Ch. 361..365: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 361-365

Chapter 361: Everything is going to be alright

Alanis

"So, father mentioned that you are pregnant. I didn’t know how to even comprehend that but I guess anything is possible in this life.’’ Belis says the one thing that I was avoiding. I didn’t want today to be focused on my pregnancy and how it is supposed to be impossible.

I just wanted to have a normal dinner with my family without any awkwardness.

"Yes, I am,’’ I manage already getting tense.

He raises a brow "How does it work? Do you have the details? I would like to know,’’ he drinks from his glass of red wine. His attention and everyone on this table are fixed on me. Darrien and Jabi are still missing.

I don’t know why I expected Darrien to show up on time. he would have been perfect to lighten up this situation. I kinda needed him as a buffer and he is not here.

"Why do you need to know?’’

He shrugs "It is medically impossible to carry a child as a man. How is it going to happen? Aren’t you all curious?’’ he turns around to look at everyone else. They all remain quiet. beau is next to me and I am sure he can sense my discomfort. I don’t even know how this pregnancy is going to work. Alby has explained it all to me but the details are not important to me. the fact that is happening is all that is important and he wants to focus on the how’s and why’s.

"I don’t think this is appropriate dinner conversations,’’ Beau interjects and speaks up for me as he takes a bite of his steak. I watch him because, at this moment, I don’t know how to handle all these questions. I am just coming around to the pregnancy and I don’t need anyone asking me about it and expecting me to have answers to everything.

"What kind of conversations are we supposed to have?’’ Belis asks with a straight face. I don’t know what game he is trying to pull but I do know that he is up to something. Belis is the most mature out of all of us and right now, he is acting like a child.

"Enough,’’ father tells him with a glare. "Do pay no mind to your brother. He is still trying to understand what is happening with you.’’

"This is not a way to cause some kind of ruckus, I am just curious,’’ he shrugs nonchalantly.

"All that matters is Lanis is healthy and there is no problem with the pregnancy. You don’t have to worry about anything else,’’ Beau speaks up for me and I am grateful all over again. he takes my hand in his and the squeeze is all the comfort I need at this moment.

"Good to know," Belis mutters but it seems like he is not done with this conversation. I hear the front door open and release a sigh of relief because Darrien’s scent is very strong. Even though he is late, I am glad he is here.

"How are things apart from the elephant in the room?’’ Father asks me calmly. Our conversations are stiff and this has me worried because I want things to end alright. I want things to go back to the way they were.

Granted, apart from our usual check-ins. It’s not like we were the kind of family to have dinner together. we all went along with our own businesses. Maybe this is not as awkward as I think it is. maybe this is just how it has always been.

"Sorry we are late,’’ Darrien walks into the dining room with Jabi tightly in his grip. my eyes stay on his hand because I wish I had the confidence he has. There is no shame as he leads Jabi into the room and places him on one of the empty chairs.

"As usual,’’ Belis makes a snide comment.

He is on a roll today.

"Why are you so late?’’ Father asks him.

He shrugs "I completely lost track of time. Jabi decided that he wanted to try something new tonight,’’ he winks at his mate and I can’t help but smile at how cute he is as he hides his face before it turns completely red. I don’t know what they are talking about but the way he says it makes me think of the nasty.

"Or is it that you just have no regard for anyone but yourself?’’ Belis accuses him. now he is picking a fight with Darrien.

Your brother is an asshole.

Beau sends me a mind link and I agree with him silently because that is not something I even want to think about. Belis is not as bad as he is acting right now and I wish they could all see the real him. He might not always be there but when he is, he has helped me. when father turned me, Darrien wasn’t a fan of mine. Belis was the one that helped me through the whole transition. Somehow, after meeting Beau, I feel like I kinda drifted from him. now I am more focused on my new family and maybe that is why he is upset.

Maybe I am just reaching but I will find a way to talk to him after dinner.

"Well not everyone is a stick in the mud like you are,’’ Darrien retorts with a tone that tells me that he is ready to pick a fight.

"Enough of this Belis, you are acting very rude tonight,’’ Father counter speaks. Everyone can tell that he is acting up, I will try to find out why before the night is over.

"Now, let me change the topic before this turns into an unnecessary argument." Father adds slowly turning to me "How has it been living in a community full of wolves. Are you settling in well?’’

I smile because this is the easiest question I have been asked today.

"Very well. The people here have accepted me like their own. things are going really well.’’ I look around the table and everyone has their eyes on me and for the first time tonight, I feel like things are going to be alright.

Chapter 362: Anyone that hurts you answers to me

Beau

I can tell that this is making him tense and I want to be there for him—I mean that is what I am doing. the slight touches, the little mind links of assurance. I don’t want him to take this as the end of the world. I see it in his eyes. His father’s opinion is very important to him and I get that. I felt the same way when mine was still alive. Even now, I wish he could get to know Lanis. I wish he got the chance to see how amazing the man I am with is. Lanis and dad would have gotten along.

They have the same views on things. They are both calm and understanding. The only reason why my father was clouded was Uncle Fallon. He deceived him a lot. Made him question all his decisions and that is why most times, he ended up fucking things up.

After we are all done eating and trying to make up awkward conversations. We decide to call it a night and by we, Belis makes a comment about having work early tomorrow morning. It didn’t even seem like he wanted to be here but he seems like the kind of person that would do anything for Cranwell and that is why he is here in the first place.

I can bet my life on that.

Today has been an exhausting day. I have prayed and wished for this diner to go smoothly and the fact that everyone is still in one piece just makes this the perfect night."

"It is pretty late,’’ Cranwell stands up and everyone else follows suit. I guess even when he is not in the comfort of his home. He still likes to take charge. My Alpha instincts want to kick in but I also don’t want to mess things up for Lanis. The fact that they are all leaving and there was no fight is perfect.

"Can I talk to you alone before you leave?’’ Lanis faces Belis. I furrow my brows in confusion because I didn’t know he wanted to do this. I don’t think it is a good idea to confront him right now. the guy has been acting like a major ass hat and I don’t want to leave him alone with my baby.

"It is pretty late. I just want to go home,’’ his link is next to him. she was quiet all night. I don’t even know how she sounds because apart from the hello. I don’t think she has really even said anything.

"Just five minutes,’’ he pleads. I raise a brow at him but he glances away from my eyes, probably avoiding me. this isn’t part of the plan but I can’t stop him, it is his brother. It will be wrong of me to tell him not to have a conversation with his brother.

"Okay,’’ they walk side by side after Belis agrees and we are all left in this awkward silence. I just want this night to end and I am sure that they can all tell.

"Awkward right?’’ Darrien nudges me, just as Eligio walks over to me.

"Very.,’’ I confess.

"Father is already over his anger. There is no need for Alanis to continue trying to push for family reunions.’’ Eligio tells me.

"Especially since this was not something that we used to do. I think he should just let it rest for now.’’

I know what they mean but I think the pregnancy has a lot to do with this. I mean, he is extra emotional right now and I know he wants his family to be involved in our babies’ lives. I don’t mind it because I want them to know their vampire side. They need to know how they are and I will help him in any way that I can.

"I know. He just needs to know that you all will be involved."

"You know I will always be here. Even if I and Jabi are not in the community anymore. We will show up for the kids,’’ he winks and I feel at ease with this statement.

"Same here, you can count on me being there. You guys don’t have to worry about a thing. Those kids will have all the family they need.’’

It warms my heart to know this and suddenly I feel like I don’t have to worry about Lanis’s family. They are good people. People that have been here. Through all the problems with Cassius. Through everything.

I hear a sound from the other room. The one that Lanis and Belis walked into. at first, I think it is in my head but the second I hear the riffling of a shelf and then the turns from everyone, I do the first thing I can think of. I run into the room, completely ignoring everyone and everything. all thoughts go to Lanis and my hopes that he is safe. I walk into the room just as Belis pushes him to one of the bookshelves in the study. He doesn’t try to fight him back. it is almost like Belis has lost his fucking mind. My mind goes to my babies. I lose all my senses in that moment as I run over to intervene before he can lay another finger on my mate. Lanis turns to me and tries to block me but I am too far gone as I turn in a split second and trample on Belis. It is almost like my wolf has taken over. the anger that I thought I have been able to control comes out as I start to defend the only person that matters.

"Stop it,’’ Lanis shouts.

At first, I can’t.

I want to stop but I can’t.

My wolf is very angry and it seems like there is nothing I can do. Belis pushes me off him and tries to run out of the room with his superspeed but I am faster. somehow, the anger is giving me this strength. I am on him as fast as he got me off him and I bite and scratch him all over, completely ignoring all the blood.

"Stop it, beau. He wasn’t hurting me. Please stop it." Lanis’s voice is louder this time. I freeze for a second, as I see the damage on the person that was supposed to be a guest. His eyes are closed. He is unconscious.

It is almost like he stopped fighting.

Like he gave in to my attack.

Fuck.

What have I done?

Chapter 363: Explanation

Alanis

How did things get so fucked up in such a short period of time? I blame myself because I should have just let him go when things were so good. Sometimes, I forget that Beau still has that anger inside him. The one he has learned to control. I mean, I get why he would react like that. Belis did shove me.

He didn’t want to hurt me but I pissed him off with my statement. Yeah, I didn’t mean to aggravate him but I wanted him to talk to me. I needed to know what is bothering him at the end of it all, he just got upset and hurt.

Beau is in a corner in the room as I lift Belis up to see the damage. There are bite marks all over him but the closer I look, the more they are healing. He will be fine and even though Beau knocked him out of consciousness, he will wake up and be as good as he was when he came.

"What happened?’’ Drusilla walks into the room and I turn to her and notice that her eyes are wide in shock but I also notice that she doesn’t run up to him like I would if I see Beau hurt. Suddenly, I can tell that whatever is getting him in this mood must have to do with her. this is the first time I have heard her say anything today.

I lift Belis up and Beau runs over to me. he has a guilty expression on his face "Let me carry him,’’ he offers but I shake my head immediately. He has already done enough damage to my brother tonight.

"Just go for now,’’ I tell him with Belis in my arms.

"I don’t want anything that would hurt the babies,’’ he cries and I see it again. the weakness in his eyes. The worry for our cubs. I guess this is all he cares about.

"I got it,’’ Darrien walks up to us when he notices that I am not going to give in to Beau. I hand Belis over to him and we walk to one of the empty rooms together while beau stays behind. I am upset with him and he knows. I thought we had reached a point in our relationship where we didn’t have to worry about his anger. It has been so long and now he decides to bring the side of him that I hate so much. The part of him that he promised to keep in check. The fact that he used that anger on my family hurts even more.

"Well, this isn’t a Dravon dinner without someone getting hurt,’’ Darrien jokes as he puts him on the bed.

He does have a point, but for the first time in my life, I wanted things to be different. I wanted things to go well.

"This is not a big deal. Don’t get upset with Beau,’’ Darrien tries to comfort me but it is already too late. I am already upset with him.

"He almost killed him,’’ I exclaim still in shock.

He rolls his eyes "He wasn’t going to kill him. Belis started it and you know it."

I sigh and then run my hands through my hair in frustration. "what happened that led to you guys fighting?’’ he adds in question.

"I just wanted to know why he was acting like a jerk. I didn’t mean to call him out on it so bluntly.’’

"Belis has always been a jerk and you know it.’’

I shake my head "YOU were the jerk. Belis was a good brother. Even though I wasn’t as close to him as Eligio, we still had a good relationship. He helped me a lot.’’

"Yeah, yeah, yeah. Keep calling me the jerk. At least I am here.’’

I smile because Darrien has come a long way. in fact, he is the closest to me now. maybe it is because of the fact that we have a lot in common now. I have Beau and he has Jabi. We have too many similarities.

"I think there is something going on with him and Drusilla.’’

"Yeah, she was a lot quieter today.’’

The door opens and I see her as she peers her head into the room. "You can come in,’’ she obliges by walking in. Clutching her purse tightly.

"I’ll be outside,’’ Darrien walks out of the room. Leaving me and her alone. She looks sad and this is something I should have noticed when they all came here. Something is definitely up between them and I want to find out.

"What is going on Dru?" I ask her worriedly.

She sighs and I see the tears as they well up in her eyes. This is even worse than I thought which has me panicking. Drusilla is still a sister to me, so whatever is bothering her still affects me like it would Eligio and Darrien.

"I don’t know,’’ she covers her face with her hands crying.

I reach for her and she doesn’t push me away "You can talk to me. tell me what is wrong." I push her because this is the only way she will talk to me.

My hand rests on her shoulder as she cries next to her link on the bed. it almost seems like whatever is making her sad has to do with him and he is the only one that can make it right.

"He is rejecting me,’’ she breathes out finally. At first, I don’t understand what she is talking about but after a couple of seconds, it registers. Belis and Drusilla have been together for the longest. He can’t be rejecting her. he loves her.

"He hasn’t said anything to me but I feel him slipping away. I have tried to make things as they used to but no matter what I do, he just pushes me away.’’

My heart aches at her words because I don’t know how I will feel if Beau ever rejected me. I love him too much.

Belis must have a reason for this.

It just doesn’t make any sense.

Chapter 364: Remorse and Forgiveness

Alanis

"What do you mean?’’ I manage in confusion.

I don’t know how easy it is to reject a link. It has to be the hardest thing a vampire can do. the fact that she seems to think that is what is happening might not even be the case.

He might not even know that he is doing that.

I need to find a way to have a conversation with Belis when he wakes up.

"He doesn’t want me anymore,’’ she gestures with her hands as she adds "He doesn’t want me. he is tired of it all.’’

Her words confuse me.

Belis is the one that seems to have his shit together. what she is saying right now, paints a different picture from what I have seen all this while.

My hand is still on her shoulder. I am trying to give her the comfort that I think she needs but I don’t even have the right words to say. she needs someone that understands what she is going through and I am in a healthy relationship. I am the happiest I have ever been, so I can’t really understand what she is going through.

"Have you talked to him about all this?’’

She sniffs and then wipes the tears from her eyes "I don’t know what else to do. I have tried to find ways to spice up our relationship but he tells me that he is lonely. How can you be lonely and be in a relationship at the same time?"

I pull her into my arms and she cries even more. This is the only comfort I have for her right now. I don’t want to act like I know what to say but I want to help them in any way that I can.

She pulls away from me after she has stopped crying "I need to go home. Will you bring him back when he wakes up?’’

I nod and she walks out of the room. I leave Belis and walk back to the living room where everyone is settled. Father is the first person to stand up. I don’t look at Beau because I need to let his actions sink in. I want him to worry and panic. Until he thinks about what he has done and has regrets. I get that he was fighting for me but I just want him to learn control. Resist using his fists all the time.

"How is he?’’ Father asks worriedly.

"He is healing. Give him about another thirty minutes.’’ I assure them because I can tell that they are all worried. "You all should head on home. I will bring him back myself." I add because I don’t want anything else to mess up this night.

Father smiles "It was nice coming here. I think this is something we should do frequently."

I nod in agreement even though I think this will be too exhausting to make a regular thing. I did this because I wanted to know that Father had accepted Beau and now that I know. I like the distance. I know they will always be there for me and vice versa.

"Come on you lot,’’ He orders Eligio and Elu. Everyone stands up and I walk them out of the house and to the gates of the compound, I notice that Beau doesn’t come with me. Maybe he is feeling a lot worse than I thought. Once father, and the rest leave, Darrien speaks up "We will spend the night here,’’ he tells me, grabbing Jabi and pulling him closer to him. Jabi hides in his chest and I manage a smile.

"Don’t be too rough on your guy. He was only protecting you. Lord knows I would have done the same thing if Belis had laid a finger on my baby,’’ he nudges Jabi and I roll my eyes because I actually believe that this is something that he would do. Darrien doesn’t sugarcoat things or pretend and that was one of the reasons why I disliked him but now, it is the one reason why I like him—that and his loyalty.

"Thanks for showing up... even though you showed up too late."

"Anytime Bro."

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I walk back into the house and Beau is not in the living room anymore where we left him. I go in search of him, worried that he is beating himself up for his actions. Yeah, I want him to think about what he did but I don’t want him to go back to that space, the one where he starts to become insecure.

I check every room for him, he is nowhere in this house. I start to worry because that will mean he is outside. I channel my link to him and I see him—which just means that he didn’t completely shut me out. He wanted me to know where he is. I see him in the field, I see him running. I feel the pain in his heart. The connection we have lets me know that he hates himself right now. I don’t ever want him to feel that way.

I run out of the house until I get to the field. I see him, and he doesn’t stop running. The speed at which he goes lets me know that he wants to burn all the steam. The anger, he is trying to suppress it again.

After about fifteen minutes, he stops running and faces me. his eyes are red, sweat trickles down his bare chest. The shorts he has on are soaked around the waist. I don’t need to say anything to him as he slowly walks over to me. I don’t care that he is a mess right now as I take him in my arms. He holds unto me and no apology is needed. At that moment, everything is forgotten. I don’t want to dwell on what has happened. All I know is that he knows that he has done wrong and that is all that matters.

 

Chapter 365: I miss you even when you are next to me

Beau

Thinking about how I messed up just makes me more upset with myself. He is acting as he has forgiven me but I don’t like the fact that I even had something that needs forgiving. I hate myself so much right now and I don’t know how to make things right.

We are still outside on the field. I am still in his arms, scared that if I don’t hold unto him, he will end up remembering why he was upset with me.

"I am sorry,’’ I manage because there is nothing else that I can say apart from that.

He caresses the top of my hair and I close my eyes because this seems like a punishment. I feel like I am being punished even though I am in his arms. Maybe this is all the guilt I feel. I hurt his family. I reacted without even thinking.

"You know what you did wrong, that is all that matters." He breathes into my ear.

I open my eyes and pull away from him slowly. I am the Alpha of this pack and in his arms, I turn into a fucking cry baby. I don’t want anyone to see me right now but if that is the punishment and I get to be cool with him again, then I would cry in front of the whole pack.

"I don’t know what happened. I just saw him push you and I reacted. It made me insane. I couldn’t control my wolf." I confess. The anger that my wolf felt tonight was more than I have ever felt before. Even with Cassius and everything, just thinking that someone was hurting Lanis drove me off the wall.

His eyes bore into mine. "Did this happen because of the babies?’’ he touches his stomach on reflex and my eyes go to the bump. My babies... our babies. Is that the reason why I went into a protective mode? Is my wolf feeling something that I haven’t understood yet?

"I don’t know. I wasn’t thinking. I just didn’t want him to hurt you.’’

"Would you have killed him if I didn’t stop you?’’

I shake my head immediately "At that moment. I wasn’t thinking. I wanted to hurt him for hurting you. I didn’t want him dead."

That is the truth but I don’t know how far I would have gone. It was a moment that I couldn’t control and yeah, I might say that I had It under control but I didn’t. I was out of my element. My wolf had the wheels at that moment.

"You can’t hurt everyone because of me. you have to get this in check. Do you need Jules again? We can call him back."

I shake my head "I can channel my wolf on my own now. we are connected now. I can’t always depend on Jules coming to put me in check."

He nods "Promise you will try harder the next time something like this happens?’’

I raise my hands up immediately "I swear on my life,’’ I give him my word. He grabs my hand immediately and shakes his head "No swearing on your life. It is mine. I can’t have you bargaining for what is mine.’’

For the first time today, he smiles at me and it melts my heart. I know I will need to apologize to Belis. I messed up but there is no going back. All I have to do is focus on the now and how to make things right. I need to prevent this from ever happening.

"Is this what they call daddy instincts?’’ he jokes with a smile.

My heart thuds at his words, because this is really happening. I am going to be a father. He has my babies inside him. fuck, it still feels so surreal to me and I can’t get over it.

"How about boyfriend instincts, husband instincts. Right now, I see you and only you. I want to protect only you.’’

My words are sincere. the fact that he is carrying my babies inside him just adds to how much I worship him. he is everything to me and I will be eternally grateful for the life that he has given me. this doesn’t have anything to do with the babies. This has everything to do with him. the fact that he has done so much for me and he doesn’t even ask for much in return.

"I take you any way you are, you know that right?’’

I nod immediately because I feel the exact same way about him. I know I am not perfect and I don’t even want to act like I am. I want him to keep seeing me the way I am. I want to show him all my imperfections.

"Come on, let’s get you inside the house and all cleaned up,’’ he wipes a trickle of sweat from my forehead. He takes me for the mess I am.

I walk with him into the house and he holds me tightly as we walk back to my room. I take off my clothes in front of the door and he smiles "Someone is eager,’’ he mutters once I am completely naked. He pulls me into his arms again and I rest on the crook of his neck. It feels like home. Nowhere but near him will ever feel like this.

"I have to go and check on Belis. I need to have a conversation with him.’’

I pull away from him because I don’t want him to go to him alone. He raises his hands up "Done worry about me, he will not hurt me.’’

I frown because I don’t like this one bit. I know that Lanis can protect himself but I just don’t even want to have to think of him needing to protect himself. I always want to be the one to protect him.

"Have a shower and I will be back in a jiffy. You won’t even miss me,’’ he kisses my forehead softly, and even though I want to tell him that I will most definitely miss him. I let him walk away from me and out of the room.

As I go into the bathroom, my heart lingers for him in my arms again.