Ch. 16..20: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 16-20

Chapter 16: The breakup

Alanis

My phone rings and the nerves kick in. Maddie is in her bathroom; I have decided to break up with her because I can't live with the guilt that is eating me up slowly. She thinks this is a normal night. This is our usual routine; I come over to her house and we spend the night together.

I am terrified because I don't want to hurt her but in the end, that is exactly what I am doing. I am in her life to cause her pain. I promised her forever and now I have to let her know that forever is not possible anymore.

I hear the shower and I know I have about 20 minutes. The caller ID is Beau. The excitement kicks in because I know I won't be able to decline his call. I already miss him and it's just been a couple of hours since I saw him. I answer the call with a smile on my face and his voice makes me feel at home "Hi boyfriend" his voice is soft and very inviting.

"Boyfriend?" I ask already liking the sound of that. I am a boyfriend. It feels nice to say out loud. I am his boyfriend.

"Is it weird. I said it before I thought about it--" I stop him "I like it. You should continue calling me your boyfriend" I am lying down on Maddie's bed in the comfort of her plush pillows but I would rather be lying down next to him. Water is still running in her bathroom. I would have to end the call once she is done. I still have time though.

"Then it's settled." after a few minutes and a couple of breaths he adds, "I told my dad" I hold my breath because I am scared that his father didn't take it too well.

"Everything?" I ask.

He sighs and my heart sinks at his next words "Not everything. I need to see his reaction. He is still in disbelief at the fact that you're a man. I couldn't get the rest out. I just need to take it step by step. It's a lot for him" I don't know who he is trying to convince—me or him but it's not working. I can't judge him because I haven't even thought to tell my family. I can already see their faces in my head. Darrien is going to make this a bigger deal than he is; he is going to try to make it seem like somehow it is my fault. Like I somehow made this happen.

"It's fine. You should take as much time as you need. I understand how difficult this is" I am being understanding but also scared to blurt out the truth.

"I don't want to take time. I want to be with you now. We will have to wait till the next full moon if we don't do this now." the urgency in his voice is chilling deep into my bones. "Have you called it off with Maddie" he adds. He is asking for a lot; it has just been one day. Just one day; he needs to be a little more patient.

"No."

"Why not?"

"The same reasons you haven't told your pack." I am deflecting and trying to guilt-trip him.

He sighs "You know it's different. I don't like thinking about you with her. Are you with her right now?" he sounds hurt. I shouldn't go too far as to make him feel bad just because I am chicken shit "I am gonna do it today, I'm sorry. It's just very hard" I explain.

He sighs again "Okay." he pauses and I hear him from a distance "Dad" his voice is shaky. I hear the person on the other end faintly "I'll call you later" he says and hangs up. Maddie walks out of the bathroom in a towel and smiles at me.

I drop the phone on the bed "You wanna go next?" she asks with a wink. I watch her as she dries up her body and then takes off the towel, not hiding any part of her body. I have explored every part of her body; so, it is not new to me. I sit up on the bed with heavy breaths. Shit.

How do I do this?

"Maddie, can we talk?" I say once she is done dressing up. She is dressed in blue shorts and a tank top. Her hair is a messy bun on her head and still wet from her shower. Looking at me she raises a brow obviously curiously.

"About?" she walks to me and stands just above me by the bed. I grab her hands in mine. This is harder than I even imagined.

"You look nervous, what's wrong?" I remain silent. Not knowing how to form the words in my mind. I should've rehearsed this. Now I don't know what to say. ''You're scaring me babe" I nudge her until she is seated next to me on the bed. I can't even look at her right now.

"We need to break up," I say and even out loud I sound like a heartless jerk. This is a bastard move but I think it's better to just rip the band-aid off. "What?" she asks in disbelief.

"Let's break up," I repeat.

She frowns and tears well up in her eyes "You can't be serious right now. Did I do something wrong?"

Shit.

"No. This is my fault. I don't want to lie to you and then end up hurting you. This is for the best and you deserve better"

Tears fall to her face and on reflex, I reach out for her but she moves away avoiding my touch "Is there someone else?"

Fuck.

Do I answer her honestly or lie to make her feel better? If she thinks there is someone else the pain will be more but if I lie then she won't feel as bad. I don't want to lie.

"Yes."

Her eyes open and the shock is obvious. The thoughts in her head are all jumbled. It's a lot to read at the same time. She is angry, I can hear her screams and they are so loud.

"Who?"

Now I can't tell her this, not until it is completely out there. "I can't say right now."

She stands up from the bed and I feel the slap as it hits me hard on the face. I expected this and a lot more. It doesn't even hurt; I have taken more blows but this pain is a different kind. I hate myself right now.

I can't let him do this.

Not yet.

I read her mind, confused at her words. What does she mean by not yet? "You can't do this to me. We have been together for a year. I gave you my heart" she cries. Still thinking about her thoughts, I don't respond "Baby, please think this through, don't do this to us" she reaches for me and I don't push her away from me. I need to let her express her feelings, if she wants to be angry, sad, I need to give her the opportunity.

"Please don't do this." she leans forward and smashes her lips to mine. I taste the salty tears as she kisses me and my heart sinks in my chest. I need to push her away but she is holding unto me tightly. The kiss is forceful, with desperation seeping through. She pushes me to the bed and the kiss deepens. I am not reciprocating; this is a woman that I kiss every time. We have done a lot together, tried everything but I don't feel anything anymore.

She is still crying and my heart is breaking. Kissing her now is me leading her on. I don't want her to think there is still hope when my heart belongs to another. I grab her by her waist pulling her off me. She can't match my strength so no matter how hard she tries to force this; it won't work unless I let her "Stop Mad's" I plead.

She shakes her head "No, I need to remind you. I need you to feel what we've always had." she reaches for me but I stop her.

"I don't feel the same anymore. I am so sorry for doing this. You can hate me, hit me, I will take it." I will take anything but her trying to reverse this break-up. For the first time in my life, I know what I want. I feel for only Beau and I will not settle for less.

"Please baby. Don't do this to me." I stand up from her bed because I need to leave. This is too much. I walk over to the window and she grabs my arm "You'll regret this" she glares at me. I am not even surprised because I'd be upset too. She is free to vent, she is free to hate me. I completely understand.

"I'm sorry" I jump unto the tree by her window and leave her. The last expression I get of her is forever etched to memory.

Chapter 17: I choose him

Beau.

"You didn't tell me the whole truth," Fathers voice is loud and angry. What did Alby tell him?

He is standing in a frightening way, almost like he is threatening me. He doesn't know yet. If he did, he would have dragged me by my collars by now "What truth?" I act oblivious.

"Who is this man? Tell me now," he shouts. Has he comes to terms with the fact that it is a man? I raise a brow because I cannot tell. "Are you okay with my mate being a man?"

His eyes are red from the anger that I am somehow causing unintentionally "Don't play with me boy. I have no time for this," he warns me impatiently. I walk over to him in a, I mean no harm sorta way "Dad, you need to know that this is out of my control," I raise my hands up.

"I know that, so why are you hiding it?"

Because I am scared.

"Because you won't like what I say," I don't say what is on my mind. Father hates weakness. I don't want to show weakness in front of him. I don’’t want to be weak.

"I am your father. I will always support you no matter what," he is being sincere. I've been a terrible son. Not caring about the consequences of my actions. He has tolerated me all my life, so I should give him the benefit of the doubt. I should trust him.

"Dad, it's bad," I show him liberated fear. My voice comes out shaking.

He is watching me, waiting for me to tell him what I fear the most. He has already lost his patient; his eyes are weary. "Who is he son?"

I take a deep breath. I have to do this. This is the right thing to do. Whatever the consequences are, I have to face it; head-on. "Alanis Dravon," I say his name even though I know he might not know him. I watch his expression as it changes from confusion to recognition. The sadness evolves; he is not happy.

"A vampire?"

I nod.

"It's not possible. There is a mistake somewhere. Alby confirmed this?" he asks incredulously. I went through this phase already; I am already over it. I don't care about anything but Lanis. So, whatever happens, I will fight head-on.

"It's not happening. I won't let it happen" he shakes his head and starts pacing around the room. I watch him unsure of what to say. He is the leader; he needs to come to terms with it on his own "What will people say? No one will let this happen. Fuck" he runs his hands through his hair. Father rarely curses.

"Dad, it'll be fine" he glares at me and I look away from him. "Come on, we need to pay Alby a visit" he walks out of the room and I follow him. We get to Alby's house and he turns to me "Don't say anything. This conversation is between elders" he warns me. Okay then, why am I here? Since I don't have an opinion on anything.

Alby opens the door before father even knocks, almost like he knew we were coming. He is dressed in a long black robe. His grey hair is neatly combed and gelled, making his wrinkles more obvious. Alby smiles as he welcomes me into his room. "Come in both of you" Alby is the only one that is not afraid of father in the pack.

We get to his living room and he urges us to sit down "Now that you know, we need to start preparations."

"I don't agree with this Alby. It is some sort of mistake"

Alby laughs a hearty laugh, that I almost want to smile. "The deities never make a mistake"

"Who is going to understand. He's my son. The next alpha. How do I explain that he likes boys and a vampire at that?"

"This is not about gender. We are all people before our gender. He is destined to be with a person; not a man" his explanation is moot. No matter how he puts it, people won't see what he is seeing. He is wise, that's why he can grasp this situation with so much clarity. "You have to give this your blessing. It is for the greater good of our kinds."

"The contention is enough; we are at peace together. This union doesn't need to happen to prove that. He doesn't need a mate."

My heart jolts. He can't be serious. He would rather I end up alone than let me be with Lanis. "Dad." I object.

"Don't you dare speak" he warns giving me a dirty look.

I cower in my seat and he faces Alby "He doesn't need a mate. He can lead without one" I don't agree to this. I need Lanis. I won't continue without him. I won't lead.

"You will be making a big mistake. Don't ruin your son's life out of fear. Let him explore this, give him a chance."

"He will look weak in front of everyone. I lost my wife to those monsters. I can't accept this for him. This is an unfair request."

I knew he would bring mother up. That's why he can't accept this; because of her and I understand. I completely understand.

"This is not about you and me. This is the bigger picture. You need to accept this."

"I can't accept this. I won't put my son through the pain of loving one of them. I am sorry Alby but as Alpha, my decision is final. Beau won't be mating with a vampire."

My heart shatters into a million pieces. I really didn't want this to happen because now I will have to choose. I already know my choice. I choose him, I won't let him go.

"Father, please don't do this to me" I plead desperately.

He looks at me sadly but I know his mind Is made up "I won't change my mind." and with that, he walks out of the house and out of sight. I hold the hems of my shirt from the ache in my chest.

"Give him time" Alby faces me.

"He's never going to approve of this," I tell him blatantly. I am dejected right now and the only person I want to talk to is Lanis.

"Give him time. He is your father; he won't let you suffer," he must know something that I don't.

"I choose him" I state matter of fact.

He frowns "It won't come to that. A wolf never abandons his pack. For anything" it is a warning but I don't care. I will mate with Lanis; no matter what anyone says.

He is mine.

Chapter 18: Missing him

Alanis

It's been a week since I've seen Beau and I miss him so much. He hasn't come to school and my mind has been roaming. What if he is being punished again for this? The last time we had anything to do with each other; his father locked him up in a cave.

Maddie hasn't been to school too; I haven't been able to face her. So, I'm glad I haven't had the opportunity. I've seen his friends around. They always come to school when he is absent. The last time I asked about him, Isabella almost had my head. I don't want to make the mistake again. I don't even know if he has told them anything.

I spend the day totally not focused on anything and as the day ends, I regret even coming in the first place. High-school is not my priority. Beau is. I haven't told my family. I don't know how to, but I need to.

I have been reluctant and for the past week, I somehow convinced myself that I am getting myself mentally prepared to open up. I need courage; I have none.

After school, I go home and my mind is made up. I need to tell them today. I walk into the house and Elu is the first person I see. She smiles at my presence "Hey," she greets me nicely.

"I need everyone in the living room. I have something important to discuss. Please tell father and mother. I will be downstairs in a minute" I go straight to the point.

She raises a brow "Is everything okay?" her eyes gleam as the ray of light from the window hits her.

"Yes."

I walk up the stairs and into my room. My reflection in the mirror is not the best sight. Looking at my hands, I am shaking. "Come on, you can do this. Just tell them the truth. Have no fear" I give myself words of encouragement.

It's not working.

There is a knock on my door and Eligio walks in without waiting for my answer. Eligio is Elu's link. He is in his early forties. The suit he is wearing is so snug on him, that it looks tailored. "You found her?"

I frown because he is being impatient and assuming things before, I tell him "You will find out soon." I take off my clothes and put on a fresh pair. He is still watching me.

"Something's wrong. You are supposed to be happy but you look far from it," he sits down on my work chair and I shake my head "Nothing's wrong. I am perfectly content with my link." I want to act brave and happy. I don't regret Beau but I hate that we have all these obstacles to deal with. I fucking hate that.

"There we go. I am so happy for you." he stands up and taps my shoulder encouragingly.

"Let's go down." I lead him out of my room and to the living room. Everyone has gathered already. They all look at me with a curious expression.

Father speaks first "Have you found her?" he already knows the only reason I could've called them all like this.

I nod.

He smiles brightly "Where is she? You should've brought her to us" he is excited for me and I know I will tarnish his excitement once I tell him the truth.

"It's more complicated than that" I am doing this. I want things to go faster between us and the only way that can happen is when I become one with him. I need to tell everyone about him.

Darrien scoffs. I kinda expect him to say something snarky but he is being too quiet and that's even scarier.

"He's a wolf." I hit the nail on the head. I see all their expressions and it is what I expected. They are all shocked with wide eyes. The only person that looks happy is Darrien. Belis is the first to say something.

"Are you trying to make a joke right now?" he questions in disbelief. I shake my head because the one most likely to support me is Eligio. I am closest to him even though he is years older than me. Belis was the first one father turned in the 1600's. his light blonde hair, it is so striking which makes him look not human. He is linked to Sateen. They have been together the longest and I look up to them so much. I have always wanted to find someone that would also be my forever and that's why I won't let go of Beau. I feel it when I am with him, I feel the happiness to the loss of loneliness.

I won't throw that away.

Elanis is the second one. He is in his late twenties; his hair is dark brown with the darkest eyes I have ever seen. Elanis is the softest one in our family. He rarely speaks only when he needs to. I don't expect him to say anything today. Unless we end up in a fistfight. He is the settler in our family. He hates violence. Elanis is linked to Pennaly. He found her in the early '90s and they have been thriving happily.

Darrien is yet to find a link. We were turned at the same time and maybe that's why he hates me so much. I have never felt a brotherly love with him the way I do with the rest of my brothers.

"No," I answer him blankly.

He frowns "Is this possible. Father, mother. Can that happen?" we all turn to them and for the first time today, I look at mother. Her black hair falls over her shoulder. I am scared most of her opinion because I don't want to disappoint her. She has been the one person in this family that blindly supports me. All the mistakes I made; she has always been there to guide me. I can't lose her right now to this.

"This is out of my purview," father answers. He doesn't seem angry. I can't even tell how he feels. I go into their heads because I need to know what I am against. Reading their minds will show me.

As vampires, we all have different abilities. I read minds, so why not use it to my advantage.

I need to consult Eli again. I shouldn't say anything until I am sure.

"He also feels the same."

This is so great. He is fucking done with.

Darrien's mind is dirty as usual. Of course, he would be happy that this would happen to me. I didn't expect him to suddenly give a shit about me. "Only a fucking wimp like you will have to think negative thoughts. Why not say it out to me" I glare at him suddenly getting pissed.

He frowns upon realization "Why should I say it out when you can easily hear my thoughts. Asshole" he smirks.

Fuck, I hate him so much.

"Enough you two. Alanis, do not read anyone's mind. You've been warned so many times." Belis warns me. the fact that I can hear what they are thinking is frustrating to them and as a rule, I am not supposed to.

I laugh "Then you all say what you're thinking. Don't just stare at me like I'm the plague"

"We are still trying to process all you've said" Mother speaks for the first time. I look at her with a faint smile "What do you think mother. I know this is a lot. It's a lot for me too but what I feel is too much to ignore" I pour out my heart to her.

"You can't ignore it. When I met your father, I was human. I gave up everything for him. So, don't ever think about letting go of your soulmate"

This is a lot easier than I expected. Everyone is taking it better than I thought they would. "Does he accept that you are a Vampire?" Eligio asks.

I shrug "He is not completely okay with it. He is fighting a lot of demons and he still needs to get his family on board" I explain.

Darrien laughs "You're fucking screwed" he is dancing at my misfortune. The excitement in his eyes is making my skin crawl. I ignore him and face father and mother "Are you guys okay with this? I know it is a lot to take in and I have been thinking of ways to soften the blow but this is not something I can control. I just need the most important people in my life to support me" I am rubbing it in. I need them to know that they are all that matters.

"Can we just do some more research on this? I will speak to the fore-ones and we will reflect on it," father tells me. I nod because this is a lot better than I expected them to take it. The fact that everyone is calm right now is a miracle.

I have to take it with grace.

"Alright"

We all go back to our respective rooms and there is a knock on my door. I look to the door with a deep breath. I don't want to talk to anyone right now. I need a couple of minutes to breathe. The door opens and Eligio walks in without waiting for an answer.

"I've said everything I need to say," I tell him blatantly.

He rolls his eyes and sits down on the bed next to me "I have seen a same-sex link before. You are not the first, you're just the first to ever link with a mutt"

I remain quiet.

"Does it scare you?" he is genuinely concerned for me.

I haven't been thinking about all the problems that will arise from this situation because I don't want to give myself more stress. I know that acceptance from my kind and Beau's kind won't come easy. People will not understand, they will think this is an act of rebelling.

This thing is not as black and white as it should be. I am a man who was chosen by the deities to be with someone else. This is out of my control but people won't see it like that.

"No" I lie.

He reaches for me and I don't pull away "You know you can always talk to me’’ he is being as caring as he always is with me. Eligio and I have a bond. It has always been that way. That's why I know i can count on him. Elu only cares about me because of her Man.

"I know" I sigh.

He hugs me and I let him. His hug is comforting, makes me feel like everything will be okay. I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. I don't know if I will get an opportunity to see Beau again. I don't even know what is going on with him. I miss him so much and I can't even go see him.

"It'll all work out" he whispers into my ear.

I take a deep breath and my heart beats in my chest. I feel him, I know he is breathing and alive. I can feel sadness emitting from him. I can feel the pain in his heart.

He misses me too.

 

Chapter 19: I love you

Beau.

I feel my bones as the crack and bend. I feel the sweet pain as I turn into my true form. It is excruciating because a part of me is hurting. Once I fully turn I look to the distance and all I see are trees. I let out a loud howl, pouring my heart out with the scream.

It has been two weeks, two weeks of captivity. It is late at night. Sneaking out of the house was not easy. This decision took a lot from me. Father has had someone outside my door for two weeks. He has been keeping me, prisoner, because he knows I will never just stay away from Alanis on my own. He can tell me to but my heart will always pull me to him. it has felt like a part of my soul has been withering all these days.

I feel him inside me but I can't touch him, I can't talk to him.

I am supposed to be the next leader but father can't even trust me enough to make my own decisions. He chooses what I do with my life to the point that he is fighting against the deities. the pain of being without Alanis is worse than death itself. I haven't eaten, I haven't gone hunting. I am slowly dying and the hatred in fathers' heart is clouding him from seeing this.

I start running on all fours and I run till my limbs weaken. I run until the pain of missing him is covered by the pain from running. I run until I am no longer in the woods. I run until I am outside his house. The lights in his house are off, it seems like everyone is sleeping. I don't even know if vampires sleep but I stay outside watching and waiting.

I can feel him.

He is near me.

My heart thuds beneath my chest. I tread around the house, hoping he can feel me too. I want to see him; I need him so much. I continue until I see a light flicker in a window. I stop and wait, hoping desperately that he is the one. a shadow crawls around the room and I look hopefully at the window. I release a soft howl until the figure comes to view. He stares at me with wide eyes and I realise that he is probably shocked to see me in my true form.

This was the only way I could come to him. These past two weeks have been the worst. Being a prisoner in my house, unable to see the only person I want to. It hasn't been easy, and now looking at him even though the walls of the house is serving as a barrier to us, still feels better. He reaches for the window sill and my heart jumps, excited. The window opens and a smile creeps up to his face. He knows it's me. He is as excited to see me as I am to him. I watch him as he comes out of the window and jumps to the tree. That was a hard jump but he made it look pretty easy.

I watch him until he is in front of me and when he is, I take a couple of steps until he is in close proximity "I have missed you," he breathes out and my heart races

I have missed him too. He reaches for me and I don't stop him. His palm pats the fur on my head, closing my eyes; I feel him. I feel the connection that people want to cut. I am at home.

I slowly let go and with him still touching me, I turn to my human form. He lets go of me abruptly. I feel the chills, being naked isn't helping "Hi," I manage.

It must be the shock of seeing the transition. He looks terrified but I kinda wanted to show him the real me. I want him to get used to it because this is me and he is going to be a part of me. "Hi," he replies through his shock.

He is looking at my body, I see the lust in his eyes. He can't help himself. I have always been confident in my body but the things his stare is doing to me is not good for us. We can't have sex; I have to keep reminding myself. I will not do anything to ruin this relationship.

"You need clothes." he doesn't want for me and jumps up with so much force that he lands in his room. I look up and watch as he swings back down. He smiles and stretches his hands "Here you go" his clothes are in a tight grip in his hand.

"I never gave you the other ones" I remember the last clothes he gave me. He shrugs as I put on the shorts and vest. Once I am clothed "You wanna come in?"

I smile "Are we flying through the window?" I say jokingly.

He laughs "Depends....do I have to carry you in my arms" he takes another step towards me and I smell him. I take a deep breath to take him in. His scent travels into my nostrils and I want to just move a little bit closer and taste him.

"Where did you disappear to" he places his palm on my face and I close my eyes just grasping in all that he is. His hand slides down my face and rests on my chest. My heart is beating a mile a minute. I am suddenly nervous just from one-touch "Things didn't go as planned" I manage in between heavy breaths. I open my eyes and he is watching me sadly. He understands that it wasn't going to be so easy.

"Come up," he tells me and I feel his touch disappear. He jumps into the house and waits for me by the window. I climb the tree and into the window. In his room I smile, looking around. The walls are a plain beige colour. There are only a king-sized bed and a desk and chair. Minimal furniture, nothing in the room shows his character. Almost like he doesn't live here.

"No pictures?" I ask as I walk around.

He shrugs "Never had a reason to take pictures"

I look at him and he is watching me "Where is your phone?" he reaches for the bedside table and grabs his phone. I collect it from him and open the camera icon. "Come here" I pull him closer to me. He welcomes the contact as I rest his head on my shoulder "We should commemorate this by taking a selfie. Everyone does it" I smile as I look at our reflection on his face. The person I am staring at it unrecognizable. I never imagined looking this happy in all my life. Lanis, on the other hand, looks a little nervous. I like that I make him nervous and when I look at this picture in the future, I want to remember the feelings I have with him.

The shutter makes a click as I record the moment. I give him the phone and he smiles at the picture "You have beautiful eyes" he blurts out.

"My father didn't take it well" I sit down on the bed and he sits next to me. I grab his hands in my hands and he squeezes it softly "He says I am better without a mate. That's why I couldn't contact you" I explain.

Moving closer, he plants a soft kiss to my forehead. I grab his waist and pull him closer, wanting more than a peck. I smash my lips against him and he welcomes me. I go straight for the kiss and push him to the bed roughly. My hands are still gripping his waist cause I am terrified that If I let him go he will disappear. The kiss is rough, and fast with so much desperation. I can feel him against me. He is hard and begging for this as much as I am. I am not going to fuck him but I want to feel something.

he reaches for the hems of the vest I am wearing and it is over my head swiftly. Still kissing him, I feel his tongue as it dances erratically around my mouth. His kiss is electrifying and I am losing all the control I have. Now being the only one shirtless, I reach for the plaid shirt he is wearing. Unbuttoning them is a trick and one that I don't have patient for as I pull at it a little too rough. The buttons fall to the floor. He pulls away from me and there is an evil smile on his face "You just ruined my favourite shirt" he winks and sure enough, his shirt is ripped.

"Fuck your shirt" I push him back to the bed and kiss him again. Hot and heavy I pull the sleeves of his shirt and move from his lips to the crook of his neck. There is nothing slow about our kisses. i want to kiss him everywhere and it seems like there isn't enough time. I lay wet kisses all over him and he releases a loud moan. The sound is unexplainable, it is soft with a breathy sound. No girl has ever made me weak in the knees and that sound has me undone. "Fuck," I groan still placing kisses on him. His eyes are closed, it is almost like he is in another world. I like the reaction I am getting from him. It makes me want more, makes me want to have him completely.

I reach for the button of his jeans and he opens his eyes, almost like he is waking up from the trance "We can't have sex" he reminds me. I slide back up until I am staring at him. My hands are still fondling with his jeans. I want to get it off. I want to feel him so badly. "We're not having sex" I kiss him again and he doesn't question me again as I take off his jeans and his boxers. He grabs a pillow and I watch as he covers his face. I take the pillow from him because I want to see him. I want to try something and I need to see him as I do.

"I need to see you" I explain.

He nods as I look at his member for the first time. It springs up inviting me for a taste. This is the first time I am this close to another man's dick. I hoped that I wouldn't feel disgusted and a smile springs up to my face because I am excited for what I am about to do. I hold him in my hand and this gets another moan out of him. He closes his eyes and bites his lip softly. The view gets my member to twitch in excitement.

"You are fucking beautiful" I mutter still playing with his member. I can't count how many times I have jerked off. I know all the right moves. We are the same, I know what to do to make him cum but I don't want to jerk him off. I want to taste him. I want to so badly.

I start with a lick of the tip and he opens his eyes wide, watching me, his expression unreadable. He doesn't stop me, and my courage inflates. I take all of him in, and the feeling is blissful. It's a sweet-salty taste, suddenly going back from this moment will be impossible. It heightens all my other senses. I move in an up and down motion, and he pushes his waist upward in a way to take him all in. I keep at it, enjoying every bit of this feeling. Lanis cries out from the pleasure as I give it my all to get him the satisfaction he needs. I reach for my cock and it is hard. I stroke it in a slow rhythm because I want to get him there first. Looking at him he squeezes the sheets tightly and I know the look in his face. He is close. I go faster and he moans louder, everyone in the house can probably hear us but I don't care. I want to please him so badly. Watching him is turning me on. I can feel the pressure on my cock as I continuously stroke it.

"Fuck" he breathes ecstatically. He lets go of the sheets and grabs my hair in a tight grip. It doesn't hurt, it even makes this more pleasurable and I feel close to climaxing. "Don't stop" he moves my head to a faster pace. And I smile as I feel him stretch, I feel his toes curl beneath me. "I'm gonna cum" he warns me and tries to pull me off him but I stay on him with my mouth still holding unto his most sensitive organ. And as his fluid slides down my throat, I feel myself reach my peak.

"Fuck" I mutter from the pure bliss of the feeling. He looks at me with lust-filled eyes and I want more as I drink him in. The taste perfect. I will never forget. I look at the bed and the whitish substance is all over his sheets "I ruined your sheets" I tell him guiltily. I move away and he blushes from embarrassment. I stand up from the bed and my knees are weak.

I have never had an intense reaction to a blow job in my life. I can't tell how many girls I have fucked. Sex Is like breathing for me. It has never been a big deal but just one little intimate act with this man and I am completely messed up.

He is still lying in the same position, not moving, not saying anything. A panic arises in my head. I hope he doesn't regret this. He seems lost in thought. I go into the bathroom, not saying anything I check around for a towel. I find a bunch in the cupboard under the sink. I grab one and put it under the tap. Going back into the room, he is still lying down, still quiet and my heart is racing. Terrified to be on his bad side. I clean up my mess still watching him; unsure of what to say.

"I told everyone" he speaks up suddenly. I go to bed and kneel down on the edge, wondering where he is going with this. He looks at me and there are tears in his eyes. Fuck, he is crying. Why is he crying? I remain quiet, I don't know what to say.

"They all looked sad, sad for me. Sad for the plight I was dealt with. No one understands why" I can relate to this. He continues "Father said, he'd have to research on it. Research on my relationship with you" he laughs. I reach for him and he doesn't pull away. I wipe the tears from his face and he sniffs still talking "I love you" he blurts. My eyes open wide from the shock of his words. He is sad because he loves me? "I love you so much" the tears continue to fall "Why am I crying" he stands up from the bed. I stand up to match his height "I am sorry. I don't know what is happening. My mind is all over the place. My heart feels like it is about to explode. Too many emotions, I can't deal with them all" his breath is heavy, he is still crying and my heart can't take the sight. I pull him into my arms and he doesn't fight. His body stiffens in my arms as I hug him tightly. In a way telling him that I feel the same and I understand what he is going through. He is not alone in this.

We are in this together.

 

Chapter 20: The killing begins.

Alanis.

He is sleeping.

His snores are soft, almost like music to my ears. I am watching him like a fucking creep as he sleeps. He stirs in my arms and I hold him tighter. I replay the night back in my head and regret kicks in.

Shit.

I cried like a fucking wuss.

Cried for no reason. I can’t explain why I was so emotional but Beau handled it perfectly. He didn’t judge me or laugh at me. He took me in his arms and made sure I was okay.

"You’re not alone. We are in this together. I will never let you. I will fight for you until my last breath"

His words soothed me at my weakest point. After we changed my sheets, we stayed cuddled up in bed until he fell asleep. I can’t sleep, it’s all too much. Him being next to me when I thought I would never get to see him again. The intimacy of our night is still playing out in my head. I got a blow job from a man and it felt a million times better than any I’ve ever had. I feel my phone vibrate. Grabbing I see Rus’s ID. Checking the time with a frown; it is 2 am. Why the fuck is he calling me.

"Hello," I answer in a hushed tone.

The other end of the line is noisy. "L my man. I need a big ass favour," he says into the phone laughing. He is drunk, why is he involving me in his stupid moves.

"What is it?" I move away from Beau and he stirs but doesn’t wake up. He is tried and I need him to get all the rest he needs. I walk to my window and wait for his reply. "Rus," I say his name again.

"I am in a bind. I messed with a couple of biker guys and they are about to kill me," he sounds terrified. I groan because this is usual for my best friend. He has no filter and says shit all the time.

"What do you want me to do?"

He laughs again, he is doing a lot of laughing for someone that is in supposed danger "Do your running thing and come help me. I’m at Russo’s" he ends the call.

"Fuck."

I grab a pair of sweats and a t-shirt from my closet and leave the house not wanting to wake him up. I will just go help Rus and be back swiftly. I run as fast as I can until I reach Russo’s. Russo’s is a regular bar I go to. So finding it was no problem. The lights that spell out the owner of the bar are brightly lit. There are motorcycles lined up in the front entrance. I hear the ruckus from a mile away. What did Rus do now?

I walk into the building but it is empty apart from a couple of regulars. Chloe sees me and smiles brightly "He is out back," she tells me as she pours a drink for someone. Chloe is a bartender.

I sigh and she chuckles as I go through the back in search of him. I hate that he has to drag me to save his ass all the time but he is my best friend and he is the only one I trust in this town—apart from Beau. Beau is all I live for now. As I walk out, Rus flies and falls to my feet. His face is bruised and bloody. I look at the culprits of injuries.

Two bulky men dressed in full leather gear stare at us angrily. Rus grabs my legs squeezing it "Shit, just in time" he smiles and I see a chip in his tooth. "What did you?" I focus on him because I don’t want to fight right now. There is too much love in my heart that I just want to love everyone and show them what they are missing.

"This doesn’t concern you," one of the men speaks up. I take a deep breath and my scent kicks in. That smell—shit.

"They are mutts," I whisper to Rus. I can’t fight wolves, this is bad. Rus furrows his brows, not understanding what I am saying "Thye won’t just let us go."

"Look, man, please forgive my friend. He is clueless," I wave my hands in the air. Completely surrendering to them. The same one that spoke earlier laughs hysterically.

I sigh and run my fingers through my hair. They walk closer to us "He should put his fists where his mouth is" they are gloating. They know they can’t be defeated by him. Would I be able to watch them beat him up?

"I apologise on his behalf,’’ I cower and Rus shouts. "Yeah man, if anything, your girlfriend is the one that asked for it."

Shut your mouth Rus.

I close my eyes because I know this is not going to end well. The guy that has been quiet jumps until he has Rus in his grip. Rus groans probably from all the pain he is feeling. I pull him away from them and behind me instantly "Leave him alone. Look, he is drunk. He doesn’t know what he is saying" I try to justify his stupidity.

"I can smell you from a mile away. You are a fucking Vamp" the same guy speaks up. He smiles evilly. His expression is scary because it looks like he wants to fight. We aren’t allowed to fight.

"So, you should know that this fight cannot happen" I warn him. Rus is still behind me. I look at him already sensing that these guys want to inflict more pain than they have on him. "Go back inside."

He reaches for the doorknob and I watch him run into the building. "Let’s settle this amicably" I plead.

"He forced himself on my Wife," the quiet one explains. He has shoulder-length black hair and the darkest brown eyes. He is angry and from his explanation, I can understand why.

"I am sorry about that," I apologise again.

"This doesn’t concern you. We just want to teach him a lesson. You don’t act like a fucking douche just because you’ve had a couple of drinks." I understand him. I completely understand but we can’t fight because I will have to protect Rus.

"I will make sure he doesn’t do anything like this again." I guarantee them. I don’t want this to get out of hand. I have to nip this in the bud. Now.

"Just talk to your friend. He might not be lucky next time," they walk away from me. I release a sigh of relief. This could’ve gone in the other direction but I am glad it didn’t. I walk into the bar and Rus runs into my arms "Shit, thank you so much," he plants kisses on my cheek. I laugh because he can never be serious.

"What did you do?" I ask him.

He sighs and I notice that he is still bleeding. ’It wasn’t like that. I just misinterpreted things and they got angry," he explains. I believe him because Rus is not that kind of person "I didn’t do anything to her."

I nod "Come on dude. Let’s get you home. Did you drive here?" he nods his head. I drive him to his house and run all the way back to mine, hoping and praying that he is still asleep. I use the front door so as not to wake him but he is seated on the bed waiting.

"Shit," I whisper caught off guard.

"Where did you go?"

I walk over to the bed and crawl until I am under the covers with him. He wraps his arms around my waist and breathes into my neck "I had to go help a friend out. His name is Rus." I explain being transparent with him. He smiles and plants a kiss on my cheek. "I missed you."

I look out the window and the sun is rising, creating an orange reflection into my room "Do you have to go back home today?" it’s a school day but if he is staying with me I don’t plan on going.

"I’m not going back," he squeezes me tighter. I chuckle at his words because I don’t want him to leave. "I snuck out last night. He won’t let me see you. Having no mate is better than mating with a Vampire," he looks at me "His words. Not mine."

I manage a smile "What are we going to do? You said we have two months. What happens if your father is still against it in the next full moon?"

Beau sighs "I don’t know. I have to find out if it’s possible to do the ritual without the Alpha’s approval. He is not going to change his mind."

"Oh,"

He raises my chin up with a sad smile. I know this is hurting him as much as it is hurting me "This will work. You are mine," he assures me and I believe him completely. The door to my room opens abruptly and Belis barges into my room getting caught off guard by the appearance in front of him "Shit. Sorry," he is looking at Beau with a smirk on his face.

"You need to come out right now," he waves his hand and walks out of my room. The fact that Beau is here is not surprising. They all probably know he came in last night. Something is wrong. I get up from the bed and Beau stands up "Is this about me?"

I shrug "I don’t know. Are you hungry?" I ask him.

"I wouldn’t mind food right now," he smiles sheepishly.

I go back to him and peck him on the lips softly "Alright mister. Just hold on a bit. I’d be right back."

I go to fathers’ study and everyone is assembled. All seated with worried looks on their face. "What is going on?" I say straightforward. Father is the first to speak up in his. Shit is about to hit the fan tone.

"Two wolves were killed early this morning." my heart lunges in my chest already panicking. "By a vampire or vampires. The number is not sure.

"Where?" I ask because I need to know. It can’t possibly be a coincidence. Please God, not them.

"At Russo’s bar," he grabs a remote from the table and puts on the television. It’s on a local channel and the news is on. I see the crime scene and I hate myself right now. Those guys are dead? I didn’t kill them, but I was there.

"I went there last night," I am going to be honest with them because I can’t hide this from them. They need to know in case I am somehow dragged into this. Everyone’s eyes are on me. Shock ridden eyes. "I met them. They had some issues with Rus. I intervened but I didn’t kill them."

Father sighs and removes his glasses "Why are you so involved with the wolves. What is going on Lan?" he is worried. My hands are shaking because this feels like a setup. I already know that this is going to come back to haunt me.

"I didn’t know they were wolves and when I found out. I settled it with words. I didn’t kill them," I am desperate for them to believe me. "I swear." Eligio sighs out loud "You guys believe me, right?"

"We believe you," Eligio answers but I can tell he is just being supportive. Darrien laughs and I know he is going to say something stupid "You probably couldn’t control your anger as usual" he scoffs.

I frown "I wasn’t angry. I calmed them down and settled it. There was no fighting" I replay the night in my mind.

"I’ll find out more about this, I just need you to lay a low profile," Father tells me. I nod because he is right. There has to be some kinda evidence to prove I didn’t do this.

I need to tell beau about this.

I go up the stairs with dread because I don’t know how I am going to explain this to him. I enter the room and he is gone. Shit. I hope he didn’t hear the conversation downstairs. What if he thinks I did it?

I sit on the bed with so much sadness in me. The door to the shower opens and he walks out with a bright smile on his face; he notices my expression and freezes. I thought I’d have time to at least gather up the courage to tell him this. I am too scared to even fathom that he might not believe me.

Shit.