Ch. 61..65: Reclaiming My Broken Luna Chapter 61-65

Chapter 61: Self-Harm

Giselle's POV

Damien looked at me in disbelief as if I had just done a heinous crime he never thought I was capable of doing.

There are a lot of things he doesn't know about me, and a lot of things have changed ever since left me. He has no right to look at me with judgment in his eyes when he is the reason why I'm in a desperate situation right now. Damien shook his head like he wasn't able to stomach my lies anymore. "I'm going to tell Killian about this, whether you like it or not. Killian deserves to know the truth. It's up to him if he still wants to marry you after that or not." Damien walked forward with a determined look in his eyes, but I rushed forward and grabbed his arm to hold him.

"Please, Damien don't tell him. Don't do this to me, please," my voice croaked as I begged him in a whisper.

I tightened my hold around his arm, my fingers digging under his sleeves.

Everything would be over once Killian and his mother found out the truth. The only reason why Killian is going to marry me is because they thought my child was his. Once they found out the truth, not only our marriage would be over, but they would hate me also. "You've left me before, Damien. I don't want Killian to leave me too," I whispered as tears strolled down my cheeks.

Damien stopped and stared at me with brows furrowed together. In the end, he sighed and grabbed his arm away from my hold.

"You shouldn't have lied to them, Giselle. You should have told them the truth including our past. You should have been transparent to them from the start."

I held my breath as I stared at him with hatred. "You have no heart!" I shouted as I pointed a finger at him. "Fine, if you want to tell Killian the truth, then go ahead! I knew you were up to no good when I saw you," I hissed.

"I will tell him everything. This is not just for him, but this is for you and my child also. Killian is a smart and powerful man. There's no way he would see through your lies. Once our child is born, it would be hard to hide the truth from him."

I averted my gaze on him and scoffed. By then, I would be the Luna already. The only thing that Killian could do against me was to hate me for fooling him.

What matters to me is I secure my position as the Luna of the Pack

"Alpha Damien! How are you? I just found out from my son that you came for a visit. What made your way to our Pack?" Victoria suddenly came out of nowhere and called Alpha Damien as she made her way through the garden. Damien smiled as he went forward to meet Victoria halfway. He gave her a half bow out of respect making Victoria chuckle in happiness.

Victoria likes it the most when

people show her forms of respect

and even though Damien is an

Alpha, he still gives Victoria a half bow like she was something making her heart swell in pride.

"Giselle? Are you alright?" Victoria's gaze suddenly landed on me when she saw me at the side wiping my tears away.

She came so suddenly that I didn't have the time to hide away my tears.

"I'm okay, mother. Alpha Damien and I were just talking about the memories we had in the

Crimsonbane Pack. I just got teary," I forced out a small laugh as I dabbed at the tears in the corner of

my eyes.

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"Hormones, it's hard being pregnant isn't it?" Victoria replied.

I let out a smile. "Boys do really give their mothers a hard time. I need to get used to it."

Victoria laughed. "That's true, my son was willful while growing up. The fruit won't fall far from the tree."

Damien glanced at me after Victoria spoke her statement. I swallowed hard because of the intensity of his gaze. "Come inside and let's eat. The dinner is ready," Victoria walked ahead of us after inviting us, leaving us behind.

Damien stared at me, but I ignored him, completely refusing to meet his gaze.

Killian was already on the table when we arrived. We took our respective seats, and I ended up sitting right beside Damien.

The three continued to talk formally,

continuing with their trivial

conversation as the omegas started

to serve our food which was made extra special to give a lasting

ve

impression on our special guest.

They kept talking nonstop even throughout the meal while I remained silent beside them, just keenly listening to their conversation waiting to intervene if things got out of hand. "Killian, Giselle, and I talked to each other earlier and there's something she's going to confess," Damien spoke and I knew instantly what he's trying to do here.

My eyes snapped at him as my heart started to pound inside my chest.

"Killian, the child..." Victoria and Killian stared at him intently, waiting to let him complete his sentence. "Giselle's child is "

Before Damien could say another word, I landed a punch on my own belly and let out a cry to stop him. I felt blood trickle on my leg as I moaned in pain.

 

 

Chapter 62: Infanticide

Damien's POV

What the hell?!

"Giselle! Giselle!" Victoria and Killian shouted her name with worry etched on their faces as they rushed to her side.

Giselle cried out uncontrollably because of the pain that she had caused to herself.

I sat beside her with my eyes wide, staring at her in disbelief. I was frozen in fear when I saw how she punched herself in the belly, causing all this pain unto herself. Giselle has been sitting beside me all this time, so Killian and Victoria didn't notice how she punched her belly underneath the table with full force.

I was pushed to the side as Killian pulled Giselle out of her seat to see what was happening to her.

I couldn't speak. I don't even know if I should tell Killian that Giselle just tried to abort her own child.

"K-Killian! T-the baby, m-my grandson!" Victoria shouted in fear when she saw the puddle of blood beneath Giselle's chair.

Giselle had lost a huge amount of blood already, but her leg was still bleeding.

Killian cursed under her breath when he saw the blood she lost and how she couldn't stop crying out in pain.

"Quick! Someone call the doctor!" Killian demanded the omegas.

"Don't mover her!" I finally stood up and stepped up to them when Killian suddenly placed her arms around Giselle to try to lift her. "The baby's life is in danger; we cannot move her, or else it might harm the baby," I spoke up when he looked at me.

Since I know what Giselle had done, I also know the things we need to avoid to stop the possible bad things that could happen. Killian was alarmed by my words. He instantly removed his hands away from Giselle and kept her arms to himself.

"Ah! It hurts!" Giselle's face contorted in pain as tears streamed down the corner of her eyes.

She had done this to herself. She just tried to kill my baby inside of her.

"Just breathe in and breathe out," I whispered to her as I reached out my hand for her to hold on.

Giselle did as I said. She dug her fingers into my palm until my skin bled. Still, I didn't push her hand away. I endured the pain for her.

Although I was angry at Giselle for trying to kill my child, I had to push away my anger and focus on the health of my child. I will deal with Giselle later after I'm sure that the baby is safe. My eyes widened, and my breath got caught in my throat when Giselle suddenly pulled me close to her. I swallowed hard when I felt her lips brush my ear.

"The life of your child is in my hands, Damien. Don't do anything against my will if you don't want your child to get harmed," Giselle threatened in a soft murmur, causing a shiver down my spine.

"Y-You're crazy," I whispered back. Victoria and Killian are standing far from us and are so caught up in their distress that they do not notice us secretly talking to each other. "You're going to kill your own child just to keep your secret?" I questioned her.

"I swear, Damien. If they find out the truth, you will never have the chance to even see your child getting born This is everything that I have. If I lost it because of you, I will make sure you will lose your own child too," Giselle spoke coldly with gritted teeth as she held her pain in.

"What happened?"

Before I could give Giselle a reply, I was pushed to the side when the Pack Doctor finally arrived.

Without wasting any time, he did a complete check on Giselle to check her vitals and monitor the baby's health.

"What is happening to me, Doctor?

We were just eating when I suddenly bled out and felt pain in my womb, ts my baby alright? You said my

pregnancy was perfectly normal ner

Gisette quickly interjected before the Doctor could give his diagnosis.

The Doctor was taken aback by Giselle's words. He must have noticed that something was wrong while he was checking her vitals, but this wasn't his finding at all. "A-Alpha," the Doctor said, facing Killian with a pale expression. "I need everyone to leave the room for a while. I need to make an emergency procedure to help the baby survive."

"Is there something wrong with the baby?" I asked worriedly as my heart pounded inside my chest.

"A-Alpha," the Pack Doctor turned to me in surprise. I took a step back when I realized what I had done.

"The baby will be fine as soon as I have the procedure done," he answered.

"AAaaaahhhh!" Giselle screamed and convulsed in pain when her belly contracted again, sending a wave of agony through her body.

"We need to leave the room now!" Killian demanded when he saw the urgency.

As we left the room, a line of nurses walked in with equipment to help Giselle.

Anxiety gripped me when the door was closed on us. I stared at the wooden door, waiting with bated breath for an update on my child's condition.

Killian and Victoria are equally worried as well, thinking that my child is theirs.

I couldn't believe that Giselle had done this to our child. I never thought she would harm our child and hold him as leverage against me.

I need to take my child. I needed to take him away from Giselle to make sure that he would be safe.

 

Chapter 63: Baby Girl

Giselle's POV

I lay weakly on the hospital bed after the Pack Doctor managed to save my baby and keep it from dying.

All the pain has finally left my body. My baby and I are back to our normal health again. I just needed to rest until my body recovered on its own to avoid another incident like this in the future.

After giving everyone a scare, the Pack Doctor worked fast and diligently to save my baby, the future Alpha of this Pack.

The Pack Doctor was in full concentration as he worked, knowing that he would lose his head if he failed to save my child.

A profound sense of relief washed over him after he managed to keep my baby safe and alive with his successful emergency procedure.

After my body and the baby's health had stabilized, the Pack Doctor finally allowed me to have me moved to a hospital room for a complete bed rest.

I blinked my eyes as I stared directly at the blank ceiling above me. The whole room is in silence since the Pack Doctor prohibits anyone from entering the room in the meantime.

I should be sleeping right now, but even with the pain and exhaustion that tolled over my body, I still couldn't sleep as thoughts bothered my mind.

Jealousy wrapped itself around my heart as I remembered how Victoria, Killian, and Damien rushed to me with concern that was only directed at my unborn child.

No one was worried about me. They were just worried about whether my child would survive or not.

I was the one in pain. I was the one crying in agony in front of them, yet all they cared about was to be careful and not to put the child at risk.

I know that the baby was in danger more than me. I punched myself in my belly to drive direct harm to my womb.

I did that to purposefully drive harm to my child, but it wasn't my intention to kill it or put any permanent harm on it. With the technological enhancements and our advanced medicine, I wasn't scared of anything. I'm sure that nothing bad would happen to my child.

I only did that to scare Damien and to stop him from exposing the truth. Now that he knows that I'm not afraid of harming his child, I'm sure he won't do that ever again.

I would punch myself in the belly again if I ever heard him mention this thing to anyone again.

"You're already awake," The Pack Doctor spoke when he entered the room and saw my eyes open.

"I-I just woke up," I lied. "Is there anything wrong?" I asked him.

Earlier, he told me that everything would be all right, and I just needed to rest. What is he doing here, now?

"I actually have some news to tell you. During the procedure, I saw the gender of your baby. As the mother of the child, I thought I should let you know about it first."

"Is he going to be a boy?" I swallowed hard as I asked him.

I gripped the bedsheets tightly as anxiety gripped me. Please be a boy; you need to be a boy.

"I-It's a baby girl, Luna Giselle," The Doctor finally answered.

My breath got caught in my throat as dread washed over my body. I blinked my eyes in disbelief as my face paled.

Victoria would hate me if she found out I have a daughter, and Killian might change his mind about marrying me if he found out that my child won't be the Pack's future heir at all. This cannot be! All they care about is the child. If things didn't come out as they expected, then everything would be over.

I shook my head. "That can't be! It can't be a girl!"

"I'm sure your child is a girl, Luna Giselle. I could never get this wrong."

I continued to shake my head, unable to accept the truth. This isn't right. I cannot have a daughter. Whatever happens, I should have a son.

"N-No one should know about this," I spoke up as I collected myself together.

Dread and fear still filled me as I thought of how many times I'd already failed before. This is the only chance that I have. I cannot waste this opportunity anymore.

I have put in an effort to get here. I need to get through this. I can never fail myself again.

"Luna Giselle-"

"No one must know that my child is a girl, do you understand!" I spoke more firmly this time.

I watched how his throat bobbed up

and down because of my words. "You have to tell them that I'm having a son. If anyone finds out that I'm having a daughter, I will take away your position and ruin your reputation. Do you understand that?

The Pack Doctor's eyes widened in fear. His hands trembled as his lips bobbed up and down like a fish. His life and everything he has ever worked hard for are at stake here, just like mine.

If he told them the truth, I would take

away everything that he has. "Ifè Alpha Killian finds out that I lied to him, he would also do the same. You can no longer hide the child's true gender after she's born."

"I will take care of that. All you have to do is to hide this secret and do as I say. No matter what happens, I'm going to give birth to a son. Is that clear?" I demanded with a straight face.

It's either I give birth to a son, or I give up everything. My life and my own future are at stake here, so I could never choose to give up.

 

 

Chapter 64: The Heir

Giselle's POV

The Pack Doctor's brows furrowed as he fixed his gaze upon me. His lips parted slightly as if the words he wished to convey had become momentarily lodged in their throat.

I knew what he was thinking. That look of judgment in his eyes is all too familiar to me. Yet, he didn't say anything. He knew that one word out of his mouth, then I might just well kill him now to hide my dark secret.

So, with hesitation in his eyes and a heavy weight in his heart, he slowly lowered his head before me in surrender.

"Y-Yes, Luna," he stammered as he forced out his words.

Hearing the tremble in his voice, I was not fully convinced that he would be trusted with my secret.

However, I had no choice; he is a Doctor, and even if I kill him, someone is going to replace him and find out about the real gender of my child.

I need a Doctor that I could trust and work for me to hide the identity of my child.

I need to gain his trust and make sure he won't betray me.

"Good," I muttered beneath my breath.

He pursed his lips together in fear.

"I am a very generous person, Doctor. As long as you keep up the good work, I can help you with your career. You won't only be the best Doctor in this Pack, but you might be a renowned specialist to all Packs and even a famous doctor to the humans." His eyes brightened as my words filled his imagination. He swallowed hard as he thought about my tempting offer.

"Why don't you call the others? They must have been waiting anxiously for me outside. Why don't we tell them the good news you have right now?" I suggested, steeling him out of his thoughts.

The Pack Doctor vigorously nodded his head and did as I said. They have been waiting patiently for me outside, and the Pack Doctor only had to poke his head out the door to call them inside. "Giselle, are you all right?" Victoria approached me instantly after she first entered the room.

I forced out a cough as I lay weakly on the bed. "I'm feeling much better now," I muttered weakly as I forced out a weak smile.

Victoria's brows bent down in pity as soon as she saw my state. "You need to rest more, Giselle. Take care of yourself. The baby needs you to be healthy in order to survive," Victoria replied, still caring only about the baby.

This is the reason why they should not know I'm having a daughter. It will change everything once that happens.

I glanced at Killian and forced a smile towards his way as he stood up behind his mother. My breath hitched when Damien suddenly appeared behind Killian.

I thought he had left already. What is he doing here?

"How is the baby?" Damien asked the Doctor as soon as he entered the room.

"The baby is. There's no need to worry. As long as Giselle rests and avoids any stress, she will grow perfectly fine," The Pack Doctor answered, making Damien feel comforted. en FindNovel

Just like the other two people in the room, Damien only cared about his child.

"I thought Giselle needed rest. Why did you call us inside?" Killian asked as he placed his hands inside his pockets.

The Pack Doctor glanced at me, and I flashed him a fake excited smile. "I have something to tell everyone."

"Is there something wrong with the baby?" Damien intervened before the Pack Doctor could continue.

Victoria and Killian glanced at him with questions in their eyes. Damien is acting, obviously. He cares more about the baby than he should have.

"The baby is fine!" I interjected

before anyone could rush into any assumptions. "It's good news, and I couldn't wait to tell everyone, so I requested to have you all here."

I glanced at the Pack Doctor with a smile on my face, asking him to tell everyone the news without saying a word.

"I just found out the gender of the baby."

Victoria gasped in excitement while the two looked at the Pack Doctor expectantly.

"Congratulations, you are having a boy!" The Pack Doctor announced.

Victoria covered her mouth in shock and leaped in joy when she heard the news. Meanwhile, Damien and Killian shared the same expression.

They were in shock, but a smile lifted the corner of their lips.

"I knew it! I knew that I was going to have a grandson! The Pack is going to have a future heir!" Victoria shouted in joy as she looked at me with pride in her eyes.

I glanced at the Pack Doctor, who didn't say a word. He just watched as everyone burst out in happiness.

Damien looked shocked, and he suddenly teared up, unable to contain his joy since he knew he was the real father of my child.

Killian and Victoria's eyes were on me, so no one noticed Damien's reaction.

"My son, I'm going to be a father soon," Killian spoke in disbelief as he stared at me with joy in his eyes.

"Yes, Killian. You are going to be the father of our son," I replied as I forced out tears from my eyes.

I know Killian and Victoria would

have the opposite reaction if I said that I'm having a daughter. They would abandon me, and instead of joy, they would look at me with

hatred in their eyes. FindNovel

I need to do something. I need to make a plan on how I can fake my birth and have a son.

 

Chapter 65: Give up

Giselle's POV

Everybody had just left after the Pack Doctor pushed everyone away so I could have my full rest.

Once everyone was gone, silence filled the room once again, and my deafening thoughts started to get the best of me again.

A bitter laugh escaped my lips as I stared at my pregnant belly. "You are punishing me for harming you," I muttered bitterly as I drew my hand in circles on top of my belly.

I tried to harm her, and right afterward, she gave me this surprise.

I flinched when someone just barged into my room and flew my door open. I pushed myself up to a sitting position as I waited to see who that was.

My body tensed up when I saw Damien appear in the corner of my room.

"Damien?" My brows furrowed when I saw him appear at the corner of my room. "What are you doing here?" I questioned him as I scooted far from him.

"We need to talk," Damien answered tersely as he locked the door behind him and made his way towards me.

"This is dangerous!" I hissed at him. "Do they even know that you are here?"

"Everyone has gone to their beds. No one would think I'm here," Damien snapped back.

"What do you want?" I questioned firmly. Just when I thought I could finally rest, he entered my room and bothered me again.

"I want my child, Giselle. I'm not going to leave this Pack without my child. I've told you already I don't want my child to grow up without knowing that I'm his father. I won't let any man steal that role from me," Damien spoke furiously. I scoffed and averted my gaze from him. "Fine, you can have your child," I responded.

"What?" Damien's brows furrowed in surprise. He wasn't expecting that I would give up easily.

"I said you can have your child." I looked into his eyes as I repeated my words to him with a straight face. "Isn't that what you want?"

Damien paused as he locked gazes with me. His eyes narrowed slightly as if he were trying to read through my words. "That's it? You are giving up your son that easily?" He questioned me like I was a bad mother.

I know, in his eyes, I'm a bad mother. He saw how I harmed my baby while she was still in my womb. I also just used our child as a leverage that I can use to threaten him. All of this happened just within the day. It's so perplexing how so many things could happen in just one day.

"I'm not having a son, Drystan. I'm having a daughter," I blurted out without looking at him.

Damien visibly flinched back at my words. "W-What?" His brows knotted together, "But the doctors just said "

"Of course, I told him to lie, Damien. If they found out that I'm having a daughter, they would abandon me just like you've done."

Damien couldn't speak. He just froze and stared at me with guilt in his heart.

"Do you understand, Damien? Do

you now know how much this meant to me? You can still have your daughter if you want. I can no longer keep her with me anymore," I muttered with a straight face while my heart tore apart inside of me.

"Is that how insignificant your daughter is to you? You are doing all this just so what? Just so you could be a Pack's Luna? I can't believe you'd rather give up your own child than give up your ambition." Damien shot back in anger.

"What is it to you, Damien? If you hadn't given me false promises, if you hadn't abandoned me, none of this would happen. We would have been one big happy family, and no one gets to be abandoned!" glared at him with hatred in my eyes.

Damien scoffs, and then he slowly nods his head as he understands the situation. "I see, that's all that you care about... Fine, I'll take the child no matter what, and I don't care why." With that, Damien left the room, and once he was gone, my firm resolve suddenly shattered. The tears that I'd been trying to hold back finally welled my eyes.

"H-How could you do this to me?" My voice croaked as I tried to force my tears back. "Don't you know what you have done?" I whispered as I stared down at my baby bump. "Because of this, I couldn't be with you anymore. Because of what you have done, I had to give you up." Tears strolled down my cheek as I shut my eyes in heartache.

I know I shouldn't be placing all the blame on my child. The child is innocent; she hasn't even been born yet. It was I who decided to give her up just because of her gender. As a mother, I never wanted to give up my child. It wasn't a part of my plan to give my child away. My plan was to raise my own child and make Killian think that my child is his, too. However, I had no choice. I have gone this far. I can choose not to give up when I'm almost there. Sometimes, people have to make sacrifices for their dreams, and I'm willing to make one.