaps her head and looks at us for a moment before she turns back to look at her.

“She can create her own Destiny! It’s perfect” she says and I knew Dividing into pages no” she would get it without anyone of us telling her.

Leaning my head back at Kian’s shoulder while I look at Emma and Destiny when she is entertaining her.

“I guess you are here because Michael is coming!” I say to her when the chef starts to place the food on the table.

“of course, I am, I want to know what he has found out and not. I will never give up on finding a solution to this!” Emma says and I know she will.

“Well let’s eat before he is coming over, he said an hour and it can’t be much longer now!” I tell them when Kian starts to walk with me over to the table and I take a seat beside Emma.

” I can take her again if you want!” I say to her when she moves her arms a bit further away from me.

“That will not happen! I haven’t had any close baby cuddle since Ella where small and I will enjoy my time with her!” she says and I just smile at her.

“Then maybe you should get your own!” I say and wiggle my eyebrow at her when she ignores me completely

“Not right now! It can wait a bit!” she says when we start to place food on our plates and eat, we are almost done when I feel a mind link trying to reach me.

Its Michael and the moment I open it he tells me he is ready to come over, placing my fork down I get up on my feet and open a portal beside us in the kitchen when he comes rushing inside after only a short moment.

 

Chapter 164

Selena POV:

He is holding the book in his hands when he walks closer to the table, we where ready and everyone gets up on their feet.

“let’s talk inside my office!” Kian says and starts to head out of the kitchen, we follow after him when Kian opens the door to his office and we all walk inside.

I walk over and stand beside the office desk when Kian comes to stand beside me, he places his arm around my waist and I look up at him over my shoulder when I place my hand over his.

I’m nervous about what Michael has found!

Turning my head back I see Michael standing over our daughter who is laying in Emma’s arms and she seems happy about it.

“Whenever you want to begin!” Kian says and I know he is ass eager to know as I am. Michael looks up at us and takes a step over to the table where he places the book down.

“I suggest we take a seat!” he says. Emma and Cannon start to walk when she walks over and hands me our daughter back, pulling her close to me when she is in my arms I place my head against hers for a short moment.

“Come!” Kian says and starts to pull me over to the table where we take a seat, when everyone has taken a seat at the table Michael turns his head and looks at us.

“I have been away at the council until yesterday night, we have brought anyone in that can possibly help us with this curse!” he says and takes a break before he continues.

“Because his mother completely cut herself off from everyone else the only ones we have been able and get some help from are her old friends before she turned to dark magic instead. It’s not unusual to keep a distance when you turn to the dark instead, we have a different view of what’s okay to do and not. The ones who practice dark magic often stretch the rules way too far and it will be a terrible outcome!” he says when I look down at our little girl, the way he put this out I already know it’s nothing good.

Everyone is silent until he is ready to start again.

the book you found has been helpful to some parts and we believe the curse he placed on her can be lifted from her, but this isn’t the whole book! He has been smart and divided them in more than one!” he says and I lift my eyes to look at him and over at Emma.

“We can go back there and look again and Michael can come with us!” Emma says and I’m willing to try anything I can to find the rest.

“Do you know what kind of curse he placed on her?” Kian asks and I turn to look back at Michael when he sits in silence before he looks down at our daughter.

“That question is hard to answer, I’m not sure if he intended to only curse her or if her gift drew the curse only to her and saved her brother from it,” he says and I look down at her, I know when it happened she where already protecting her brother by using my gift in some way but at the same time he said I would never be rid of him have to mean something also.

This doesn’t help when we have too many questions and not enough answers.

” Can you tell us what the curse is doing to her?” I ask him after into pages no moment while looking down at her

“From what you explained and what we have seen he blocked her from her gift and that’s why we can’t see her future, it’s there but the curse is blocking it!” he answers and new questions just keep popping up.

“Then if he has blocked her future and her gift will she have a wolf and by that have a mate down the line, will anything break her curse?” I have to ask him all this even if I don’t want to hear the answers.

what comes to her future and her Wolf we have to wait and see if we haven’t found a way to break it before. The easiest way to break her curse would be to find the other book, besides that the curse could be broken by something or someone!” he says and now my mind is railing with my thoughts.

someone? You mean another witch with magic?” I say and turn to look at him again when I feel Kian wrap his arm around my shoulders.

“That’s possible but even a mate could be the one to set her free!” he says and that thought gives me a glimmer of hope.

but if she doesn’t get her wolf and will be blocked from her she wouldn’t feel her mate, how would she even know she had one?” I ask him and look between Emma and Michael.

Her whole future lies in the dark because of what he did and if we have to rely on a hope for a mate she wouldn’t feel any connection to when she meets to release her from her curse then it’s hardly a hope.

“I don’t have a good answer to it we will have to wait and see what happens when she shifts if we haven’t solved it before!” Michael says and I sigh when I lean my head back against Kian’s shoulder.

I had hoped we would get a better answer today than what he told us but there is some hope in this mess at least!

“Then what now?” Kian asks and I have the same thought.

“I suggest we go back and search the cave once more and bring your daughter with us, she’s the only one who has a connection to him!” Emma says and even if I don’t want to bring her with us out to the cave I know it’s the only way to be able and find anything.

Turning my head to look at Kian to see what he wants to do he looks down at our daughter before he lifts his head and looks at me, just by seeing him I know he wants the Same as me.

Alright! When do you want to go?” he asks and keep his eyes locked on mine, she will be protected with both of us.

Let’s go right now!’ Michael says and I turn my head to look at them when Emma rises from her chair.

Let’s go! she says.

 

Chapter 165

Selena POV:

We spend a long time searching behind the cave yesterday but none of them could find anything, at one point we had to give up and go home.

Michael took the book with him to continue figuring it out more, he will come back with it once they have done what they can.

I had my appointment with the doctor today and everything was fine, could have told him that without being examined but Kian insisted to make sure and I went for his sake. After feeding and being with our children until lunch I decided I needed to head over to my pack and look at things haven’t been there for a long time.

Both my mother and Kian’s wanted to stay with our children while I’m away for a few hours, we got two nannies and one is with them all the time I know everything will be alright and Kian is in the house but I still have a hard time being away from them.

There is a knock on my office door and Jessie walks inside and heads over to take a seat in front of the desk.

“How do you feel?” I ask her when she relaxes back in the seat.

“I have started to be sick this morning and had to rush to the bathroom!” she says and looks at me, I got very lucky not once did I get morning sickness.

“Have you talked to Emma I bet she has something that can help you!” I say and know she probably has something good she can give Jessie.

“I will talk to her tomorrow if it continues, let me tell you there will Dividing inlo pages now

be an awful long pregnancy if I will be sick the whole time and not shifting1″ she says and sigh, I can understand her.

“Well I have a job that will take a lot of time, we are trying to find where the rogues have their new camp and what they are up to. If you are interested we need several more to try and go through all material we got and notes, we have to make sure we know as much as we can1” I say and for Jessie, it’s probably not a job she would prefer but she is involved and knows my notes from day one.

“I’ve got nothing better to do! I’m in” she says and I give her a nod

Kian has started over at the castle, you can come over whenever you want!” I say when my office door is opened and Emma comes waking inside when she heads over and takes a place beside Jessie.feels just like old times with only us, if we could get Zoey in here as well it would be perfect!” she says and she is right it feels like old times when we were alone in the pack.

“But to get Zoey and my brother to be apart for more than a minute I don’t see happening!” I say and chuckle, I never thought I would see the day when she would stick together with her mate every second of the day. Not once since they told me have I seen them being apart, not more than a couple of steps for a short moment but the rest they are together.

“Yeah who would have known she had it in her!” Jessie says and chuckles when I feel a mind link reaching out to me, picking it up it’s Kian on the other end.

Are you done soon or do you need any help?” he ask and I know he would come right away if I needed his help.

“I’m done only talking to the girls!” I answer him back

“We are here and waiting for you and we are having dinner alone just the two of us in two hours, dress up love!” he says and I instantly want to go back but I want to talk with the girls for a moment we haven’t have time to catch up properly with everything going on.

I’ll be back in a little while'” I say and cut the link shortly after.

I guess that was Kian!” Jessie says and I turn off the computer before looking at her.

yes, it was and I have to head back in a bit before my bre@st start to leak again!” I say and hear Emma chuckle.

yes, I remember myself promising before I had Ella that I would never be one of those parents that went to the grocery store with old bre@st milk on me or a vomit after she had eaten. One day I stood in the line to pay for my things and saw a big dried vomit on my shirt and just shrugged my shoulders! Every uns of my promise was out the door, I simply didn’t care!” she says and laughs I can picture it myself and laugh with her.

“I can understand completely I have had days even if we have a nanny all the time once they are asleep I have to decide if I’m going to take a shower or a nap or ever have something to eat, then several times I just sit and stare out into nothing with how exhausted I am!” I say and shake my head.

“And not to mention I have no idea when the last time I shaved my legs, I’m not sure I care right now!” I start to laugh at the thought I had panic about being hairy when they were born.

Emma falls in and laughs with me while Jessie sits there in silence.

“Yeah, sounds fun and something I’m looking forward to…not!” she says and shakes her head.

“Well, I know Kian has prepared a nice dinner for you two why don’t you take a shower and shave while I bring you some nice clothes1” Emma says and it sounds like a good idea, then I can just feed them

when I go hack before dinner and I’m ready and get some more time talking to the girls.

“Yes, sounds nice.” I say and get up from my seat, Emma gets up as well.

I have the perfect dress in mind for you’ she says and smile before rushing out of the room, looking at the door where she went I wonder what’s gotten into her?