Ch. 181..185: The Alpha Contract Chapter 181-185

Chapter 0181

Neah

"How can I not remember, Raven? That makes absolutely no sense."

"Maybe you got confused. Maybe you lost track of time."

"You don't believe that. Damien must have said something to you." I mutter. I was out of the chair and pacing. Somehow, pacing has become the thing that helps me think. "What does Nyx say?" Raven asks quietly. Her eyes follow me as I move around the room.

"She thinks you are all lying to me. But you can't all be, can you? It's not like Moonshine where they kept secrets from me. You would tell me the truth, wouldn't you?" Raven nods her head

I lower myself down onto the edge of the bed. "There's a darkness inside of me, Raven. It's like, in the moment, I can't control it. Like it takes over and once whatever needs to be done is done, the darkness fades like it was never even there. Does that make sense?" "I think so. How long has this been happening?"

"Since Devon. Maybe even before, I don't know."

She rocks on the stool. "Have you told my brother? Does he know?"

"He is aware. But he also never had a problem with it. He enjoyed it. Until now."

"Dane does enjoy the darker side of life. I think that's why he gets on so well with Damien." I see her smile and I am truly happy for her, but Dane and Damien being friends was not the issue right now.

"Raven, I'm scared. What if they are right? What if I am too far gone? What if it's too late?" I glance down at my bump. "What about them?"

"That's a lot of questions to answer." She was deflecting.

"What else has Damien told you?"

Her shoulders drop as she frowns. "According to Damien, if you, you know....become Rogue, they won't survive."

"The twins will die?" I scoff

She nods her head at me

I could feel my eyes filling with tears. "So then, I just don't turn." It sounded pretty simple. "And no more killing." That's what Dane had said.

Raven lowers her dark eyes.

"It's not that simple is it?"

""Not from what I understand."

Why couldn't I just go back to the days, where the hardest part of my day was learning to read and write!

"I could still turn?" I never wanted to be a monster, but here I was, slowly turning into one.

Her heavy sigh seems to echo in the room as she nods her head.

"But the good news is, we have Damien who transitioned back and Mallory who helped him. She can help you too. If you let her." ""Mallory is bad news."

"Does it matter if she is the one who can help you and the twins." Raven offers. "At least then, you will be able to keep a closer eye on her."

Nyx is quiet but angry. She doesn't want to be shut away. She wants to be free and I was fighting every inch of my being to keep her from coming forward.

"Do you trust Mallory?" I ask Raven.

"I believe her when she says she regrets hurting you. But if you don't want to be alone with her, I can be with you. And maybe that way, I can stop you from killing her." She gives me a small smile.

It wasn't hard to find Mallory. Dane had set her up in one of the guest bedrooms, but she did seem surprised to see me at her door.

"Is...is everything okay?"

I grit my teeth, annoyance already deeply embedded within me. "I need your help."

Her lips part a little as she tucks a strand of her dirty blonde hair behind her ear. Taking a step back, she asks us both to come in.

"How can I help?" She asks, looking between the both of us.

"You helped Damien, right?" Raven mutters

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"You already know that."

"You can help Neah, right?"

"Ah, they have spoken to you." She turns away and fiddles with the blankets on the bed, refolding them as she tries to think of something to say. "It's not a quick fix." Mallory looks over to Raven. "I'm sure Damien has told you it's a constant battle." Raven nods and automatically, I feel that she has been keeping secrets from me.

"You have to stop that." Mallory snaps, making me jump.

"What are you talking about?" I frown back at her

"That look. You have to stop looking for the bad in every situation."

"I didn't say anything." I protest

"You didn't need to. Your face did."

Raven looks between me and Mallory. "I'm not even going to ask what I just missed."

"I know everything is ten times harder for you." Mallory speaks softly, "Your upbringing has made it harder. The shit you went through means you automatically see the bad. And I don't blame you for that." "You mean like you nearly killing me?"

She doesn't physically react to my question. Instead holding her spot. "Exactly."

'Just kill her and get it over with.' Nyx growls

'Shut up, I can't be dealing with you right now!' I snap back at my Lycan

"I want to help you, Neah, if you will let me. At the end of the day, you are my Alpha." Her brow crinkles up into a frown. "But if you want to kill me, then kill me."

"Don't!" Raven grabs my arm, even though I hadn't moved.

"Let go Raven, this has to be her choice."

"It's a test?" I murmur. "Because if I kill you, there is a good chance I will change?"

Neither of them respond

'Kill her, we will be fine.' Nyx muses. Was it her? Was she the reason I was becoming a monster?

I close my eyes. "I want your help. I want to see my pups grow up. I want to be with Dane. I want to live."

"Good, that's a start."

It was like Raven said, I didn't have to trust her, I just had to let her help me, for now.

Mallory gestures for me to sit down but I stay on my feet and she cocks an eyebrow at me. "Now normally I would insist on intense exercise..."

"Intense exercise?" Raven cuts her off

"Why do you think Damien is built the way he is?" She laughs, "but Neah, as you are pregnant and supposed to be resting, this is going to be a little more difficult." "And the fact Salem is out there somewhere." Raven adds

"That too. Hmmm" Mallory turns to Raven, "Is she clear to have sex?"

"I am here!" I snap, frustrated.

"It doesn't stop them." Raven shrugs her shoulders. "Wait, did you tell Damien the same thing? Who was he sleeping with?"

Mallory doesn't answer her and speaks to me. "Part of the key is keeping your mind busy and keeping your body active."

Nyx rolls her eyes but at least she keeps her mouth shut.

"That's your advice?" i splutter, "Sex and keeping busy?"

"That's just the beginning. It's a long process, Neah. It's not a quick fix overnight and you need to be prepared for that." "How long did it take Damien?" Raven asks.

"Has he told you?"

"No."

"There's your answer."

"I don't....I don't follow." I mutter

"It will always be a battle. Some will win, some will lose." Mallory's brown eyes lock on mine.

"You have helped others, other than Damien?" Raven asks

She nods.

"Other's, so there are more?" I ask

"Damien is the only one who has one hundred percent fought the Rogue life and continues to fight it."

"You tried to help some of the others but it failed." Raven clarifies.

My chances of me fighting this were not in my favour.

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her jealousy was starting to rub off on me.

Who do you think it is?' Midnight mutters as we follow Neah out of Mallory's room. She was all hyped up after learning that one of the strategies to help Neah would be sex. She was desperate to know who Damien had been sleeping with while he was going through it and 'We should go back and demand the information!' She sulks

'Neah is more important.' I mutter, though I wanted to know the answer too. They were in the middle of nowhere. There was a female Rogue and Mallory. It couldn't have been the Rogue. Did that mean he sleeping with his best friend?

No. No. That was all before me. I can't be jealous of his past.

'Raven.' Danes voice interrupts my thoughts. 'Keep Neah upstairs.'

'What's going on?' I link him back.

'I will explain later. For now, Neah doesn't need to see this.'

Neah was already at the top of the stairs when I stopped her. "Hey, can you come and help me with something?"

"Raven, I'm starving." She mutters with a groan. "And if I'm to get through this, I at least need to keep these two happy." She rubs her stomach.

"Then you are in luck. I have some candy bars in my room and it won't take long."

Her shoulders drop as she sighs. Thankfully she turns back and follows me to my room. "What do you need help with?"

"I...." shit I hadn't actually thought of anything.

'Ask her to look at your wound to make sure it's not infected. You can't see the back of your leg.' Midnight mutters in a hurry.

I repeat Midnight's words to Neah, she nods her head and follows me to my room.

My eyes flicker to the window, half expecting to see another handprint, this time, there is nothing there. Being watched was something I had never really had to worry about until now. And it felt like no matter where I was, eyes were on me.

It takes Neah less than a minute to inspect my leg. "I don't really know what I'm looking for, but it doesn't look any worse." She drops down onto the edge of my bed. "You are hiding something from me. You could have had Damien look at your leg and I know you could have seen your reflection in that massive mirror."

My cheeks flame and I quickly turn away. That mirror had seen a lot the last couple of days.

"It's because of this darkness in me, isn't it?" She pauses. "Raven, just tell me, you know I hate secrets."

"I don't know what it is. I just know Dane asked me to keep you upstairs."

She immediately gets to her feet. Puffing out her cheeks.

"Focus on what Mallory said. You need to keep busy." I pull out a handful of candy bars from the drawers and hand them to her. "Let them deal with it. Everyone has your best interests at heart. None of them are doing this to intentionally keep secrets from you." Something hits the window, making both of us scream. Blood is smeared as though something had just slid down the glass.

"What was that?!" We both speak in unison and move to the window

I pause when I see him. He was just as I remembered him and our eyes met moments before men started charging him. He disappears into the forest.

"Was...was that him?" Neah whispers to me as Damien crashes into the room.

"In human form." I feel a knot in my stomach.

Damiens arms wrap around me. He pulls my back in firmly against his chest. A reminder that he was here. "They will get him. But I want to know why you are in just a tee and panties."

"He was out in the middle of the grounds, in broad daylight. He threw something at the window. I'm his target." I mutter, feeling a rush of panic.

"He won't get to you." Damien tells me. "I will kill him myself."

"What did he throw at the window?" Neah asks. "I can't quite see."

Damien pauses. "I think it's best you speak to Dane about that." He reaches forward and pulls the curtain closed.

"Tell me!" Neah demands

"Neah, he's right, wait for Dane."

I see the last thing I want to see. Her eyes slowly darkening, until there is only a very faint ring of blue. What if Damien was right? What if this is it? What if we had run out of time? "Damien, don't." I mutter, at the same time, I knew the next words out of Neah's mouth would be an order. An order he couldn't refuse.

"Tell..."

"Dane's coming." Damien interrupts her. "He will give you all your answers, probably more than what I can give you right now."

She stares at him and very, very slowly, the black in her eyes retreat. Thank the Goddess for that.

"Neah?" Dane's softly spoken voice fills the room. He only ever spoke to her like that. Sometimes it seemed like he was almost afraid of breaking her or maybe he knew it would help reason with her more. I just knew he never spoke to the rest of us in that way. Her eyes flash to him. And for a brief moment, I expected the darkness to return.

'She's scary when she is like that.' Midnight murmurs. I agreed and sometimes, it almost felt like I barely knew her.

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"Come with me." He holds a hand out to her.

Her eyes flash back to Damien and I.

"Come." His word is more forceful this time but she goes to him. His eyes flash up to Damien. "Don't let my sister out of your sight."

"I'm not planning on it."

Dane closes the door as Damien's breath fans over my cheek and his hands cup my ass. "Now are you going to tell me why you have no joggers on?"

"It was the only thing I could think of to keep Neah upstairs."

"Really?" He muses.

"Not like that, obviously. I wanted her to look at my leg."

"This leg." His fingers skim around the outside of the wound. Small spikes of pain snake out across my leg, followed by jolts of electricity as his teeth graze my ear lobe.

"Damien," I whisper as his lips travel to my neck. This really wasn't the ideal time, but he made me feel like the world fell away from us. That it's just me and him and nothing else mattered.

His hands slide up under my tee, firmly squeezing my breasts as the tips of his fingers pull on my nipples until they become hardened peaks. Pinching them until another moan breaks free from my throat.

He pulls my tee off and turns me around to face him. "On your knees."

I drop, without hesitating and ignore the pain in my leg. He is quick to unfasten his jeans, letting them fall and freeing his hardening cock. Taking it in one hand, he rubs the tip along my lips. I couldn't resist flicking my tongue over it. He growls as his cock jerks from my touch.

Looking up at him, I open my mouth a little wider, taking the whole head of his cock into my mouth.

Rocking his hips, the tip of his cock rubs back and forth over my lips as I continue to keep my eyes locked on him.

He sinks a little deeper as my tongue swirls around his solid length.

"Fuck, Raven." He growls and his hand locks in my hair as he thrusts into my mouth.

Droplets of cum fall on to my tongue, letting me taste his saltiness that somehow had a sweet kick to it as it rolled back my throat. When I didn't gag, it made him more determined to fuck my mouth. Hitting the back of my throat over and over until he filled my mouth with his load. With his hand locked in my hair, he pulls my head back, wiping away anything that had escaped my mouth.

"Open." He mutters. His dark eyes drift down to my open and very empty mouth. A smile creeps across his lips as he pulls me to my feet. His hand cups my pussy before I'm even fully on my feet. His fingers stroke over my wet panties, pushing against the fabric, that is barely holding him back..

"You are so wet." He mutters against my ear. Pushing the fabric to one side, he slides a finger inside me. I fight the moan that is brewing, until his lips hit mine and a second finger makes its way inside of me. "Ohhh...."

His thumb circles my clit as his lips break from mine. He watches me as the orgasm builds. Beads of sweat make their way down the crevice of my back as I struggle to hold on.

My hands lock on to his shoulders as my nails dig into his skin when finally, the orgasm tears through me.

Of all the people I slept with, the orgasms had never been as good as they are with Damien.

His fingers retreat, but continue to circle my throbbing clit.

"Tired?" He muses as I let my body fall against him. "Because I'm not done."

His cock is already hardening against my leg when he pulls me onto the bed, pushing himself between my thighs.

His lips and teeth alternate between small bites and kisses as they work their way down between my breasts

He stops, just above my belly button. "Are you still thinking about him?"

"What?" I prop myself up on my elbows to look at him. What the hell was he talking about? It hits me, he had felt what I felt when I saw Salem in human form.

I try to push Damien off, but it was a useless attempt. His body doesn't even budge.

"I am your mate, I'm the one who can make you cum so fucking hard that you are dripping all over me."

"This was some kind of test?!" I snap

"You passed." He mutters as I grab the pillow and smack him across the head. He still doesn't move.

"Get off me!" I growl at him.

He stands up, glaring at me.

"If you had even bothered to ask, I felt sorry for him. Not that I wanted to sleep with him!"

"He was your mate once."

"And he rejected me. And he did this to me!" I point at my leg before hobbling across the room and shutting myself in the bathroom. i was furious that he had even thought I would consider Salem. "Raven?" He is leaning against the other side of the door.

"Just because you can read my mind, it does not mean you have it all figured out. So fuck off." My blood was boiling, I couldn't believe he could even accuse me of such a thing. "I'm not leaving you alone."

"Then don't fucking talk to me!"

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