Ch. 6..10: Reclaiming My Broken Luna Chapter 6-10

Chapter 6: Rejection

Astrid's POV

Killian turned his face away in shame when he heard my words. His hands trembled slightly as he reluctantly pulled the lilies away from my face, giving me the chance to breathe much better.

I remained silent as I covered my nose. My nose felt itchy because of the damn flowers that stirred up my allergies.

Killian suddenly scoffed after a moment of silence. "These flowers are not for you," he spoke angrily.

I slowly looked up at him through the corner of my eyes when I heard him speak. When he came here holding the flowers, I really thought it was meant for me.

"For whom was it then?" I asked him since I really thought that he had come all the way here to give me those flowers as his way of apologizing.

"For Giselle of course," Killian blurted out. "As you have said you have never received any gift from me. Did you really think I would give you a flower now?"

A bitter smile spread across my face when I heard his answer. It was foolish of me to expect that the flowers he was holding were meant for me.

Killian is right. I truly am delusional. Even though I know that he doesn't like me, I always hope that he will still care about me.

I hoped that he would learn to love me and forget about Giselle while we were married.

I hoped that he would be happy to find that I was pregnant with our baby.

I hoped that he would be present to comfort me at my grandmother's funeral.

In the end, I always get hurt because of my stupid expectations.

From now on, I will no longer hope for such things anymore. I will no longer be the foolish Astrid that I was.

"Then that's great," I shot back with a forced smile on my face. "Even if you beg me for forgiveness and fill my feet with flowers, I will never change my mind about the divorce."

Killian was stunned at my words. Maybe he was expecting that I would cry and wallow at his words, but I've already learned my lesson.

A man like him is not worth my tears and efforts. It's better that I leave him as soon as possible before he fully ruins my life.

"Give me my bracelet now so I can leave this place." I narrowed my eyes at Killian's mother.

Killian's mother just smirked at me, unswayed by my seriousness. Instead, she held up the bracelet in her hand and showed it to his son. "Tell me, Killian. Is this bracelet really hers?" She questioned him in earnest. Killian stared at the bracelet carefully. His brows furrowed and his eyes deepened as he examined the bracelet carefully.

"Is it hers, Killian?" His mother repeated her question when it took too long for him to answer.

Killian blinked as if he was abruptly pulled out of his thoughts. "T-the bracelet is hers," Killian answered truthfully.

The eyes of Killian's mother widened at her son's answer. "That couldn't be!" She exclaimed. "How could a mere omega like her own such an expensive bracelet? She must have stolen it," she insisted.

I gritted my teeth upon hearing her accusations. Now I know where his son got his attitude from. Both mother and son think so little about omegas.

"Be careful of your words, mother," Killian reprimanded her. "It's true, Astrid owns the bracelet," he muttered firmly.

The bracelet that his mother is holding right now is so precious to me. It is a gift given to me by my grandmother making it a very important treasure for me.

If the bracelet wasn't given to me by my grandmother, I would have freely given it to her despite its financial value. However, it holds a sentimental value for me.

"Mother, you should give her a bracelet," Killian tells his mother respectfully.

Killian's mother gripped the bracelet tightly in her hand. Anger rose inside her as she thought of giving up the bracelet to me. The bracelet must be so expensive as she had said for her to want it so much.

With an emotionless expression on my face, I stared blankly into his sharp eyes and opened my palm in front of her.

Killian's mother clenched her jaw tightly before reluctantly dropping my bracelet into my palm.

After securing my bracelet, I opened my bag and pulled out the signed divorce papers.

"Here," I muttered coldly as I handed him the papers. "Since you are already here you can now sign it."

Killian's eyes shot up to me when he heard my words, then I just took off without waiting for his answer. When I had exited the packhouse, Killian finally caught up to me after he recovered from his shock. "Astrid!" He yelled.

I gasped when he suddenly grabbed my arm stopping me from leaving.

"What are you thinking?" Killian glared at me as he gripped my arm so tightly that I could feel a bruise forming. "You are the Pack Luna, you can't just leave!"

I bravely stared into his narrowed eyes without cowering down before him. "Don't you understand, Killian? I give up!" I yelled into his face surprising him. "I don't want to be your mate and I don't want to be your Luna anymore. Just sign the divorce papers and let me go!" "I won't sign these damn papers!" Killian blurted out as he raised the divorce papers that had crumpled at his tight hold.

The corner of my lips slowly stretched as I stared into him. Slowly, I shook my head and started to laugh coldly at him.

Killian stiffened as he looked at me like I had gone crazy. Maybe, I truly have gone crazy because of him.

"Why not? Giselle is free to become your Luna, after all, she is already pregnant with your child," I retorted blankly.

Killian's face softened. "It's not like that. Giselle and I-"

I raised my hand stopping Killian from his words. "You don't owe me any explanation, I understand. You never like me and now that Giselle is back-"

"You don't understand, Astrid!" He yelled interrupting me from my words. "You just can't leave," he told me unreasonably as he gripped my shoulders.

"Oh! I get it now. The divorce papers are not enough right? Fine! Let's just reject each other now so you can have Giselle as your Luna without any problem," I continued to speak without allowing Killian to answer.

"I, Astrid Zorensen reject Killian Sullivan as my mate." As those words left my lips, a searing pain coursed through my body causing me to drop to the ground.

I shut my eyes tight as a soft cry escaped my lips. I clawed at my chest as I felt the agonizing torment coming from there.

Just like me, Killian also crumbled to the ground because of pain. He couldn't speak as his face contorted in pain with his hand clutching his heart.

He knelt weakly on the ground with one hand pushing himself up, trying to keep himself off the ground.

He stayed like that trying to bear the pain without accepting my rejection. If he had only accepted my rejection, he wouldn't have hurt that much.

Since I had already snapped whatever bond I had with him through the rejection, my body had coped up eventually.

When the pain had minimized a bit, I forced myself to stand up.

Killian just watched me with pain in his eyes. Now that he is weak and in pain, he will no longer be able to stop me.

With little strength that I had left, I turned around to leave.

"You can't live without me, Astrid!" Killian yelled. "I know you'd come back sooner or later. You will never survive out there!"

I smiled coldly without giving him the satisfaction of turning back and giving him attention.

I will never come back here. I'd rather die than come back.

 

Chapter 7: Fall from Power

Astrid's POV

My mind went blank as I wandered mindlessly, not knowing where my feet were taking me.

Now that I have divorced Killian and now that I got the freedom that I wanted, what now? How long will I be able to survive as a rogue when I'm pregnant?

A bitter smile rose to my lips as I lifted my face to the sky, thinking that if I tilted my head up my tears would stop from falling.

Instead, my tears blurred my vision even more when I saw the dark heavy clouds above me who were just like me, keeping in tears instead of letting it all fall out.

A soft cry escaped my lips as I continued walking. I'm pregnant and I had nowhere to go or no one to help me. It's going to rain soon and I don't even have a safe shelter where I could stay at.

"There is a small pack nearby, maybe we can stay there. You need to walk fast before the rain catches us." Ingrid, my wolf, spoke inside my head.

Since I'm pregnant, it's dangerous for the baby if I shift into my wolf. I really had no choice but to walk on foot.

I yelped when a car passed by and splashed me with mud. I stopped as I felt the muddy dirt seep through my clothes.

As if this day isn't already bad enough.

I lifted my head up when the car windows rolled down and I heard someone laugh. I froze when I saw Giselle inside sitting on the driver's seat.

"A dirt always goes back to dirt," she ridiculed. "That's what you get for forcing Killian to marry you."

I gritted my teeth as I glared at her while shaking off some of the dirt that had splashed on me.

Even if Killian likes her, I am still his mate. I can always go back to the Pack and take Killian from her if I want to.

"Did you really come all the way here just to ridicule me? I never thought I was worth such effort and time for you," I sarcastically replied.

She narrowed her eyes at me when she received my unbothered response. It might be worth her time and effort, but it isn't the same for her.

"Of course, I wouldn't miss to see you go down to dust. You are just a rogue now who has nowhere to go. You will be dead soon," she taunted. "This sight of you would be the last good memory of you that I could hold on to. Giselle drove away with a victorious smile on her face after she said that.

My eyes followed her car until she disappeared from my sight. When she was completely gone, a heavy weight settled on my chest making it hard for me to breathe.

I felt completely alone and lost, especially after hearing her words. Still, I did not allow her words to get into my head.

I continued walking until I reached a small pack on the border, but they refused to let me stay for shelter, even for a single night.

The small pack has an alliance with Killian's Pack. Killian threatened to cut their alliance if they allowed me to stay in their Pack.

The moon had shown itself already, and it was dangerous for me to walk in the middle of the night, but I had to go on.

"You should just go back, Astrid. Don't make things hard for yourself. If you go back now, I can still forgive you." I heard Killian speak through the mind link.

I scoffed when I heard his words. What an arrogant man! Why should I be forgiven when I did not even do anything wrong? He should be the one apologizing after all the things that he had done to me.

His words only angered me even more so I chose to ignore him.

I already chose this path and there is no turning back. I need to continue forward and be strong for my baby.

Anxiety knotted in my stomach when the first droplets of rain dropped to the ground. Soon enough, the rain intensified and I had nothing to cover my head from the pouring rain.

My teeth chattered as I shielded myself from the strong gusts of wind. I continued to walk on the road with the little strength that I had left.

I could not afford to stop until I found a shelter.

I stilled when I sensed rogues with intent to kill started to surround me. Rogues always prey on the weak.

Now, I am weak, pregnant, and alone making me an easier target.

I took a step back when the ferocious rogues started to show themselves. As a warrior, I could have easily fought against them if only I am not pregnant.

Weak and defenseless, I could only watch them in fear.

I raised my arms to defend myself when one of them finally pounced on me. I took in a sharp breath when the wolf pounced on my chest, forcing all the air to leave my lungs.

There was a sharp pain in my chest as I gasped and fell to the ground. I wheezed on the ground as the rain continued to pour down on me.

Before I could recover from my pain, one of the wolves bit my clothes from behind and flung me into a tree. My breath hitched as I fell to the ground.

These rogues, are playing with my body before killing me.

I blinked my eyes as my vision turned hazy. My head felt like it was being hammered down after it hit the tree.

I pushed myself awake as I fought for my life. I tried to regain control over my body as I slowly felt life seep out of me.

Just when I was about to fall unconscious, I saw a man from afar coming straight towards us.

 

Chapter 8: Family Ties

Astrid's POV

I groaned in pain when a pounding headache entered my senses as soon as I woke up.

I fluttered my eyes open and squinted in confusion when I found myself in an unfamiliar room.

I placed a hand on my head as I slowly stood up and looked around. For a moment I felt hazy until I blinked my eyes and collected myself together.

Soon enough, memories from last night flooded in my head, explaining why I was in pain, but it didn't explain where I was.

"Astrid." I looked up when I heard someone call my name. I came back to my senses when I saw Drystan enter the room.

"Are you okay? What do you feel?" Drystan asked me worriedly as he approached me.

Looking at him, I finally recognized the stranger last night before I fell unconscious. I couldn't believe that it was him and he saved me.

I openly stared at Drystan for I was too stunned to speak. I did not expect that I would see him this soon.

I had just stepped down as a Luna and divorced Killian yesterday. I'm sure he had already heard the news.

I felt embarrassed that he had to save me from the rogues last night. Drystan is still my ex-husband's uncle even though we are friends.

Now that I have divorced his nephew, he is no longer related to me. I'm not even sure if we could still count each other as close friends anymore because we really haven't seen each other for so many years.

We only meet once a year during the annual Pack Assembly. We just saw each other more frequently recently because of the things that had happened, and of course, my grandmother's death. "Thank you for saving my life," I muttered weakly after he came closer to me.

I couldn't even look into his eyes because I felt that I owed him a lot. He was there when I needed comfort during my grandmother's funeral, and now I owe him my life.

As if that wasn't enough, I was also the one who filed for divorce against his nephew.

I fidgeted my fingers nervously as I felt his eyes on me. Questions filled his head and I waited for him to ask his questions

"It's okay, Astrid. You are safe now. You don't have to worry about anything, my pack will take care of you." Instead of receiving questions from him, I received his assurance instead.

He must have noticed my discomfort. I'm still on the edge of my nerves especially since everything happened so fast.

When I realized that I was inside the Nightsong Pack, my nerves slowly relaxed.

I didn't notice the smile that crossed Drystan's lips for a second when he saw how his words greatly comforted me.

"You can also stay with us as long as you want," Drystan adds.

Although his offer is very tempting, I know I cannot stay here that long.

"Killian would be mad if he finds out that you allowed me to stay in your Pack," I muttered when I remembered how Killian threatened all the other Packs to stop them from letting me stay. Drystan fell silent when he heard my words.

"Is it okay if you don't tell him that I'm staying here? I won't stay long, I promise. I just need to recover and I will go my way." I pleaded with hopeful eyes.

My whereabouts needed to be kept a secret.

After a careful thought, Drystan nodded his head. I felt bad about asking for another favor from him. After everything that he had already done for me, I still dared to ask him to hide a secret from his nephew for me. "Astrid, can I ask you something?" Drystan asked shyly.

"What is it?" I asked back.

With the help he is giving me, he deserves his questions to be answered.

"A-Are you pregnant?" Drystan asked me with a careful voice.

My muscles tensed when I heard his question. No one, except for me knew that I was pregnant. Nobody could even guess that I was carrying a child. How could he know that I'm pregnant?

My heart pounded rapidly inside my chest as I looked into Drystan's eyes, trying to guess what he was thinking.

I was about to lie to him, but my long silence made it hard for me to deny the truth now.

I clasped my hands together with my eyes wide with desperation as I leaned closer to him. "Please," I whispered with my voice trembling in a mix of fear and vulnerability. "Don't tell Killian that I'm pregnant." Drystan couldn't speak, his face paled a bit when he heard my confirmation. Seeing his reaction made me even more nervous.

"Drystan, Killian would be angry if he finds out that I'm pregnant. He doesn't want to have a baby with me. My baby would only be in danger if he finds out that I'm pregnant," I tried to reason out with him. Drystan suddenly stood up and averted his gaze from me. I started to tremble in fear. I will do everything as long as Killian doesn't find out that I'm pregnant.

If the news of my pregnancy comes out, they would only see my child as a threat to Giselle's baby and we would be placed in more danger.

I waited anxiously for Drystan's answer, but what could I do? Blood is always thicker than water.

 

Chapter 9: Stranger

Killian's POV

It has been three days of restlessness, waiting for Astrid to come back and beg for my forgiveness. I wasn't expecting that she would even last for a day out there to realize her mistakes and eat back her words. She is too arrogant and prideful that she would rather sleep in the streets than admit her own mistakes.

I had sent a word to all of the surrounding Packs and told them that I would break my alliance with them if ever they allowed Astrid inside their Pack.

So far, all of them listened, they did not even allow Astrid to set foot in their Pack.

Now, I wonder where Astrid is staying at.

As the days passed by with no news of her, I hated to admit that I was getting worried about her. I had no idea where she had gone to hide, and I couldn't even contact her through the mind link.

"If you really want her to come back, why don't you just lower yourself and search for her instead? Nothing will happen if you just wait in here!" Liam, my wolf, screamed angrily inside my head.

Ever since Astrid had left, Liam had rarely talked to me. Whenever he does, he only says words to convince me to chase after Astrid.

No way in hell will I ever do that. Besides, I have already tasked my men to track Astrid for me. Astrid is not that special that I should chase after her.

Astrid needs me more than I need her.

"Killian, are you busy?" Giselle pokes her head inside my door without even knocking.

"Killian?" Giselle entered inside and closed the door behind her.

I just stared at her, wondering what business she had with me now.

Giselle's brows furrowed when she received no reaction from me. "Is something wrong?" She softly asked.

I sighed as finally gave her my attention. "I'm sorry, I was just thinking of something." I muttered.

Giselle pouted when she heard my words. "I noticed that you are stressing yourself too much lately. You work so much, you rarely make time for me and the baby."

Giselle knew she would get my whole attention once she mentioned our child.

"Giselle, as long as you take care of yourself and meet with our Pack Doctor regularly, there would be no problem with the child," I responded indifferently.

I can't take care of her myself every day if that is what she wants. Besides, that is exactly the purpose of the Pack Doctor in charge of her.

Giselle looked hurt when she heard my words. "It wouldn't hurt for you to take some time to visit me and check on us."

Hearing her words, I looked into her eyes realizing that I needed to clarify this with her. "Giselle, things aren't the same as it was before between us. We can't go back to the past," I told her bluntly.

The more that I am direct towards her, the more it will avoid misunderstandings between us. I do not want her to mistake the kindness I'm showing her for something else.

Giselle was taken aback. "What do you mean?"

"As the mother of my child, I will surely take care of you. I will provide you everything that you need and you will be protected in our Pack. You can take care of our child and watch him grow. You and your child will be safe forever," I explained to her to clear out our boundaries.

Giselle was lost for words. She just stood still and emptily stared at me.

"You also do not have to worry about Astrid," I added in case she was worried that she would hurt them. "I have ordered all the surrounding Packs not to accept her. You and your child will be safe forever. I won't allow even Astrid to hurt both of you." "Killian "Giselle tried to interrupt, but I made my voice louder than hers to stop her.

"Aside from those things, don't expect anything more from me," I told her without beating around the bush.

I cannot give what she wanted. It's better for her to realize now that I have no feelings for her

Giselle looked like she had lost something big when she heard my words, but she did not dare to argue with me.

"If there is nothing else, you can leave," I waved her off

I know I sounded rude, but there's no other way for me to say it nicer.

Giselle left without a word.

One of my men rushed in right after she left. He held a look of excitement in his eyes, as he brought me something.

"I checked the surveillance cameras and I finally found her," he declared.

My heart raced rapidly in my chest when I heard the news.

I watched the CCTV footage intently as he started to play it. My heart constricted inside of me when I saw how the rogues attacked Astrid.

Why didn't she fight back? She could easily win against those rogues if she shifted.

My brows wrinkled together when a strange man suddenly came into the picture and saved Raven.

Unfortunately, the camera didn't show the face of the stranger. I could only look at his back.

I paused the video as I stared at the back of the stranger. His back looked familiar, but I couldn't recognize him.

I clenched my fist in anger. Now I know why Astrid still hasn't returned until now.

Who is the man who took her?

 

Chapter 10: Nightsong Pack

Astrid's POV

I held my breath as I waited for Drystan's answer. I have already made backup plans in my mind in case he insists on telling his nephew about my pregnancy when he suddenly lets out a huge breath.

"Fine," he muttered making me look up at him with wide eyes. "I won't tell Killian anything if that will make you feel safe in my pack." Drystan finally turned around and faced me with his hands inside his pockets. My shoulder relaxes upon hearing his agreement. I let out a huge sigh of relief.

"Since you have left your Pack and had nowhere to go, why don't you join our Pack instead?" My jaw dropped as his offer hung in the air.

Is he serious? Did he just invite me to join his Pack when I'm his nephew's ex-wife?

"You don't have to worry about Killian. I promise you, I wouldn't tell him a thing. You are pregnant. It is dangerous for you to live without the support of a Pack," Drystan explained when he saw my bewildered expression. I pursed my lips and lowered my head as I thought about his offer. I know he is only doing this because he is worried about me. Technically, he is right and I needed his help also.

However, it is dangerous for me to stay with someone who has relations with my ex-husband. Even if Drystan fulfills his promise, I couldn't risk any chance of Killian finding out where I was and that I was carrying his child. "I'm sorry," I muttered under my breath. "I couldn't accept your invitation."

Joining Drystan's Pack as an official is a tempting offer, but why would I accept his invitation if I'm planning to leave soon?

As soon as I recover, I will leave this Pack and start my own life without any help from people who are connected to my ex-husband.

Drystan couldn't speak for a moment. He was stunned by my answer. He really thought that I would accept his offer. It would be stupid of me if I declined his offer.

Drystan slowly nodded his head as he tried to accept my decision. "Then if you change your mind, just tell me. My offer is always open," Drystan responded without hate.

"For the meantime, just stay with us until the Pack Doctor says that you are free to go," Drystan added.

I gulped as I started to feel uneasy. I am afraid that all of the members in Drystan's Pack would treat me differently because I am just an omega who is even pregnant with a baby who doesn't have a father.

"What's wrong? Drystan asked me when he noticed my discomfort.

"Is it okay if I just stay inside my room?" I asked him softly.

Drystan softly smiled at me when he realized what I was worried about. "Our Pack is different from the other Pack, Astrid. Here, we are not ranked by titles. We all treat each other equally. In my Pack, there are no omegas or third-ranked omegas. We all see each other as just equal beings," Drystan assured me.

I am amazed by how Drystan governed his Pack. Other Alphas would think that he is stupid for ruling his pack this way, but I admired him the most for enforcing equality in his Pack.

He is the first person to break this type of culture, and I'm sure it hasn't been easy for him.

"Why don't you go outside and meet the others, Astrid? I'm sure you will love them and you will be convinced to stay in our Pack."

I paused for a moment, thinking if I should grab the chance and I did.

I was right on time to meet them. It was lunchtime and everyone had already gathered at the Pack's cafeteria to eat.

As Drystan had said, everyone does treat each other equally. They don't look at each other's level of strength, they all treat each other like family.

Seeing them all eat together like one big family just showed their unity and kindness. Drystan is right, I now have the desire to join their Pack as soon as I met them.

I continued to walk in to grab my food. I wanted to join them eat and be a part of their family.

"Isn't that Alpha Killian's wife, the Luna of the Silvermoon Pack? What is she doing here?" My ears perked up when I heard someone whisper from behind me.

I felt a little awkward when I heard people talking about me. Being Killian's ex-wife would surely make things awkward for me in this Pack.

Years ago, Drystan was supposed to be the Alpha of the Silvermoon Pack. He was stronger than his older brother and deserved to be the Pack's Alpha more than him. However, he wasn't chosen just because he wasn't the eldest son. So, Drystan decided to build his own Pack, the Nightsong Pack.

After Drystan's older brother has died, the Silvermoon Pack is now passed down to Killian.

The members of the Nightsong Pack hated Killian because of his disrespectful attitude towards his uncle. They couldn't see why Killian was treating his own uncle badly. Before I could hear more of their conversation, a woman that shouted rainbows and sunshine suddenly entered the cafeteria stealing everybody's attention.

I stopped and looked at her when I realized that everyone was staring at her.

Who is she?