Ch. 81..90
Chapter 0081 I wrap up in a fluffy white towel and walk out to see two sets Of clothes on the bed_ It looks like the boys' clothes though.
I figured she would have given us something of hers that would fit us better. Interesting.
Sierra walks straight toward the set that smells like Sam 's and starts getting dressed right away.
I pulled on the other set of clothes.
The shorts were Olivers, the tank top (that fits me like a dress is Dakota's, sweatpants are my brother's and the sweatshirt is Cam I'm not sure why she gave me a piece from each of them.
That is a question for later.
At least I got layers, considering I have no underwear or a bra on now. We both sat at her island eating off the snack tray she left us.
I am more than happy to sit here and continue avoiding the guys for as long as everyone will let me.
Cam called me out on my avoidance, but I can't think Of anything else.
I need to stay away from them.
Kaley is still hurting kids and after being ignored and blatantly left out today at training and now for dinner.
This week is going to suck for anyone unluclg,' enough to be in her path. "Alright girls, the boys are all done and setting up the
back yard, the Alpha and Beta are on grill duty as usual.
Let's go relax by the pool." Luna Ava comes strutting in just as we finished eating. don 't know if I can eat anymore." Sierra rubs her belly.
"Your snacks are too good, I couldn't stop." She giggles. "If you train as hard as I think you do with these boys, you can put down plenty.
Let's go" She grabs me gently by the shoulder, basically telling me she is aware of my avoidance too and will not allow it anymore than Cam will. The patio surrounding the pool looked similar to my birthday, two days ago.
They must do this a lot, because it took no effort for them to get everything set up.
It makes me smile to know that I can be a part of this for now, even if it's temporary, it feels good to be included and to let myself be included. The long table is filled with people.
All the warriors that helped out with training are here, warrior Nickolas and another of the Alpha King's warriors are in conversation with Delta Kyle.
Gamma Brett and Gwen are talking with the guys animatedly.
Whatever the story is, it's hilarious to everyone but Gamma Brett.
'[We're all here now." Luna Ava announces our presence as we walk over to the table.
There aren't any available seats for Sierra or I.
She walks up to stand by Sam and I move between my brother and Cam.
"We just want to thank you all for coming to our special training today.
We wish you could stay longer, these kids looked amazing, tired and came home completely disgusting, and I know that they enjoyed it immensely.
She stands at the head of the table addressing everyone but not making it awkward.
Now let's enjoy some food!" She claps and everyone starts moving to the kitchen to get food and drinks before coming back to the table. Sierra plants herself on Sam's lap.
I know they both claim it's 'nothing' but the way they move together is not 'nothing.' Even I can see that.
Maybe they are both just having fun before finding their mates in a couple years.
They seem to get along really well and there isn't any of the drama that I see with other couples at school.
Some girls are offended by everything their boyfriends do.
It's like they live to be mad at someone, I don't know how they go through life like that.
Sierra and Sam make it look easy, more than friends, but nothing crazy or over dramatic.
"Whatcha thinking about so hard Smalls?" Dakota says right next to my ear.
"I can almost see the steam coming out of your ears." I had stopped walking in my assessment of the seating.
I didn't realize I had stopped in anyone's path as I was lost in my thoughts. I jumped a bit at his closeness.
"Uh, nothing. Just thinking about where to sit." I lie quickly.
"All the chairs seem to be taken. "Come with me. He takes my plate so I can it argue and heads toward the table where Cam has pulled up a bench.
They both sit down on it, effectively taking up the whole thing and I arn super confused until Kota pulls me around in the small space in front of him and Cam, then pulls me down so I am straddling one of each of their legs, officially making me look like a toddler on their knees.
Chapter 0082 They each wrap an arm loosely across my legs and I can feel my cheeks burn at being so close to both of them like this.
It's one thing for them all to throw me around when we are at training or messing around.
That feels like brotherly affection, but like this, it's different.
I can't even touch the ground sitting on their laps like this.
It's the first time being small has made me flustered.
I try to wiggle forward to try and put my feet on the ground so I can take a little weight off their legs, but someone grabs my knee. "Let's not do that, Tiny. Otherwise we will have a problem you won 't want to fix. Cam whispers low so only Kota and I hear. I freeze, Kota lets out a small huff of amusement.
I'm not even sure if I can move at all now.
Logically, I know he was just teasing me, but this is so uncomfortable.
This is not a situation I have ever had to deal with before.
My heart is racing and feels like it is going to pound out of my chest.
I don't even feel like this on a hard workout day.
And I am sure they can hear my erratic heart, making me blush harder. "Breathe, Smalls. And relax" Kota whispers.
I do my best to sit and join in the small conversations going around the table.
There are so many people here, it's almost overwhelming.
As we ate and talked, Cam moved his left arm behind my back, but Kota adjusted so he could eat with his right hand.
As soon as he took a bite though, he would put down his fork and drape his massive arm across my lap so I essentially had a twin seat belt.
I had no idea what to do, I was afraid to move.
I have never been this close to a boy like this, ever. "You feeling okay, Bite Size? You've barely touched your food." Oliver asks from next to Kota. Why do these guys notice stupid things like my eating habits, but can't wrap their heads around sh*t going down at or around school? Before I can answer, Warrior Nicholas looks over at us.
"How long have you all been training together? You all move like a unit.
Even when you were paired up the rest adjusted around the group.
It takes years for most teams to gain that. "We have all been training since we were about five. All the guys have been doing the extra summer training at the Alpha King's training compound since the eighth grade. Sierra and Smalls joined us back in November." Kota says after swallowing a mouthful of food. "Really?! I never would have thought they joined your training recently." Nickolas replies. Sierra snorted.
"We didn't just start training.
We both have been training independently as long as the guys have.
We just allowed them to join the extra training that we do." Sierra chimed in and I'm glad she did, I wasn't quite sure how to take his comment.
It could have been either a compliment or an insult.
Warrior Nickolas eased my mind when he replied. "I wasn't implying that you were untrained.
Only that, to get that level of nonverbal understanding and have a natural trust and a connection to move the way you all do, usually takes years and a lot of real world experience.
It's impressive.
More impressive knowing you all became a full group rougly six months ago." He thought for a minute and then carne back with; What do you mean you allowed them to join you?" He gestures to the guys when he says 'them.' "Well, the crazy small girl here trains like she's preparing for the next apocalypse.
You saw her today.
She's the only one that went two rounds and she did it back to back against the future Gamma and a future Alpha and she handed both of them their asses, barely breaking a sweat.
Then to wrap it all up nicely she completed the human versus wolf training and the only one you yourself couldn't submit.
And we were with you for over six hours after the rest of the training group left_ She got there before all of us, meaning she probably did an hour of cardio before anyone else showed up.
Today was a 'regular' day for her.
She air quotes.
"She's also the top student and helps Delta Kyle train all the juniors and pups.
Yeah, we all train with her.
Sierra giggles and the rest of the table follows suit.
My eyes are wide and I can feel my cheeks flush at her words.
I can't look anyone in the eye, I hate having this much attention on me.
Chapter 0083 I just want to crawl in a hole.
I know my cheeks are flaming and I focus very hard on the uneaten food on my plate.
I can't make eye contact with anyone, I feel like such a freak No teenager acts the way I do.
I didn't realize I brought that much attention to myself today.
Sierra isn't one to exaggerate or embellish.
If she noticed all of that, who else did? I really don't like everyone staring at me either, I have to figure out a way to change the subject. I cleared my throat abruptly.
"So I heard that you are doing trials for elite warrior training because there are so many applicants and you're going to let high schoolers participate.
Is that true? Are you going to start training high schoolers to be Elite Warriors? | blurted, hoping to get someone else to talk and take the conversation in a different direction. "Uh, yeah." Nickolas looked a little taken aback.
Many packs want their warriors trained well and going through the two year program allows us to fully train elite warriors and get them real life experience in peacekeeping , rescue and recovery, and battle strategy.
We don't just train for war and not all packs understand that, so they have been sending more and more warriors for the Elite program trying to get enforcers and we fail most of them out within the first two days, so we now have a trial that lets us evaluate if someone is right to train in the elite
program. "You fail them in two days?" Mateo asks.
"Damn, isn't that harsh? It's hard to get to know someone in just two days]' "That's the point though.
To not know them, only to see them for the potential that they have to be an elite warrior.
There are qualities we have to see that cannot necessarily be taught.
It can't be personal, we all have to detach, that's the job.
It's an intense line of work and we train as such.
There isn't anything wrong with pack warriors, they are actually crucial to the safety and well being of each pack, and we have trainers for them as well, but the Elite Warriors are utilized differently so they are trained differently." He finishes off vaguely looking at all the warriors surrounding him.
He has clearly had this debate before and wants to avoid a conflict. "Do you implement the same training tactics for the ranked training that you do in the Elite training?" Oliver, of course, wants to know if he's missing out on something.
"Some things, yes. You have to remember ranked members, like you guys have a pack to run. So while you need to Imow how to fight and protect your pack, the goal is to teach you how to not ever have the need for that. To teach you to always be ready for anything, but conflict resolution, pack growth and camaraderie are more important here on the home front_ You have and train warriors for a reason, to protect.
The Elite Warriors are sent on some of the most dangerous missions.
We would never send a future Gamma on a mission, for example, where the possibility of not coming home is high and that is almost the whole scope of an Elite Warrior's job description.
They are required to go undercover and sometimes go dark for months or years.
A certain personality is needed to do that. "Damn, that sounds nuts and yet I have FOMO all at the same time." Sam shakes his head and everyone laughs, breaking the tension. I almost hate to admit it, but I agree with Sam.
It sounds nuts and yet it's exactly what I need to get out of this pack and away from Kaley and all of her bullsh*
We all finished eating and the adults were conversing in their own little small groups.
Luna Ava made sure everyone had plenty to eat and drink, and I was able to finally scarf down my food when the guys got up and left to start their usual clean up routine.
With so many people it tooka few trips, so I didn't feel super weird since several other people were still picking at their plates. "Warrior Nikolas, how will the trails work? Obviously you are looking for recruits now, but are you also scouting for the future? Will you be doing the same two day elimination you have at your compound?" I can't help but wonder if I could do it and get out of here sooner than I thought.
Chapter 0084 "Why are you so caught up in this warrior training? It has nothing to do with you.
As soon as you graduate, you'll find your mate and give him pups right away.
You have no need for all the training you do as it is." My father chimes in.
I have successfully avoided him all night.
He's not looking at me, but there is no doubt to anyone who knows our relationship, who he is talking to. I keep my face as neutral as possible.
"I am just curious, that's all. Hearing how other packs do things is always fascinating. It helps to have knowledge of other pack's customs and traditions, training is no different. It will be especially important if my mate happens to be in another pack CRASH! We all turn to look at the kitchen where Oliver and Mateo are scrambling to pick up broken pieces Of what I think was several plates. "Bite Size, you really have to stop talking about leaving.
Oliver huff's loud enough for everyone to hear and giving me the side eye.
The rest of the guys gave me a similar look
How did he even hear me? They are like forty feet away, with water running and banging dishes around.
I mean the glass door panels that make up the patio wall of the kitchen are open completely today, since it's nice out, so there is no barrier between the massive table by the pool and the kitchen, but still there are like 20 people between me and them and not everyone is listening to the conversation Nickolas and I are having.
Several are talking amongst themselves adding to the noise. "What's wrong with them?" Gamma Brett asks, turning his attention back to me. "They are not dealing with the idea that Sky is a very strong beta and therefore probably going to be mated to a high ranking wolf, who is possibly NOT IN THIS PACK!" She shouts over her shoulder.
"They are not liking the idea or taking the news well." She shrugs. The adults around us all laugh a bit, but 1 don't miss the look that passes amongst the Luna, Alpha, Gamma and Delta.
Our parents are keeping something from us, or have information We don't about mates and clearly not in the mood to share. "To answer your question, Skylar, we will be allowing potential candidates to do some portions of the trials.
We can't give you everything because some aspects need to be done in the moment.
We also adapt the training regularly so things may change or evolve.
We don 't usually take anyone under 17, but again we don't work in absolutes.
We also prefer mateless warriors.
Having a mate complicates missions and puts a target on the mate, should someone want to use them as leverage as a hostage.
No mate while a warrior, good to know. We have to head home this week, but will be back the following week to begin the trials here at Blue Crescent.
We are bringing in potentials from the four surrounding packs as well.
You should join us.
It will be interesting to see you up against people you don't train with everyday.
In fact I insist that you join us, I think you would give a few of my team members a run for their money.
He laughs and so does his partner. I can't help but smile, I know he's just stroking my ego.
There is no way I would give any of those guys a run for their money, but I like that he's trying to make me feel better after my father basically said Pm not good for anything but being a baby making machine. "Well, all of this training talk is fascinating, but we
need our friends for some well deserved down time." Sarn slid my chair back and threw me over his shoulder before I knew what was happening. "You guys do realize that my legs work, right? I mean, the amount of takedowns should be proof enough." I laugh lifting my head up just as a crack sounds and my buttcheek is on fire.
'low! What the "No sass from you, Smalls.
You would never leave a conversation about fighting willingly.
Kota says low, but I know everyone heard.
I laugh again as I hear Sierra squeal too, meaning someone pulled a caveman on her.
I can see her brown hair bouncing to my right as I look around Sam's back, Mateo has her and the rest of the adults are laughing at us.
Chapter 0085 They walk us inside and up the stairs, down the hallway to the hidden staircase that leads up to the third floor.
Cam reaches a keypad and types in a code then presses his thumb down.
I never realized how much security they had for their private areas.
I don't remember the Luna doing anything like this to get on the elevator to the fourth floor. "What's with the James Bond security?" Sierra asked.
I love that she says what I am thinking. "We have had a few incidents with people invading our space and the security that seems to work for our parents , doesn't stop people from trying to get to us, so we improved it.
Carn looked over his shoulder towards me as I am propping my upper body on Sam's shoulders to try and look forward. "Translation.
They have had stalker girls trying to get up to their rooms, because one romp in the sheets wasn 't enough.
Sierra laughs still hanging over Mateo's shoulder, but she has her hands on his butt pushing herself up to look around to me. "Ding, ding, ding!" Kota says, touching his nose and opening the door to the staircase and we all head up.
Sierra and I are still hanging from shoulders.
"Gross, I was kind of kidding.
I don't want to go anywhere near where you guys bang your little tramps.
I can't see her anymore now that we are traveling single file up the steps, but I can imagine the difficulty she is giving my brother. "First, we don't bring girls up here.
Second, our rooms are cleaned regularly even if we did.
Third, we are going to the media room anyway, so relax.
Cam says somewhere in front Of us as we hit their landing. Sam finally sets me down and I am in a big open entryway.
There is a sitting area and fireplace here, just like on the Alpha and Luna's floor.
The difference here is everything is earthy colors.
Dark browns, greens and beiges.
It feels more like a log cabin here.
The dark brown leather couch in front of the fireplace looks completely inviting, but I ignore it and keep looking around.
There is a dimly lit hallway headed off either side of the fireplace wall_ I assume that's where the four bedrooms are.
Opposite the fireplace is a wall of glass and a small balcony.
The balcony looks out at the forest behind the house.
The view is incredible.
The sun has already begun to set and the trees look like they are on fire. "Come on Shorty, you have plenty of time to enjoy
the view later.
It's movie night." Mateo wraps his arm around my neck pulling me into a headlock and dragging me down the hallway.
He pulled me into a room that was probably bigger than my bedroom at home, but barely furnished.
There was a large dark gray U-shaped couch in the center facing a long flat wall.
The walls were a shade of navy blue.
The carpet was a marbled pattern of grays and whites.
There were black curtains hanging at four foot intervals along the wall.
Clearly, this was designed for the best movie watching experience.
Along the back wall there is a narrow bar top with four stools, behind looked like shelves fully stocked to entertain.
Mateo marched me over to the couch and swept my legs out from under me, throwing me over the back of the couch right in the center. "Umpf! Seriously, did you need to throw me?" "If I would have left you out there any longer you would have noticed the bookshelves and started drooling, we never would have gotten you in here after that" Mateo laughs at me. 'Whatever, I
probably wouldn't have turned around, the view was awesome.You would have lost me to the balcony and the sunset. Will you get me a water while you're up?" I smiled as sweetly as I could at him.
Chapter 0086 "Hey! No hogging the girls! Kota whines. "You snooze, you lose, sorry brother. n Sam chuckles up at him.
Kota responds by smacking him in the back of the head. This starts an all out wrestling match on and over the couches.
Sierra and I move to the corners to avoid being trampled, but laughing hysterically.
Are they really fighting over who sits next to us? How old are they? Five? Cam, Kota and Oliver all jump over the couch tackling Sarn together and all four fall to the floor.
Mateo scoots back towards me laughing, but they dont leave him out for long.
Someone grabs for his foot and drags him to the floor making me squeal again.
I have no idea what they are even trying to accomplish with this type of wrestling.
Clearly there won't be a winner, but they seem to be enjoying themselves.
Arms and legs are flying everywhere and all you can hear is our laughter.
It is so great to feel like this, they make me feel so good just being here in their little inner circle.
The one they don't showto the rest of the world.
It hits me that I don't know if I ever would have been able to keep my distance from them for very long.
They brighten my day and don't even realize it. Eventually they slow down, all panting harder than they do at training.
Cam is laying on his side holding Mateo 's legs, who is laying face down across Sam's chest.
Sam has a hold of Oliver's legs, who has Kota in a headlock This is the most ridiculous thing I have ever seen. "You're at a standstill, what are you all going to do?" I ask, truly wondering if they are going to just let go and call it a draw.
Knowing them, there will need to be a winner. "Who do you want to sit by, Bite Size?" Oliver asks gripping Kota a little tighter, making him laugh or cough, Pm not really sure. Oh, no! I am not the deciding factor here.
"I'm going to sit by Sierra, where are the rest of you going to be?" That is about as neutral as l can be. Sierra laughs loudly.
"See, I arn better than all of you combined! "Nope, she's mine." Sam lets go of Oliver, wriggles out from under Mateo and jumps up to grab her around the waist sitting in one of the corners of the couch. The rest of the guys figured out quickly to move and I was tackled and pulled around again.
We finally settled with me in the center of the couch, sitting with my legs folded in front of me, Cam to my right with Sierra and Sam to his right, then Oliver to my left and Mateo on his other side.
Kota sat on a cushion on the floor with his head tilted back on my knee.
I wish I could tell you what the movie was even about, but I don 't think I made it through the opening credits.
I was so comfortable surrounded by the guys.
The warmth radiating off all of them was enough to put me into a comfy coma.
Add to that the restless night of non-sleep and the amount of effort we exerted today, my body and mind were toast. At one point I woke up and completely forgot where I was and almost freaked out when I couldn't move my legs.
The familiar scents of the guys is what calmed me down.
I looked around in the dim light coming from a little night light behind the bar, I was laying in Cam's lap and Oliver was using my butt as a pillow and his arms had my lower legs locked together. There was no way I was getting out of that hold, so I adjusted my head and arms.
I brushed hair in front of me and noticed Kota was still sitting in front of me on the floor, his head tilted back in the little spoon space next to my legs.
I ran my hands through Kota's hair.
The silky feel sent a shiver up my arm causing me to take a deep breath in and I swear heard him purr and felt the rumble go through his whole body.
The last thing I remember is a huge smile on my face, that I had no control over then my eyes fluttered shut.
Chapter 0087
When I woke up next I was in a bed and the room was still dark with just the light from the moon shining through the sheer curtains. I stretched and took a deep breath in. This smell was all Kota. That warm cinnamon smell just lulling me deeper into the cloudlike cushion of the mattress. I was so comfortable, I didn't want to leave, but curiosity got the better of me. I slowly sat up and looked around, curious at how he lived when no one was looking. I am laying in the middle of a king sized bed with the softest light blue comforter I have ever felt. The room itself has minimal furnishings. He either doesn't spend a lot of time here or just doesn't like excess stuff. I find that interesting for the more happy-go-lucky twin. The walls are a dark gray. There are double doors on either side of the bed probably leading to a closet and bathroom. The wall to the right of the bed is almost all windows. The cream curtains are sheer to let in light but keep privacy. It looks out over the front drive of the house. The wall opposite of the bed had a long deep cabinet with a marble top and three floating glass shelves above it. The wall to the left of the bed had a few framed photos of the twins together and them with the rest of the guys.
I slowly climbed out of the bed wanting to get a closer look at what he thought of as things important enough to remember and display. There were no pictures smaller than an 8x10. The largest in the center was a copy of the same family picture that was down in the main hallway. One of him and Cam in sharp black suits posing together in an unfamiliar garden. Probably the second biggest was a picture of the five boys together, maybe a year or so ago, all shirtless in swim trunks sitting on a log in front of a lake. They look sunkissed, soaked and happy, like they are having the time of their lives. I wonder if this was their first summer away. The rest are other pictures of him and the guys, but as I turn to walk towards the door to see where everyone else is at, I notice a picture on the bedside table and my heart rate sped up. It was like my body had a mind of its own and moved me towards the photo. I picked it up and just stared. I don't remember anyone taking pictures the night of my party, but it is one of all five boys, Sierra and I laughing at the table by the pool. We all had cake so it was after my embarrassing crying episode, but you wouldn't be able to tell I had cried at
all from this photo. There is a light in my eyes and I truly look relaxed with them, like sitting there and having fun was something we do all the time.
I set the photo down before I could dwell on why this one was by his bed and how fast that was printed and framed and headed toward the door. I stepped out into the hallway, I have no idea what time it is. With all the minimal stuff in Kota's room there was no clock either. I'm sure he just uses his phone. The doors to Cam's room and the office are closed. So I head to the media room to find Mateo and Oliver sprawled on the couch. Sam and Sierra must be on the guest bed, but where did Kota sleep?
I walked over to the ottoman where my phone is laying and saw that it's just after 4am. My body is just hardwired for this time of the morning. I am actually a little sore from the very long training from yesterday, but I can't skip today, nor can I skip school. I'm sure my dad was pissed about yesterday, which is why he said nothing to me last night and I have a suspicion that's why I am here at the packhouse rather than at home, but that won't fly today. At least Luna Ava gave me leggings and a sports bra. I can get my morning training in without going home, then I can go home to change with Mateo. Being with him may lessen the fallout of missing school and not going home at all last night.
Chapter 0088
I learned my lesson though, these boys will come find me and they will be pissed if they have to search. So I found a piece of paper in Kota’s room and wrote a simple note telling them I had to run and would meet them at the training grounds and left it on my brother’s phone.
Let’s hope this will be enough ‘notice’ for them. I say to my wolf.
She just laughs. You do realize how protective of you they really are, right?
Yes, but is that normal? I mean, they have known me forever and have never been this ‘in my personal space’ before.
They are all 16 now, maybe they are developing mate senses early.
All of them? There is no way I am a mate to all of them, even Mateo is different and the thought of that is just weird.
Okay, so maybe it’s too early for mate talk, but I agree they are acting differently. There’s something special about you, that much I can tell.
They are still weird. Let’s go run before training, I need to clear my head. Especially if the warriors are training us again today. It's been a long time since I was this sore, so I need a slow warm-up today.
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Cam and Kota were annoyed at me for not waking anyone, but in the end decided that since I left a note and told them where I was going to be, and they actually found me there, I could be forgiven. I just rolled my eyes. Boys are stupid sometimes.
We did get to train with the warriors today, but instead of leading they joined in our regular sessions. I was selected to work with Warrior Nickolas and Warrior Thomas much to the guys annoyance. They must have thought I was hogging their attention. Although, after a while they seemed to work with everyone pretty equally, they did tend to wander towards our group more often to give tips and correct movements. It wasn’t as intense of a training today, everyone was sore after going against wolves yesterday and we stuck to the standard two hour time.
Sweaty and laughing, Sierra and I beat the guys out to the truck.
“What is taking you so long? I have a test today and I’m not a future alpha who can get away with walking into class whenever I feel like it.” I whine at the top of my lungs.
“We’re coming, keep your shorts on!” Kota yells across the parking lot.
“Or don’t. I’d be okay with that too!” Sam laughs right before my brother knocks him in the back of the head.
“Knock it off, asshole.”
“What? This is not a new sentiment. They are both hot and you, my friend, are going to have to get over the fact that all these guys,” he twirls his hand over his head, “ fantasize about your beautiful sister and her equally beautiful friend. And after the ass whooping they both gave us, I’m sure the wet dreams are going to be more intense.” Sam laughs as my brother chases him around the truck muttering unintelligible curses.
We eventually get in the truck and drive toward the packhouse. Once Oliver and Cam round up my brother and Sam from the ground where they ended up wrestling. Sam laughing and continuing to egg on my brother and my brother getting progressively more irritated with his friend.
We pull into the packhouse parking lot and I turn to walk toward my house when Cam stops me.
“Where are you going?” He asks, holding onto my elbow.
“Home, to change for school.” I raise an eyebrow at him and then look pointedly at his hand on my arm. “I really can’t be late, and I need clothes that are actually mine for school.”
“All your stuff is here. We had it brought over this morning.”
“Wait, what?! Why is my stuff here? And why is the first I am hearing about being moved into the packhouse? Mateo!”
“Yeah, we were supposed to talk to you about it last night, I guess we were just having such a good time, it slipped my mind.” My brother looks at me, shrugging his shoulders, not looking apologetic at all.
Chapter 0089
“It slipped your mind that I was going to be moved out of my home? Do the Luna and Alpha know? Does Dad know? Oh, Goddess he is going to be so pissed. Or maybe not. Did he kick me out? Is that what happened? He hates me so much that he doesn’t even want me in his house now either?” I'm starting to spiral and can feel the tears start to sting behind my eyes. I start rubbing my temples with both of my hands and I blink them back as best I can, I cannot lose control here. I just want to run to my room and cry at the thought of not having a home anymore, but I’m frozen, I don’t even know where I would run to now.
“Hey, hey, breathe. It’s not like that.” Mateo pulls me into a hug. “I wanted you out of his house, that’s all. I’m tired of the way he acts towards you. You are better off here, with Luna Ava. I didn’t think it would be that big of a deal.” Mateo is rocking me and stroking my hair.
I should be thankful that he finally sees me, sees what being around my father does to me, but I am pissed. It’s just another decision that was made for me, about me but without me. I take a deep breath and I push him away.
“You didn’t think it would be a big deal to pack up my things and rip me from the only place I have ever known because now you don’t like the way he treats me? Newsflash a*shole, that man has never loved me, never wanted me and never will. He has tolerated my existence for fifteen years and I have tolerated the neglect. Stop trying to think for me. I come and go as I please, thanks to that neglect. I eat where and when I want, thanks to that neglect. I have been on my own my entire life, you do not get to come in now and try to be the f*cking hero.” I stop and close my eyes, take a deep breath, then look at my brother and the rest of the guys and Sierra. “I know you all want to help, and that you mean well, but don’t presume there is an easy fix to what is going on. Thank you for bringing me closer to Luna Ava, but talk to me before you do anything else that drastically changes anything for me, make sure it’s what I actually want and not what makes you feel better. Now show me my room.” I turn around and walk toward the packhouse front door where I see Luna Ava standing waiting for us. Why is she smiling like that?
“Well said my dear, teach those boys to think first react later instead of throwing sh*t at the wall and seeing what sticks.” She laughs and Sierra comes up behind me linking her arm with mine. “But, seeing as they have already had all of your stuff moved and I anticipated you being angry with them, I will show you to your new room.” She walks us up the stairs to the second floor and to the right around the wall that houses the elevator. She punches in a code to the third floor staircase and leads me up.
“You put me on the third floor? With the twins?” I ask her back as we ascend.
“After some thought and your very colorful interaction with that girl yesterday, I thought it would be a good idea to not have you on a floor that literally everybody has access to. So I have your things in the boys’ study.”
“I don’t want to take over one of their spaces.”
“Nonsense, they don’t really use it, they both have desks in their rooms where they do homework and if they are working on anything for pack business, they do it in the Alpha’s office on the main level. They never actually use this room, it gets more used when the boys stay.”
“I don’t want to be in the way of that either. This is messing with more than just me, I don’t want to inconvenience anyone.”
Chapter 0090
“Trust me, you are not an inconvenience, and besides, this way you and Sierra have a bed here when you stay now and the boys just sleep wherever they are anyway, they don’t actually need a bed as I’m sure you figured out last night. Besides, your room is done now and I won’t be returning anything.” She stopped at the door next to the media room, turned the handle and pushed it open.
It was incredible. The layout was the same as Kota’s room. From the door to the right was an enormous white four poster king sized bed. The comforter was the same pale blue fluffy cloud that was on Kota’s bed. There were double doors on either side of the bed, I could see the bathroom light on beyond one of the open doors. To the left of the bedroom door was the most eye-catching fireplace surrounded by stones of all shapes and sizes in varying shades of gray and blue. A sleek TV hung above it, but the best part was the floor to ceiling bookshelves that flanked the fireplace and were completely filled. Two very familiar oversized armchairs sat in front of the fireplace. A desk sat between the door and one of the bookshelves, complete with a comfy chair holding my backpack and the rest of my things from my desk at home. Everything was white and clean, even the floor was a white washed wood with area rugs to tie in the different spaces of the room. Two windows let in a decent amount of light with soft white sheer curtains.
“I hope you like it my dear. The boys really did mean well and they know now that your relationship with your father is not as amicable as they thought. They want to see you happy and were hoping this may help that along, although they would never be able to put it into words.” All three of us laugh. “Now get ready for school, all of your things are in the closet and Sierra, I had a few things in your size put in there as well, you know for time like these.” She winks at us. “Then we have breakfast waiting.”
We both shower and dress in record time. I organize my bag and we head downstairs to the rumble of noise I have become familiar with on Saturday mornings. I slip my bag off my shoulder and take a seat at the large island next to Sierra not making eye contact with the guys even though they have stopped talking and are all looking pointedly at us. I have forgiven the guys and actually love my
room, but we decided they needed to fester just a little bit longer. The Luna seems to approve as she comes up and gives us plates filled with food while leaving them to fend for themselves. She starts asking on how I like my new room and anything else I may need and then moves into other mundane topics waiting to see who will crack first. It was not who I expected.
“Are you really still mad at us Bite Size, or just proving a point?” Oliver asks from across the room. “Cause the silent treatment sucks.”
I look right at him. “I was never mad at any of you, I am mad that a major decision was made about me, without even a thought to consult me. I may let you all toss me around like a shared toy, but this was a big deal and as much as I am glad that I have some separation now from a bad situation, you didn’t even think to find out if I would have any reason to not go along with the idea.” They all nodded their heads. “You don’t know what goes on in here,” I point to my head, “it’s weird for me to be wanted somewhere, for people to want me to be around, wrap your heads around that. You need to give me time, and be okay if it takes me time to make decisions and process things. Now let's get to school, we’re going to be late.” I jump up and grab my bag before the conversation gets any deeper.