Ch. 371..375: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 371-375

Chapter 371: Cut all ties

Blue

I don’t know why this keeps happening and I don’t know how to handle it. just when you think that things will go back to normal, something just happens and completely fucks that up. I want to just fix everything even though I know that I can’t do anything on my own.

I walk down the stairs and out of the house. I didn’t want to get upset, I don’t want him or Rex to ever be scared to come to talk to me. freaking out would just prove why he didn’t want to tell me in the first place. I find Jules in the garage, underneath his truck.

"Dad,’’ I call his name.

He slides out and looks up at me, his clothes are covered in grease but the worry springs up immediately he notices my expression.

"I need to talk to you. do you have a minute?’’

He nods and leads me out of the garage and once we are outside. I take a deep breath because I don’t even know how to say this to him. I have kept mom’s death from him because I didn’t think it was something that he needed to know. Everything that happened in the coven was like some forbidden conversation that I didn’t want to have with him.

"What is wrong?’’ he asks, slowly reaching for my arm.

I watch him because I don’t know how he will react to this. he never had a relationship with her and maybe that was why I felt like telling him will not make a difference. He would just worry about me and wonder how it is affecting me.

"Stuff happened when I went back home. A lot of stuff that is catching up to me even though we left."

"What do you mean?’’ he asks me curiously.

I take a deep breath "Mom didn’t make it this time. they got to her.’’

He furrows his brows in confusion "What are you talking about?’’

I look away from him because this is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I don’t know how he is going to help me, help Gyles. This is sorcery, magic that he doesn’t even know anything about. How is a lone wolf in the middle of the woods supposed to help me?

Your father knows a lot of people. He might just know the person that can help you.

My wolf reminds me. yes, Jules has a lot of connections but is it the kind of connection that can help us right now. I need to try because I don’t want to go back to the coven. I don’t want to take two steps backward when I already thought I was away from that mess.

"What happened?’’ he adds when he notices my silence.

"Mom didn’t make it. she is dead.’’ I blurt it out because this is the easiest way, I can do this. the only way that makes this fast.

"You are joking... right?’’

I shake my head "No, she was stabbed to death." My tone is cold and dismissive. A normal person is supposed to feel this in a different manner. I am supposed to be in tears just thinking about it but her death came with my freedom and I don’t want it to hold me back.

"How are you?’’ he asks because that is the next question that anyone would have.

"I am okay. Is it bad that all I feel is relief? Am I such a bad person that the first thought that came to me when I found out was that I could finally be free?’’

At this point, the tears that I have somehow been storing inside me come out. I am not crying because I am sad. These tears are for all the guilt I feel. The guilt of not being sad. As he takes me in his arms, I let him. I embrace my father and let it all out.

I don’t hold back.

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I tell him everything and he tells me to give him a couple of hours. I don’t know what he can help us with but I hope he has a solution to this. I go back to the room and Gyles is seated on the floor with his back to the bed. Rex jumps up from the bed when he notices me. he is the one that noticed. He is the one that sees the things I am too blind to see. Maybe I was just in denial. I knew it wasn’t going to be that easy. I didn’t expect to have everything figured out. all I had were the hopes that have been completely shattered.

"We need to go back to the community,’’ he breathes out. Gyles looks up from his phone but he remains quiet.

"I spoke to my dad. He said to give him a couple of hours. Let’s wait on him and then we will figure this out.’’

Rex shakes his head "Alby will know what to do. he is the strongest one spiritually and whatever this is, is spiritual. We need to talk to him. he can help us."

I don’t know what Alby is capable of but I know Jules. If there is anyone that can help us. he is the one.

"Okay, just let’s wait for Jules. Then we can go home."

I see the look on his face. he doesn’t agree with me but he is also not going to fight me on this. I have to do everything I can first before I shove this down the drain. I walk over to Gyles and he watches me as I get on my knees "How are you feeling right now?’’

He covers his face with his hands, I guess he doesn’t even want to look at me "Same. the voices have stopped for now.’’

That is a relief but I also know that I can’t just keep my hopes on that. they will still come back. even though the book is far away from us, somehow, it is still tied to him.

I want to cut the ties completely.

Chapter 372: Everyone needs a break

Alanis

The next day, I go into one of the guest rooms that Belis spent the night in and he is already awake and seated on the bed. almost like he was waiting for me to come. "You’re up,’’ I mutter as I slowly walk into the room.

He looks up and shrugs "I don’t sleep.’’ he tells me nonchalantly. I haven’t figured how I want to handle everything he told me last night. I don’t have the words to make him appreciate his life. I don’t have a right to tell him that he needs to keep living. As Gyles said, it is his life and he needs to make the choice on his own.

"I need to get ready for work,’’ he manages, with a deep exhale. I nod as he stands up from the bed after putting on his shoes.

"About last night...—"

He stops me "Forget about last night. I don’t know what I was thinking. I shouldn’t have acted so stupid,’’ he shrugs again. he is acting like last night didn’t happen. I don’t want to discard the things he said. I want us to talk about it and I want to help him.

’’I am not talking about the way you acted, I am talking about everything else.’’

He sighs and then runs his hands through his hair "It doesn’t matter Alanis. I shouldn’t have said all those things, so can we pretend like it didn’t happen.’’

I shake my head because I don’t want to pretend like it didn’t happen. I want to help him—but only if he wants my help.

"You should talk to Drucilla, she is worried.’’

He sighs again, almost like he forgot that I am stubborn and I wouldn’t just let this go so easily. "Don’t worry about her, she was just being emotional. I will talk to her. are you going to drive me home or do I just run?’’ he asks as he heads in the direction of the door.

"You are evading Belis, I need to confirm that you are okay before I let you go home."

He scoffs "Are you telling me that you wouldn’t let me go home?’’ he smiles in disbelief. I have no right to stop him from leaving but I want to help him. I wish he wouldn’t just make this hard.

"That’s not what I meant. I don’t want you going home when we still have a lot to talk about,’’ I grab his arm gently and his eyes shift to my hand on him.

"Let me go, Lan,’’ he calls me by the name he used to call me when I was a newborn vampire. His eyes are glaring but I can feel the pain emanating from him. fuck, I want to help him so badly but I don’t know how to.

"I don’t want to,’’ I tell him.

"I don’t want another attack from your guard dog, so It would be best if you just let me the fuck go and continue playing house with your dog of a boyfriend."

He is being a jerk and it is getting to me. I don’t like it when anyone insults beau. It ignites a spark inside me that is sometimes uncontrollable.

This time, I have to control myself because I don’t want to hurt him. I want to help him and returning the same attitude to him is not going to help.

"Should I tell father what you told me last night? Do you want me to leave it for him to handle?’’

His eyes open wide from the shock of my threat. If I can’t help him, then I will actually have to speak to the rest of my family.

He forces his arm away from my grip and walks away from me and to the door. I am quick to beat him at this race by running over to him and shutting the door "I am not letting you go,’’ I state calmly.

His eyes twitch as he tries to restrain himself. I see the strain on his neck, the vein that is about to pop out.

"You don’t understand. You have things to look forward to. I have nothing.’’ He finally says something that he is feeling. He is finally opening up and all it took was me forcing him to stay here.

"That is not true. You have me, you have the whole family, you have a lot even though it might not seem like it.’’

"What is the point of it all. Living forever? The same cycle on and on. Is there an end game?’’

His questions should be rhetorical because I don’t know how to answer him. I understand what he means. Living forever, waking up each day and knowing that your life is never-ending.’’

"Do you want a break?" I ask him

He looks away from me "Asking for a break is weak. I don’t know if I deserve to ask for that." he tells me sadly.

He knows what I mean by a break. Going into a sleep state is normal for vampires. The only person that has gone through the sleep state is our father. Completely shutting down for a while. As long as you want. It seems like Belis needs that right now.

he covers his face with his hands and I watch him as he starts to cry. I want to help him but this is something he needs to figure out on his own.

"Doing this doesn’t make you weak. It makes you strong to admit that you need a break. When you are ready to come back, you can.’’ I tell him encouragingly. I don’t want Belis gone but I also don’t want him living a life that is tiring to him. a break could be what he needs.

"I don’t know how to tell her,’’ he uncovers his face slowly.

"I will come with you. we can talk to the family together. what do you say?’’ I ask him because I want to be there for him, the way he was when I first met him.

"Okay. Thank you.’’

Chapter 373: Happy

Alanis

"What does that even mean?’’ Beau asks me quietly. I am back in my room, getting ready to go home with Belis. Beau doesn’t want me to go but he knows that he doesn’t have a say in this. I need to be there for my brother and now he needs me more than he ever has.

"I don’t know if saying he is depressed is the right word. I have never met a depressed vampire,’’ I explain even though I don’t even understand it fully myself.

"Cassius was depressed,’’ he suggests.

I shake my head "He was just a monster. I wouldn’t say he was depressed.’’

He laughs "It might seem that way but if you look at things vastly, you will understand that he did that because he was heartbroken. All the pain from his past—which turned into depression.’’

After everything that Cassius did to the pack, Beau still justifies his actions. He was a monster and I don’t have any remorse or guilt for the way things ended.

"Are you comparing my brother to Cassius, the murderer?’’

He raises his hands up immediately and walks over to me "No way babe. I could never,’’ he pulls me into his arms and I look up at him. there is a smile on his face. everything from last night is forgotten because I don’t even want to dwell on the past and the fact that he knows what he did wrong is all that is important.

"I don’t want you to go,’’ he rests his head in the crook of my neck and sniffs loudly. This is a normal thing for Beau. sniffing me is like his signature affection. I have gotten so used to him taking a whiff of my scent whenever he is close to me.

"I am just going for a couple of hours. You have become so clingy,’’ I accuse him even though there is a smile on my face right now. I like clingy Beau. I like that he worries and can’t stand a day without me. it just shows me how much he loves me and I will never take it for granted.

"I am not clingy; I just like you too much.’’

I pull away from him halfway and raise a brow "Just like me?’’ I ask him playfully.

He nods and then realizes my question mid nod "Fuck, no. I meant, I love you so much." he corrects himself to my satisfaction. My smile widens but I don’t let go of him. I stay in his arms because the feelings I get are a lot more than anything.

"I want to go on a trip with you. just me and you. is it possible?’’ he asks me.

"When?’’

"Now?"’

I roll my eyes because he would do anything to get me to stay with him. even tempt me with a vacation. I don’t mind a vacation right now. I don’t mind being cooped up somewhere with him and no one else. It sounds like the best thing that could happen right now—especially with the pregnancy. It would help me relax.

"You are thinking about it,’’ he points out, probably from the change in my expression.

"We can’t go now. I need to sort Belis out first and then we can talk about this vacation idea.’’ He tilts his head back and I watch the veins on his neck as his Adam’s apple bobs.

"Ugh, I thought I could keep you to myself. I guess not,’’ he lets go of me and grabs the shirt that I brought out, handing it to me "come on, your brother is waiting."

I collect the shirt from him but my heart thuds as his fingers brush against mine softly. Just a touch from him and I want to give in to his demands. I want to stay in his arms for the rest of the day and forget the world.

He grabs the shirt from me again and I watch him as he helps me get it on "I don’t want you wearing a shirt right now. I would have loved to just stay in bed with you and ogle you all day but I have to let you go,’’ he starts to button the shirt.

I smile because he is being a sweetheart right now.

"Have I ever told you that I love you?’’

He finishes with my shirt and pulls me even closer to me "No, doesn’t ring a bell.’’

I smile as he touches my stomach gently. I will never get used to him cupping a feel. I still find it weird that there are two babies forming inside of me. this is the most excited I have ever felt. I can’t even fathom how to handle it all.

"I love you Beau Foxly."

he leans forward and presses his lips to mine. my heart beats erratically against his chest and I feel his match to my rhythm. I don’t know what Belis going through but I don’t see myself ever getting tired of this life. I don’t see myself wanting to end this beautiful bubble that I have put myself in with Beau. he is everything I want and all I could ask for. Our babies are going to complete the joy I feel right now with him.

I leave the room with promises of coming back immediately everything is sorted and when I get out of the house and to my car where Belis is waiting, I see a smile on his face. talking to me helped him and I can feel it.

"Thank you for this, I don’t know how I am going to talk to Dru about this. I wish she would understand.’’

"She will. When I spoke to her last night. She thought you were rejecting her. the fact that you still love her is all that will be important to her. she will understand."

He smiles as we enter the car.

"I am happy for you Lan."

I start the car because I am happier than I have ever been.

I never want to give it up.

Chapter 374: True love

Alanis

We get to the house and I can tell he is nervous. I know why this will be worrisome for him, I mean, he is basically going to be telling his link that he needs a break. I know it is not about her and more about, himself but I know it is not something that is easy to understand. I don’t know how I would feel if beau said something like that to me. I know that it will break my heart but I just hope that Drucilla will understand him right now.

"You got this,’’ I encourage him because that is all I can do right now. He needs someone in his corner and I understand him. I think this is the best solution for how he is feeling. it is pretty early and this is going to be hard on the whole family but it will be alright.

the door to the house opens and Dru walks out, in a pair of shorts and a tank top. she walks over to the car and the expression on her face has me worried for her. I mean, I am sure that she can sense that something is wrong.

"I don’t know if I can tell her alone. I need you there with me.’’ he breathes out, his voice shaking. I don’t know if this is the best thing. he needs to talk to her alone and then we can talk to the rest of the house together. I just don’t want him to have this conversation with someone looming over their heads.

"This is something you need to do on your own," I tell him calmly, even though Belis looks terrified. I have never seen him this terrified in all my life of knowing him. in fact, to me, he was the bravest out of all of us. Eligio was the smart one, Darrien is the ruthless one and Belis is the brave one.

But I guess everyone has their moments. he is battling something right now and I need him to fight this head-on, like he usually does.

"Dru will understand. just tell her how you feel. tell her what is going on in your head. Can you do that?’’

he sighs loudly and then runs his hands through his hair. Dru is still outside, so I walk out of the car first and to her.

"Is he okay?’’ she asks.

I nod "Yeah he is. he is about to tell you some things, I need you to be open-minded about it and not too harsh.’’

Her eyes move to him and at that moment, he opens the car door and gets down. I give him one last smile of encouragement and leave them to it. I walk into the house and Eligio is in the kitchen, with a glass of blood in his grip. he raises a brow, probably surprised to see me here. "Seeing you today again. someone wants back in,’’ he jokes.

"There is something going on with Belis. did you know?’’

he sighs "Belis has been acting like a jerk to everyone. don’t worry, he will get over it.’’

"What if he doesn’t?’’

He creases his brows in confusion "What do you mean?’’

"He wants to die.’’ I tell Eligio because he is the first person I usually come to when something happens.

"Oh. That cant be right.’’

I tell him our whole conversation, I tell him about last night and he listens as I tell him that our brother is depressed.

"Does he plan on leaving Dru all alone?’’

I shrug "I don’t know. he wants a couple of years to breathe. I think it is not a bad idea. maybe he can cool off and then come back to us.’’

the door opens and Dru walks into the house "I am not leaving him,’’ she grabs my arm and there are tears in her eyes.

Belis walks in "I am not leaving you, I just need a break. please don’t make this more than it really is.’’

I wanted this conversation to be between them but I have messed things up. Now they are airing their dirty laundry in front of us "You want to go on a sleep state for god knows how long without me. it is unfair. how can you just choose to leave me?’’ her eyes bore into him.

He runs his hands through his hair in frustration. I watch the scene because I don’t want to interrupt them. this is a conversation that they need to have and I don’t want to be that guy that tries to explain what doesn’t affect me.

"I am not leaving you belis. I want to do right by you. I want to be better for you. You cried to my brother thinking that I was rejecting you. I need to figure shit out and then come back to you, better.’’

he is making a lot of sense right now but she is not listening to it. "I am not letting you disappear. I am coming with you.’’

He frowns "I cant ask you to do that. I need you to stop thinking about things this way. I will be back, I just need a couple of years.’’ he creis. my heart aches for Dru right now. a couple of years without beau sounds like torture to me. I could never do that.

"I am coming with you. I will take this break with you. there is no convincing me otherwise." her tone is firm, almost like there is no convincing her. this is the definition of true love. she is being selfless right now for the one she loves. would do the same thing in a heartbeat. I cannot live a life without Beau. I will follow him to the ends of the earth.

"This is not what you want. you cant do this."

she walks over to him and grabs his hands in hers "I love you. I cannot live without you. please don’t ask me to.’’

He leans forward and now i feel like i am interrupting as they press their lips together.

A smile sprawls to my face because even though I won’t see Belis for a couple of years. i know he is going to come back stronger and happier.

That is all that matters.

Chapter 375: Acceptance and departure

Alanis

The whole thing at home takes longer than I expected. I had to be with them through the whole process. Father was the one person that didn’t handle it well. He wasn’t happy about the whole. Somehow, he feels like he failed Belis. I didn’t want to act like a know it all. I wanted everyone to handle things the way they wanted to.

So, I remained quiet through the whole thing. I said my goodbyes and he promised to come back and be happy. yeah, no one can assure anyone of their happiness but I know that this is what he needs and I know that he will come out of this stronger.

"So, I gotta go,’’ I wave my hands off as we all walk back up the stairs. So there is a basement in the house, where the coffins are kept. Putting a vampire to sleep is not as hard as you would think and the only way, they can wake up is by drinking blood. He chooses to shut down but he and Dru can’t wake up on their own. at the end of it all, they still need the family to wake them up.

Belis said two years. That is a long time. in two years, I would have my babies, they would be grown. He will miss out on all that but it is better he misses out and we have him back better than him not being here at all.

We all walk into the living room and Darrien sighs loudly. After everyone agreed to this, Darrien came over. he said he had to be there. I mean, this is a big step for a vampire. The fact that he admitted that he needed this, is a lot.

"Fuck, I can’t believe he is just not here anymore,’’ he mutters in exasperation.

I nod because I have always been used to the family being together. I mean, we have had our differences but at the end of it, we were always a family "He is not gone, he is still here.’’ Mother chips in with a faint smile. She is the strongest out of us all. This is shocking because this is her first son. The one she turned on her own. she must be feeling it even if she is acting like she isn’t.

"Yeah,’’ Eligio nods in agreement.

After everything that happened, all I want to do is go home and stay with beau for the rest of the night. I miss him already and I know he misses me. he has been texting me all day. I said it was only going to take a couple of hours but it took the whole day.

Father follows me out of the house as I walk over to my car "I need you to be happy... okay?’’ he blurts out surprising me and himself.

I stop walking just as I get to the car and turn to him. there is a smile on his face. "Don’t do anything you don’t want to. Do everything you need to be happy.’’

This is the first time he is showing any emotion in front of me. Belis must be affecting him a lot more than I thought he would.

"I want all my kids to smile every day. If Beau is what makes you smile. Then he is okay in my book.’’

He already said he accepted our relationship. I mean, this is a lot right now because the sincerity in the tone of his voice is making my heart tremble. This is all I wanted and now he is giving it to me.

"I will be there along the way. your journey to parenthood," his eyes dart to my stomach. The bump is not showing with the shirt I have on but I know he is imagining it. "I am here for it all. I will never stray.’’

This is a lot but I just keep a smile on my face because I don’t want to cry right now. meeting Beau and loving him instantly, all I wanted was acceptance from the people in my life. I already knew what I wanted. I knew that nobody was going to take him away from me, so all that was left was my family accepting our love.

Accepting that it was different but also being there. I have everything that I could ever ask for and I will be eternally grateful.

"Thank you, father.’’

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I get to the community and go straight to the room. Beau has been checking up on me all day. Asking when I would be done. I didn’t know why but when I get to the room and find it empty, I call him immediately and he answers on the first ring.

"Hey, where are you?’’ I ask him.

"Don’t be upset, I went out for drinks with Bells and we are running late,’’ he tells me in a hurry. I furrow my brows as I walk into the bathroom and put the phone on speaker. Slowly dropping it on the sink.

"What? You didn’t tell me you were going out?’’

He laughs nervously into the phone and I hear bells in the background but there is no music. "Hey Lanis,’’ she screams into the phone. I know that going out used to be a regular thing for them before he started daring me. I just expected him to tell me, considering we talked all day.

I open the tap as he continues "I am sorry. I knew you had a lot to deal with and I didn’t want to be all up in your face all day.’’

I raise a brow in confusion. He was all up in my business all through. we literally texted each other through the whole thing.

"Uh, okay. Just get back home in one peace,’’ I tell him because I don’t want to make a big deal out of this. I trust him and even though I just wanted to spend a quiet night with him. this is not a problem.

"I’ll call you when I am on my way." he ends the call and I look at my reflection in the mirror. I really wish he was home when I got here.

Bummer.