Ch. 101..105: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 101-105
Chapter 101: Explore each other.
Jabi.
I didn’t expect this kiss.
I don’t know what is going on in his head.
One minute he is worrying that my age is a barrier and the next minute he has me pinned up to the wall with his body pressed to mine. I don’t know how to react to this, but my body does all the talking as I grab him by his waist to pull him closer.
This kiss is deep, mesmerizing and makes me long for more. I wrap my arms around his neck, never wanting this moment to end. I still can’t believe all this is happening to me. I didn’t think I would ever get the chance to feel this way about anyone.
’’Why do you taste so fucking good?’’ he pulls back slightly, his lips still on mine.
I dive into the kiss unable to give him an answer to that question ’’You’re mine. Fuck, you’re mine.’’ He mutters in between kisses. I smile into his mouth because I want to be his. For the rest of my life.
I don’t know what brought about this reaction.
But I like it.
I like it so much.
His exclamation is surprising to me. it is almost like he has finally accepted all of me. All the doubts that I could sense in him before seem to have vanished. I like this, a little too much.
He rests his head on my forehead and his eyes bore into mine. That intense stare on his face again. ’’Did something happen?’’ I ask him unsure if I should burst this beautiful bubble we are in.
’’A lot.’’ He smiles, closing his eyes.
My eyes stay open as I watch him in his daze completely engrossed in all that he is. This man came into my life in a flash and completely took over everything. I don’t mind, I am very grateful to have him.
’’I am not running away from this anymore.’’
I inhale a soft breath at his words and then slowly, let that same breath out. I don’t know how to handle all he is saying. The rush, the excitement of his words. I have been trying to convince him to let go. Trying to show him that this is not wrong and now he is finally accepting me.
’’You have me, completely. I will never stop you again.’’ He opens his eyes and I stare at the intensity of his words.
I smile because that is all I can do. I don’t have the words; I only have this smile. To show him that this is what I want. I want him too. I want all of him.
’’Are you scared?’’ he asks me.
I shake my head ’’I am excited. I have never been excited about anything in all my life, but I can’t wait to share my life with you.’’
He smiles ’’How do you feel about doing the ritual on Thursday?’’ it is a question but from the look in his eyes, it seems like he has already made up his mind.
I don’t know how I feel about it. they taught us about the ritual. It is supposed to be done on the full moon. ’’How will this work with us?’’
He shrugs ’’I have no clue. I want to do this the vampire way. That seems more logical.’’
I furrow my brows ’’What do you mean by the vampire way?’’
He sighs and drops his hands from my waist to his sides ’’It just makes more sense if I take control of this.’’
’’What do you guys do. I mean with your links?’’
’’We don’t have to wait till the full moon. I just have to give you my blood and have yours. There is this special bond that will be formed at the end of the process. It is not as big a deal as you guys.’’
’’Drink your blood?’’ I stutter.
He nods.
’’The full moon is in two days. Don’t you think it is too soon?’’ I ask him.
’’I want to do this. I can’t wait any longer.’’ He is so assertive. So sure, that nothing will go wrong. I trust him, I want to do whatever he wants. I know that as long as we are together, nothing bad will happen.
’’The full moon is in two days.’’
He nods ’’Yes, we fucking do this on Thursday,’’ he grabs my hand in his and squeezes it assuring.
’’I love you,’’ he breathes out.
My heart thuds against my chest. This thing called love, this thing that I never thought I would experience. Here it is and it has made me the happiest person on earth.
’’I love you too.’’
Saying it now is easy. There is no worry in my mind because he feels the same way. Having someone that loves you as much as you do is a blessing, and I won’t take things for granted. I will cherish him; I will love him with all I have. I will never let him go.
’’We should go back to your place,’’ he winks. There is a gleam in his eyes. The kind I haven’t seen before.
I love it.
He leads me back to my tiny house; we get in and he is all over me. this side of him that he has been hiding. The side of Darrien that doesn’t treat me like a kid. I wished for him to see me as a man and it seems like he is finally accepting me.
The door closes with a loud bang and he pulls away from me with a hearty laugh. He grabs my hands in his and pulls me deeper into the living room and then to the couch. This is where we had our first kiss. Right here. I never really felt like I belonged here, in this place. It was given to me by Rick. I didn’t have anywhere to stay once I had come of age. No one wanted me, I didn’t have a mate. I was all alone. This place felt like a prison and the longer I stayed the more trapped I felt.
The day I met Darrien at his place.
He saved me and he doesn’t even have a clue. He doesn’t know how much he has changed my life.
Looking at this tiny living room, the lack of memories. Suddenly, I don’t hate it anymore. I had my first kiss here.
With this amazing man in front of me.
’’I want to try some things with you,’’ he breathes heavily. Showing me more things that I like.
I nod at once.
’’This is my first time with a guy. Uh... I know I will like whatever we do but I want to make sure you want this too,’’ he echoes nervously.
He is watching me, I don’t know what he is thinking. I don’t have any experience, with anybody. He is the first person that has ever wanted me. he is the first person I want.
’’You have to tell me you want this too.’’
I don’t know what he is talking about. Are we about to... I don’t know, have sex?
’’Are we talking about sex?’’
He shakes his head instantly with a slight laugh ’’No... baby no. we are not having sex.’’
I nod.
He goes on his knees and looks up to me on the couch. His eyes peering into mine ’’I want to explore your body. I want you to explore mine. Do you think you can handle that?’’
I nod again, this time a lot more eager.
He laughs.
I watch him as he reaches for my shirt and pulls it off me instantly leaving me shirtless. He reaches for his and does the same. Now we are both shirtless. I look at my body and then at his. Complete opposites.
I find myself in awe of his hard, lean frame as kneels before me. no matter how hard I try, I can’t tear my gaze from his pale outline to his magnificent form, there is no use. His devilishly handsome features shift into a knowing grin as he catches me staring—more like gawking at his physique.
He stands up and I watch him, unsure of what to do next. ’’I want to get our clothes off,’’ he explains.
I nod and reach for my shorts; he grabs my hands and stops me ’’I’ll get them off. You seem tense. Is this too much?’’
I shake my head ’’No... this is perfect.’’
He nods and I watch him strip off his clothes. His eyes never stray from mine even when he is completely naked. My eyes drift to his member, totally engrossed in how beautiful he looks naked. Suddenly I am nervous. Would he like what he sees when he sees me?
I am nothing great.
Too masculine to pass off as a girl and too feminine to pass off as a guy. Darrien is perfect and I am just bleh. ’’Do you want to touch me?’’ he asks still looking at me.
Oh my God.
Why do I want to so badly?
Chapter 102: I want to taste you.
Darrien.
I don’t know if this is taking things too far but here I am wanting a lot more than innocent kisses with him.
So we are not allowed to have sex. We don’t need to have sex for us to feel good. I want to get to know him sexually. Now that I know this isn’t wrong, I don’t plan on taking things easy with him.
I am a very sexual person. I express my emotions by pleasing my partners. Even though I have never been with a man. I plan on showing him the things he has missed. I know this is a first for him—with anyone.
I am happy to be his first.
I will be his first and his only.
He has been unable to stop staring at me. all of me; it’s not like that is not what I wanted. This was the plan, get him to see me. find out what he likes and what he doesn’t. I want to satisfy him in all aspects.
’’Like touch you... down there?’’ he gestures to my dick.
I chuckle because I can’t get over how innocent he is. This is the reason why I was so flustered and confused about everything. He just looks like someone that should be treated gently. Almost like if he is handled roughly, he would break. I don’t want to break him.
’’I have never held another man’s...’’
He can’t even say the word out loud.
’’You know you can say it.’’
He furrows his brows; I walk over to the couch next to him and sit down. his eyes follow me, his hands are shaking. He is fucking nervous and I am the only one that is naked.
’’Say Penis, come on,’’ I urge him with a warm smile.
He needs to be comfortable around me. I want him to be able to handle this first.
His cheeks redden visibly as he looks away from me, I grab his chin and pull him back to look at me ’’Come on, say it.’’
He sighs ’’P...Penis,’’ he manages in a stuttering mess.
I laugh.
He covers his face with his palms, embarrassed. ’’You have nothing to be ashamed. You are here with me and no one else.’’ I assure him.
He slides a finger off his face, and I see his eyes. He is so freaking adorable; I just want to eat him up.
’’Is this too much for you?’’ I ask him because I don’t want to take things too far. The minute he wants to stop, that is what we will be doing.
He removes his hands from his face and shakes his head incessantly ’’No, I want to continue.’’
I smile.
He wants me as much as I do him. this is mutual; at least I don’t have to worry about that.
’’Okay. I want you to touch me.’’
He nods ’’I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to make you feel good,’’ he confesses shyly.
I smile ’’You don’t have to worry about anything. Just get comfortable with it. Know how it feels.’’
He nods.
I rest my back on the couch and watch him as he attempts to reach for me. his eyes never leaving mine. I will know when things get too much for him. I just want to see how far it’ll go.
’’Have you ever touched yourself before?’’
He drops his hand at once, not reaching for me again. Okay, that question embarrassed him. I think I am screwing things up. ’’You don’t have to answer. Fuck, that was a stupid question.’’
He shakes his head ’’It wasn’t, it was just unexpected. Yes, I have.’’
I smile ’’Treat my dick like you would treat yours. Don’t do anything differently.’’
I reach for him and brush a strand of his hair off his face, my hand lingers on his. I want a kiss again. Slowly ignoring his lingering hand, I lean forward until my lips are on his for a fiery kiss. A moan escapes his lips but that just makes me deepen the kiss. I push him to his back and climb in top of him. Now I have all the control again.
’’I will make you feel good. I will show you all you need to know.’’
Someone would think I am an expert at this. yes, I know how to work a woman’s body, but this is new to me. he is a guy, it is different, but I have lived too long not to know how it all works.
I tug at the button of his shorts and loosen it up, pulling the jean shorts off him. He reaches for his ankles as he tries to get them off faster. In just his boxers now, I graze my fingers over them to feel him and that gets a shiver from him. The kind I like.
’’How does it feel when I touch you there?’’ I ask him.
I want to know if he likes it, the moment it becomes too much for him; we are going to stop.
He closes his eyes ’’It feels nice,’’ his answer is honest.
I slide my hand into his underwear, reaching for me. His body is warm, a contrast to mine ’’Your hands are cold,’’ he exclaims with a smile.
I nod ’’You haven’t forgotten that I am a vampire... it would be weird if they are warm.’’
He chuckles. I continue my evaluation, this time I grab his dick in my hands softly. I don’t want to overwhelm him; I feel him harden against my touch. His eyes open wide ’’Oh shit, this feels so good,’’ he breathes out heavily.
He likes it.
Okay.
’’Should I continue?’’ I ask.
He nods.
Slowly I start to stroke him. We’re just going to take this step by step. Get him off and see how he handles it. he rests his head backwards and I watch him as he trembles underneath me. the pleasure obvious in his expression. I quicken my pace, going faster. This time, he moans out loud, which just gives me the courage to do what I do next. I have been wondering how he would taste. I want to taste him so badly.
I stop stroking him and he opens his eyes, the confusion written all over his face. I manage a smile as I slide off him until I am close enough to taste it. I know how blow jobs work; I have always been on the receiving end but right now I want to know how it will be like to be on the giving end. Jabi watches me, totally unsure of what I intend to do.
’’Remember, if this is too much, I will stop.’’
He nods as I grab his dick again, this time taking a lick of the tip. ’’Oh my God,’’ he shouts from that slight action. With another lick, I take him into my mouth. he fits in perfectly as I start to bob my head up and down.
He reaches for my hair and grabs it, unexpectedly controlling the pace. I let him because I want to please him. he fists my hair in his hands pushing me deeper. I feel him in my throat, all of him and this is the most pleasure I have ever gotten from anybody. I am not even exaggerating. Something about this is making this too intense to handle. I reach for my dick as I feel it harden, almost about to burst.
I stroke my member as I deep throat his, completely loving the synchronization. The faster I move, the more he shudders and quivers. I feel him as he stiffens. I feel him as he releases into my mouth. The taste is unexpected, salty and delicious. This is what I wanted, so I swallow him in as I let out my release with a heavy breath.
He sinks into the couch, all sweaty, breathing heavily as I rest my head on his leg to catch my breath. We stay in silence for a couple of minutes. The only sounds come from our breathing.
I look at him and his eyes are closed, a look of bliss on his face. I climb up to the couch next to him and he shifts to give me space. I press against him, completely ignoring the mess we made. Sex is messy, who cares?
’’How was it?’’ I ask him as he wraps his arms around me and rests his head on my chest.
He smiles ’’Intense.’’
I nod in agreement.
It has never felt that way with anyone. In all my life, with all the people I have been. He didn’t even get me off, I did that on my own and it felt that good. Imagine how it will feel if I was inside him. Fucking hell.
’’I wasn’t scared,’’ he declares.
I pull him closer to me ’’You don’t have to be scared of anything with me. I will always be here to protect you.’’
He smiles, reaching for my hair ’’I messed your hair up.’’
I chuckle ’’You are allowed to do that again.’’
He giggles, the sound I have come to love more than anything. I love everything about Jabi.
I can’t wait to be one with him.
Chapter 103: Always with you.
Beau.
’’Close your eyes,’’ Jules tells me.
I obey him and do exactly what he wants. ’’Your father used meditation as a way to channel all your energy to the right place. I want you to think of him, remember all the things he taught you.’’
I don’t like to think of him, remembering him brings painful memories. Uncle Jules doesn’t want me to forget him. I can never forget him. meditation has never been something I liked. I hate the silence that comes with it. the fact that you have to be in your head. I hate being in my head, the thoughts that come with it. Too many bad things have happened to e of recent. Being in my head makes me think of everything.
This is Uncle Jules way of preparing me for the ritual. I have to be mentally ready. He said everything will come naturally, the mating ritual is instinctual. I will know what to do when the time comes.
It is just a couple of hours and I am nervous. With everything that is happening, it is easy to forget all the things that are important. Killing Cassius is still my number one priority. I won’t forget that he is still alive and as long as he is alive, he is a danger to me and my family.
’’You’re straying, get back on track,’’ I open my eyes and he is watching me. ’’Keep your eyes closed,’’ he warns me.
I close them back confused.
’’Don’t think about all the negative in your life. think about the positives. Forget Cassius and all the deaths.’’
How can I not think about death when that is all I am surrounded with? Every day, a new problem arises. I hear his footsteps and he is in front of me in an instant ’’Don’t open your eyes,’’ he warns me again, almost like he knew I was going to.
I inhale as I try to control myself. In that second, I feel his fingers on my forehead and in that second, I blackout.
I open my eyes and I am no longer in the community, on the field. I am on the beach. I remember this place. I used to come here with my father all the time. What am I doing here?
’’My son,’’ I freeze at that moment because I recognise that voice. The voice I never thought I would hear again. This cannot be real, I was meditating with Jules and now I am at the beach, which is far away from my house. I don’t want to turn around because I am scared that this is all in my head and once I turn to the direction of the voice, I won’t see him.
’’It’s me,’’ he says and this time, I turn around. Sure enough, he is standing right there. Dressed in a white shirt and black pants. He looks alive, he looks exactly the way he did when I last saw him. Unlike the last time I saw him, there is a smile on his face. he looks at peace.
He is not upset with me anymore.
’’Daddy,’’ I call him my voice croaking.
He nods walking closer to me, we are a couple of feet apart from each other. I want to reach out and touch him. My father is standing in front of me. He is here.
I don’t know what uncle Jules has done but I don’t mind this hypnosis. I have so many questions. I want to talk to him; I want him to tell me how he really feels about Alanis.
I want him to give me his blessing.
I need his blessing.
’’Are you real?’’
He nods ’’As real as I can be right now. I have been with you all through everything. I never left. I can’t leave you until things get better.’’
He has been there all along.
’’You died.’’
He nods ’’Death is never the end.’’
I don’t know what he means, he takes another step towards me and before I know what is happening, I am in his arms. Holding unto him for fear of losing him again. I cry for God knows how long. I cry until there are no tears left in me and then I cry some more. He clutches unto me in a deep embrace as I cry. Its always been said that an Alpha isn’t supposed to cry. You can’t show weakness, even if you are breaking down and falling apart. You have to hide it all, make everyone think you are okay.
I have always thought that was stupid. No matter who you are, emotions are a part of you, bottling them all in will only make things worse. After a while, you will explode, and the reaction would just be worse than letting go when you actually need to.
I let go of all that completely as I feel like a child in his arms. It takes a while for me to stop and he is patient with me. he holds me like he used to when I was just a young pup, with gentle pats on my back.
Once I have let it all out, we break away from the hug and he smiles warmly ’’I see you called Jules.’’
I nod.
’’He is the only one you can rely on. He is the only person I ever trusted.’’ He informs me, even though I already knew. Dad and Jules rarely saw each other but they were together, their smiles could light up the room.
’’You have to listen to him, do whatever he asks you to. He knows what he is doing.’’
’’Are you okay?’’ I ask him, changing the topic.
He smiles ’’I am, things are easier in this life. no one is trying to kill you here.’’ I remember all the things he went through. The war, the contention, the hatred his brother had for him.
’’Fallon ran away,’’ I inform him.
’’He will come back. Do not relax on him. when he does, be ready for him. do not hesitate to kill him.’’
The fact that his advice is to kill his brother is heartbreaking. Father loved Fallon. He tried to be there for him. he trusted him when no one else would. He never did anything to deserve what he got. I don’t have a brother; I don’t know how he feels. Betrayal from the one person that should have protected you. Your own fucking blood.
’’The ritual is in a couple of hours. I am scared that something will go wrong.’’ I confess.
The fact that Lanis has been worried about this, just made things more confusing for me. we are the first vampire/werewolf mates. This is not the same as when you mate with a human. I don’t know what could happen, but people are putting things in our heads and it is clouding all the excitement I am supposed to be feeling.
You don’t know how long I have waited for this moment. Since I was twelve. I have imagined the night of my mating ritual. I have made up different scenarios in my head. Imagined different people, different times but no one can compare to Alanis. He is the perfect one for me, but that lingering fear that I could ruin all that he is with this keeps eating at me.
’’You said something to me when you told me about him. you said this was out of your control.’’
I nod. That was my debate to get him to let my relationship with Alanis flourish. He didn’t seem to think it was a good idea then. Yes, I know it had a lot to do with the fear of the unknown.
He didn’t want me to be different.
He didn’t want me to have to suffer because I was different. he went into father protective mode and he refused to listen.
Now things are different.
’’This wouldn’t be happening if it wasn’t meant to be,’’ he points out. I know that this love that we share was decided upon from the beginning. Destiny is a very powerful tool. No matter how much you try to change it, it always ends up coming to past.
’’Don’t listen to anyone, block all the negativity out of your head. listen to your heart and know that I will always support you and whatever you decide.’’
’’I love you, dad.’’
He smiles ’’I love you too. When you open your eyes, remember that.’’
In that instant, I feel the pull again as I blackout. I am not ready to leave him. I still have so much to say to him. So much to ask him.
My eyes open and I am breathing heavily. I have been cross-legged on this ground, but it feels like I travelled far away. That felt too real to be just in my head.
’’What did you do to me?’’ I ask Jules who is just watching me with curiosity.
’’Nothing you didn’t want. he wanted to see you,’’ he tells me, knowing who I saw.
’’How is that possible. He is dead.’’
’’Just because someone is dead doesn’t mean they aren’t still with us. your father is still around. His soul is protecting you. He will never let any harm come to you.’’
I remain quiet.
I don’t know what to say.
’’You need to get your confidence back. You think you are weak, but you have no idea all the power you harness. Stop all the negatives out of your life. You can do so much more than you think.’’
This is easier said than done but knowing my father is watching me makes me feel better.
I am not as alone as I think I am.
Chapter 104: Too excited to be scared.
Beau.
Alby smiles at me, he is the most excited about this ritual. Almost like he knows what is to come with this. It is ten o’clock in the night, two hours to go and I am freaking the fuck out.
’’There is nothing to it. you seem very tense,’’ Alby points out. Darrien chuckles and I can’t help but think he is a little too relaxed. I have been thinking of everything that we would need to do once this happens. Thinking of all the things I would have to do; everyone keeps saying my inner wolf would know what to do. That I would just be passing on the baton to him.
We are to spend the night in the wally cave.
’’I am fine. I just need a reminder of how this will work.’’
With the smile still on his face, he places his hand on my shoulder reassuringly ’’You don’t have to worry about anything. Nature will take its course. Just be with your mate.’’
I look over to Jules and he nods in agreement. Nature will take its course. Nature will take its course. I repeat those words in my head over and over again. Maybe once they sink in, I won’t be so nervous.
Alanis is with Eligio and Bells. They are discussing guard duties since both of us and Darrien won’t be available all night. We can’t have Cassius sneaking in on us.
’’All you need to focus on is marking him. it will happen once the moon is full and then you consummate the ritual.’’
Consummate.
He means sex.
It is exciting that I will finally be able to have sex with him. I want to so badly and I can’t wait. Unlike me and Alanis. Darrien and Jabi have it easy—or maybe I should say they are more certain than us. there are no controversies surrounding them.
I leave Alby and Jules after everything is discussed and go back to my room. I hear the water running in the bathroom, so I walk into it ’’Baby,’’ I shout because of the noise from the water.
He slides the curtain and I see him covered in soap. ’’I just want to get clean for you,’’ he winks with a smile.
I roll my eyes because I have never seen anyone more excited about anything. he seems to be accepting everything a lot more than I am. I am not having doubts. Fuck, there are no doubts in my mind, but I just want everything to go smoothly.
’’Do you want to join me?’’ he asks with that twinkle in his eyes.
I take off my clothes hurriedly because any chance I can get to be intimate with him is an opportunity that I can’t pass on. He chuckles as I get into the shower with him. his arms engulf me completely as I press my lips to his, completely ignoring all the soap on him.
’’In just a couple of hours, I will have all of you,’’ he echoes as the water seeps through us.
I rest my head on his shoulder, fully wet now. ’’There is no going back,’’ I say it in like a way to test the waters. See if he is still one hundred percent on board.
He pulls back in a way so I can see him ’’Why would I want to go back?’’
I shrug as he wipes the water off my face. ’’You are stuck with me. whichever way you get it. I need you to get that into your stubborn head,’’ he flicks my forehead and I grab his hand in mine not even upset that he did that. there is a smile on my face as I pull him into me again.
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The caves are big enough to occupy both couples. It is weird that I am doing this with Darrien and Jabi. I never imagined things going this way. Before all that has happened. When I used to talk about the mating ritual with bells. I always imagined things differently.
I always thought I would end up with a human. There was always the chance of my mate already being a wolf, but I thought that would’ve been too easy. I always imagined a perky beautiful girl. With blond hair and blue eyes. I imagined how I would convince her. If she would accept me instantly or if it would be a battle to get her on board. I thought about how I would mark her, her reaction.
I thought it all out, but life has a way of throwing curveballs. Giving you the unexpected—yeah, most times they are usually for the worse, but this is the opposite. I didn’t get the girl; I didn’t get the normal wolf. I got a man, a very beautiful man who is also a vampire. He has done so much for me; he has been there for me through everything. through all my pain, he has saved me, and I don’t even think he realises how much of an impact he has made in my life.
If I was given a second chance.
If I could choose who I got to spend the rest of my life with, in a heartbeat, I would choose him over and over again. No one, and I mean, no one can come close to him.
However this night goes, I will cherish it until the day I die.
’’So, this is easy. There is nothing to it,’’ Jules addresses us smiling.
Darrien coughs nervously, I can see him fidgeting all the way from here ’’What do I have to do?’’ he asks because this is different for him.
I wouldn’t say I am in control of my relationship, but I can take charge. Omegas can’t take charge. I don’t know how this will work with Jabi because it was always supposed to be him finding an Alpha or a beta.
’’I want to do this my way. The vampire way.’’
Jules nods ’’There are no rules to this. There is no one way or the other. The minute it is time, you will know. Just take control when the time comes.’’
Alanis grabs my hand in his and squeezes it softly. I manage a faint smile because this is the moment we have been waiting for. we are in front of the cave. Bell and Rex are here too. For moral support, not like I even need it. I have the only support system I need.
’’It’s almost time, don’t do anything until you feel it,’’ Jules warns us.
I want to ask him what we are supposed to be feeling but I don’t want to seem too inquisitive. I have to at least act like I know what I am doing here.
’’Good luck guys,’’ Bells calls out.
I turn around to face her and she gives me a smile of encouragement. they all leave us and I glance and Darrien, who has Jabi in his arms. At this point, it is every couple for themselves. ’’You know this seems a little bit savagery,’’ Darrien points out.
I don’t argue with him because he is right, but it is just who we are. We are animals, no matter how much we try to sugar coat it. At the end of the day, we do things this way.
’’Come on baby,’’ Darrien leads Jabi into the caves.
As usual, he is always so confident. This guy just found out that Jabi was his mate and he has already gone farther than I have with Alanis and I have known for a while.
’’You’re overthinking again.’’
I look at Alanis and he is watching me with this powerful stare. I shake my head ’’No, just jealous of how confident Darrien is.’’
He laughs ’’The same Darrien I know?’’
I nod.
’’That’s not confidence. He is just a narcissist.’’
’’Well not anymore, he has Jabi now. That has somehow changed him,’’ I point out.
’’True, but now the world revolves around only him and Jabi.’’
I chuckle at the fact that we can still make jokes in a defining moment of our lives.
’’Are you ready for this?’’ he asks me.
I grab his hand in mine and we walk into the dark cave, the night sky looming over us. This is it; this is the moment I have thought about all my life. this is me finally letting go of all my worries and sharing it with another person.
’’It’s so dark,’’ he mutters.
We walk until we get to a part of the cave that looks okay enough for us to settle for the night. I look up and there is an overhead above us which gives us a view of the sky. This is perfect.
’’Come on... sit,’’ I urge him.
We sit down next to each other and he rests his head on my shoulder ’’Are you cold?’’ he asks me. I am dressed in my regular shorts with no shirt.
’’I am fine,’’ I assure him. We don’t get cold, but I don’t tell him that because I like the fact that he is worried. Him being worried means he cares.
I rest my back on the cold wall of the caves and look up at the sky. ’’Are you scared?’’ I ask him.
’’I am too excited to be scared.’’
Me neither.
Chapter 105: Alanis and Beau.
Beau.
’’Can you distract me. Let’s talk about anything.’’
We are both lying down on the cold hard ground, staring at the moon. this thing cannot come any faster. Alanis is so close to me, but I can’t have him until the deities tell me to. I have to stare at him in all his glory and there is nothing I can do until it is the right time.
I feel like all we have had to do is wait. Wait to be together, wait to have sex and now we have to wait until the moon tells us that it is time.
’’How shocked are you about Darrien and Jabi?’’ I ask him, remembering his brother. I still find it funny that he didn’t want to wait. It took him such a short time to figure out that he wanted Jabi.
’’He is in love,’’ he whispers in my arms.
I pull him closer until my face is in the crook of his neck. There is already this pull, like a voice in my head, telling me to mark him, make him mine already. I don’t think I will be able to last the whole night with the way my heart is racing and wishing for more.
In the silence of the night, the only sound I can hear is his breathing. The slow rise and fall of his chest. The way he clutches unto me. those are the only things I feel, the only things I want to focus on. It is said that the goddess of the moon, ties us with the infinity bond during the ritual. They are invisible ropes that can’t be seen by the naked eye. This rope joins us together once the ritual is complete. This will be the beginning of our forever.
The forever that I can’t wait for.
My eyes stay on his neck, the beautiful outline and I start to imagine it. that is the spot, the place I will claim him for everyone to see. They will all know that he is mine. I blink a couple of times to try and control the longing within me. this cave is dark, but all my senses are alive. I can smell him, the blood that travels through his veins, the scent that only he has. I can feel him, the coldness that emanates from him has suddenly become the only warmth I need, he is all I see, all my eyes recognise in the dead of the night, he closes his eyes and at that moment I reach for him and press my lips to his, I want to taste him.
He moans into my mouth as I dive into him a little more aggressive. There is no stopping me anymore. I get to be one with him this time and nothing is going to ruin that for me. He climbs on top of me and I grab him by his waist, his mouth still glued to mine.
’’Is this too soon?’’ he asks in between kisses.
I shake my head, even though deep down I know is too early. I just want a little taste of him. I want to feel all of him so badly and my inner wolf is losing all control.
They say the weakest time for an Alpha is during the mating ritual.
Lying down next to your soul mate and unable to have him until the time is torture. I can already feel the frustrations and there is about an hour to go. Just an hour and it feels like an eternity.
He grinds into me and I feel him harden.
Have him.
He is yours.
My wolf screams to me.
My heart thuds in my chest as I continue to kiss him delicately, the feel of his tongue on me. ’’How do you know when it is time?’’ he asks me.
I can sense the nervousness in the sound of his voice. The croak and stutter within him all obvious to me. Alanis rambles when he is nervous. He is so nervous right now. Not like I am not the same.
I can barely keep myself together.
He pulls away from me slowly and then he looks up at the sky ’’The moon looks full,’’ he points out.
I shake my head ’’Almost, a couple of minutes to go. You will know when it is time.’’
He furrows his brows ’’How?’’
’’You will see it through me. there is no way I will I just let you be once the moon is full.’’
He rests his head on my chest in defeat and I play with the strands of his hair with gentle caresses. ’’This is it... huh?’’ he asks me, his eyes still fixed to the sky.
’’Yes, it is.’’
He smiles, the kind of smile I love on his face. the one that is outstretched, the one where I can see the obliterated joy on his face. Happiness at its greatest.
’’Things are going to get harder,’’ I remind him.
He looks away from the sky and at me ’’We have a battle ahead of us. Cassius won’t be easy. It would take a lot to get to him and there might be consequences,’’ I continue. I want to let him know the repercussions of being with me.
There are risks.
So many risks that come with being with someone that is being hunted. Cassius won’t stop, he won’t ever give up. For as long as he is alive. The only way this will stop is when I kill him.
It won’t be easy, but I also need him to know that I need him by my side for this fight.
’’I am not going anywhere,’’ he reads my mind.
The only person that really understands me. the only person in my life that I cannot live without.
’’I don’t plan on letting you go. I will find a way to protect you. I will never let you down. you will only find happiness with me,’’ these are my promises to him.
Somehow this is like my vow to him.
’’I love you,’’ I pull him closer at my confession and he welcomes me into his arms. This is the beginning of our forever. A union that no one thought was possible, one that we will make possible.
His lips melt into mine and at this moment I give in. the part of my brain taking over. Lanis grabs me by my neck and pulls me closer to deepen the kiss. This kiss is rough, the kind that feels like the last. We both struggle to get oxygen, no one wanting to let go.
’’I love you too,’’ he mutters breathlessly in between kisses.
That is all I need to hear to send me off the wall and drive me crazy. The pull intensifies as I wrap my arms around his waist. The voice in my head getting louder, begging me to devour him.
I take off his clothes in an instant, we are all over each other, desperate for more than we have. ’’Now?’’ he asks in between kisses.
I remain silent because I don’t know yet, I just know that the craving is stronger. My hand slides all over his body as the butterflies’ dance in my tummy. The cave is cold and dry but the only cause of my shivers is his touch.
I place his clothes on the ground in a way he could lie on them and not the bare ground because I don’t even know how he feels doing this on the cold hard ground with all the dirt. Lanis is not one of us, he might now be used to this.
’’Tell me its time,’’ he breathes against my chest, the desperation etched in his voice.
I told him he would know when it was time. I can already feel it. I feel the pull getting stronger, but my inner wolf needs to come out. Once I show my true form, he will know.
’’almost,’’ I assure him. My voice is unrecognizable to me. I have never sounded so frustrated in my life. The depth of my voice, engraved with lust and hunger. Hunger for him, hunger for this unity.
He opens his eyes in shock from the sound of my voice. The expression on his face tells me what I need to know. There is a gleam in his eyes that tells me that he sees something. He sees the part of me no one has ever seen before.
I feel my inner wolf come out for a complete takeover. I am still here but he is the one in charge. The one that will make this happen.
’’You are mine,’’ he growls to Lanis who just nods in agreement.
This kiss is different as I smash my lips to his. Completely engrossed in him and this moment. Lanis moans into my lips as I bite at his lower lip, wanting more than this innocent taste. Blood spills out of the cut and the acidity makes me want more.
I want to mark him.