Ch. 136..140: Reclaiming My Broken Luna Chapter 136-140

Chapter 136: They met Again

Astrid's POV

My palms grew clammy as I drew nearer to the Silvermoon Pack's relief brigade. My heart thundered in my ears as memories of the past that I had tried so desperately to outrun threatened to overwhelm me.

Even though I knew that Killian would not be among them, the very sight of the Silvermoon Pack's sigil filled me with dread that I thought I had long since buried.

Steeling my nerves, I forced one foot in front of the other, willing my trembling limbs to obey. I was nervous because I was afraid that one of them would recognize me, and right now, I'm not in the right capacity to be reminded of the past. Alpha Theron sent me here to keep my mind busy and to stop me from living in the past, a thing that I could never change. I'm not recovering because I'm still stuck in the past.

However, instead of finding my new sense of purpose, I ran into my past instead.

How I longed to simply turn and flee, to hide my face away from them, but I know I cannot do that. As the leader of the Shadowfang Pack's relief efforts, it is my duty to meet with them to coordinate the aid they will give to the Emberwood Pack. As I approached the group, I felt the weight of their gazes upon me; their curious and suspicious gaze was palpable.

Still, I continued fighting the urge to shrink back. Instead, I lifted my chin, meeting their scrutiny with a facade of calm confidence.

"Greetings to the members of the Silvermoon Pack!" I began, surprised at how steady my voice sounded. "I am Astrid, here on behalf of the Shadowfang Pack to welcome your aid and assistance."

I steeled myself, mustering all my courage and confidence to be able to stand straight in front of them while they shared quizzical stares at each other.

Of course, they all recognized me. I used to be their Luna, after all. It would be impossible for them not to know me, no matter how much I wish it to be true.

When I was still the Luna of the Silvermoon Pack, I was so involved with their military training that all their Pack Warriors naturally knew who I was.

All of them were looking at me like they had just seen a ghost. When they heard that I was here on behalf of the Shadowfang Pack, I knew that statement raised questions in their heads.

With the rumors flying around that I'm having an affair with Alpha Theron, they might be thinking that those rumors were true.

"I wish to speak with your leader to discuss and coordinate with your team so that we can give our best to help the Emberwood Pack," I said confidently and with a straight gaze. Finally, the leader of their relief brigade stepped forward, his piercing gaze seeming to bore into my very soul. I felt my breath catch in my throat, but I refused to look away.

"Nice to meet you, Astrid of the Shadowfang Pack," Killian rumbled without a change of expression on his face when he saw me. "We are honored to lend our strength to your efforts. Tell us what we can do so we may coordinate our relief for the Emberwood Pack."

I swallowed hard as I stared at Killian unblinking.

What is he doing here? Why is he here? Many questions flooded inside my head as I looked at him in surprise.

"I see you have already set up

everything. If you could explain what you have already done and what we can do, then that would be helpful for us Killian continued to talk straight while my heart beat rapidly inside me.

I blinked and nodded my head when I caught myself acting inappropriately. I was ready to face Beta Ryder, the Beta of the Silvermoon Pack, but I was met with Killian instead.

I made a mistake. I thought Killian would never personally take a matter like this. If I knew, I wouldn't have faced him head-on.

However, it was already too late. He already knew that I was the person in charge, and I had no choice but to continue coordinating with him instead of running away.

"A-Alpha Killian," I finally uttered a word after a long pause. However, the confidence I mustered in me had finally disappeared. My voice came out uncertain and reluctant.

"Miss Astrid, why don't we show

Alpha Killian around first so he would see the temporary facilities we made for the people," the Pack Warrior who came alongside me spoke softly into my ear.

If he hadn't given me such a suggestion, I wouldn't know what to do. Seeing Killian made my mind turn back.

"Alpha Killian, follow me, and I will show you around," I finally mustered.

Killian nodded his head without saying a word. He is acting like he doesn't know me, keeping things professional between us.

This only reminded me of the same treatment he gave me when we were still a husband and a wife.

With this, relief and trepidation warred within me.

I showed Killian around the camp as I had told him. As he learned new things about how we managed everything around here, he gave orders to his men to help us.

As I explained everything to him, I turned more relaxed as he continued to listen quietly.

 

 

Chapter 137: Seizing Opportunity

Killian's POV

My eyes were drawn to Astrid as she stood before me, explaining the procedure around the Emberwood Pack while also showing me the different stations they had set up around the Pack.

As I listened to how she orchestrated their relief efforts, I was amazed by the plans she came up with and how fast she was able to set all these things up.

Temporary camps had sprung up like blooming flowers, each one tailored to a specific purpose - shelters for the displaced, supply depots, and medical stations, all woven together in a seamless network under Astrid's watchful gaze. She also assigned different roles to each of her men to have their own individual contributions. In that way, all the needs of the people were met.

I'm not surprised that she came up with an organized plan to take the chaos that was left by the rogue attack and transform it into something orderly, something functional.

It was that skill that I had always admired in her, this innate talent of organization and foresight that once made the Silvermoon Pack develop into a more powerful Pack. "Alpha Killian, if you brought doctors with you, you can all bring them here," Astrid spoke as she turned to face me, pulling me back from my thoughts.

"Yes, of course," I blinked my eyes as I spoke before sending my orders through our Pack link.

Under Astrid's care, everything was organized already and a little help was only needed from us.

I

gave every help that she needs.

A lot of questions filled my head as I watched her move through the bustling encampment.

It's been so long since the last time I saw her, and things weren't well when we parted.

Ever since she left, there wasn't a day that I didn't think about her or worried about her.

Apart from the fact that she's been staying at the Shadowfang Pack, I haven't heard any other news from her. I just wanted to know if she's okay. If... our baby is still alive.

I swallowed hard as I continued to observe. Seeing her standing in front of me, having the energy to orchestrate all these, it only means that she's fine, but the baby... I couldn't tell. She's wearing a loose shirt, which has always been her favorite outfit because it makes her feel comfortable. Her wide outfit makes me unable to guess if she's still pregnant.

As I watched her, my heart could only yearn and ache to reach out and gather her into my embrace, to hold her close and let her know the depth of my feelings. However, there were many watchful eyes that kept me rooted on the spot. I clenched my hands to my sides in a desperate attempt to maintain my composure.

The air around us crackled with unspoken emotion as I fought

against my own desires. Astrid was oblivious to the turmoil raging inside

me and continued with her detailed briefing.

In those agonizing moments, I knew that Astrid had a lot of questions for me, just like I had a lot of questions for her.

I wanted to know if the rumors about her and the Alpha of the Shadowfang Pack were true, and most importantly, I wanted to know how she's been.

"Alpha Killian, do you have any questions?" Astrid asked.

In every word she spoke, she always addressed me as Alpha Killian.

"There's something I have to show you," I uttered.

Now that the briefing is done, it's time for me to seize the chance to talk to her.

As an Alpha, Lalready have a lot of responsibilities to take care of in the Pack. By all rights, I should be in my Pack taking care of more important matters instead of going out here to personally give relief efforts to the Emberwood Pack.

However, when I heard that Astrid was here, I instantly seized the opportunity to meet her and told Beta Ryder to stay behind instead.

I've been waiting for the chance to talk to her. Even though I know that she's been staying in the Shadowfang Pack, I couldn't go there unless I had a very important reason.

This is my only chance to talk to her.

Astrid looked at me skeptically as if she didn't trust my words.

"I brought something that I want you to see. I want your opinion on it," I added to convince her to follow me.

"Then just bring it here, Alpha Killian."

"I can't," I replied. "It's too big. Let me show you where it is," I insisted.

Astrid gulped and looked around as if asking for help, but then again, in the end, she had no choice but to follow me. It is her job to help me.

With a subtle nod, I gestured for Astrid to follow me, my pulse quickening as she wordlessly fell into step beside me.

As I led her to a private path, away from everyone, Astrid didn't say a word. It's like she knew that I lied

Chthat was just stealing for a

chance to talk to her privately. Still, she came along with me, and I'm glad that she allowed me to talk to her.

When I felt that we were already far enough, I turned to face Astrid, my breath catching inside my throat when I was welcomed with her cold expression.

 

Chapter 138: Severed Bond

Astrid's POV

I stared at Killian, my expression carefully neutral, revealing nothing of the turmoil raging within me.

I could see the desperation in his eyes as he searched my face, seeking some crack in my icy demeanor for some glimmer of warmth that he had once known, but my features were set in an impenetrable mask.

I watched as Killian's hand, which was half-raised aiming to reach for me, suddenly fell back to his side as if scorched by the frost in my gaze.

His eyes blinked with a look of longing written so plainly on his face, but I remained motionless, unwavering, unwilling to give in to the temptation.

I crossed my arms as I waited for him to say a word. He is the one who pulled me out here. Is he just going to stare at me all day?

"H-How have you been?" Killian finally spoke in a soft, unsure voice when he saw the impatience that crossed my features.

Now that we are alone, he no longer looks like a powerful Alpha. In front of me, he looked like a man walking on eggshells, afraid that he would say the wrong thing and make me shrink away from him. Where once Killian had stood tall and unafraid, now he seemed to shrink in on himself, his shoulder hunched slightly as if trying to make himself smaller, less conspicuous.

"I heard that you've been staying at the Shadowfang Pack. I wanted to go and meet you, but you know how strict the Shadowfang Pack is. Even if I'm an Alpha, they will not let me in unless I have a very important reason." Killian continued when he didn't hear a response from me.

"When I heard that you were here, I instantly grabbed the chance to meet you," Killian added, showing how much he really longs to meet me.

However, I don't feel the same way towards him. In fact, I couldn't help but feel a growing sense of confusion and unease with the way that he was behaving in front of me.

I'm not used to this kind of treatment from him. His strong and ruthless demeanor had shifted to that of a lost puppy, uncertain and fragile.

What had caused this dramatic change in him?

"Astrid," Killian swallowed hard after he uttered my name. "Is our baby alright?" he asked with a voice thick with fear.

A tear rolled down my cheek when I heard his question. Suddenly, he is now identifying himself as the father of my baby?

Sadness and bitterness crept through my heart as I remembered how Killian rejected my child as his own when my child was still alive inside of me.

Now that my child is gone, he has only turned around to recognize himself as a father.

"A-Astrid," Killian's voice stammered, and his eyes widened when he saw the tears freely falling down my cheeks. My face remained stoic.

I couldn't stop the tears from falling out of my eyes. The pain is still in there. My regrets, my heartaches, it was all there, and when triggered, the emotions that pour out of me are unstoppable.

I lifted my hand and wiped my tears away with the back of my hand. "My son is dead," I answered, my voice devoid of any recognizable emotion, as if a part of me had died alongside him.

A leaden heaviness settled in my chest as the words hung in the air, stark and unforgiving.

A stunned silence fell over Killian as my words pierced him like a dagger to the heart.

For a moment, he was utterly paralyzed, his mind reeling, unable to process anything.

"M-my son, Killian breathed out in almost a whisper; his hands trembled as the little thing left of his resolve crumbled in an instant replaced by a raw, primal anguish that contorted his features.

"Your son?” I scoffed at him when I saw how the death of my child made him crumble.

"You were so convinced that I cheated on you. You were so sure that you were not the child of my baby. Now that my child is gone, why are you so affected?" I gritted

my teeth as I held myself together.

"My son was the only one that I had. He is the only one I have left. While you," I pointed a finger at him angrily. "You still have your son with Giselle!" I shouted spitefully. Killian shook his head. However, he was so overwhelmed with grief that he couldn't speak.

I stared at Killian, my eyes hardening with an unwavering resolve. "Now that my child is gone. Let's cut our ties forever. From now on, I will have nothing to do with you, and you will have nothing to do with me," declared with my posture rigid and unyielding.

Since he had already chosen to be with Giselle, I didn't want to have any connection with him. By severing our bond, I can more easily turn my sights on Giselle and focus on my plans. Giselle killed my son, and she will have to pay for that. By fully cutting Killian off, I won't have to hold myself back in the future for his sake and the sake of his Pack.

I swear on my son's dead body that I will not rest until I get the justice he deserves.

 

Chapter 139: Moved On

Killian's POV

It has been a long day for everybody. We have just arrived at the Emberwood Pack after our long travel, and we are still trying to adjust to the work around this place.

We weren't able to help the Shadowfang Pack much because we had to settle everything. We had to settle our provisions and also build our camps.

The night has long fallen, but not all camps have been built yet. As the Alpha, they had prioritized my camp first so I could have my temporary settlement and also so that I could have a good night's sleep.

However, I couldn't sleep. My conversation with Astrid continued to trouble me. So, I sat on my makeshift desk and started to write so I could do something productive while Astrid kept me awake.

In the middle of the night, only the sound of my pen scratching on paper could be heard while an omega shuffled around me, fixing my things and organizing them around the camp since we had only just arrived.

I sighed as I turned to another page of the paper.

"Alpha, you've been sighing all night. Is there something that has been troubling you?" the omega asked me in her soft feminine voice, making me turn to look at her.

I hadn't realized that I'd been sighing that much. I set down my pen when I realized that I had just been fooling myself. Looking down at my writing, I think I will have to redo all of this again tomorrow because I wasn't making much sense. Finally, I surrendered to my thoughts and straightened my steely gaze ahead of me.

"Anya, do you think the rumors were true?" I asked her without giving her a glance.

Her brows pressed together when she heard my question. "I knew you were thinking about Miss Astrid again," she replied with disappointment in her voice.

I turned to face her with my brows furrowed, and she instantly lowered her head when she met my gaze.

I sighed and turned my head back again, choosing not to get angry for her unwarranted comment.

Anya is the only woman that I brought to the team with me. Anya is an omega and is back in our pack; she used to clean my room and my office regularly. Although it was just a simple job, Anya is good at it. Not only does she clean my room regularly, but she always ensures that I'm comfortable inside it.

She didn't realize it, but I noticed how she always used cedarwood to make my room smell good.

Not only does cedarwood give a pleasing aroma in my room, but I also heard it is good for health and helps relax the mind.

Because she doesn't just do her job, but she also cares about me, I have always kept her by my side to assist me.

After serving me for a long time, Anya could always read my mind and see through my stoic expression.

She knows it when I'm troubled, and at times, she would give me freshly brewed tea to calm my mind without being asked.

She always seeks to improve in her job, that's why I made her my personal assistant.

"Alpha, to answer your question, I think the rumors are true. Why else would Miss Astrid manage the relief efforts of the Shadowfang Pack?" Anya answered straightforwardly. ""Ridiculous!" I blurted out loud when I heard her answer.

She flinched back and lowered her head when she saw my violent reaction. "Astrid would never have a relationship with a man, especially with a person twice her age," I answered back softly this time.

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Ever since her affair with Drystan was disproved, I knew she would never have an affair with anyone else.

"Why wouldn't she?" Anya asked me

back, but I'm still not dropping it. "It's clear that Miss Astrid has moved on е already. She even rejected you already, and you have also accepted her rejection, which means you two are no longer mates. Why wouldn't she date another man?"

Anya asked

me back.

"It's because she's not that type of person. I have misunderstood her before. I won't make the same mistake again," I replied defiantly.

Anya sighed. She could only purse her lips in silence because of my stubbornness.

Earlier, I was planning to clarify to her if the rumors were true. However, I was unable to ask her all of my questions because I was so devastated to hear that our son had died.

Astrid has no idea that just like her, I also lost everything. Giselle's child will not be mine if Astrid's child is mine because I only slept one time with one woman, so I could only have one son.

When she said that she would be cutting all her ties to me, I couldn't speak. In my heart, I wanted to hold her back. I did not want her to leave; I didn't want us to become like strangers, but I felt so bad.

I felt so guilty. Losing our child was my fault. Astrid will never forgive me for the death of her child.

I could only watch her leave. I've made so many mistakes already. I don't even know where to start.

Besides, I'm still engaged with Giselle. I have no right to hold her back.

Anya is right. Astrid has moved on already. I'm the only one holding back to the past.

We have severed our bonds already. There's nothing left for me to chase after.

 

Chapter 140: Unwanted Mistress

Giselle's POV

Things have been well inside the Pack ever since Astrid had stopped making trouble for us. Until now, she's still busy at the Shadowfang Pack, and I had no idea when she's planning to leave and what she is currently thinking. Until now, I have been waiting for the news of her leaving the Shadowfang Pack so I can be ready. I know that as soon as Astrid leaves that place, Killian will rush to see her.

That's why I had to know so I could stop them from meeting or so that I could be there when they meet.

Even though I made sure to hide my traces properly, I knew that Astrid would blame me for the accident that happened to her.

I'm sure right now she already knows that I was involved in her accident. Drystan must have informed her by the time she woke up about how I lied and that I never met her.

I'm sure that would bring suspicions to them.

Still, I wasn't afraid of being blamed for what I did. They can hate me if they want. The feeling is mutual. Even if they have the Shadowfang Pack behind their backs, I will never back down against Astrid.

Astrid only knows how to butter someone up. I wonder how long she could curry the Alpha of the Shadowfang Pack's favor.

Just like what happened to her and Killian, I'm sure she wouldn't last long. Sooner or later, she would lose the favor of the Shadowfang Pack's Alpha.

The Shadowfang Pack won't always be there to back her up, especially with the rumors going around that she was having an affair with the Alpha.

I'm just waiting for the Alpha of the Shadowfang Pack to push her away from his Pack in order to shut out the rumors that were ruining their prestigious reputation.

I smiled at myself in the mirror while I was carefully brushing my hair. Now that I am pregnant, I have to take care of myself more and also maintain my beauty.

Just like what they say, the mistress must always be better than the first wife. Killian will only like me if I am good enough for him.

I froze and almost jumped out of my seat in shock when the doors to my bedroom suddenly barged open. An omega stumbled in, chest heaving as if she had just run a great distance.

I narrowed my gaze at the omega who startled me through the mirror in front of me.

"Forgive me, my Luna," the omega gasped as she lowered her head before me. "I bring urgent news from the Emberwood Pack."

Furrowing my brow, I placed my hairbrush on my table and calmly rose to my feet. "Is this about Alpha Killian?" I asked her, my voice sharpening with authority.

Killian had just left yesterday to lead the relief support that our Pack would be providing for the Emberwood Pack.

I have no idea why he is insisting on personally supervising a task like that when he could just ask Beta Ryder to do it instead.

I swallowed hard, fearing that something bad had happened to him along the way.

Long-distance travel is dangerous, especially if you are carrying a lot of important materials. Rogues always lurk around the forest like bandits, waiting to have their next victim.

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The omega took a steadying breath. "Luna... I received the report that Astrid was also staying at Emberwood Pack."

My eyes widened as a horrified expression crossed my face. "What?!" I blurted out in anger.

I clenched my fists tightly and gritted my teeth. That woman! She's really making ways to give me trouble and take Killian away from me.

I thought after the accident, she would have already learned her lesson, but until now, she's still going between me and Killian.

"I also received a report that Alpha Killian and Miss Astrid talk to each other a lot. It seems like they are growing close."

I let out a deep breath as my nose fumed in anger. I couldn't believe that Killian would do something like this behind my back.

Now, it's no wonder why he insisted on handling such a stupid task. It turns out he only went there to have closure with his ex-wife. "Pack my clothes and gather a team of warriors. We are going to the Emberwood Pack now," I ordered with an unyielding expression.

My attendants didn't have to be told

twice. As soon as they received my command, they went on working while + turned to change my clothes into something that suits long travels.

Killian has brought me nothing but humiliation. I'm already pregnant with his son, and we are already engaged in a marriage, yet he is out there meeting with his ex-wife.

What would people think if they

heard or saw this? This won't bring him any humiliation at all. I would be the one who would look pathetic and stupid for being pregnant and engaged to a man who still yearns for his ex-wife.

To be honest, I couldn't care less about my reputation as long as I became the Silvermoon Pack's Luna.

What I am more worried about is whether the two gain closure and reconcile because of this matter.

Astrid, last time, I failed to dispose of you for good. Now, I will make sure that you won't be lucky enough to escape me again.