Ch. 151..160

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 151-“Wait a damn minute, I haven’t agreed to this damn idea” Letty speaks, totally ignoring me. “We should do an extensive research, I suggest that since Ava hasn’t had them before she’s the one to buy all the top notch brands and try them. Her input as a total virgin to S** toys will help us evaluate what’s lacking in them and how we can improve and make ours better” Corrine nods her head. Grinning at the idea. I could tell she was feeling really good right now. I wasn’t, given I was going to be sort of their lab rat.

“Do I have a say in all these?” I ask in irritation.

“Not really. We’re going to make you lots of money so…” Letty leaves the sentence hanging.

“You do realize I don’t really need the money. I am loaded” She just shrugs her shoulders before brushing me off. “Doesn’t really matter, besides, weren’t you the one that said you needed something new? A challenge? Well here it is. It will keep you busy without really tiring you out” I think about it for a while before sighing. I mean, how bad can things get, right?

“Fine” I sigh in defeat.

They both squeal in excitement. Hugging me close to them. Squashing the breath out of me.

Seeing them so excited made excitement rise inside me. I haven’t had any in a while, maybe this will bring some life back into my soul.

I “Now that we have that out of the way, I have something to ask you, Ava” Letty says as we break from each.

I look at her in question before nodding my head. “Go ahead” “Who is Calvin?” I’m surprised at her question because I haven’t told them anything about Calvin, Besides, after that day I haven’t seen him again. Gunner comes to my house almost everyday, but I haven’t seen his dad.

“He’s my new neighbor. How do you know about him?” “Well, Travis told me about him” she pauses and I frown more confused about how Travis knows about Calvin “Apparently at the get together, Noah mentioned him. He actually did more than mention him. He told Rowan that Calvin made you happy and he wouldn’t mind if you and him married and gave him and Calvin’s son more siblings. Travis said that Rowan blew a casket” “Seriously?” Corrine asks with wide eyes.

“Yes. Travis said he was so jealous that he almost broke the table in half at hearing that” Letty added with a grin.

I laugh. I laugh so hard that my stomach cramps. 1 I couldn’t believe what she was saying. It all seemed insane that Noah would try to make his father jealous. It was even more crazy that Rowan would be jealous.

Do you know how absurd that is? If there was someone who wouldn’t care whether I F***ed the entire male population it would be Rowan.

“That was a joke right?” I ask her after I stop laughing.

It had to be a joke. The only one Rowan has ever been jealous over was Emma.

He was not jealous over me and he never will be.

“It isn’t. Travis is even questioning Rowan’s feelings when it comes to you” Letty insists.

“Why is it hard for you to believe that Rowan was jealous?” Corrine asks curiously.

“Because I know him. He would never be jealous. He was probably just angry that Noah keeps trying to push us to get back together.” I tell Corrine before turning to face Letty.

“As for Travis, please assure him that there’s nothing going on. When his sister came back he asked me not to get in the way of Rowan and Emma getting their happy ever after and so far I’ve done exactly that” “I don’t think that’s it. I think he too is probably starting to realize he might have been wrong about you and Rowan. I think it’s starting to sink in that Rowan might have feelings for you” Letty whispers.

I still remember the warning Travis gave me at the hospital after Emma arrived.

He was probably worried that I was getting in the way and that his sister wouldn’t get her happy ever after.

“The only feelings Rowan Woods ever had for me is hate. No one can convince me otherwise. What you’re all saying is insane. You can’t hate someone for nine years then all of a sudden develop some positive feelings for them. It’s impossible” It’s possible if the feelings were already developed inside him but he didn’t know or acknowledge them” Coltine put in.

I shake my head in refusal. I was starting to get annoyed by them.

“Ava..

“No Letty, just drop the F***ing subject. I don’t want to hear about Rowan okay?

Even if he magically developed feelings for me, which I doubt, don’t you think it’s already too late?” 1 Letty doesn’t answer and Corrine looks down at the table. The mood was soured and now I just wanted to go home and forget all about this Rowan nonsense.

Why couldn’t they just let this go? Why were they insisting on something that isn’t there? They were insane if they believe all that bullshit. I knew Rowan and I know he has nothing but resentment for me.

I shake my head to clear my mind. I wasn’t going to dwell on what they said. My focus now was on my children, foundation and this absurd new business we were starting.

Rowan was in the past and he’ll remain there. I don’t see that ever changing.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 152-I watch my lawyer nervously as he goes through the business proposal Corrine sent me.

I have to hand it to her. The woman worked fast. It hasn’t even been a day since we discussed the ideal and already she had the proposal ready.

It was either that or she had already worked on it beforehand and she was just waiting for Letty and I to agree.

Staring at Rodgers, I wonder what was going on inside his head right now. He has been not only my lawyer but my advisor since I made my first million. I never get into a business without having his input.

first. So far he is the best and has never been wrong.

All the businesses he told me had the potential to prosper actually did and those he warned me against ended up failing. So as you can see, his input is really important.

“What do you think?” I ask him when I can’t take the nervousness anymore.

His eyes scan the document one more time before he lifts his head.

“It’s a great idea. I can see its potential” he answers.

I’ve worked with the man long enough to know that there was a ‘but‘ in there.

With the way he paused, it was clear that he had concerns, but he didn’t know how to let me know.

“What is it?” I prompt, wanting him to speak up before my heart bursts in anxiety.

He stares at me carefully. As if he was trying to gather his thoughts and organize them before speaking.

The more he continued to stare at me without speaking, the more anxious I got.

“Spit it out, Rodger’s” “I just feel like this isn’t really a traditional idea” he finally says.

“know it’s not” “Plus there is the other aspect.” He pauses before continuing. “Have you thought about how this will affect the foundation aspect of your life” frown at that. He sees my unhappiness and rushes to correct himself.

I’m not saying it’s a bad idea. It’s actually really good and has the potential to become a huge company, All I’m saying is that as the founder of Hope foundation you have an image to uphold. Now that people if they find out you’re part owner of a S** toy company” My eyes drop to my desk.

Since I had extra rooms in the house, I had decided to turn one of them into a home office given I was going to spend the majority of my time home until after I gave birth.

1 stew on it for a while before realizing that what he said is right. I was the face of a children’s organization, so, for me to be in that line of business, it will be viewed as going against what is morally acceptable when dealing with kids.

I sigh in defeat. I was against the idea at first, but I got excited about it later on.

It seemed like fun to start such a company with friends.

“You’re right. A lot of the social elites would probably stop donations once word gets out” He nods his head and then we are quiet for a moment.

I was deep in thought. Thinking of how I was going to let Corrine and Letty down easily. I know they would be disappointed but I’m sure they’d understand where I was coming from. After all, that’s what friends do.

“This is a big opportunity and I don’t want you to lose it.” He starts, pulling me from my thoughts. “Would you friends be open to having you as a silent partner?” Slowly, my excitement starts growing. I can see in which direction he is heading towards. In some of the business I helped with capital, I was a silent Investor. I had shares and I was consulted in major decision making, but most people didn’t know I was a partner. Usually, only the CEO and the board knew of my identity.

“That could work. I’ll have to talk to them, though I’m sure they won’t have a problem with it.” I tell him, smiling. Feeling my mood lift.

“It’s settled then” he says standing up. “Talk to them and then let me know so I can draft up the required documents” “Okay. And thanks once again Rodger’s for your help “No problem. After all, you do pay me a hefty amount to make sure I sort out your worries” he says with a wink, making me chuckle.

Tl see you, Ava” See you too, Rodger’s” He leaves after that and I immediately pick up my phone. I was going to talk to Letty first, then Comine She picks after the first ring.

Letty, I’ve got..” she cuts me off before I can finish my sentence.

I’m really sorry Ava. I’ve wanted to apologize, I just didn’t know where to start” Her voice is so remorseful and so sad. It makes me want to soothe her by taking away what was worrying her “What are you talking about, Letty? What are you sorry about?” I stare at the wall opposite me in confusion. As far as I can tell, we haven’t gotten into an argument. She hasn’t done anything that would warrant me forgiving her.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 153-“For pushing. I keep pushing the issue about Rowan not realizing how much it is hurting you. I just want you to be happy and a part of me thinks Rowan is your happiness. You’ve loved him so long that it’s hard to believe that all of it is gone.” “Letty…” She was on a rant so she doesn’t give me a chance to speak.

“I want you to have a chance to be happy. You told me that you used to want Rowan to have feelings for. you, but now that it seems he has, you don’t believe it and you’re against it. I just don’t get it”

I sigh. This again?

I was getting tired of hearing them speak about Rowan and his so–called feelings. It grated on my mind every time they did. Rowan didn’t factor in my life and neither did his feelings. He could take them and shove them up his stuck up ass for all I cared. 1 I’m going to explain it this once and then I never want to hear about this ever again” I breathe before continuing.

1 loved Rowan and a part of me will probably forever will. Sure, you can’t get over that kind of love but it can be slowly killed by actions from the one you love.

Rowan hurt me in so many ways that the love I once had for him turned into poison. A poison that was slowly killing me inside. That love I had became too painful for me, so in order to preserve the little pieces of myself I had, I buried it so deep that it could never be dug up again” I feel my heart hurt when I speak of the love I had for Rowan. Like I said, it was probably still there, but it was buried under years of his cruelty. The pain he inflicted later became heavier than the love I felt.

He never lifted a hand against me, but sometimes I wish he had. Physical wounds were easier to heal unlike the mental one and those inflicted on the heart and soul.

“Rowan hurt me in a way I would never wish on my worst enemy. Burying that love was the only way I could survive the hurricane that was him.” I hear her sobbing. It hurts me, but I have to make her understand.

“I’m sorry, Ava. I didn’t mean to drench up such painful memories” “I know, Letty and I know you want me to be happy, but Rowan isn’t the key. If we were never happy in the nine years we were married, what makes you think we’ll be happy together now?” Like I keep telling Letty, I doubt Rowan has any feelings for me except hate, and even if he miraculously developed some, too much has already happened for us to move past it.

I’m really sorry. I promise never to mention it again” I exhale in relief.

“Thank you, and besides, did you forget I swore off men? Love isn’t for me.

Looking at the men I’ve been with, history has taught me I have horrible taste when It comes to them” I chuckle.

She lets out a small laugh. She had a field day the day I announced I was done with men.

“Yeah I remember. I guess the business idea came at the perfect time. Free S**

toys for you” this time her laugh is more robust and I’m glad I was able to draw her from the melancholy feelings she had. 1 “Speaking of which…” I proceed to tell her everything we discussed with the lawyer. Explaining to her why I had to be a silent partner instead. Just like I had predicted, she accepts the idea.

“I completely understand. I see no problem with it and I’m sure that Corrine will understand too” “I’ll speak to her later” “Which reminds me, did you buy from the list we sent you like we asked you too?” She asks after some time.

“I was planning to go after the meeting with my lawyer” “Well you better get your butt up and go..your feedback is very important” she pauses and I hear someone talking to her before she gets back on the phone. “I have to go, there’s an impromptu meeting and I’m needed” “It’s okay. Have a great day and take care” “You too and remember to let me know once you’ve gotten the toys” 1 After that we hung up.

I finish doing my chores, take a shower, get ready then I leave. Heading straight to the mall. It doesn’t take me long to get there.

After parking my car, I head inside. I was a nervous wreck. I was excited but at the same time I felt like I was doing something wrong. Like everyone will judge me and find me lacking by entering a S** toy shop, let alone buying from it.

I follow the directions to where Corrine told me her favorite shop is located. I breathe a sigh of relief when I realize that it in a somehow hidden location.

I pause when I get to it. Still unsure of what exactly I had let my friends talk me into. It was as I was seriously debating whether to enter or not, when I heard his unmistakable deep voice.

Ava?

Ah F***! What the hell was he doing here?

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 154-I swivel around. Shocked to see Rowan standing behind me.

Could this day get any worse? I ask myself, groaning Internally.

“Rowan?” I shriek, caught off guard. “What the hell are you doing here?” Of all the times I had to bump into him, why now when I was standing in front of a S** toy shop?

This had to be the most embarrassing thing I’ve ever experienced.

“I could ask you the same thing?” He says looking behind me.

I feel my cheeks redden, because I know nothing I say will get me out of the situation. I was standing in front of the shop and its windows displayed a variety of S** toys. It was hard to shrug off what kind of store this was I look back at the store before facing him nervously. I don’t know why I was nervous, but I was.

“I’m here to shop for maternity clothings and buy some things for the baby,” I lie.

He looks at me. His left eyebrow raised. “In a S** shop? I don’t think you’ll find what you’re looking for here, unless you have other things in mind” The tilt of his mouth lets me know that he was teasing me, which was a completely new concept to me.

Instead of answering him, I start walking in the other direction. I expected him to at least leave me alone, but he doesn’t. Instead he falls in step with me.

“I didn’t take you for a woman who would use S** toys” he says, making me halt in my steps.

What the hell was wrong with him. Why the hell was he even bringing this up?

Didn’t he get the memo that I wanted nothing to do with him? That I didn’t want him near me. It was the reason why I walked away in the first place.

“First of all, you don’t know the type of woman I am. You never did, mainly because you thought I was beneath you or something and second of all, what’s wrong with using dildos and vibrators to pleasure myself? I am a human being with needs, and they have to be fulfilled one way or another. Now leave me the hell alone” it I see an inferno light up in his eyes, but I don’t dwell on it. Not giving him a chance to speak, I start walking again. This time I quicken my steps.

The man infuriated me and at times like this, I want nothing more than to slap the daylights out of him. It the sarcasm.

I was now fuming. I would like to blame the pregnancy hormones, but I couldn’t put all the blame on them.

“Ava?” “What?“stopping, I snap, now realizing that he was striding next to me.

He was looking at me with his head tipped to the side. Almost like I was a puzzle he was trying to figure out.

“Here’s a mom and baby shop” he says pointing at the store that was a few feet from us.

I know I had lied about why I was here, but seeing the store made me realize that I was indeed in need of maternity clothes. Plus I had yet to buy anything for the baby. 1– I stomp my feet grudgingly as I walk toward the store. I stop just as I cross the threshold and put my arms out.

“What the hell are you doing?” I ask him when I realize that he was about to walk inside with me.

“Isn’t it obvious? I am here to help you shop” “I didn’t ask nor do I need your help, so turn your ass around and go back to where you came from” I had reached my limit with him being so pushy about things that no longer concerned him.

Where was he when I needed him? Now that I don’t, he thinks he can force himself in my life? It’s not going to happen.

Instead of backing off, he gets into my face,so much so that there is barely any space between us.

“I’m staying and I’m going to watch as you try every F***ing piece of cloth, Ava.

You better get it inside your head because I’m not leaving until you buy what t you need” My mouth falls open at his audacity. How dare he? Who the hell did he think he was? He wasn’t even the baby’s father for F***s sake!

Before I can get a chance to give him a piece of my mind, someone interrupts our stare down. You could literally cut the tension with a damn knife.

Hi, how can I help you two?? the sweet voice says behind us.

“My wife is looking for some clothes for herself and the baby” Rowan answers before I can, leaving me completely shocked What the actual hell? Wife! I wasn’t his F***ing wife anymore. Why the hell would he tell her that? I swear Rdwan has completely lost it. He has gone ahead and joined the loony train.

That was the only explanation why he was behaving in such a way.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 155-The store attendant smiles and motions for us. “Follow me. My name is Wendy and we’ve just received beautiful exclusive pieces that I’m sure your wife will like” Before I can correct her for her mistake. Rowan grabs my hand and gently drags me Following behind Wendy like a damn puppy.

into the store.

She sits us on one of the sofas then leaves. I turn and glare at Rowan.

Completely pissed off.

“What the hell was that back there?” I fume, feeling my anger reach dangerous peaks.

He looks at me lazily, before casually answering me with another question.

“What was what?” “Don’t play dumb with me! Why the hell did you call me your wife, have you forgotten we’re divorced? Or that you’re now dating Emma?” “Here are the pieces” Wendy says walking towards us with a stack of clothes.

What was with her and interrupting me. I was now mad at the poor soul because Rowan had pissed me off.

“How about we start with this one?” She asks, holding a beautiful maxi dress up for me.

If it wasn’t for the fact that I was seething, I would have appreciated how beautiful the dress actually was. 1 “Go, try it on” Rowan says seemingly unaffected by the suffocating tension in the room.

Grabbing the dress, I stomp to the direction of the changing rooms. He had another thing coming if he thought that I was going to model for him. He could rot in hell for all I cared.

Taking out my clothes, I put on the dress. The moment I look at myself in the mirror, all my anger just sort of fades away. I looked damn beautiful. The dress did wonders for my figure and my growing baby bump.l immediately decide to take it. J After that I call Wendy. She hands me the next piece of cloth. It was a sundress and looked really nice. Just like with the maxi dress, this one also looked really good on me. I loved their exclusive pieces. They were gorgeous and just perfect for expectant mothers. 1 It was as I was about to try on a pair of jeans, that the door opened. His presence immediately alerted me that it wasn’t Wendy in the room with me.

stood frozen, my eyes connecting with his through the mirror. He was holding a blue top while I stood in “What the hell, Rowan!” I whisper–yelled turning to face him while trying to hide my ass and bulging boob which literally spilled out of my bra.

Which reminded me, I needed maternity bras too.

He doesn’t say anything. His eyes slowly peruse my b*dy. It almost felt like a gentle caress and it made me uncomfortable.

Taking one of the long dresses, I use it as some sort of shield. Hiding my partial n*kedness.

He drops the top and starts to move towards me as if he was in a sort of trance.

Before I have the chance to do anything, he cages me between his b*dy and the mirror. My breath starts coming out rapidly as I start to panic. I never thought that I would find myself in such a position with Rowan.

He lifts his hand. His finger caressing my l*ps, my neck before falling on my cleavage.

“They’re bigger than I remember” he says gruffly, his voice filled with something I don’t want to acknowledge.

“Step away Rowan,” I murmur.

Instead of doing what I asked, his hand continues its descent downward. He pushes the dress aside and places his hand on my baby bump.

My breath still and his picks up.

His eyes stare at mine, and that’s when I see it. I wanted to be wrong. I thought I was wrong, but I wasn’t. It was there as bright as day. Shining through his stormy grey eyes, I saw something that I never saw directed at me. I saw nothing but burning desire.

I’m completely frozen by what I’ve seen. Unable to believe it. Unable to understand it. I remain frozen in shock as his head descends.

Before he can get too close, I push him away. Unable to take in what was happening or the desire that had coated the room.

My shove seems to have woken him up from his trance. He shakes his head as if trying to get rid of the fog. I was breathing hard, confused as F*** about what had happened.

Ava he says almost on a plea, d Hot another F***ing word” I snarl at him.

I quickly put my clothes on before fleeing the room. I really loved the clothes, but I will be damned if I had to spend another minute in Rowan’s presence.

Within minutes, I’m outside the mall. Getting into my car, I drive off. My mind was a mess as I tried to figure out what the hell was wrong with Rowan and why the hell he did what he did.

Rowan has never looked at me with desire, so why the hell did it look like he wanted nothing more than to take me against that mirror?

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 156-Rowan Fuck! I watch as Ava flees from the shop. I want to follow her, but I know that I’ve messed up big time.

I I saw the panic in her eyes, but it was like I was in a trance. My mind shut down completely when I saw her almost nked bdy.

I didn’t realize that I had moved or that I had cornered her. It wasn’t until she pushed me away that I realized what I was about to do.

She was my wife for F***s sake, but she has never affected me on this level.

I’ve seen her nked countless times yet this time it was different. I couldn’t F**ing explain it, but it was. It was like I was seeing her for the first time.

Our S** life was good, but I had always held back. I still loved Emma back then and every time I sough Intimacy from Ava, I felt like I was betraying Emma.

It was the hardest at the beginning of our marriage. I drowned in guilt each time I touched Ava. Always drinking myself stupid after we were done. After, I learnt to ignore the guilt. Learned to push it back so my b*dy can get what it needs.

Even though I didn’t love, Ava, I couldn’t cheat. After watching my parents, I took marriage and my vows seriously. I had countless of opportunities, but I couldn’t have brought myself to do it even if I wanted to.

I run my hand through my hair. Grabbing the strands in frustration: The intensity at which I’d wanted Ava a few minutes ago almost brought me to my knees.

I couldn’t get the image of her Sy little bdy out of my Fing mind. Or the image I had of moving her panties to the side and sinking inside her warm heat.

I hadn’t even seen her whole bdy yet I was Fing hard. Harder than I’ve ever been my entire Fing life. The whole thing just confused me and scared the crap out of me. it Cursing again, I leave the room. The need to escape filling my bones. I was not only trying to escape the memories, but also the need that had taken every inch of my bdy.

I usually don’t shop in malls. I have everything custom made by an exclusive designer. Mom had bought some toy for Noah online and she’d wanted me to pick it up for her.

never expected to see Ava. I saw her just as I was about to pull off the parking lot. She looked nervous and shifty, so I decided to follow her, because I was curious on what would make her that nervous.

Part of me wishes I hadn’t because now I’m F***ing sure she’ll want to distance herself even more.

Getting into my car, I drive off. Heading towards my parent’s house.

I was wound up so tight that it was barely hard to breathe. Everything inside me was colled and I still couldn’t get the damn image of Ava out of my mind.

I get to the house in record time. Picking up the toy, I head on inside. I was going to hand it over, then I was going to my club to get myself a F***ing drink.

“You’re finally here, did you get it?” mom asks looking up from the sofa she was sitting on.

I just nod my head. Gritting my molars against the frustration I was currently feeling.

As always, a mother knows when something is right. When her child is struggling.

“Is something wrong?” she asks frowning.

I’m not a heart to heart man but for a F***ing moment I think of talking to her. I stop myself though because how–can I?

How can I tell her that the woman we’ve spent almost a decade hating, now has me all tied up in knots? That she’s all I think about almost every second of the day.

How can I tell her that if Ava hadn’t pushed me away, I would have probably F***ed her in the changing room? That it wouldn’t have been enough and I would have taken her back to my home and started all over again?

“Is this about the article?” her question pulls me from my daydreaming.

“What article?” She straightens and picks her phone from the table. She scrolls through it, taps on something and then hands it to me. I take a seat as I look at the article that was published about an hour ago.

[Rowan Wood caught on camera with ex–wife Ava Sharp while entering a morn and baby shop. Could the divorced couple be expecting their second child? Stay tuned as we gather more information on whether Ava is truly pregnant and if she is, when it happened given they’ve been divorced for months] I curse. My hands folding into fists.

From what I know, only four people knew that Ava was pregnant. She was going to lose it when she finds out about the article.

place mom’s phone down and take my own. Dialing the number of my one of my contacts in the

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 157-Sir?” she picks up on the first ring.

“There is a new article about me and Ava circulating, I want it taken down” I growl, fueled by anger.

“I see it, give me ten minutes” “Also let it be known that if anyone is caught writing articles about Ava’s private life, they’ll face bankruptcy” “Yes sir”

I cut of the phone, still fuming.

Ava has always been a private person. I was going to protect her privacy at all coast. It doesn’t matter what it takes.

“What’s going on between you and Ava, Ro?” mom asks after her while. Her gaze piercing mine as if she was trying to find the answers by staring deep into my soul.

I was glad she didn’t ask if the pregnancy rumor was true. That wasn’t my secret to tell and I wouldn’t even have told her.

“I don’t know” I answer her in frustration.

“Kate tells me that you’ve been distant with Emma. Emma told her that you broke things off and won’t even talk to her. Is this because of Ava?” I think of lying to her, but what would be the use?

“Partly*

I hear her sharp intake of air. I don’t look at her. Afraid of what I’ll see in her eyes.

“Did you know that Ava wasn’t Kate and James‘ daughter?” I ask when she doesn’t say anything for a long time. 1 “Yes” “Is that the reason you hated her?” “No” she says, surprising me. “I hated her because she took your happiness away. She took your light away. You loved Emma so much and because of her obsession, you lost her.

You don’t know how painful it was for me to watch my son living like a zombie. It was like when you lost Emma you died, Rowan. We shake my head. I don’t want to remember how I was drowning back then. I was basically a dead man iving. It was the worst period of my F***ing life.

You hated her back then, but I see that has changed. I spent almost thirty minutes looking at the pictures of you two standing outside that store. You stared at her in awe. You looked at her like she was your world. You looked at her like you were in love with her” I face my mother, Staring at her in shock. She had to be wrong somehow.

“Gabe found out she didn’t lie when she said she was drunk. He was able to get the footages of that night” I whisper, trying to change the subject.

It still sits heavily in my heart knowing what I did to Ava. All the F***ing pain I caused her. She took it all until she couldn’t anymore. Until she finally had enough and kicked us out of her life.

“Then I need to apologize to her for my part in shunning and hating her” her tone is somber and I know it’s already killing her to know she had been wrong about Ava too.

We’re quiet for a moment. Each of us lost in our own thoughts. That’s until she speaks up.

“You have to tell her Rowan. You have to tell Ava you love her. Nine years have already been wasted. Nine years where you would have been happy with her.

You have to tell her before it’s too late” “But how can I tell her?” I run my hand down my face. “How can I tell her when I’m not even sure what feel? She has me in knots and I don’t really know what it is I feel towards her. It’s all so F***ing confusing” And that is the bane of my existence. The fact that I don’t know how to describe what I feel for Ava.

“Language!” she admonishes before sighing. “I think you spent so much time hating and resenting her that those ugly feelings are now fighting against the feelings that are coming up and the developing ones. That is why you’re confused. Because you are trying to reset feelings that have been dominant for years” She continues. “Just take your time and don’t rush it. As for Ava, I saw how she looked at you. The love and she once had is either gone or buried deep inside.

My advice, don’t push her too much or she’ll snap completely cut you off” I nod my head as I accept her advice. After spending a few more minutes with her, I leave.

I was more relaxed than I had been when I arrived, but the tension was still there.

It was as I was driving to my office that I accepted the truth.

I did have feelings for Ava. Strong ones at that. I just didn’t know how deep they went, or what exactly they were. It was time I find that out.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 158-The moment I saw my parents on my doorstep I knew that they had seen the damn article.

Letty had sent me the link a few minutes after I got home. It pissed me off more than I already was. I hadn’t been ready to let others know and the damn paparazzi had blasted it on the entire internet.

I wasn’t even worried about the others reaction. My worry was solely on mom and dad’s reaction. I just haven’t found a way to tell them that I was pregnant.

The entire thing was even more complicated since Ethan was still not talking to them.

The article had disappeared a few minutes before my parents arrived. I had a strong suspicion that Rowan had something to do with it.

Just his name brought anger like no other. I shake the thoughts of what happened in the changing room and focus on my parents who were staring at me questioningly.

“You saw the article didn’t you?” I ask the obvious.

The house was quiet. Mainly because Noah wasn’t back from school yet.

“Yes” dad responds, his eyes piercing mine.

“I know we haven’t had a lot of time with you, Ava, but why didn’t you tell us?” Mom whispers in a small voice. “A baby is a blessing and I thought we were past the point where you feel you can’t talk to us” I feel how hurt she is. It hurts me to know that I’ve hurt them. They’ve been nothing but amazing to me. The kind of parents I’ve always wanted. Always wished for. How do I explain to them that I wanted to, I just didn’t know how to get it out?

“You have to believe that I wanted to tell you so many times, I just didn’t know how to?” I whisper back. My eyes on my shaky hands.

Why would you have a hard time telling us?” dad brows frown in confusion. He was trying to figure out my reasons but none seemed to be making sense.

“Because of who the father is” I hear mom’s sharp intake of air. “You mean Rowan isn’t the father?” Why does everyone think Rowan is the one that got me pregnant? We were divorced for F***s sake.

Inod my head, still looking down. I didn’t know it back then but fact remains that I slept with my adopted difficult it is evert more messed up that Ethan knew the whole damn time and yet he still went ahead and slept with me.

You have to know that we will never judge you Ava. Whoever the father is, it doesn’t matter” mom adds when she sees I’m still hesitant.

“Even if the father of my baby is Ethan?” I choke out.

It still felt like a damn sin. Ethan and I weren’t related, but he was their son in every way.

The silence that descends is heavy. They both look at me in complete shock.

Their mouths open and close wordlessly. As if they can’t form any word.

Damn it. I knew this was a bad idea. What if they hate me? What if they hate Ethan? I let out a long sigh. I also couldn’t keep it a secret from the forever.

“E–Ethan is the fa–father?” mom stammers, tears filling her eyes.

“Yes. I didn’t know that he was my adopted brother when I started a relationship with him.” “But he knew!” dad booms, standing up angrily. He was fuming. It was easily written all over his face. “Is this why he doesn’t want to see us? I didn’t think he had gone this far. That he F***ing seduced you knowing very well you’re our daughter” I’m surprised. I have never ever heard dad curse.

“He didn’t seduce me. I jumped into the relationship willingly” I tell dad, feeling my cheeks turning pink for some reason. T Sure, I wouldn’t have gotten into a relationship with him had I known the truth, but he didn’t seduce me.

Everything that happened between us was consented.

“He tricked you Ava.” Mom sighs. “Your dad is right. Ethan knew the truth, but you didn’t. He basically seduced you knowing very well he’s your adopted brother. That was wrong of him. Really wrong” “I know and I’m disgusted when I think about it. He won’t stay in prison forever and I did give him a chance to know his baby, but how will ever explain to him or her? How the hell was I going to explain that their father is your son? Adopted or not, Ethan is still your son

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 159-This has been one of my biggest worry. I don’t want my child to view me in a negative way. I could tell them the truth, but that would mean making his or her dad seem like a F***ing sicko.

Mom stands up and comes to sit next to me. She pulls me into her arms and hugs me close. I feel my eyes start to fill with tears.

Damn hormones.

It’s okay baby, don’t worry about it. We still love you and we will love the baby.” Dad adds, joining us.

We stay in each other’s embrace for a while before separating.

“Another grandbaby. This is so awesome. I better start shopping” mom says excitedly, her face transforming with the smile that takes over.

che was literally jumping up and down like a school girl.

“How many people can brag that they’re grandmas at forty three? I am a young and chick grandmother and I still energetic enough to run around with my grandkids” Dad and I laugh in amusement as mom twirls around in my living room like a ballerina. Standing up, dad pulls her into his arms and k*sses her. He then spins her as mom laughs in joy.

I smile at them. This is the kind of marriage I’d wanted. The kind of love I’d craved for. I feel a pang in my heart, but I don’t let it bother me. I’d already let go of those fantasies. I’d accepted that their kind of love wasn’t in the cards for me.

After that, they stay a little before they leave. I felt like a burden had been lifted from my shoulders. My biggest fear had been that they would reject my child.

Seeing how in the end they were excited to have an additional grandchild eased something inside me.

Soon Noah arrives and I get busy helping him with homework and making him snacks. I like being organized, so I sort his uniform for the next day and everything he would need.

I had just finished when there was a knock on my door. Dragging my feet, I leave Noah’s room and go to open the door.

“Ava Sharp?” the delivery man asks.

Damn it. I need to change my last name. The Sharp’s name no longer belonged to me.

Yest have a delivery for you I roll my eyes. I don’t get why they always have to say that. I mean, I already can tell you’re here to deliver something. It’s obvious.

“I didn’t order anything” I tell him.

“Not my problem” Rude. Maybe he saw me rolling my eyes at him. Before I can say anything, he shoves the box into my hand and walks away.

I watch his back in shock. Memorizing the name of the company he worked for. I didn’t order anything.

but I sure was going to give them a one star rating and a scathing review.

Taking the box inside the house, I close the door and head to the living room.

“What’s that?” Noah asks, eyeing the package.

1 don’t know” I debate whether I should open it or not. There is still danger looming around from the reapers. What if it was a bomb or something?

I don’t get a chance to debate too much on it because Noah jumps up, takes the box and tears it open.

“Noah!” I shout. My heart in my throat.

If it had been a bomb we would have been blown into pieces. Didn’t he have a sense of safety?

“You do not open packages that you don’t know anything about!” I snap at him, trying to calm my erratic beating heart.

He just shrugs his shoulder. “I was curious, so I opened it” He looks inside and his face turns into distaste. “I thought there would be something cool, but it’s nothing but a bunch of dresses” Wait what?

1 take the box from him and check inside. I remove each one of the piece of clothes. Slowly realizing that each piece is one from the mom and baby shop.

They were all the clothes I had tried and liked. The ones that I’d wanted to buy before shit happened with Rowan.

How the hell. I stop the thought as realization sinks in. Rowan. The bastard must have bought them.

nice dresses mommy. You’ll look beautiful in them” Noah says, just as the thought of buning them crosses my mind.

Ex-Husbands Regret Chapter 160-Thank you, my love” I force a smile on my face. “I’m going to prepare dinner.

Finish up so you can take a shower Leaving the box of clothes, I head to the kitchen. I still wasn’t sure what to do about the clothes. I didn’t want anything from Rowan. If we’re being honest, this is the first I’ve ever gotten from the man.

Thinking of the clothes made me think of the scene at the changing room. I still don’t know what the hell had gotten into him. Something just wasn’t right. He was behaving so unlike himself.

inst my stomach.

I hated the desire I saw in his eyes. I hated that I felt his hardened dick pressing against my Rowan has never found me attractive. Never looked at me like he wanted to eat me up, so what the hell has changed.

“Ама” 1 swivel around at his voice. Staring at him in shock as he stood at the door to the kitchen.

“What are you doing here and how the hell did you get in?” I ask, feeling my early anger start rising up.

“Noah let me in” he answers stepping forward.

I didn’t want him in my house. I didn’t want him in my life. He can’t treat me like trash for nine years then all of a sudden have a change of heart. It doesn’t F***ing work like that.

“Get out!” I snap in anger.

“Ava” “Get out of my F***ing house, Rowan” I try to hold it back, but the shit he put me through comes barreling back up. I don’t see him now. My eyes are clouded by everything single hurtful action and word he ever did and said to me.

“Listen to me, Ava” Like you listened every time I told you I was drunk and you didn’t believe me?

Or every time I begged your to give us a chance, but you wouldn’t listen.

Wouldn’t give me the time of day!” I take a deep breath trying to calm down.

“I’ve heard enough from you to last me a life time. I left you like you’ve always F***ing wanted, why can’t I you do the same for me? Haven’t I already paid enough for loving you! What more do you want from me?” Tears threaten to fall, but I hold them back. I won’t let him see me lose it.

Lodve ys thrown your love for Emma in my face. She’s here Rowan. You can have the love of your F***ing life and leave me the hell alone. Don’t come to my appointments, don’t take me shopping, and don’t buy me clothes. Just ignore me like you always have” I finish and collapse against the kitchen counter.

I see something flash in his eyes. Pain, regret, sorrow? I don’t know and right now I don’t care.

“Are you too fighting?” Noah asks, his voice cutting through the tense atmosphere.

His eyes are hard. His mouth compressed in a thin line.

“No we’re not” I sigh tiredly. “Your father was just leaving” oot into my my house I glare at Rowan. Giving him the silent command to leave. Hopefully he will never step foot again.

Noah nods and leaves. Rowan turns to leave, but then stops.

“I’m sorry Ava. So F***ing sorry” his tone is hard. Almost like he was fighting his emotions.

“Just leave Rowan and take the clothes you bought with you” “No” I resist the urge to stomp my foot at his stubbornness and throw a pan at his head.

“Fine! I’ll just give them away to charity” “Do as you wish Ava. They are your clothes” with that he walks out of the kitchen.

I hear murmurs and then a while later I hear the front door open and close. I breathe a sigh of relief now that Rowan’s suffocating presence was gone.

As I make dinner, I harden my heart. Buil