Ch. 391..395: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 391-395

Chapter 391: The reality

Beau

I wish I could do more from him. he sees me and the first thing he thinks about is money and how I lack in that aspect. I don’t mind spending my last dime on him. In anybody’s eyes, this is a lot but Lanis is worth the world and more.

yeah, I thought of how bigger and better the wedding and honeymoon could have been if I had just asked him for money but that would have ruined the surprise and I didn’t want to do that.

I wanted things to be perfect and I know that Lanis is not materialistic. he would have accepted anything small, as long as it involved me.

"Wow, come see the bathroom,’’ he shouts so loud from all the excitement. I walk over to the bathroom and he turns to me with a smile big enough to light up the whole room. He grabs my hand and leads me into the bathroom.

"Look at the tub, this will fit the two of us perfectly." he winks and my heart skips a beat. He sits down on the edge of the tub and motions for me to sit next to him.

"I am so excited right now, I just want to fill it up and have a bath,’’ he exclaims.

"Then fill it up,’’ I urge him because I will take any opportunity to see him naked.

He smirks at me and my heart dances around its cage. He stands up, undoing his sleeves and taking his shirt off. Now he is just teasing me and I am living for this moment.

He walks back to the tub and I watch him "Do you know what a honeymoon is?’’ he asks me, slowly climbing my leg. I hold him around his waist and he breathes into my face.

"You could enlighten me,’’ I tease him back with a smile on my face.

"It’s the one opportunity to have sex, so much sex,’’ he breathes into my ear and the heat makes me all excited and warm.

Lanis is a tease, the kind I live for.

He stretches his hand out and turns the tap, I turn and watch as the water starts to fill up in the tub. I wanted to do something that would make him relax. a vacation away from the community and his family.

all the drama from Fallon that I haven’t dealt with yet. I didn’t want to think about the problems. I just wanted to be with Lanis in a serene place, where all I had to focus on was his happiness.

He reaches for my shirt and I let him take it off. I want him to see me, in a light that he has never seen me in. I want to be the most beautiful thing in his eyes. I know that I already am but I want to be even more so.

Lanis starts to kiss me and I melt into him. His touches are warm and he tastes like mint and sunshine. he is the only light that I need in my life "Will you join me in the tub," he asks, his eyes dark and inviting.

my eyes stay on him as I nod my head slowly, I don’t have anywhere else that I would rather be. This week is for the two of us and the two of us alone.

once he succeeds in getting me out of my shirt, he reaches for my pants and I let him take them off too. he jumps off of me and my eyes find their way to his stomach as he starts to fondle with his pants.

"I win," he says and I laugh.

he is being very adorable right now. The bump in his tummy is bigger than it was yesterday. He is growing faster than I thought he would. I doubt that this is going to take up to nine months.

Lanis seems to be open and ready for this pregnancy. I didn’t want to be too excited because I didn’t want to scare him off but now, it seems like we are on the same page. "You are staring again,’’ he says, probably noticing where my attention drifted to.

"I like looking at you," I tell him.

he rolls his eyes "You are not looking at me, you are picturing your babies,’’ he walks back to me. he is still in his boxers as I take him in my arms "Am I going to have to worry about you choosing them over me all the time?’’ he raises a brow.

I like that he is talking about them now, they are beginning to be real in his eyes.

"You know you will always be my number one,’’ I assure him. yes, my kids are going to be important to me. they will become my number one priority and I know that he will feel the same way when they come. but for now, I am more than happy with him.

"I know that once they come, they will hog our room, I saw it in the dream. I wouldn’t get a chance to be alone with you again,’’ he scowls at me. He is being jealous of our babies.

"We will always have alone time, trust me."

I am not going to be one of those parents that forgets why they had kids in the first place. I am doing this because it is with Lanis. our love is the one thing that made this possible, so I won’t forget it.

"I will always be yours," he says and kisses me, the kiss becomes deeper as he presses his chest into mine, wanting to feel even closer to me. Once the water is almost at the top, he pushes me into the tub without a warning and I hear his chuckle as he steps into it slowly.

bringing my head out of the water and glare at him "No fair,’’ I tell him as he slides until he is in my arms again "You didn’t even help me take off my underwear.’’

he reaches under the water and I watch him as he helps me take it off with a smile on his face.

"Better?’’

I nod my head as he smashes his lips to mine again, kissing me with all the power he has in him.

Chapter 392: The perfect life

Darrien

The reception is empty. Everyone seems to have gone. The music is still playing, but everywhere is empty.

I look at the dance floor and Jabi is moving to the music slowly. He is drunk. maybe I shouldn’t have let him drink all that champagne.

There is a smile on my face because everything Jabi does is cute to me. Right now, he is dressed in a grey suit. one that I picked out for him myself, and I have to say, my man is the sexiest person I have ever laid my eyes on. The music becomes slow and he turns to me, a goofy smile finds its way to his face as he whines his waist to the slow tune.

I stay seated on the chair with the drink in my hand. I volunteered for cleanup since I didn’t help Beau with the whole organization. it is not my fault anyway; he didn’t let me know that he needed help. Not that I am one to offer my services.

Jabi stops dancing and comes to me. He takes my drink and sits next to me. I look at him and he is already looking at me.

"Are we the only ones left?" he asks, I nod. He takes my hand and kisses it. I smile at him because he is the most beautiful part of my night.

the music starts again and he drops my glass on the table, wrapping my hands around his waist.

He is very drunk. He doesn’t know what he is doing. He is swaying his hips slowly and I am trying my best not to laugh because he is so cute.

"You look beautiful tonight," he says, I ignore the alcohol in his voice.

"Thank you, you don’t look so bad yourself." I giggle, he chuckles.

"I love you."

His words have my heart racing. every word of affirmation is something that I didn’t know I needed. Today was a wake-up call, one that I didn’t know I needed. Beau and Alanis gave me a lot to be envious of. I want what they have.

The fairy tale.

"Do you love me enough to marry me?’’ I ask him with a serious expression plastered on my face.

I never in a million years, believed that those words would come out of my mouth. I and Marriage don’t go together. I have never thought about myself associated with getting married to someone. Jabi is the only one that could even make me think in this direction.

yeah, this is me just spitballing. I know he is drunk and will probably not remember this by the morning. So maybe that is why I am brave enough to even bring this up to him.

"Of course. we are basically married,’’ he slurs with a smile on his face. He is still moving to the music with my hands on his waist. I grab his collar and pull him closer to me.

"I want a real one.’’

He chuckles nervously "What does that even mean?’’ he is still smiling and dancing. I am pretty surer he doesn’t even understand what I am saying right now--I don’t understand what I am saying and why I am even bringing this up.

Maybe I am drunker than I thought.

"I want to get married. I want to get married to you." I speak. I am pretty sure he is not listening to me. He is still swaying his hips to the music and looking at me.

"Alright. I will marry you." he is smiling at me.

Well, he is drunk. He will forget all this tomorrow.

Maybe that is why I said it out loud just now. I wanted to hear him say yes even though I know he can never say no to me.

saying it out loud makes it real.

"I want you to have my babies too. I want what beau and Alanis have.’’

He opens his eyes wide, maybe this confession will sober him up.

"Are you serious?’’ he asks me.

"Yes. I have been thinking about what they have and I want that. I want to be a family with you.’’

This might be me being jealous of what they have. I know that I am in a good place with Jabi. I am the happiest that I have ever been and it is greedy for me to expect more but today made me crave the things that I never even thought about up until now.

"We are a family,’’ he leans forward and rests his forehead on mine. my hands are still on his waist but he has stopped dancing. He seems more focused than earlier.

"It is not the same,’’ I close my eyes.

"Hey,’’ he breathes out quietly.

I open my eyes and he is looking at me with a serious expression "We don’t need to follow what others do to be happy. we are not like beau and Alanis. wedding or not, we are a family." him

"I just want a better future with you," I say. him

"What do you mean?’’ he asks me. him

I take a deep breath and close my eyes again "I want to give it all to you. you deserve the best and more and I feel like I am not doing right by you."

"You think this is not enough?’’ he asks me.

I shrug because I don’t even know anymore.

"What is it that you want?" he asks me.

I don’t know.

"You,’’ I answer.

He smiles "well you have me, so I think you should stop worrying about everything else and just focus on us. Don’t look at Beau, don’t look at Alanis. just focus all your attention on me,’’ he winks and my heart melts into goo. he presses his lips to mine and my whole world seems complete. I let go of his waist and my hands find their way to his cheeks. he holds my face in his hands as we share the most passionate kiss that we have ever shared. It is not a drunk kiss either. I feel everything. every emotion that is passing through me. he is mine and I am his. both

our lips part and I smile at him "I love you.’’

After a couple of minutes in our embrace, he pulls away from me "Come dance with me,’’ he grabs my hands and lifts me off the chair.

I smile because this is the perfect life.

Chapter 393: The woman in the room

Gyles

Thanks to Beau, we are back in the community. Now that we are here, there are no plans of going back to Jules’s house.

He has been doing a lot of research. no one seems to know what is wrong with me and why I am still hearing all the voices in my head. I don’t want to overthink and then make them all worry but I don’t know what else to do.

Blue and Rex are treating me like I am broken.

They are not acting normal around me.

"You know, you are stronger than you think you are."

Blue says to me, which I find very weird since I never told him anything. the only fear I have is disappointing them and that is exactly what I have been doing all this while.

"I don’t know anymore. I am exhausted,’’ I cry because the fact that he brought it up makes me want to just air it all out. we are on our way home from the wedding and Rex is in front of us with Jules. the walk from the venue to the community is short. less than fifteen minutes.

"We are all in this together, you are not alone,’’ he tries to assure me but he says that now. what happens when I can’t control the voices? what if this ends up making me a monster?

"I know that but if this continues, all I will do is hurt you and Rex." he stops walking and I look at him. there is a serious expression on his face.

"This is not the end of the world and I need you to see that, can you do that for me?’’ he breathes and I want to agree with him but I don’t know how to. Blue mentioned that this was happening to me because there was weakness inside me. the book chose me because I am the weakest out of the three of us.

we get the community "I want to be alone tonight; can I just go to my room?’’ I ask him because this is harder than I thought it would be.

there is hesitation in his eyes. I know that he is worried about me. I see it in his eyes.

"It’s just for one night. I will be ok’’ I convince him and he sighs loudly and walks over to Rex. I watch as Rex struts over to me with a worried expression on his face.

He probably doesn’t think it is a good idea for me to be alone. I understand him but I think it will be good for me to be alone.

"We need to be together right now," he pushes for me to agree but I have already made up my mind. today has been exhausting. we never planned to come back to the community. we were waiting on Jules’s friend who is a warlock. he has been asking around. for someone that is alone, he sure knows a lot of people.

I don’t know if the man that we are supposed to meet up with is going to be of help but I want to be a little optimistic.

right now, I just need a breather.

"I promise, this is not a problem. I will be in my room all night,’’ I assure them but they still don’t believe me.

I know, I am the trouble maker in the relationship. I have been the one that has caused all the problems.

they don’t trust me, even though they say they do and I don’t blame them. "Just let him do what he wants," Blue walks back to me, shaking his head. he doesn’t agree with me but he is not going to fight me on this.

"Fine, I’ll come look for you tomorrow,’’ Rex says in a very soft voice. he is not happy with what I am doing but he is not going to fight me on this.

I want to hug them both but I know that they are not completely happy with me. I watch them walk to the part where the guest quarters is located. the house that Beau arranged for us.

I walk to the main house and straight to my room. my phone rings and I see a call from Alanis. he is the only one that I get along with.

"Hey,’’ I answer as I close the door and switch on the light. the room is stuffy and exactly the way I left it when I decided to leave and go look for Blue.

I think about the decision I made and part of me regrets being so stubborn and not listening.

"I find it weird that you are calling me when you are supposed to be enjoying your honeymoon,’’ I mutter into the phone as I walk over to the window and open it up to let some fresh air in.

"Oh, this is the last time you are going to hear from me for the rest of the week, so I just needed to make sure you are okay. I didn’t expect to see you at the wedding." he breathes into the phone.

"I wouldn’t have missed it for anything. once Beau mentioned it, I made sure we came.’’

I stay in front of the window and look out to the moon. the sky is dark and full of stars. the stars make me think of blue.

"I am glad you came, is everything sorted out. with the book and the voices?’’

I sense the worry in his tone. I hate that all I do is make people worry about him. I hate it so much.

"We are working on it. I am trying to stay strong as much as I can. I am trying to stay positive.’’

he is silent and then he speaks up. "I want to hear you say that. I want to hear, you be positive."

I don’t want to lie to him. I want to be positive. I want to believe that this is going to end.

"I want to be positive and I am trying but it is getting harder."

He sighs into the phone "I wish I could be of more help. I don’t even have any solutions to what you are going through."

I manage a smile even though he can’t see me. maybe this is more for me than him "I don’t want you to worry, I want you to enjoy your honeymoon. I will be fine,’’ I try to assure him, even though I don’t even believe myself right now.

I am at this place where I believe everyone will be better if I am dead.

"Okay, I will try to call you again. if you need to talk, don’t hesitate to call me,’’ he tells me.

I end the call and somehow, I feel better, talking to Alanis helps. I turn around and freeze at the sight in front of me.

What the hell.

There is a figure standing by the door. She is wearing a black dress; her hair is long and black. I can’t help but think she looks so familiar.

"Are you here to kill me?" I ask her in a very faint voice.

She smiles at me. "No, I am here to talk to you."

Chapter 394: The book

Gyles

There is a woman in my room.

A woman that I have never met in my life but somehow, it feels like I know who she is. There is this vague familiarity surrounding me right now.

"How did you get in?’’ I ask her, my hands are shaking. I know that I might win in a fight but I don’t even know what is real anymore.

is she even here right now?

The door didn’t even fucking open.

it is almost like she just appeared out of nowhere.

"We need to talk,’’ she manages, taking a step towards me. I move backward because I don’t even want to be close to her. this is another thing that will happen because of me. if I had just stayed with them, instead of running, none of this would have happened.

"Who are you?’’ I ask her, my voice still shaking.

her voice sounds very familiar.

I don’t know where I have heard it before. it’s one of those things that you feel but can’t pinpoint. Her dress is messy and it looks like it is has been ripped in some places. in fact, she doesn’t even look harmful. "Who are you?’’ I ask her again, this time a little more demanding. I look down at her legs and she is barefoot. there are cuts on her leading all the way up to her knee where the dress stops.

"You know who I am,’’ she whispers in a low tone. I furrow my brows in confusion because this is all so very confusing to me.

"I don’t know you; I have never met you in my fucking life,’’ I shout at her. I am losing my cool and I can feel my heart racing faster than it ever has before.

"Think about it, you know my voice,’’ she walks over to me and this time, I don’t withdraw from her. there is a weakness, a pull that seems all too familiar.

just the same way, the voices have control of me.

Fuck, the voices.

That is why she sounds so familiar.

She is one of the voices in my head, which just means that she is not real. This is just another one of their powers.

"Why are you here?’’ I ask her with a lump inside my throat.

"We need your help.’’

I close my eyes as she tries to bore into them. her eyes are brown and very engulfing. I feel like I am a prisoner, trapped with no way of ever being free.

"You are not real, this is all in my head,’’ I let out soft huffs. maybe this is just me trying to convince myself.

"Yes, I am not here right now but I am real. this is actually happening and the more you fight it, the harder it will be for you,’’ she tells me, her voice is steady and calm. I open my eyes and she is still watching me.

"I don’t want this, I never asked for this.’’

She nods "you need to see the bigger picture. We are not evil like you think. this is not about the book."

"What do you want from me?’’

She looks away from me and for a second, I watch her walk away from me and to the bed. I watch her pick up something from the floor. unable to see it from where I am standing, I wait for her to turn around and when I see it in her grip, my heart starts to race. I walk over to the door because this is insane.

"Why is this here, what the fuck is going on,’’ I stutter in complete and utter confusion. she ignores my questions and walks over to me, the book still in her grasp. Blue took the book with him, why is this here, in my room? She hands over the book to me and I stare at it in complete shock.

"What is this?’’ I whisper. She looks back at me and for a moment, her eyes are sad. I think this is the first time I am actually seeing the pain in them.

"You know what this is. this is the only connection we have. You can’t let it go yet."

"Why do I need to be connected to you? why won’t you just leave me alone,’’ I cry. I am terrified. I have never felt this much fear in my life. I have been through a lot. I have lost so many people but this is the first time I am this terrified.

"We need you; we don’t have a physical body so we need to use this as a medium.’’

"I can’t help you. I am the last person that can help you. you have to believe me." I try to convince them that they are making a mistake trusting me. I look at the book and my hands tremble as I try to keep it steady.

"You are the only one that can help us.’’

She reaches for my hand and tears well up in my eyes. I try to pull away from her but she is too strong. "We are not evil; we just need your help,’’ she repeats.

"Why me? I am not the right person for this. I just want to be left alone,’’ I beg her with so much desperation.

with her hand still on mine, she manages a faint smile "They all say that you were chosen because of your weakness but I chose you because you are strong. You are the only one that can help us."

I hear the door of my room turn and in a split second, she vanishes into thin air. I look at my hand and the book is still in my grip. I don’t even have the chance to hand it over as the door to my room opens and Blue walks in. His eyes dart from my face to my hand. I know he sees the book too because of the shocked expression on his face.

"What the fuck is this?’’ he manages still confused.

I wish I had the answer for that.

Chapter 395: Uncertainty

Blue

"What the fuck is this Gyles?’’ I ask him, completely confused with this situation. I came to his room to try and convince him to come back to the guest quarters because I didn’t want him alone and this is what I find.

He drops the book and it falls to the ground with a loud thud.

"I don’t know how this got here, I swear,’’ he is shaking uncontrollably right here. His face is white, almost like he just saw a ghost. I’ve seen him scared before but never like this.

I walk over to him and grab his hands in mine. I want to be upset because there is a part of me that is wary of this situation. He was so adamant about staying alone tonight.

Was this the reason?

"Why is this here, how did it get here?’’

Tears start to fall from his face as I try to soften his trembles. He looks genuinely terrified right now.

"She came here, she said she needed my help. I don’t know why this is happening to me." I reach for his face and wipe the tears from falling. We stand there for a moment, both of us trying to let our bodies come down from the adrenaline.

He pulls me into him, his body still shaking. I hold him there, trying to be strong for him. I don’t know what’s happening but I want to be there for him.

This situation is crazy.

I thought leaving the coven will make things easier. I thought all the problems we faced there would end in that god-forsaken place but the fact that it keeps following him is making this a lot harder for me to grasp.

"Who came to you?’’ I ask him after a couple of silent seconds.

he looks up at me, his eyes are red, his skin is pale. His hands are still trembling against my touch.

"The voices in my head. The ones from the book,’’ he tells me. I don’t want to go outright and think that this is all in his head because I’ve seen things that are hard to explain. I don’t know how I would explain this to anyone. it doesn’t make any sense.

"What did she want?’’

"I don’t know. she didn’t say it. You came into the room and she disappeared.’’

I frown "So I interrupted whatever was going on?’’

"I don’t want this, I never asked for any of this," he says, slightly angry.

I pull him into a hug and he grips me tighter than ever.

"Just breathe, she’s gone now. You’re with me, nothing will happen to you now.’’

I try to assure him that everything is going to be okay but I don’t even know anymore.

Dad is supposed to get someone that could help us. Maybe it is a good thing that the book is here with us. we can use it to find out what the hell is going on.

"I don’t want you here alone, come on, let’s go back to the house. we will figure this out.’’

He pulls away from me and the fear in his eyes grip me with all the strength left in me. I hate this.

I want this to end.

**************

We get to the house and Jules is in the living room watching some football game on the tv. He looks up at me and manages a smile "Look who decided to stay with us,’’ he says with a welcoming expression on his face.

I nod because I just want to get Gyles to bed, I need him to get some rest. He has cried enough for one day.

"We are just going to bed,’’ I tell him, slowly shifting my eyes to Gyles. His expression is still solemn, he still looks freaked out.

I wish I could make him feel better but I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to make this right.

we walk into the room just ask Rex walks out of the bathroom in just a towel. He smiles widely and runs into Gyles’s arms, probably happy that he is here with us.

"You are here,’’ he mutters still in his arms. I watch the scene in front of me. Gyles raises his arms up until they are around Rex. His body seems to relax a little more. It’s like he needs this right now.

I watch them as they embrace.

this is giving me nothing but joy.

Today was a wake-up call. Beau and Alanis’s wedding made me want what they have. I need to get our relationship in check because I need us to be one. I need nothing but their love.

Once they pull apart, I cough out nervously "You are going to stay by my side until this is all sorted out." I direct to Gyles.

He nods his head immediately; I know he doesn’t even want otherwise. today really scared him and I don’t want him to feel that way again. I want to be his protector. I want to take care of him and I can’t do that if he is away from me.

"What happened?’’ Rex asks confused.

I relay what happened earlier because there are no secrets between us.

I am taking this transparency to the heart. I don’t want to keep anything from them.

I know he must know what is happening. there is only one thing right now that would leave me and Gyles so panicked.

"The voices?’’ he answers his own question.

"There was someone in his room,’’ I tell him. Gyles is very quiet, maybe he is still trying to process everything and I don’t blame him. this is a lot. I don’t know if I actually believe that there was actually someone in his room.

I just want to believe him right now.

"We need to do something, what did they say?’’ he turns his attention to Gyles, who covers his face with his hands. "You have to talk to us. We need to know what this means."

"I don’t think she is evil. I don’t think the book is evil anymore." he takes a deep breath "Fuck, I don’t know anymore.’’ he uncovers his face.

I don’t know either.

This is a lot.