Ch. 491..495: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 491-495
Chapter 491: Out of body.
Jabi
I walk over to a tree and slide down to the ground. I don’t know what to do but I am not going back to the house. There is no way I will let him find me. This place is big enough to hide from him. I don’t know how I am going to get out of here but I will not go back to him.
I close my eyes as the cold wind blows through my hair. It is cold, my hands are shivering but this is all I can do. Sit and wait. There is nowhere for me to go and maybe if I am away from Lenny, I will be able to feel Darrien again. I have never been this alone in all my life.
I don’t know how much longer I am going to be able to stand it. I try to look up at the sky but the tree is blocking my view. I feel something pressing down on my legs. Even this cold is hard to bear. I don’t know how I am going to survive but I have to try.
I do not know how much time passes before but I stay on the ground until darkness hits.
I should probably find shelter.
As the night hits, it gets colder.
My eyes slowly close, the effects of the meat I ate earlier is wearing out. I need more. I am surrounded by a forest. I can look for food, hunt but I don’t even want to. I just want to go home and I know that complaining and whining about it won’t get me home. I actually have to do something about it.
I just wish I knew what to do.
I do not know how long I stay out there. I shiver and slowly, I feel my eyes drift off. I shake my head because I can’t sleep right now.
My wolf is crying, as I try to be strong right now.
let me out?
My wolf urges me. I don’t even know if I have the energy to turn right now. I close my eyes and think about it. Trying my best to do what he asked. Slowly, I feel the change but instead of the pain that comes from turning, I see a bright light. One so bright that it feels like my wolf is coming 0out of me. My eyes are open wide, there is confusion on my face as I see my wolf burst out of me in a bright light. I am so confused.
Why is this happening?
I shake my head and try to understand what the hell is happening but before I can even comprehend this, it disappears right in front of my eyes and I blackout.
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I open my eyes and i find myself in the same place. The same tree. The same forest. The same air but the one thing that is different is the absence of my wolf. I stand up and now, the sky is dark. it is nighttime and now I even feel more alone. There is so much confusion in my head right now. I don’t even understand how this is even possible. I don’t understand where my wolf is right now.
I look around and I can see the stars but I can’t even make out a clear view. The tree, the ground, the leaves, the forest, they are all too blurry. All I feel is this horrible loneliness.
The cold hits me again and it is even harder than the first time. I shiver against the cold,
it hurts so bad, but I force myself to grit my teeth against the throbbing pain and I start to move.
I hold on and continue walking because I need to find somewhere to pass the night. I don’t even know what I am doing anymore. I don’t even know how my wolf left me. How does something that is part of me, just leave. I should be able to feel my wolf but there is not even a slight
sensation of its presence.
I continue walking on the cold ground. I trudge through the forest. The cold is getting worse and worse. I am constantly shivering but I keep moving.
I look around for a place to get shelter. I don’t want to spend the night in the open. It could be colder than this and I don’t want to spend my night outside in the open.
I start to look for a cave or a shelter or somewhere to rest and I find a small cave behind a tree. I can’t see anything but I am pretty sure this is the place where I will rest. I feel like I am finally safe from Lenny. I can hide and he won’t be able to find me. I will be safe in the cave.
I stumble into the cave and open my eyes. This cave is tiny but I manage to find a spot to rest on. I sit down and I am shaking. I have to come up with a plan. I don’t want to die in this cave. I am not ready to say goodbye to Darrien. Our life is just beginning.
I will get us out of here.
I sit up as I hear him.
Now I am so sure that my wolf is not inside me but that doesn’t mean he is gone. Okay, yeah maybe he is not inside me right now but I know that he is going to help me. I know that he is going to bring my connection back with Darrien.
Maybe it is for the best that he is not inside me right now.
I don’t think I will be able to get off this island on my own.
There is literally nowhere else to go.
Lenny planned it all this way. He didn’t want me to have a way to escape. Maybe he thinks he is going to win this fight but I will not give up. I will trust my wolf and the people around me.
I will stay strong.
Chapter 492: Just hold you for a minute
Darrien
I follow the wolf and even though I am so sure that this is Jabi’s wolf. I don’t want to just jump in and believe it, just from seeing it. I need to make sure. The sky is already dark and I feel scared that this is just another trick. My hopes are way up but I am worried, that I will be disappointed.
His wolf peers at me from a tree and I see his eyes as they shine under the dark sky. My heart races as I move close to the tree and he doesn’t run away. He stands still, looking at me, watching me, before he lies down and rolls out his back. I kneel down and stroke his fur and he thumps his tail at me and purrs and his eyes close. And now I am sure that it is Jabi...
I don’t even know what this means, I don’t know how this is even possible. My hands touch his fur and I feel everything I am supposed to feel. There is something missing. Like a part of him is not here.
Where are you Jabi?
I send him a mind link.
I don’t expect a response but I am hopeful. I wish he can hear me right now but I also know that it is too much to ask for.
"Where are you Jabi,’’ I ask his wolf as I slowly pet him. His eyes look up to mine and I feel everything. I feel the love and the pain and the loneliness. I feel everything and I know he can feel it too. His eyes shut again as he nuzzled his head into my lap.
"I need you to help me find him,’’ I add because I know that he can. I know that he will. "He is lost and I need you to help me--that has to be the reason why you are here. Help me connect to him."
I feel him sniffing, then he starts to whine. I know that he is unhappy.
"Please," I whisper as I stroke his fur. I know that this is what he needs me to do.
I wait. I wait. I wait. I touch him again. I send him a mind link and I ask him to show me where Jabi is and this time, something shifts. Something changes and it feels like I am being transported into another world.
One that is far away from the community.
It is a forest, very deep and tangled and a whole lot of trees and I smell the ocean. My eyes are open to my environment even though I know that I am not really here right now. This is all in my head but this is the most real I have felt all this while. In front of me is a clearing. His wolf stands there and he looks at something I know that it is Jabi.
"Look for him,’’ a voice says from behind me. It is not Jabi’s voice and I know that this is not even a real voice, it is just a well-made up one.
I look at Jabi’s wolf and he starts to walk into the woods. I follow him instantly because this is what I have been hoping for. Some type of lead that will bring him back to me.
I follow his path and he stops and I look at him as I see his eyes glowing. I know that I am going to see him at last.
I walk toward him his wolf, who is in front of a small cave. I don’t know where this is, I don’t even know how to get to this strange place but I crouch until I get into the cave. It is almost like a bright shining light, almost like the heavens are showing me exactly where he is.
Once I see him my heart races and a million thoughts run through my mind. How can I be so happy? How is this possible? I am overwhelmed with joy and relief.
He is not dead, no. My Jabi is alive. He has just been stuck away from the world. I look at him as he is curled up in a ball, asleep.
I am close to him and I place my hand on his shoulder and he wakes up. He opens his eyes and he looks at me at first with confusion but I watch as his eyes shift to his wolf at the back of me and that surprised expression vanishes immediately. He smiles at me and it is so beautiful. He looks at me with his sparkling eyes and we look at each other for a while.
We are still and then he just slowly gets up and jumps into my arms. The fact that I can feel him right now, even though I know that I am not really there, is everything to me. He is in my arms and I close my eyes and I just feel happy.
Yeah, I know this is not the right time to do this. I need all the information I can get to fund him but for just a second, I feel him--I mean, really feel him.
"You’re really here,’’ he whispers into my ear. The sound of his voice on this cold night sends chills down my spine as I hold him.
Nothing else matters because in this moment, I can feel him, which just means that I will be able to find him.
"I am here,’’ I tell him, even though I need to let him know that I really am not. I want to do all that but for just this minute, I want to hold him. I don’t ever want to let him go even though I know that I will have to.
I have tried my best to shelter Jabi, protect him but for the first time, I think he might have to protect himself until I get to him.
I really wish that wasn’t the case.
Chapter 493: Hold on till I find you
Jabi
He is here.
I don’t even know how this happened but here I am, in this dark cave and he is like a light to me. Shining so bright that the feeling of safety engulfs me wholly.
"How is this possible?’’ I ask him after our long embrace.
He is still holding me but his eyes are looking around like he is trying to figure something out.
"Your wolf brought me here,’’ he mutters quietly.
My heart thuds against my chest "Where is Lenny, why are you out in the cold?’’ he asks me all at once.
I don’t know how to tell him that Lenny is probably going to be looking for me, that Lenny might not even know that I tried to escape.
"We will find a way out of this,’’ he assures me. "Promise me that you will try to live, that you will try to stay alive. Please, Jabi, You have to stay strong until I come to you.’’ "But how will you be able to come to me?’’ I ask him. "I am on an island, I don’t even know where it is. I don’t even know where this is."
"We will find a way Jabi, I am sure we will. You know I will do anything to keep you with me, but for now, we need to be strong for each other." My eyes start to fill up with tears. I don’t know how to even tell him that I am scared.
This is hope that I didn’t even think I would get. I honestly thought I was going to die in this cave, all alone but the fact that I am able to communicate with him again warms me up completely.
After a couple of silent seconds, he wipes my tears softly. It feels so real, his touch is as electric as it would be in person but it is already clear to me that he is not here. I know that this is all in my head, my wolf somehow found a way to connect him to me, even though it is not real.
"I want you to get up," he tells me calmly and I watch him as he crawls out of the cave and for a second, out of my sight. I rush out of the cave because I don’t want to be alone. I want him with me at all times, even though I know that he will need to go soon. He is going to leave me and I will be alone again.
"Where is Lenny?’’ he asks me as I come out and the cold air hits me. I notice my wolf next to him and this is weird. Seeing a big part of me out of my body.
"There’s a house, by the beach. I don’t think he was at home, I don’t think he even knows I am gone. There was a girl there. It seemed like she was compelled."
We keep walking until we get to the beach, the wind blows against us, it is cold and I blow out a breath and feel the breeze on my face. I look ahead and I see the house, the light in the room he kept me is still on.
"I am going to ask you to do something, it might not be what you want to do. I don’t even want you to do this but you can’t stay outside in the cold, you must be hungry.’’
He runs his hands through his hair, I can see the strain in his neck.
I don’t even know what he wants me to do but from the expression on his face, I am sure that I won’t like it.
"What is it?’’ I ask him meekly.
I am just tired of all this back and forth. This is not something that I ever envisioned happening to me but it is happening and I have to stay strong because there is nothing else I can do.
If I cower in front of Darrien, it will just make him worried about me and I don’t want him to be so worried.
"I want you to go back to the house, I know it is hard, I know he is feeding on you but he won’t hurt you. He needs your blood and as long as he does, he won’t hurt you. I will find you and get you out but I don’t want you to be outside in the cold, I don’t want you suffering."
He grabs my hands in his and the squeeze is reassuring. I look into his eyes and the pain is there. I know how hard this must be for him.
"Okay,’’ I manage even though I don’t really want to do this. I don’t want to go back to the house. I don’t want to be Lenny’s blood bank. I want to be home with Darrien but he can’t take me away now and I have to understand that. I have to accept that and not make him feel worse than he already does. I go to him, I lay my head on his shoulder and he strokes my hair.
"I will find you. I promise. I am not going to leave you here," his words make me feel like everything is going to be okay and that is enough to make me hold on, until he finally comes to me.
"I have to go now,’’ he kisses me softly and the tears that I have been trying to keep off, spring out.
My wolf leaps forward and I watch him as he enters me, just the same way he came out and that bright light that came with Darrien, starts to slowly dissipate as I watch him disappear.
"I promise, I will find you,’’ he says before he evaporates finally. I fall to the sand, unable to stop crying because I am broken right now.
Weak and tired.
I look at the spot where he was and his footprints are still on the sand, the dent that lets me know that he was here. That he made a promise to me and he never fails on his promise.
All I have to do is wait and believe that he will find me.
Darrien always does.
Chapter 494: Do what you need to
Darrien
I take a deep breath and in a flash, I am back in the community. Jabi and his wolf are gone. I am all alone again but it doesn’t feel like it. Somehow, seeing him again is all I needed to gain the strength to go on.
I was so scared that he was hurting and alone and even though he is, seeing him just shows me how strong he is. I know what I need to do and I know that Alanis wants me to trust Blue but I am not so sure that they will be able to find him. I have to wait for two days before they even do anything. I walk back to the community and to Blue’s house. I know Alanis and Beau have it handled but I just need to hear what he has to say. I need to know the progress he has on the whole situation.
I can’t do anything else but that.
I will hate myself if anything happens but I have to at least try to do something right. I knock on Blue’s door and I wait for him to open. When he does,
He is wearing a faded blue t-shirt and a pair of old blue jeans. His hair is messy and he looks like he just woke up. Yeah, he looks like he has been sleeping, this is the person that is supposed to help me. I understand that it is late and he needs to sleep but I at least expect him to be finding a solution to this. If the roles were reversed and one of his mates were missing, he would not be sleeping.
"Hey,’’ he rubs his eyes with his hands
, his voice is hoarse.
"Hey," I say to him because I don’t want to get upset. This is not his fault, he is not the person who should be blamed for this.
"You can come in," he opens the door all the way and I walk in, the door squeaks with every footstep.
"I know why you are here and I don’t think I have the answers you need right now,’’ he tells me immediately. Almost like a disclaimer. I am just here to tell him that I will be going back to Amber for help.
I know what we need to use.
Somehow, Jabi is still connected to me, even though Lenny tried to block our connection, his wolf is still very much connected to me. So she can use me as the link.
I would be his possession that she could use to find him. Blue stares at me, he looks like he is thinking and I don’t blame him.
"Alanis said you were gathering some things for a potion, how will that help me?’’ I am not sure that I want to know what he is thinking because I have already made up my mind. I have to work fast and Amber is the fastest route to take right now. "Well first things first, are you ok?’’ he walks towards me and he looks a bit nervous.
"I am ok," I tell him and he nods.
"We are in this together, no matter what happens, we are a team now," he chuckles a bit nervously at that last part. I nod and look at him.
"I saw Jabi’s wolf today,’’ I tell him.
He furrows his brows "Like in a dream?’’
I shake my head "In the flesh, he came to me. Lenny took him to an island, he is all alone and I need to find him. I know you are doing your best to make a locating spell but how long is it really going to take you?’’
"I don’t know, another couple of days, then I need to wait for the potion to settle and take effect.’’
I sigh running my hands through my hair "I don’t have a couple of days, I need to find him now."
He nods in understanding "Do you have another option?"
"I have someone else, she can help me,’’ I pause and take a deep breath nervously "I think so. Fuck, I have never felt this helpless in all my life.’’
I am really breaking down in front of a lot of people these days and maybe this is the vulnerability that I have warded off for so long.
I think this feeling of helplessness is what has driven me to do things that I do. I want to feel the need to control something because right now, I feel out of control.
"You have to do what you need to do to find him. I will keep working on my end but if you can get to him faster, then try Amber, don’t wait for me."
He is basically telling me that I can do this my way.
I came here to get assurance from him but it doesn’t seem like he is going to give me the assurance that I need.
I sigh and shake my head "I guess I have to," I say it almost like a mantra. I look at him.
Blue seems to have understood the hopelessness I am feeling and I can see the sadness in his eyes. I don’t know if it is sadness for me or sadness for Jabi. Either way, I have the answer that I need.
I need to go back to Amber.
I stand up and he walks out of the house with me. He doesn’t talk for a few minutes. I feel the awkwardness growing with every passing second.
"Thanks for this,’’ I tell him because just accommodating my vulnerability is enough.
"Anytime."
I walk out of the door and get to my car. This is the second night in a row that I will go over to Amber’s house but I know that she would never send me away.
No matter the situation.
This is just something I need to do.
She is the only one that can help me.
She is the only one that can find him.
Chapter 495: Courage from the writings on the wall
Jabi
The sun comes out and I cover my face with the covers as the rays of light hit on my face. I lie in bed with so much anger crawling out of me. Days are passing by, and I am still here.
Alone.
I shift, roll over, the covers fall off my face, and there I am, staring at the ceiling. The light of the sun hits my eyes, and that is when I notice something on the ceiling. Something drawn with red paint, I don’t know how I haven’t noticed this since. there is a circle with
a line going through it, then a triangle and the circle again.
I know that Lenny did something too. The fact that I have been so weak, so helpless. It is just so unlike me. Maybe this is what he did. Maybe this is how he is able to control me. I stand up on the bed and reach for the writing. My hand trembles as I stand on my toes and rub my finger against the drawing.
Get rid of it. Scrape it off.
My wolf tells me even though I already had the thought. I know this symbol must mean something. There is no way this is a coincidence.
He kept me here. I reach for the paint and it is dry. I need a knife; I need something to be able to scrape it off. Lenny is still not around. I haven’t felt his energy in the house. He left me here with some girl, that also seems to be here against her will. I walk over to the door and open it gently, just as I am about to open it, she pushes it open and that smile is still on her face.
"Where were you yesterday?’’ she asks me immediately, with that creepy smile plastered on her face.
I take a deep breath because I already assumed that she knew that I was gone but she also didn’t do anything about it. Which is just suspicious.
"I went out for some fresh air,’’ I lie.
She nods and walks into the room "If you were trying to escape, there is no way out of here. Lenny is the only one that can get us off this island."
She walks over to the table by the bed and drops the tray gently, there is blood in a bottle and a plate of meat. "Where is Lenny?’’ I ask her.
She shrugs "He disappears for a while, but he always comes back. You don’t have to worry about anything.’’
I try to act normal and walk over to the door to try and open it, it seems like I am free to move around. Lenny didn’t instruct her that I must stay in my room. So, I can look for something to scrap the writing on the ceiling.
Maybe a knife.
Or your fucking claws.
My wolf shouts at me even though he knows full well that I can’t transform right now. I am too weak to turn.
"Where are you going?’’ she asks me as I take a step out of the room. If I tell her what I am really going out of the room for, it might be suspicious.
So, I lie.
"I need to get water."
She walks over to me "I can get it for you. Lenny kept me here to serve you.’’
I shake my head immediately "I can go by myself. I need to even move around, can’t be cooped up in here.’’ I wave my hands in the air, silently praying that she gives in.
after a couple of debatable seconds, she sighs and walks out of the room "I will be in my room, if you need anything, let me know.’’ she winks and walks out of my sight. Darrien said I should wait for him but I at least want to try to help.
I know I can be strong but whatever Lenny did to me is messing with me.
I can fight for my freedom.
I can try.
I walk down the stairs until I get to the kitchen. The house is small, I can hear the girl upstairs but I ignore it all as I search for a knife in the drawers. I find a bunch and reach for the sharpest-looking one.
I go back upstairs and climb the bed again. I look at the drawing one last time before I start to scrape through it. The paint is coarse and has sharp edges, it is painful to do, and there is still a chunk that doesn’t seem to want to come off.
I finally manage to get it off. I silently pray that this is not noticed by Lenny when he comes back. I don’t know if removing the drawing will help things but I just want to be back to my old self. I just want to go home and be with Darrien.
I sit down on the bed and take a deep breath as I try to feel my wolf again. I wait for a couple of minutes, for a change and it doesn’t happen.
I raise my hands out, they are shaking again, I know the only thing that is going to help me is a change. No way I am going to let Lenny get the best of me.
My eyes stay on my hand as I try again. I don’t want to fully turn; I just want it to work so badly. I watch my hand as I channel all that I have into this. After a couple of seconds of staring and nothing happening, I start to see it.
My skin starts to change, and I can feel my bones turn and adjust to this new form. I can feel the sharpness of my claws come out, then the fur on my body starts to change. I can feel my face tilt and my eyes adjust to this new sense. Then my ears pop, and the tips of my ears point at where my eyes are. I can hear my spirit becoming more active.
I moan this time; I can feel my heart start to beat faster. I can feel it.
I am growing, I am becoming myself.
It worked.
Now I have to find a way to kill him.
I have to do this while I am strong again.