Ch. 366..370: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 366-370

Chapter 366: Get to the bottom of this

Alanis

I walk back to the room and Belis is seated on the bed. all the scratches seem to have healed except one on his neck. It is healing a lot slower than I thought it would "What the fuck happened?’’ he manages, standing up from the bed. his white shirt is covered in blood, from the whole fight. I wouldn’t even call it a fight. Beau basically attacked him.

"What the fuck happened?’’ he touches the bite mark on his neck and I start to worry. I know what Beau’s bites do to vampires. I remember what it did do Cassius but he was in full form, unlike the form he took when he bit Cassius, the fact that he is not fully healed right now is worrisome.

"Beau freaked out but you can’t blame him, you basically went crazy.’’

He rolls his eyes and walks over to the door that leads to the bathroom "You were butting your nose where it doesn’t belong.’’ I follow him into the bathroom.

"What did he do to me?’’ he points to the bite. My heart races for the fear of what I think. I don’t want this to be a problem but the fact that he isn’t fully healed might mean there is something wrong.

"You will heal,’’ I try to brush off my fears and act like the worry that I feel is nonexistent. He turns away from the mirror and to me "I need new clothes; can you get me some?’’ he asks.

I sigh "Will you stay here tonight?’’

He shakes his head "Why would I?’’

"I need to have a conversation with you. can we do that?’’

"Why do I need to spend the night to have that conversation? Say whatever you want to and be done with it.’’

He takes off his shirt and I see that there are no bite marks on his body. so far, there is no problem. As long as the one on the neck heals, everything will be fine. I want him to spend the night because I want to monitor it. I need to make sure he is okay before I send him home.

"Get the clothes,’’ he orders me coldly. Belis is obviously going through some things and I don’t even know what else to do. I don’t know how to talk to him in a way that he will want to open up to me.

"Okay, I will be back,’’ I walk out of the room and in the direction of mine. the minute I open the door, Beau walks out of the bathroom completely naked.

"Is he okay?’’ he asks immediately, the concern evident on his face.

I shake my head "Not really, the bite on his neck isn’t healing.’’

I walk over to the drawer and pull out a clean pair of sweatpants and a plain t-shirt "what do you mean?’’ he asks me, grabbing a towel and covering up.

"Don’t worry yet. I want to monitor him overnight. Make sure he is okay before he leaves.’’

He frowns "He should have healed by now. fuck, did I mess things up?’’ he runs his hands through his hair, already panicking. I don’t want him to panic even when there is a cause for alarm.

"Hey, there is no problem, he will heal. You weren’t in beast mode. This is not a Cassius situation.’’

I know what he is thinking. I thought the same thing when I first saw him but Belis is not the first person that Beau has attacked and he will be fine. I am so sure of it "How sure are you?’’ he covers his face with his hands already beating himself up for this.

"Look, I am going to give him blood and I am sure that will help him heal faster. don’t worry please,’’ I grab his hands and he looks at me, his eyes are still red.

I manage a faint smile "Everything will be alright.’’

I can understand why he is worried but I don’t even want to gather any negative energy around me. just thinking about the potential problems could make those problems happen and that is not what I want.

I know he will heal.

"Okay,’’ he says finally.

My smile widens as I kiss his cheek softly "Just put on some clothes and wait for me in bed. can you do that?"

He nods immediately. I leave the room and grab a bag of blood from the kitchen. Belis is seated on the bed with only his underwear as I walk over to him "It’s gone,’’ I manage, noticing that the bite is no longer there.

He touches the mark and nods "I guess."

I give him the clothes and watch him as he puts them on immediately "What is going on Belis, you know you can talk to me.’’ I push for the answers that I wanted when I asked to speak to him earlier. He looks at me, but there is no interest in this conversation. Just because I am happy, in a relationship with Beau doesn’t mean that everyone else is the same. I don’t know what happened between him and Drusilla, so I can’t really judge him based on her words. she thinks he is rejecting her but I don’t think that Belis would do that to her. something else must be wrong and she just doesn’t know it yet.

"I can? Since when?’’ he raises a brow in question.

I sigh. He seems to have forgotten that he was the one that I was the closest too when father first turned me. Belis was like the older brother that I always wanted and talking to him was easy. If he could treat me the same way right now, I would be content.

"I spoke to Dru,’’ I ignore his sass.

He sighs and then runs his fingers through his hair "Dru has no business talking to you about our business.’’

"I need to go home,’’ he adds.

"She said you rejected her?’’

He stops walking before he gets to the door and turns around. The look on his face has me so sure that, this is not what happened. There is something else and I am going to find out.

Chapter 367: Suicidal

Alanis

"This is not your business. I don’t put my nose in your shit, so I will appreciate it if you do the same.’’

His eyes look away from me.

"I am your brother.’’ I breathe out because I wish he would treat me with the same regard that I have for him. If I had a problem and he came to me, asking to talk about it. I am pretty sure that I would want to share it with him.

"You haven’t acted like a brother in a long time,’’ he accuses me.

I furrow my brows in confusion because I don’t even know what this means. I am the one that is always trying to reach out, I am the one that keeps wanting to make sure that the family stays the same.

"What are you talking about? I have always been here.’’

He scoffs loudly "The moment you decided to be with Beau, you stopped being with the family." He deadpans and that is not how I see it. just because I moved out of the house and chose to stay in the community with my link, doesn’t mean I abandoned the family.

"That’s not true. You know I had no choice. He is my link. I have to be with him.’’

He laughs "Exactly. He is your new family, so why don’t you stop acting like the one you left behind is important.’’

I know what he is doing. he is deflecting right now. pushing things to me, so that we don’t focus on him. I will not let that happen because I need him to see that this is me reaching out. this is me wanting to see that I am here for him—no matter what.

"I didn’t leave you behind. You will always be a brother to me. no matter what.’’

He sighs "Look, I came for this dinner because I wanted you to know that there are no hard feelings but I need you to back the fuck off. What I and Drusilla are going through is between us. it is not your concern and I need you to just let it go.’’

"She was crying. She thinks you don’t want her anymore.’’

"I never said that. it’s not like I have a choice in all this. it’s not like I can choose to leave all this behind.’’

"You always have a choice,’’ I tell him because I actually believe that. yeah, the deities gave us a push but no one was forced to be with anyone. He chose to be with her, so he can’t say that now.

"Really?’’ he raises his brows with an amused smile.

"Yes. She is the one you chose, so you can’t keep hurting her.’’

He laughs "You mean to tell me that you actually chose to spend the rest of your life with a mutt? Are you being serious right now?’’

"Yes, I am. I would choose this again in a heartbeat. Being with Beau is the happiest I have ever felt in all my life.’’

There are no lies in my statement. I mean every word I just laid on him. Beau is my everything. in fact, when I look at him, I feel like I lucked out. I am lucky to have him as my link. Lucky to have the opportunities that he has brought into my life.

"You chose this pregnancy too?’’

He is trying to make me see things the way he is seeing them right now but I know that whatever is going on with him, has a lot less to do with his link and a lot to do with him. there are things he is not telling me and this conversation just pulls me closer to knowing the truth.

"Yes. I had the opportunity of terminating my babies. This is not something that Beau forced me into doing. yeah, I know it is hard. I get that but at the end of the day. This is my choice. So don’t look at me like I am being forced into something that I don’t want.’’

"You are a man, and you are pregnant. Does that even seem normal to you? do you think this is okay?’’ he cries, trying so hard to get me to see things his way.

"It’s not normal, but nothing ever is. so why should cower in fear."

He sighs loudly and then I watch him walk back to the bed and sit down on the edge "I am tired of it all,’’ he breathes out quietly, so low that I almost don’t hear it.

I walk over to him slowly because I am closer to knowing what is bothering him "what do you mean?’’

He looks up at me and there are tears in his eyes "I am tired of this life." Okay, I knew he was going through something from the way he is acting "I don’t want to be here anymore. I have lived too long and I want it to just end.’’

His voice is strained as he wipes the tears out of his eyes. I have never seen Belis like this. he usually always has his shit together. yeah, being a vampire, means having a long life. We are immortal. We can’t die and Belis has lived a long life but at the end of it all, that is why we are given links. So, we don’t spend that life alone. He has a link, a beautiful woman, who loves him.

"You can’t think this way. you have so much to live for. You can’t want to give up now.’’ I reach for him and he doesn’t push me away.

"I have nothing to live for."

I shake my head "Dru cried today, she didn’t want to lose you. that is someone that loves you irrevocably. She is someone that you have... forever."

"I don’t want forever anymore."

I have never seen a vampire that is suicidal. I don’t even know what to say to him to make this better. I have no words and I am sure he knows that.

I don’t want to say the wrong things.

"Can you stay here tonight?’’ I ask him because I am not ready to let him go. I need to fix this, even though I have no clue.

"Okay,’’ he agrees and that is enough for now.

Chapter 368: Friendship

Gyles

"Have you ever come across a suicidal vampire?’’

I furrow my brows in confusion "what do you mean?’’ I ask Alanis. When I was turned, I didn’t even get the chance to live as a vampire but I did live with vampires my whole life, so maybe that is why he is asking me this.

"Like have you ever come across a vampire that didn’t want to live anymore?" Alanis and I have gotten closer since I came to their community. We have this relationship where we check up on each other and even though I haven’t seen him in a while. It seems like the bond is still there.

"Wow, is suicidal even the term? I mean, being a vampire means you want immortality. It is not just something that happens... right?’’ I ask him.

He sighs into the phone "You know at some point in my life, I didn’t actually see the point in living. I get that people have stuff they are going through that makes this life not worth living.’’

I stiffen at his words "This is not about you, right?’’

"No, no. definitely no. I am happy right now. Beau is everything I have ever wanted. Things are perfect.’’ He says in that dreamy tone that he carries sometimes when he is talking about his mate. A smile sprawls to my face because I like it when he talks about him. the fact that his mate has brought him so much joy resonates inside me.

"Who are we talking about?’’

"My brother.’’

I think back to the ones I have met. Darrien and Eligio. Darrien seems like the kind of person that loves life. I don’t really know much about Eligio, so I am thinking it might be him. maybe. I can’t be too sure.

"Which of them?"

He sighs into the phone "Does it really matter?’’

"Not really.’’

I can tell this is beating him up a lot. I mean, it is really early in the morning and he called. So he must need someone to talk to.

"I have been thinking all night of a way to convince him that he doesn’t need to feel this way and I don’t know what to say.’’

"Don’t you think that it is up to him to decide if he doesn’t want to live anymore?’’ I ask. I completely understand how he is feeling. Living forever might seem like a blast but sometimes, you would just want to let go. it should be his choice if he doesn’t want this life anymore. he is the one living it.

"I can’t watch my brother die. I will not let it happen."

I nod in understanding.

"Find things that will make him appreciate the life he has. Show him that he shouldn’t let go. you can try but it still has to be up to him.’’

"Fuck, I hate that you are right. how are you and the boys?" He changes the topic. I smile, slowly walking to the window in blue’s room. There is a smile on my face because things have been perfect. Jules has completely accepted us into his home that I feel like a part of his family. When we first came here, I worried about fitting in. I worried that he would hate me but we have all gotten along so well, that all those worries seem so long ago.

"Things are perfect,’’ I exclaim in pure bliss.

"This is the first time I have heard you even use that word. Are you sure you are the same Gyles I know?’’

I laugh.

He is right. there has always been this voice in my head that makes me overanalyze everything. a darkness that made me believe I didn’t deserve all the things that I had. Now it is gone, I am more appreciative of the things that I have.

I guess that is the lesson I have learned through all this.

Value the things you have, don’t focus on the things you lost.

"Same and new,’’ I smile, searching for them through the window. We are supposed to go hunting together but I told them I would be down to answer this call.

"When are you all coming back. you might not believe me but Beau misses Rex a lot. He has gotten so used to him, that it is strange not having him around."

I actually believe him because I know how much Rex means to Beau. Even though they are no real brothers. I have never seen anyone act like a brother to someone else as Beau does to Rex.

"I don’t know, depends on Blue. I guess he wants to spend some more time here, after everything he has been through." I manage because I see it. he is trying to act normal but in the span of such a short amount of time, he has lost so much.

"I can only imagine. Take all the time you need and come back to where you belong,’’ he breathes into the phone and it warms my heart. I have found a friend and Alanis and I will never take it for granted.

The room door opens and Blue walks in "Come on,’’ he waves his hand in the air as he walks closer to me.

"Talk to you later?’’

I nod as I end the call and he pulls me into his arms, lifting me off my feet. I squeal completely caught off guard "Hey, what are you doing?’’ I ask him with the biggest smile on my face.

He laughs "I am carrying my boyfriend. Is there a problem with that?’’ he raises a brow mischievously. I wrap my legs around his waist and he grabs me by my butt. My heart thuds against my chest as he pushes me to the wall gently. His eyes become dark—the way they always do whenever we touch.

"do you want to do this?’’ he asks. I know what he is talking about. Hunting has been a topic of concern for me.

It is something I have never done before and I don’t want to fail at it.

"Yes.’’ I manage slowly leaning into him and pressing my lips to his. He smiles into the kiss and I ginger up the excitement that I should have had from the beginning.

Chapter 369: You became us

Blue

It has been a while since I felt this good. It has been a while since I didn’t have to worry about anything. being here, with the two most important people in my life is all I can focus on. Running freely in the woods, without a care in the world, is everything.

I lose track of time. at first, I was focused on Gyles because this is all new for him but the second, he picks up on it. I let go completely and it became a freeing sensation. I don’t know how long we run for; I don’t even know at what point we catch the deer. Everything happens so fast but as the sun begins to come out, I feel the satisfaction that I get from hunting.

The happiness, freedom, it all takes over and I am floating on a cloud. One that I don’t want to get up off. after our meal, we all turn back to our human form and there is a bright smile on Rex’s face. I know how excited he must have been for this. Hunting as an omega is a treat that doesn’t happen every time. He must be happy about the opportunity to do this unplanned. We lie flat on the grassed floor and my eyes find their way to the bright sky. I reach for Rex and he grabs my hand tightly. I know this might seem weird, I mean, we are all lying down naked on the cold ground but this is the warmest I have ever felt in my life.

"The sky is so bright today,’’ Gyles mutters and I turn to him slowly. He smiles at me for a second before looking at the sky again "I am ready for the mating ceremony." He adds and I can’t help but say anything because he is the one that we have been waiting for. I don’t know if it will be still possible with everything that has happened but now that he is ready, I want us to do this.

"What do you say we go back home?’’ I ask him.

A soft squeal comes out of Rex. I guess he has been waiting for this moment. I completely understand him. He has lived in the community all his life and I know he would want to go back to where he is comfortable. Because of me, they had to leave. I know there is no reason for blaming anyone, I guess I have been saying it is all my fault that everything happened but at the end of it all, we have come out stronger. I left the community because I wanted Gyles to miss me, I wanted him to suffer as much as he was making me suffer. He didn’t even last a day. He came looking for me and even though their appearance caused a lot of problems. It gave me joy, knowing that in my absence they will always come searching. I wanted him to feel the same way that I felt. I wanted him to accept the pull, the opportunity that the deities have given us and it seems like we are finally at that place in our life.

If this was a story, this would be the perfect ending. I know that I didn’t get to avenge my mother and Levine’s death. I don’t know what I left behind in the coven but not every hero, has to do what is right, I want to do what makes me happy, and being with these two, alive, is the only thing that makes me happy.

I know Levine would have wanted that.

Gyles

We are leaving for the community tomorrow.

I am so excited because I know once we leave, all the problems we have been facing will disappear. Jules wasn’t happy to hear that we were leaving but he also knew that we weren’t going to stay here permanently. I think it was something that he expected but didn’t want. From just the past three days, I can tell that he is very lonely.

I don’t really know that much about Lone wolves but if this is it, I don’t think it is such a great life. I know deep down, he must be missing a lot, from the little expressions on his face, the longing in the sound of his voice. I know he would want Blue to stay with him for as long as possible.

I also know that he knows that it is not possible.

It is almost midnight and I am still awake. I have been unable to sleep. nothing has felt weird these past couple of days but I keep worrying and thinking that something will go wrong. You know the saying ’Nothing in life is ever easy?’

I feel like our escape was too easy.

With everything that happened. The kind of people that we were involved with. I just find it so hard that we would just be able to leave that easily. I don’t want a situation where we will just end up back in trouble. Sitting up on the duvet that Blue set up on the ground so that we could all sleep together, I turn to him and his eyes are closed. his chest rising and falling softly. A smile sprawls on my face because I wouldn’t mind waking up next to them for the rest of my life.

I reach for his face and he stirs in his sleep. I stand up from the bed and walk over to the bathroom, pouring water on my face. In a split second, I feel a pounding in my head. This pain similar to the ones I would have in the coven. Closing the tap, I look at my hands and they are shaking uncontrollably.

"No, this is not happening,’’ I breathe out quietly because I don’t want to wake them up. taking deep breaths, I try to push the voice out, I know what is going to happen next. I don’t want to hear the voices again. I don’t want to have anything to do with the book.

But you can’t let go. the moment you gave in, you became us.

I shake my head, pushing the voice out, but the more I try the louder they get. I rest my hand on the sink and try to close my eyes, my own attempt to block them out.

We are wherever you are. No matter what.

Chapter 370: Getting caught

Gyles

I couldn’t sleep a wink last night. No matter how hard I tried, the voices never stopped. I am at this point where I don’t know what to do. Blue and Rex are very happy. I don’t want to ruin that by being a downer. I don’t want to be the one that always has problems but I don’t know what else to do.

We promised each other transparency and since I am still in control of my actions, I need to talk to them. I need to tell them what is happening.

"Good morning,’’ Rex reaches for me on the floor and plants a soft kiss on my lips. I close my eyes because even if it is just for a second, I want to get lost in this moment. His tongue slides into my mouth and a moan escape my lips as he climbs on top of me. Blue is still asleep but I can already see him waking up soon. I hold Rex tightly because there is a mental battle going on in my head. Too many conflicting thoughts and I wish they would all just disappear. I kiss him like my life depends on it and somehow it is enough. Being in his arms is enough at this moment.

He pulls back slightly and rests his forehead on mine. his eyes are still closed as he mutters dreamily "We are going home today,’’ he breathes out ecstatically. I watch him as he breathes in and out. the sound of his heartbeat is like music to my ears. Just having one of the loves of my life alive and breathing, is everything to me. something so small makes me the happiest man on earth.

"Where is your mind,’’ he opens his eyes and I realize I didn’t answer his question.

"Huh,’’ I manage to bring my mind back to what is important.

"I didn’t ask a question. are you okay?’’ he climbs off me and I sit up, resting my back on the wood of the bed. He is watching me now and I can tell that he knows something is up. Rex has always been able to read my mind. I want to talk to him about this. I want to talk to both of them about last night and the voices but I don’t want to worry them. is it selfish to keep this from them?

I am only thinking about them.

I don’t want to worry them.

"He might just be excited to go back to the community."

I turn to the other side and Blue is awake with his elbow resting on the floor. there is a smile on his face. one that makes my heart dance in my chest. Fuck, everyone is so happy. I don’t want to be the one to ruin everything.

"Is that it?’’ Rex asks and I nod immediately, feigning a smile. Blue sits up and presses his lips to mine.

"Just a couple of hours,’’ he winks and stands up from the floor. I watch him as he walks into the bathroom. Rex is still watching me, almost like he knows for a fact that something is wrong.

"Are the voices back?’’ he asks with suspicion in his eyes.

I open my eyes wide because he hit the nail on the head with his first assumption. I shake my head immediately "No,"

Tell him the truth.

My wolf shouts to me, not enjoying this deceit one bit. I want to tell him the truth but I also want to wait until we are back home. I don’t want to worry them until we are settled back in the community. That is the best thing to do in this situation.

"You’re lying,’’ he stands up from the floor and walks over to the bathroom. He doesn’t even knock as he enters, "Blue, the voices are back,’’ he tells him with so much energy. I close my eyes because now, they are going to make me lie. I don’t want to lie; I don’t want to worry them. he is not making this easy.

"I didn’t say that,’’ I stand up and walk over to them. Blue has toothpaste in his mouth. The worry in his eyes is stronger.

"He is lying. I can tell.’’

I glare at Rex because he is making this a lot worse than it needs to be. I just want them to focus on going home. Not the insanity that is going on in my head. I will be able to handle that.

Not on your own.

My wolf accuses.

"Why are you lying?’’ Blue asks as he spits the toothpaste out of his mouth. My hands start to tremble because I don’t want this to turn into a fight. I want to be able to smile as we leave this cabin but I already know that if I lie. The fight is going to be bigger.

"I am not lying."

He raises a brow and now they are both watching me like I am some sort of criminal. "Why are your hands shaking?’’

I take a deep breath because the closer we get, the easier it is to read each other. They know that I am keeping something from them.

"It is not a big deal; I didn’t want you to worry." I raise my hands up, wanting to reach for Blue. he takes a step away from me and I watch him run his hands through his hair.

"Why do you fucking do this. Why is your first instinct to keep secrets?’’

"I didn’t mean to. I just don’t want you to worry."

He opens his wide in shock "It is my fucking job to worry. How dare you try to take that from me?" he shouts so loud that my heart thuds heavily. I want to blame Rex for this but he is right. this is all my fault.

"I am sorry.’’

He sighs "When did the voices start? I need the details.’’

I breathe out because now I don’t have a choice. I have to tell him the truth. I mean, I have already caused so many problems.

"I need to talk to Dad; I will be back.’’ I watch him walk out of the room and it feels like he took my heart with him.

I fucked up.