Ch. 41..45: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 41-45

Chapter 41: Just one night

Beau.

I am picking fights with him because of my confusion. I didn’t mean to act so stupidly in front of him because I didn’t want to accuse him of anything, he didn’t do. I don’t know the reason why he went into Rex’s room but I am so bothered about it.

I watch him walk out of my room and sigh out of frustration. I don’t want some alone time to drink, I don’t want to be apart from him. I just wished he’d talk to me and tell me the truth. He didn’t actually go outside for fresh air. He went into my brother’s room.

Why?

I stand up and go out of the room until I am in front of Rex’s room. He opens the door before I get a chance to knock and his expression is worried, almost like he knew I would be coming "What’s wrong," he asks. I roll my eyes because he thinks I am stupid, I know Lanis came over.

Stop acting stupid.

I don’t realize I sent that as a mind link until he takes a step back in fear "I can explain," he tells me terrified that I will somehow hurt him.

"Why did he come to you? You can’t lie to me," I warn him.

He shakes his head "It’s not about me. You should ask him directly,"

I push him into the room and he trips and falls to his knees. He is trembling and I don’t mean to scare him but I need to get the truth from him. Lanis is not talking to me and I am getting scared. I hate not being in the know, I hate secrets and it feels like he is keeping something from me. I know I should be patient, that eventually, he would talk to me but I can’t stand all the suspense. Thoughts are running through my head, he went home and came back with something looming over him. What if he can’t be with me? His father went to see the elder vampires. Something must have happened and he trusted Rex before me.

That stings and I really don’t know how to handle it and now I am taking out my frustration on Rex. I don’t mean to but I am just pissed at the whole situation.

"Tell me what they talked to you about," I repeat.

Rex sighs still on the floor, he doesn’t attempt to stand up. He knows how to handle my anger. He is one of the few people that can. he will not do or say anything to aggravate me. That is just how our relationship works. That is why he has been able to stay by my side for so long.

"I promise you that it is not as bad as you think. Give him time, he will talk to you about it," he tells me like somehow I suddenly am patient enough to actually listen to his advice.

"What did you talk about?" this time my voice is stern.

"Please don’t make this come from me. Please," he begs desperately. The look on his face tells me that this is a lot more serious. This has something to do with me. Lanis is hiding something from me and it is about me.

I run my hands through my hair with a loud sigh and Rex finally stands up. He can tell that I am calmer than when I entered his room. I don’t want to take this out on him anymore. I just want to talk to my boyfriend and let him know that I need him to trust me. If he can’t talk to me when something is bothering him, then I don’t know the point of this relationship. This thing is obviously eating him up. I can tell that much and the fact that he came to talk to Rex about it hurts very deep.

"Stay away from him," I point at him with a fair warning and he nods because of the seriousness in my tone. I don’t want them to have a relationship, I don’t want Lanis to think he can trust Rex more than he can trust me. Yeah, you can say I am jealous.

i don’t give a fuck.

I walk out of his room banging his door loudly and head outside knowing full well that he would bet there. Opening the front door to the house, I see him immediately, seated on a rock.

His back is facing me, so I can’t see his face. "I didn’t expect you to actually leave," I mutter and he turns around so abruptly that I want to smile at how cute he is.

His eyes open wide "Are you still acting like a jerk?" he raises a brow and a smile forms on his lips.

"I am sorry," I manage an apology because I was actually being a jerk. This is new to me; this whole mating and I guess I can’t handle all the emotions bursting out of me. It is a lot, one minute I am happy and flying over the moon and the next, I am jealous of his relationship with my best friend—even if it might be nothing.

"You lied to me," I tell him as I take closer steps to him.

"How did I lie?"

"Why did you go to Rex?"

His eyes open wide from my question and I see the guilt-ridden expression on his face. He didn’t expect to be caught.

"Did you follow me?"

He is dodging my questions and twisting things around. He wants to take the attack from himself. He is pushing it to me. Making me the bad guy at this moment, I can see right through him, whatever he is hiding must be serious.

"Stop this, talk to me."

He stands up from the rock and stops in front of me, his eyes bore right through my soul and my heart aches for a touch from him. I want us to kiss and make up. I want to be okay with him again, I don’t want to have any issues with him.

"Why did you follow me?" he inquires

I sigh defeated "You are hiding something from me," I tell him blatantly being completely transparent with him.

He furrows his brows "Do you trust me?" he grabs my hands in his grasps and I close my eyes happy that I am getting his touch that I so desperately crave. Being in love is a weird thing, you want to be upset but the look on his face right now is begging me to let things go. I can’t stay mad at this man, I don’t even want to stay mad, being upset is just making me unhappy.

"I trust you with my whole being," I answer his question honestly.

He smiles and there is joy within me from seeing him smile, his happiness is my happiness. That is love.

"Talk to me," I plead.

He sighs.

"Not tonight, continue trusting me and give me tonight," he mutters and I sigh again. He wants me to give him tonight, which means he will tell me whatever is bothering him tomorrow.

It’s just a night.

What’s the harm in a night?

"Do you want to come back inside?"

He nods still smiling.

"Will you cuddle with me now? I want to be the little spoon," he bats his lashes and I laugh at how cute he is acting. This is a man that is 6ft tall and he is acting like a little baby. Well, he is my baby. I will the big spoon he needs whenever he wants me to.

We walk back into the house until we get into my room and he jumps on the bed. He starts to take off his clothes all at once and doesn’t stop until he is completely naked. "You’re trying to seduce me knowing full well I can’t fuck you," I attack him and he laughs patting the bed for me to join him.

"We don’t have to fuck," he winks and my heart races in my chest at how seductive he is being. I join him on the bed and he wraps his arms around my waist pulling me closer to him. I feel all of him and I am surprised at how long I have been able to resist him. I haven’t had sex since I found out he was my mate and sex is something I did daily.

This is a lot of restraint on my part.

"Close your eyes and imagine our first time," I look at him and his eyes are closed. There is a dreamy smile on his face, I can bet he is already picturing it in his head. "Picture you inside me, the expression on my face when we finally become one intimately, the sounds we make as you go deeper and I feel all of you," he lets go of me and I watch him reach for his member, he grabs it and it hardens immediately.

This is a lot of temptation but he seems lost in this moment. I don’t want to interrupt him and watching him is a pleasure I never knew I needed. I keep my eyes open as he starts to stroke himself.

He moans softly and I get turned on by the sounds, I don’t know when I reach for my member, I don’t even know when I have my release but I get lost in watching him and the fact that just thinking about fucking me is doing this to him makes me crave him even more.

Chapter 42: Why are you lying?

Alanis.

Wet kisses might seem gross but if you wake up with that from the love of your life, then it is the best. I open my eyes and his warm smile is the first thing I notice; this is the best feeling.

"Good morning baby," he plants a soft kiss on my lips. I grab his neck to pull him closer and deepen the kiss, this gets a moan from him.

"Hi,"

He moves away from me to give me space to get up and I look at him with a smile "How long was I out?" I question.

He replies with a shrug "Not too long, are you going to eat?" he asks with a raised brow and I know what he is talking about. He means blood, I am not that hungry yet. I could stay a day or two without it but I know he’s worried after the last time I didn’t eat.

"I don’t need blood right now," I inform him.

"But it won’t be a problem if you have some, boost your energy?"

He is fishing, being his usual overprotective self. I don’t need overprotective or worrywart beau, I just need Beau. "I don’t need to right now," I stand up and walk into the bathroom. He follows me "Do you have a toothbrush I can borrow?" I ask him.

He laughs "Do vampires even need to brush their teeth?"

"Yes, we do, we have baths and brush our teeth. We still need to be clean even though we don’t have beating hearts," I roll my eyes and he laughs even harder. I know he is just messing around but I am very tense right now. I know I have to tell him about his father because I promised today. And it is today, I can’t run away from this forever.

He comes closer and brings a new toothbrush from under the sink "Here you go baby." he kisses me briefly before going back into the room. I look at my reflection and I look paler than usual. There are dark circles around my eyes, almost like I haven’t slept in a while even though I slept oh so comfortably in his arms last night.

I brush my teeth and take a quick shower. Beau is no longer in the room when I walk in and this has me worried because I need to talk to him. I get dressed in his clothes and walk out of the room. He told me not to wander around the house, he is still scared that someone will try to hurt me, he still feels the need to take care of me, protect me. Even though I can fight my own battles. I go outside the house but he is still nowhere to be found, this has me worried and confused. I see Rex in the kitchen and he seems to be eating a sandwich. He looks up from his food with a faint smile.

"Have you told him?" he asks immediately.

I shake my head because that is all that is looming over me. I am going to tell him once I see him. "Not yet."

He sighs "He came over to my room last night. He was very pissed. Please just tell him or I would have to be the one to do it. I am only loyal to him"

At this point, he is threatening me. I don’t do too well with threats.

"I will tell him," I snap at him because I am getting pissed.

My phone rings suddenly and I grab it from the back pocket of the sweat pants I have on. I see Maddie’s picture and this confuses me because I haven’t seen or heard from her since our break up. I don’t know why she is calling me but if I can make peace with her, I wouldn’t mind.

I answer the call turning my back to Rex.

"Alanis," she says my name and it sounds like she is crying. Why is she crying? I go into worry mode because I still care about her.

"What is wrong?" I ask immediately.

"Someone...so...someone, please I need you," she is mumbling because I can barely understand what she is saying.

"What happened?"

I hear her heavy breathing clearly, she sounds like she is in pain "Someone took me to this underground basement and he has kept me, hostage, help me," she cries.

My heart freezes in my chest "Where are you?"

I wait for her response but nothing comes after that. "Hello," I manage through my panic. This seems like a setup, whoever took her did this to get me. So, there is only one person that comes to mind. I pull the phone away from my ear and see that the call is still connected.

"Cassius," I call his name enraged.

"I knew you were smart enough to figure that out," his voice finally comes into the phone. The anger seeps within me as I hear it and I want to hurt him badly. I turn around and Rex is still eating on the counter table. He is watching me with a curious expression but says nothing. i walk out of the kitchen hurriedly until I am outside the house. Ever since the vampires attacked, no one has been outside, except the people on guard duty. There are two men in front of the gates but I don’t know them.

Walking away from them with the phone still pressed to my ear "What do you want with her?" I manage angry that somehow, I have involved her in this. He must have been watching me for a while. That is the only explanation and if he knows the kind of person I am then, he knew that he could get me by using her.

"I want you," he breathes into the phone.

"Let her go," I warn him.

He laughs "You know that’s not how it works, you come to me and I let her go," he tries to bargain. I can’t go to him, I know this is a trap, if I go, I will not be able to leave. He is trying to go for an exchange.

"Where is she?"

"I will send and address, come and I let her go. But you have to come alone," he ends the call before I can object or refuse and now, I know I have to do this. I can’t leave her because he will kill her. Cassius is Ruthless and he is only doing this because he knows he can use me to get to Beau and his family.

I don’t know what to do. If I tell Beau about this, he won’t allow me to go and I need to because Maddie needs me. I still care about her and this is all my fault. I need to do this.

My phone beeps and I see a message with an address. There is a warning after the location.

COME ALONE.

It is in all caps. Cassius doesn’t want to hurt me, he only cares about the wolves. He won’t do anything to his kind unless I am a threat. I can’t just up and leave. I need to find Beau; I need to see him in case this goes south. I go in search of him until I can find him.

Rex comes out of the house through my search "Are you okay?" he asks probably because of the phone call in the kitchen.

"Yes, have you seen Beau? I need to find him."

He shrugs "You should check the gym," he suggests and this confuses me because I didn’t even know they had a gym here.

"Where is it?" I ask him.

He points to the direction of one of the many houses in their community "The third door to the left once you get in,"

I nod with thanks and walk over to the house. I walk until I get to the third door to the left just like he told me to and once I open it, I see him immediately. He is dressed in gym shorts alone and sneakers. The room is filled up with gym equipment and this confuses me. Why do they even need a gym, they are supernatural beings. I guess that is another difference between us two.

"Hey." he stops what he is doing with an encouraging smile. His arms outstretch to welcome me into his arms and that is what I do. He breathes into my ear and I close my eyes to remember this moment. I don’t know what is going to happen but I need to remember him so that I can stay strong.

"How did you know I was here?" he asks.

"Rex told me," I answer him honestly.

He stiffens in my arms "You seem close to him," he raises a brow in question. I know what he is fishing for and I know I promised to tell him today but I can’t right now. I have to be with him when I tell him, he can’t be alone when he finds out.

"I need to go home for a bit, I will talk to you when I get back," I lie because that is all I can do.

He pulls back from me and I know he is getting impatient "Why?" he asks.

"I need to get some stuff and father asked to see me," I continue my lies because apparently, that is all I am good for.

"I’ll come with you."

I shake my head "You know you need to stay here. It’ll just be a couple of hours. I promise." I dismiss his offer but I can tell he doesn’t believe me. He is suspicious of me.

"Why are you lying to me?" he agonizes.

Oh shit.

Chapter 43: The truth and all the anger that comes with it.

Alanis.

"I am not lying," I try to deny but he is not having it. I hate that he can read me so well. I hate that from just looking at me he can tell what i am thinking. In my head right now, there is sadness and fear. No matter how brave I try to be, a part of me hopes this won’t be the last time I see him.

"Then let me come with you, if you are being honest." he lets go of me completely and walks over to a chair. I watch him grab a small towel and wipe off the sweat dripping from his forehead.

"Why can’t you just trust me for once," this is me guilt tripping him.

"I think I should be asking you that," he says with an eye roll.

"Stay here, protect your people," I advise.

He walks back to me but stops midway "You are my most important person and you are lying to me right now."

"You promised to trust me,"

He nods "I don’t trust you right now."

I know he has reason to feel that way and he is completely right about that statement but it still stings. Those words coming from him, hurt me in a way I never thought I would ever feel. I am lying to him, keeping things from him and I still feel like the victim.

"I have to go," I tell him heading for the direction of the door. He grabs my arm roughly "You’re not going anyway Lanis, not until you fucking talk to me." his voice is rigid and cold. He is pissed and I don’t blame him.

"Let me go," I warn him.

I don’t have the time for this. Maddie is in danger and I need to help her, if I tell Beau about this, he won’t let me go alone and Cassius will know and he will kill her. I have to do this and find a way to come back to him. I need to fight him right now.

"No," he fumes.

I look at his hand as it tightly squeezes my arm and i don’t know what to do. I can’t hurt him; I love him too much.

"Please stop this, you have no right to tell me what to do. "

He laughs hysterically almost like he cannot believe we are having this discussion. This must be funny to him because i can’t find anything funny about this situation "I can, you are mine," anger seethes through his words and this reminds me of the time when we hated each other.

"I am not an object you can claim," I spit out the words getting frustrated with this.

Maddie might not have the time I am wasting here with him. i need to leave, I need to go help her.

"Stop this, you are acting ridiculous,"

"Talk to me, why don’t you want me to come with you. Why did you go to Rex yesterday?"

Suddenly I know what I can do to get him to leave me alone. If I tell him about Fallon, he will be distracted. I can use that opportunity to leave, I can go and save Maddie and fight to come back to him.

"You want to know so bad, don’t you?" I boom in frustration.

"Yes," he manages but there is uncertainty in his eyes.

"I am sorry for this Beau. I am so sorry for this," I take a deep breath as i mentally prepare for the words that are about to leave my lips. He is still watching me and I look at his hand still tightly holding unto me "Fallon killed your father," I say the words and the expression on his face changes, the hand that was once holding unto me slowly falls to his sides.

This was not the way I planned to do this, I didn’t mean to be so cold about this but I won’t risk his life for anything and if he knows I am going to meet Cassius, he will never let me go alone. This is like tipping the band aid off. Killing two birds with one stone.

"You’re lying," he manages but I see right through him too. he believes my words, deep down he knows his uncle is capable of something so monstrous. He knows that would never lie about something like this.

Deep down, he knows.

"I’m sorry and I know I should’ve told you this immediately I found out but i didn’t know how to put it into words. I didn’t want to hurt you," I tell him all I have been feeling but he is too far gone. The sadness in his eyes slowly changes to anger.

"You’re free to go," he says, not even waiting for me to leave he walks away from me and out of the room. I watch him until he leaves and I am conflicted. I don’t know what he is going to do and maybe it wasn’t such a good idea telling him about this right now.

Beau is very hot headed. He thinks with his fists. i know what he is going to do and it is not going to be good. I run out of the room in search of him, I stumble upon Isabella and she smiles at me warmly "hiya," she waves her hand in greeting.

"Have you seen Beau?" I ask her, my eyes roaming in search of him.

"Are you okay?" she asks.

I shake my head because I am panicking, I don’t know what he plans to do but it is nothing good. he is going to Fallon.

"I did something bad; I shouldn’t have. I need to find him before he does something he regrets," I tell her.

"Is he okay?"

I shake my head and Isabelle watches me with so much curiosity, I don’t even know how to explain this to her. I made a mistake. This is not how I wanted to tell him. I did this out of frustration, he was being too controlling and I took my anger out on him.

"I need to find him; did you see where he went?" my eyes roam around.

"He went inside," he points towards his house and I walk away from her to the direction. I hear the noise before I even get close. A loud bang comes from the house and I increase my speed to the house. I can feel Isabelle behind me, she is following me.

Walking into the house, I hear the shouting. Beau is the angriest I have ever heard him.

"What did you do?" Bells stops me by grabbing my arm.

I nudge her away from me "I can’t talk about this right now; I need to get to him." she follows me without saying anything and we both stop when we see him inside a room with the door ajar. The furniture in the room is tossed around, there are things all over the floor. I walk into the room and Fallon is on the ground, bruised beyond recognition. I look at Beau and he has transitioned; he isn’t in his full form. I have never seen this side of him before. His body is covered in hair, his nails have turned to sharp claws. His eyes are a bright red. He is standing on his two feet but he looks different. He is not wolf or human right now. Like he is in between.

"Beau, what are you doing?" Bells pushes me out of the way and stops in front of him.

He doesn’t respond to her; fuck he doesn’t even acknowledge her; his eyes are fixated on his uncle. Fallon isn’t even conscious right now, he looks dead. Beau doesn’t seem to be satisfied because he runs over to him again and grabs him by his collar. He is fighting someone that is not fighting back.

Almost effortlessly he throws Fallon to the other direction of the room, he hits the wall with a loud thud. Beau is still not satisfied. I hear a sound from Fallon and his eyes open. I am surprised he is even still alive. Beau takes this as a challenge and runs over to him "Stop this," Fallon cries.

He tries to stand up, an attempt to fight back. It is not working; he is too weak.

"I am your uncle, show me mercy."

This makes me angry because he didn’t show his brother mercy when he needed it. He is a monster and now he is asking for mercy. Beau doesn’t say anything as he grabs him again. Fallon trembles beneath him and I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to stop this. Beau must hate me right now. I doubt he will ever forgive me for this.

"Beau, you will regret it if you kill him," Bells is attempting to calm him down. "Please stop, we will figure out whatever happened," she continues.

Beau doesn’t answer, his claws pierce into Fallon’s skin and I watch as he cries out in pain. I need to do something before he kills him.

"Beau," I call his name out weakly.

He turns around for the first time and I notice the tears in them. He is lost right now and it is all my fault. His arms are still gripping Fallon, he doesn’t seem to want to let go.

I take a step closer to him with shaking legs "I am sorry," my hands are raised up. "This is all my fault, please don’t do this."

I move closer to him and his grip on Fallon soften. His hands are shaking, as I stop an inch away from him. I reach for his hand and he freezes. He is not himself right now, the look in his eyes are murderous. He wants to kill him.

"Please beau, don’t do this," at my words he releases his hands and I Fallon falls to the floor. This is the power they say the leader of the pack has. I didn’t know this side of Beau existed and now that I have seen it, I hate it. I hate that he lost control of himself because of his anger. I grab his hands in mine and they are still shaking, he doesn’t fight me, he doesn’t push me off him.

"I’m sorry," I pull him closer until he is in my arms. Slowly I feel him transition back to human. His skin becomes smooth again, the sharp claws and fangs are gone. He is back to the Beau I know.

Suddenly he becomes limp beside me and I realize he has passed out in my arms.

"Take him to his room," Bells says to me "I will get someone to come help Fallon," she walks to the door but stops "You need to tell me what the fuck is going on."

How do I go help Maddie when the most important person in my life needs my help too?

Chapter 44: Murderous actions.

Beau.

Fallon killed your father.

Fallon.

Fallon.

Those words replay in my head over and over again. Alanis said it to get me off his back. I know that much; he has known about this since God knows when and he just chose to tell me about it today.

This is my mate.

The person I am supposed to spend the rest of my life with. My supposed most trusted person. I leave him in the gym and once outside take a deep breath to calm my emotions down. With heavy breaths, I rest my hands on my knees unable to stand up.

I don’t want to believe him. I wish this is not true but deep down, I know it is true. Uncle Fallon is capable of something like this. This is the type of man he is, so hateful that he would hurt his own brother. The only person that has been on his side all his life. Memories from growing up come to mind and realization hit me.

Every single act he has done.

All to get rid of me and father.

All to prove I am not worthy.

All for power.

I see Bells walk over to me and she has a smile on her face "Hi baby," she places her arm over my shoulder. I am still shaking from the words and she notices. "Everything okay?" she asks slowly examining me.

"I can’t speak, the words to express me being fine won’t come out. At this moment, I am fuming. My heart is racing against my chest. I need to find Fallon; I made a promise to father and I have to keep it. I will avenge his death by killing my uncle.

With Bells still watching me, I nudge out of her grasp and walk in the direction of the house I have shared with Fallon all my life. I run until I am in front of his door. I know he is inside; I can hear his breathing. The urge to kill him heightens as I break down the door with a loud bang. He jumps up from the bed, surprised by my entrance.

"What are you doing," he looks at his broken door and then at me. His expression is shocked.

"You killed him," I growl loudly.

He furrows his brows in bewilderment "What are you talking about? Killed who?" he moves close to me. I hate that he is playing dumb to this. It makes me angrier.

"You killed him," I repeat with heavy breaths.

"Stop being foolish and calm down before you hurt your self," he grabs my arm gently. It takes a moment for me to react and I look at his grip on my arm and then at his face. All the anger that has been boiling in me, cooks up completely and I push him away from me so hard and so fast that he is caught off guard.

He falls to the ground and I watch him express shock at my actions. He stands up "What is wrong with you? I won’t take it easy on you if you continue this," he warns me and this gets a laugh from me.

"Tell me the truth, tell me why you killed my father." I probe.

"I don’t know what you are talking about," he denies and I get even angrier. All this seems to be funny to him. I am talking about the death of my father and he is smiling. This is even pissing me off more.

"Stop lying."

"You seem to forget who you’re talking to," he moves closer to me and gets all up in my face that his scent is all I smell. I want to kill him so badly; I have never hated anyone as much as I hate this man right now.

I don’t care that he is my blood. I don’t care that my father wouldn’t want me to do this. I don’t care about anything but killing him. I ignore his previous words and try to grab him by the collar. He is faster than I am and the blow is unexpected. His punch pushes me to the floor and this gets a laugh out of him.

"Know your place," he warns me but I don’t take the hint.

I want to cause him so much pain that he will remember me sting until the moment he stops breathing. Standing up, I run over to him but he is too fast. This man has years of training over me, I know right now he is stronger than me but I have the blood of the alpha in me. I have powers within me that I haven’t yet explored.

I just need to find them and this is the best moment.

Still, on the floor, he stands in between me with his legs spread and grabs me by the collar of my tank top. He pulls me up so effortlessly and drags me until my back hits the wall of his room "You don’t try to fight me; I am an elder. I am your uncle." he warns me with his grip still on me tightly.

All I smell is his sweat and the blood dripping from my forehead, they cloud my vision. I don’t feel anything, I am completely numb of all emotions but the anger radiating within.

"He was your brother."

I want to get him to confess but it seems like he is going to stick to denying this. He doesn’t want to admit it.

I need him to admit to killing him.

So that I can kill him.

"And I loved him dearly. You don’t know the relationship we had, so don’t come here and assume things you know nothing about."

"You killed him," I repeat.

"I did not kill him. I don’t know where you got that from but I didn’t kill my brother," he seethes out his words furiously.

I try to push his hand off me but he is too strong for me. "You’re lying," I scream those words so loud that we both feel the vibrations on the four walls of the room.

Hie eyes dart around, tension completely in the air. This is what I want, I want to drive him mad, I want to make him confess. I just need three words from him—I killed him.

"Stop this, I would never kill my brother. How can you even put thoughts like that in your head?" He lets go of me "Just stop okay, think about what you’re saying. Why will I kill Rick, after all these years?

I don’t know what he is trying to do, maybe he wants to convince me but I will not let him manipulate me into thinking he is innocent. I am so angry with Lanis but I also know he will never lie to me. I don’t know how he even found out but he sounded so sure, that means he had enough evidence.

"You wanted everything he had, the mate, the power, the family. You wanted his life so bad that you took it," I cry because even remembering all this hurts. Father never knew how much he was hated by his brother. He didn’t know what he was planning.

He was caught off guard and betrayed by the one person he loved.

After my reveal, I notice a change in his eyes. I don’t know what it is but my words must have caused something inside him because the next words he says is exactly what I wanted to hear "He took everything from me. He is the bad person," his voice is cold, angry.

"He was your brother," I don’t know how many times I have repeated those words and maybe I am hopeful that it would sink in and regret will kick into his head. Maybe I wish he can have some remorse for his actions. It is all wishful thinking.

"I tried to ignore all your stupidity, your incompetency. I tried to believe that you were good enough to be the next Alpha since he believed in you so much but I could not stand and watch it. I will not let you take over." he is still so close to me.

My back is still pressed to the wall, my knees are weak. "I will eliminate you and your so-called allegiance with the vampires. I will not let you and everyone else think this is normal."

"I will not let you win," I swear.

Laughing "You have already lost. This is my opportunity. I will say you attacked me. It was all self-defence. No one really trusts you and you don’t have your father to back you up. Who will believe if I twig your neck into pieces?"

He reaches for me again and I groan at the sheer pain of it all. His hand is strong as he squeezes my neck tightly. I hear the bones around my neck crackle and break; I feel the sting. My heart thumps inside my chest, my breath is heavy. Closing my eyes, I feel the blood in my veins. Suddenly getting control I didn’t even know I had, I grab his wrist and he lets go of me with a wince, completely aghast.

I feel my transformation but it feels like nothing I have ever experienced. Usually, when we turn, there is a pleasurable pain, and it is instant. This time is different and as my claws come out, I feel like a different person as my bones forcibly elongate and change their shape.

I let out a loud howl come from me and I smile suddenly losing myself. All I feel is anger and vengeance. I want revenge.

I want to kill him.

 

Chapter 45: The aftermath

Alanis

His body changes as I place him on his bed gently. He is still passed out with soft breaths. His clothes are ripped, his body is bruised. I don’t know if it is the transformation or his uncle that hurt him like this.

I hate myself even more because this is all my fault.

There is a knock on his door which makes me run over to it. I don’t want to wake him up. Everything is just too much for him to handle. He needs to rest for now, after everything he has been through.

Bells peers at me with a grim expression. I notice Rex behind her. Why are they both here?

"How is he?" she asks.

"He’s still unconscious." I walk out of the room and close the door gently "Why did he take that form?" I direct my question at Bell’s.

Shrugging she answers "I don’t know, no one has ever been in that form before. Not even Rick."

I furrow my brows "He didn’t seem like himself."

"What happened?" she asks me curiously.

I remember the harm I caused today and regret kicks in again. I will hate myself for doing this to him. "I told him," I look at Rex and understanding forms on his face.

"He didn’t take it well. Of course, he didn’t. Why did you let him go? You were supposed to calm him down," he attacks me and this makes me feel even guiltier.

"I was pissed. I wasn’t thinking," I defend my actions but I don’t even believe in them. It was selfish of me and at that moment I wasn’t the best for Beau. I didn’t think about him, all I thought about was Maddie.

"Can someone explain what happened?" Bells chimes impatiently. "Why did he attack Fallon?"

I sigh because this is going to be hard to say. Thinking about how I went about this whole thing still hurts my heart. I didn’t help him and I am supposed to be the one person on his side no matter what. He is supposed to be able to trust me.

Can he trust me after this?

"Fallon killed Rick," I blurt out those words fast.

It takes a second for it to register and i see the change in expression on her face. I see the anger "What?" she asks.

"He killed Rick," I repeat, the cats already out of the bag. There is no hiding it anymore. They need to figure out what to do to him. What do they even do to murders in their community?

Do they have a prison for murderers?

"That’s why he was so angry," she concludes and I nod in agreement. "I need to set up a meeting, with everyone. They need to know. How did you find out?" she asks.

"It’s a long story, I guess I saw it."

With furrowed brows, she asks "How?"

I shrug "It’s a vampire thing. My brother can see things and when he came here yesterday, he saw it. He showed it to me."

"Can he show it to me?" she questions.

I shrug "I am sure he can but I don’t know if it’s something you’d want to see."

she sighs ’Fuck, I can’t believe this. I don’t even know how he is feeling right now. Shit" she exclaims sadly.

"Stay with him, Rex come with me," she orders Rex and they walk away from me without another word. I walk back into the room and he is still in the same position I left him. His chest rises and falls gently. He is asleep. It was probably all too much for him. Walking, I stop in front of his bed and I notice that his bruises are healing very fast.

I walk into the bathroom and grab a towel and fill a bowl with warm water. I walk back to him, I need to get him cleaned up. Help with the pains he will feel when he wakes up even though I know the mental stress will be a lot worse. I don’t realise he is awake until he grabs my hand mid clean, his eyes are open and he still looks angry. "Don’t touch me," he warns me.

I sigh because I don’t know what to say to him, I hate myself more than he could possibly hate me. I regret my actions enough for the both of us "I’m just cleaning you up."

He lets go of my hand and sits up on the bed, I see the pain in his eyes. He is hurt but my stubborn boyfriend won’t accept help from me. He won’t accept anything from me.

"Why are you still here, thought you were leaving," he reminds me of what started all this.

Maddie.

"I just want to make sure you’re okay, a lot has happened."

He laughs "A lot that you knew about and didn’t tell me," he pushes the covers off him and I watch him struggle to stand up from the bed. He succeeds after many attempts and walks away from me and to the bathroom. I hear the water running and I know he is about to have a shower. This is what gives him relief. he needs some alone time without me, he needs to think about everything that has happened.

I should give him time to himself.

I sit in place not even counting time but after an hour or so, he doesn’t come out. The water is still running but there is silence in the bathroom. Worry kicks in and I walk into the bathroom, panicking that he must have hurt himself or something. The room is steamy from the hot water. I see him in the shower stall, the glass also steamy. He is seated with his back pressed to the glass. I walk closer and open the sliding door slowly. What I see is the most heartbreaking thing I have ever seen. His hands are on his head and his hair is pressed all over his face. He is crying with the water pouring all over him. His eyes are close but I see them--I see the tears. I feel his pain, everything comes stumbling all at once.

I don’t even know when I move or when he is in my arms. Water soaks my clothes but I don’t care. I just want to be there for him, I just want to be all he needs.

Beau cries in my arms for god knows how long and I let him. I stay with him, not caring about anything but him at this moment. I know I need to go and help Maddie; I know what I need to do but I need to make sure he is okay before I leave him. I need to make sure he is okay and strong enough to handle this.

i love him so much and I hate that he just can’t get a break. Somehow, I feel like this all started happening because of me. Ever since he found out I was his mate.

Bad things keep following him because of me.

Maybe it’ll be best if I wasn’t even in his life.

Maybe this is a mistake after all.

"I’m sorry," I manage after he is dried up and in bed again. The sun is setting in the sky outside and i realize I have wasted today. I just hope Maddie is okay, i hate to leave Beau but I still need to help her.

"Not your fault," he pulls the covers closer to his face.

"Are you okay now?" ’

He looks at me "I still want to kill him. I am still going to kill him," the anger is still there I can see it in his eyes.

Hate.

"Don’t say that. We will figure out what to do. Just relax."

"You can’t stand there and tell me to relax, you don’t know how this feels. He is a murderer. He didn’t give a shit when he killed my father. He didn’t think about him at all. So, no one has a right to tell me to fucking relax," he snaps. I don’t blame him.

"I know I don’t know how you feel right now. This is not happening to me, I get it. But I have my fair share of loss. I lost a lot before you came into my life. I lost a lot before I was turned. I know pain, I know hurt. I don’t want to tell you how to handle all this but you need to know that I am here for you, I will be here for you through it all. I will love you and fight with you. Whatever it takes to see you smile again."

He looks at me after I am done and for the first time I see the love in his eyes. I see the look he used to give me before our fight.