Ch. 616..620: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 616-620

Chapter 616: The light

Gyles

Pacing around the room.

I hate being kept out of the loop.

You should trust your mate.

You don’t have to do everything on your own.

My wolf encourages me and it is easy to listen to the words but it is hard to actually listen. I should trust him. I don’t have anything to worry about. He promised that he was going to fix things and he is going to keep his promise.

Blue never lies.

Blue is honest.

He is the backbone of this relationship.

I trust him more than I have ever trusted anyone in my life.

So why am I so fucking scared?

"You need to calm down,’’ Rex walks up to me and stops me in motion. He grabs both of my hands and pulls me to a stop; my eyes move up to his face and I see the worry in his eyes. He wants me to calm down but inside, he is freaking out—I can see it.

"You are not calm.’’

He scoffs "I am."

I squeeze his hands in mine tightly and he manages a faint smile "He will be fine,’’ he says but it sounds more like a question. he is not sure and he needs me for validation.

"We have survived so much. Blue will survive this.’’

I am doing this for the two of us. giving him assurance and myself. "Do you think he can do this?’’ I ask.

He smiles "There is nothing to it. he just has to come back to us. that is all I want."

This is the way I feel and Rex feels the same way too. He leads me to the bed, and I sit down gently next to him. he smiles as I look at him, my heart is racing, this is a crucial moment for us. once this is sorted out, we can go home. I want to go home.

I can’t even believe that I am calling the community home. Suddenly, that is all it is to me.

Home.

"Gyles,’’ I look up when I hear her voice.

Eleanor is still here which just means this is not over. I stand up from the bed with Rex still watching me as I walk over to her. there is a faint smile on her face "You’re still here.’’

She nods.

"Why?’’ I ask.

Her eyes roam around the room, suddenly, we are not alone anymore. the other people, the ones I was with inside the book surround the room. Now, they are all staring at me intently. I should freak out by this. They are all dead—ghosts, it is something that should be scary but I have been with these people, I know the things they went through and all I want is for them to be finally free.

"You are all out of the book,’’ I mutter, a slow smile forming on my face.

"It is not over but it seems like we are close. Come with us." she stretches her hand out to me. I can’t help but take it in mine. her hands are cold and I expected it to pass across but it doesn’t. I feel her touch instantly.

"How is this happening?’’

She smiles "Come on,’’ she pulls me out of the room and I follow her immediately. Rex is quiet but I hear his footsteps behind me.

"Where are we going?’’ I ask her as they all lead me down the stairs. I know this trail all too well. This is where Blue wouldn’t want us to be. He said he needed to do this on his own and I trust him but if they are all out, that means they might be leaving and maybe they want to say goodbye.

I don’t know.

"G, blue wouldn’t want us to come down here, he told us to stay in the room.’’ Rex manages, with a stutter.

He is right but I don’t know what to do.

The ghosts are leading me here. I can’t just refuse to go with them "I know, but they are leading me into the room.’’

He sighs but doesn’t say anything else. I take that as him agreeing and I follow Eleanor.

We enter the potion room and I see a bright light coming from. the door. The one that leads to the dark room. I know that Blue and Major are probably inside but I hope that they are okay. I need them to be okay because I can’t handle otherwise.

We follow the light with no hesitation because it seems like Eleanor is excited about it.

The moment we enter the room, I see Blue. he is holding the book and that bright light is just above the ceiling. Like a vortex of some sort. It is blinding and I can’t even look at it closely.

"This is it,’’ Eleanor manages calmly as she looks at the light.

Blue turns immediately to me and the shock is on his face. "What are you doing here?’’ he asks immediately.

I shrug because I don’t even know "She brought me here, what is happening?’’ o ask him even though he looks pretty engrossed in the book. I can’t say per se what is going on but it looks progressing.

He turns back to the book and I turn to make sure that Rex is still here. I knew that he wasn’t really interested in coming with us but there is just something different about him.

Confidence that he didn’t really have.

"Can you see the light,’’ Blue asks, not looking at me.

I nod "Can you see them?’’ the room is full of them. they have covered a mass apace of the room but they are all focused on the light and it seems to be getting bigger. I know what this is already. It all makes sense.

They are leaving.

"This is goodbye,’’ I manage, looking at Eleanor.

She turns away from the light and nods slightly with a smile on her face. "Thank you for everything." she manages.

Slowly walking away from me and closer to the light.

I watch the rest of them follow her.

This is it.

Chapter 617: Three just right

Rex

"Come on,’’ I urge as I grab the last of Blue’s bags.

I turn to the room and it is empty. Completely cleaned out, unlike the last time we left this place.

Do you know how a place looks like when you move out? that is how Blue’s room looks right now and it is making me feel emotional. I know what this means for him and I can’t help but feel the pain that he is feeling.

This is his goodbye.

He is leaving the past behind and this time, it is for good.

I asked him how he felt about this and he said it was for the best. I can’t imagine leaving the community behind. So, no matter how much he might have hated this place, this will break him.

I know that much.

"Do you have the last of his stuff?’’ Gyles asks me as he walks into the room. Blue is inside the closet. I don’t know what he is doing inside but he has been in there for a while.

"Yeah," I answer as he walks over to me and grabs the bag from me.

"Do you want to check on him?’’ he asks me as he collects the bag from me. Our hands’ touch and I feel the butterflies attack me. just a touch and I can feel it all.

Love is amazing.

"Yeah, I should.’’

Gyles leans forward and plants a soft kiss on my temple. I close my eyes as I let it seep through me. this kiss of encouragement. This kiss means as much to me as a kiss on the lips.

I watch him as he leaves the room and I go into the closet. It is dark but I can see him. His back is to the door and it looks like he is focused on something that I can’t see. Slowly, I walk over to him until I am just an inch away from him. he doesn’t budge, he doesn’t move but I know that he knows I am here.

"I can’t believe this is it,’’ he manages.

I look at his hand and he is holding a box. It is open but I can’t see what it contains. He reaches for something inside the box and I see the picture. Him and his mother. He is just a baby, but somehow, I know it is him instantly.

"You would think she loved me from the way she is looking at me. you would think things were different.’’

A picture can tell a thousand stories. It is open to interpretation. To him, it looks like a normal mother and son picture but I can see it clearer. Analise is not even looking at him. she has this precious gem in her arms and she is more focused on the camera. Her newborn baby and all she can focus on is looking good for the camera. This woman will always be selfish, no matter the kind of person he is.

She never loved him but I don’t need to tell him that—he already knows.

"Do you think she would have loved me if I wasn’t a Lycan?’’ he asks and this confuses me.

She wasn’t the way she was to him because of the type of blood flowing through his veins.

She was just a monster.

"Forget it, it is over now,’’ he drops the picture back into the box and closes it immediately. He is brushing this away even though he wants an answer to his question.

I don’t need to tell him because he already knows but if this is something that he needs validation on, I will give it to him. I grab his hands abruptly and he looks up at me. Tears are welling up in his eyes.

Shit.

"Your mother was not capable of love. You need to let that sink in. no matter what you were, she wouldn’t have seen the greatness that you carried. She was blind to it and a lot of things."

I reach for him and wipe the tears as they fall.

I hold him because he needs me. I am not the one that can convince him, he knows the truth already. I just need to push him to see things clearly.

"Why do you think you have two mates?’’ I ask him.

He shrugs.

"You have a whole lot of love inside you. you are worthy of so much love that the goddess knew that one mate wasn’t enough for you. think about that when you have doubts."

His eyes bore into mine and I see him for who he really is which is a caring and loveable person. I will always love him, Gyles will always love him and even though he has lost a lot of love, he will never be alone. I lean forward and my lips touch his slightly. This is a kiss of assurance, a kiss of a promise for a beautiful future.

He closes his eyes and a drop of tear falls to my face as I deepen the kiss. My hands are shaking, I can’t contain all this love I feel for him. I want to scream it to the world. I want to always assure him whenever he is feeling down.

After a couple of minutes, he pulls away from the kiss and rests his forehead on mine. I close my eyes because I want to enjoy this moment.

"I love you,’’ I mouth quietly. He doesn’t even need to hear it right now because he can already feel it.

I hear Gyles’s footsteps before he peeps into the closet.

"The bags are in the car,’’ he informs us with a smile on his beautiful face.

I smile and stretch my hand out to him. he walks over to us and Blue pulls him into our hold. Our bodies press together and all I feel is perfection. Without one of us, we are not complete.

Some might say that we are three too much but all I see is a perfect match.

We are three just right.

Chapter 618: Fear

Darrien

Things have been a little weird since my confession.

I don’t know if it is just me but I have had this unsettled feeling inside me. Jabi said he didn’t have an issue with me. he said he loved me no matter what but I have been worried all month. I have been thinking about a way to fix things.

I don’t know how to.

I haven’t heard from Amber since the car ride but she has been at the back of my mind because of the fear that she would try to come back into my life. Fear that she will scatter this amazing thing that I have with Jabi.

Rex and his mates are back in the community.

It has been a month and they seem to be settling right back in. Blue has helped with the mask on Jabi and we are free to go back to my apartment but I haven’t really had a conversation with him about it.

At first, I was here to protect him but now I don’t even want to leave this place. being a vampire, I have always had a family. I had a home—one that I didn’t even stay in, I was always on my own, unless I was needed at home. I didn’t like the containment that came with it but with Jabi, things are different.

For the first time in my life, I want to be in this contained space. I like that it is safe. I don’t have to worry about Jabi, I don’t have to worry about the outside world. I have a family and these people matter to me. I swear, if you had told me that I would have people in my life that I got along with, I would have laughed and told you that you were insane.

I didn’t even get along with my family.

I didn’t get along with Alanis—not even one bit but now, he is the closest thing I have that I can call a brother.

I love him so much—but I would never tell him that.

This thing with leaving the community has been eating me up. I don’t know if I can tell Jabi how I am feeling because I know that he doesn’t want to stay here. He feels the exact opposite way of how I feel.

He hates this place.

He doesn’t belong.

He doesn’t want to.

I walk out of the house and the fresh air hits me. the air in this place is different. I don’t know if it is just because my feelings for this place have changed but the air feels light and very calming. The sky is bright, the sun is a beautiful color above.

I love everything about this place.

"Hey,’’ I hear and turn in the direction of the voice.

Rex walks over to me slowly with a smile on his face. he is dressed in a pair of denim shorts, a white shirt, and slippers. There is a book in his grip. there is always a book in his grip.

I roll my eyes at that thought because Rex can never surprise me.

"Where are you off to so early in the morning?’’ I ask him with a smile on my face. Jabi is still in bed. I left him to come to clear my thoughts but it is not even working. I know that I have to talk to him about how I feel.

I need to make sure that this thing with Amber hasn’t ruined our relationship. I need to tell him how I feel about leaving the community.

I know all this but I am scared that I will somehow find a way to mess things up. I don’t have any other kind of fear inside me, except when it has to do with Jabi. He is the only person that can make me mushy and emotional. He is the only one that can make me afraid and right now, I am afraid.

"Earth to Darrien?’’ Rex waves his hand in front of me and I realize that he is talking to me "Are you okay? You seem so out of it.’’

I let out a sigh and run my hands through my hair.

I am not okay.

At least I think I am not.

"Just got stuff on my mind.’’

He raises a brow and I see him watching me with that ’I am trying to figure you out expression’ on his face. no one can figure me out unless I want to talk about it and I don’t know if I actually want to talk about it.

"Do you ever hide how you feel from Gyles and Blue?"

"Depends?’’

I furrow my brows "What does that mean?’’

"Are your feelings going to hurt him?’’ he asks me.

I don’t know if it will. I know that telling him I want to stay in the community might but he will be hurt if I don’t tell him too and he finds out later. I know I promised to always communicate with him but my main mission is to make him happy and I don’t know if he will be happy.

"It will hurt him.’’

"Are they hurting you?"

Hurting me?

I don’t know but they are messing with my mind a lot.

"No, just a bother."

"Do you want to tell me what it is about?’’ he asks and the expression on his face is genuine. The night I spent with Rex in that shed changed the way I feel about him. we became close that might and I know that I can trust him. There are a lot of people in this community that I can trust.

So, I tell him.

I tell him everything, from Amber to my thoughts on leaving. I pour out my emotions and he listens to me.

He listens without any judgment.

After I finish, he speaks up "I think you should talk to him. about everything. do not keep anything one bit of your thoughts to yourself. Talk to him because just the same way you are thinking about him, he is thinking about you. He only cares about you.’’

He is right.

I know that.

But I am scared.

 

Chapter 619: Lucky in the love department

Jabi

"You need to talk to him, tell him how you feel and he will support you.’’

I don’t mean to eavesdrop but they are loud.

He is talking about me?

What does he need to tell me?

I am by the window of the house. The one that is closest to the entrance of the house. I can’t see them but I can hear their words clearly. I never imagined Darrien as someone that confides in other people. He seems like such a loner—I am the only one that he used to talk to, so why is he talking to Rex right now?

"I will, I am just scared.’’

He is scared.

Scared of what?

Things have been good between us. I have been good, so what could he be hiding from me.

There is nothing on my mind.

I don’t know what this could be about.

But you do.

My wolf pipes in.

I don’t.

I take a step away from the door because I don’t want to be listening to this. I want him to talk to me. I walk back to the room and sit down on the bed. my thoughts are stuck in the conversation. I try to think back, to see if there is anything that he could possibly be hiding from me.

I know Darrien, a lot more than I know myself. Everything about him is familiar, so I should have been able to sense if he was worried.

Right?

No.

My wolf must really be against me this morning. Cause I don’t even understand the attacks I am getting. I hear the front door open and I lie back on the bed and pull the covers over me. I don’t mean to pretend to be sleeping but I don’t want him to know that I was eavesdropping on his conversation. I wish he would talk to me on his own. I wish he didn’t need to confide in Rex before me.

I hear his footsteps outside the room but I don’t know what he is doing and it takes a while before he enters the room. I close my eyes as I slow my breath.

What the hell am I doing?

This doesn’t even make sense.

Then stop pretending to be asleep.

I feel him climb the bed as the mattress presses from his weight. He pulls the cover and I tighten my eyes. He can’t know that I am awake. I have to act naturally. His arms reach for me and he pulls me closer to him. his scent fills my nostrils and I find myself inhaling a little too obviously.

"Why are you pretending to be asleep?’’ he asks me.

His voice is calm.

There is no undertone in it.

"I am not,’’ I deny immediately.

This gets a laugh out of him.

"I felt you awake a couple of minutes ago. You know you can’t hide from me." he reminds me of the obvious.

But you are hiding something from me.

I don’t say it out loud because I want him to tell me on his own. Rex told him to talk to me, shouldn’t he want to talk to me on his own?

"Why were you outside?’’

My head is pressed to his chest, the rise and fall of it make me feel safe. Just knowing that he is here, next to me and I feel protected. He is my home.

"I went out for some fresh air, bumped into Rex and we got to talking.’’

I pull away from him slightly and his eyes are open. So, he has been watching me, which means he might know that I heard him.

"About?"

Suddenly, he lets go of me and sits up on the bed. I shake my head because I don’t want him to detach from me right now. I want to keep feeling him close to me. "Don’t pull away from me,’’ I beg him with a desperation that I didn’t even know existed.

He opens his eyes wide from my words, the shock evident on his face.

"I am here.’’

I nod ignoring his words and sliding into him again. my head remains on his chest and this time, he wraps his arms around me. I don’t know the expression he carries right now and I don’t need to know. I just need him close to me—at all times.

Yeah, I might be acting clingy right now but I don’t care about anything but him. I don’t care about what might be worrying him, because he is all that matters to me and nothing, he can tell me right now will upset me.

Nothing at all.

"You heard, didn’t you?’’ he mutters finally.

I don’t look at him but I nod.

"Don’t you have any questions?’’ he adds.

I shake my head "You don’t want to tell me what is bothering you, I know you will when you are ready. I trust you enough to know that you would talk to me when you are ready.’’

This is my way of telling him that he doesn’t have to until he is ready. I want to be supportive. Darrien has been the most supportive in the relationship. He has basically been living his life for me and I need to reciprocate. I need to love him as much as he has loved me.

With no expectations.

"I want to talk about it, I want you to know how I feel."

This time I look at him because he needs me to. I know this is hard for him but I will love him enough for the both of us. I will listen to him and give him exactly what he needs.

His eyes remain on mine and even though I am still resting on him, I can see him clearly. This beautiful man is all mine.

I got lucky in the love department and I don’t think there is anything that I could possibly ask for when I have everything I want in life.

I am so lucky.

 

Chapter 620: Communication

Jabi

Worries that all come back to me.

I have put so much pressure on Dar.

Made him feel like he had to live his life for me.

That is not how it should be.

We are in a relationship. This is a mutual thing but I have been selfish for so long. I don’t want to blame him but he is the cause of it. All my life, I haven’t had anyone care about me and only me. I haven’t ever been the centre of attention but with Darrien, his world revolves around me and that has confused me.

Made me so selfish that I couldn’t see that he was hurting.

Hurting because of all the pressure I put on him.

Once the mask is sorted, we planned to leave the community. It was something that I wanted.

Something that I pushed on him and now, he doesn’t want to leave.

He wants this to be our home.

My home is where he is but I lost sight of that.

I was selfish.

So selfish that he couldn’t even talk to me. Now I have to be there for him. I have to protect him.

"It’s not a big deal, I guess I have just been thinking about it a lot. It doesn’t really matter where we live, as long as you are there with me."

See.

He is doing it again.

Trying to protect me.

"But you want to stay in the community?’’

He nods "I want this to be our home."

His words are tough because we want the complete opposite right now. I don’t have any ties to this place—I get that just makes me ungrateful but that is just how I feel.

The pack.

I am supposed to feel at home in this place but I don’t. I feel at home when I look into Darrien’s eyes. I feel at home when he smiles at me and no one else in this world. When he tells me that he loves me. Those are the things that make me feel at home.

It doesn’t matter where I am, as long as I am with him.

"I know we agreed that once the mask was done, we would go back to our lives but I have been thinking lately. That this place is not so bad. We could make it work."

He runs his hands through his hair. He is beating himself up for nothing and I am the one that made this something that he needs to worry about.

"Is this what you really want?’’

He opens his eyes and I see him watching me. Like he is trying to figure out where my head is at.

"I want your happiness.’’ He finalizes. He wants my happiness but what about his happiness?

"Do you want us to stay in the community?’’ I ask him again. I need him to come out right and demand to stay. I don’t want him walking on eggshells with me. He should tell me what is on his mind.

He looks away from me and down to his feet. "Just be honest with me Dar. Please.’’

Be honest with me.

I haven’t been listening to him.

All this while, it was clear but I chose to ignore it all and think about myself. "I want us to make a home in the community,’’ he says this time, his eyes bore into mine. The intensity is strong. I can feel everything that he has been hiding away from me.

It feels good in a way to know how he feels because for the first time, so I smile from the bottom of my heart.

"Okay."

He opens his eyes wide and the shock is evident on his face. I made a scene the last time he mentioned that we should stay in the community, so I understand why he would be surprised but I’d like to think that I have grown as a person. The past month has changed me.

"Okay?’’ he asks in confusion.

I widen my smile "Yes, I don’t care where we are. All I care about it you. If this is where you think would be good for us. Then I am going to trust you. I trust you more than I trust myself.’’

I shrug because suddenly, I don’t even care anymore. About the community, the apartment, all I care about is making him happy and I know that this will make him happy.

"Huh.’’

He moves closer to me and I let him pull me to his laps. I sit down on him gently and he wraps his hands around my waist. My heart is racing.

"What changed?’’

I shrug again.

"I don’t know, I don’t care anymore. I am happy.’

He smiles "In the community?’’

"With you. I am happy with you, so it doesn’t matter where I am, as long as you are with me.’

He leans forward and I let him kiss me because this is the time for it. He opened up to me and we communicated. That is the one thing that will make this relationship work. Just because we are fated to each other, doesn’t mean that it will always be easy. There will be more people like Lenny and Cassius. There will be people that will try to break us, but as long as we stand strong together, we will survive them all.

’I love you,’’ he pulls away from me slightly with his hands still around me. I rest my head on his and my eyes close dreamily.

"I love you too.’

Just three words, that are so powerful.

Love.

I know there is something else that has been bothering him. In fact I thought that was the thing he was going to tell me. Maybe it has been bothering me too. I don’t know, but I know we actually need to talk about it.

"I want to meet her?’’ I blurt out the thoughts that have been roaming through my mind.

He pulls away from me more and raises a brow in question "Amber, I want to meet her.’’

Yeah, she is the person that is trying to come between us. I think I should meet her. Find out what her intentions her and nip it in the bud.

I hope it is a good idea.