Ch. 146..150: I Will Never Be Yours Chapter 146-150

Chapter 146

Selena POV:

I can only keep my eyes on him and when I don’t answer his question his hand comes to my neck before he holds my head in a firm grip.

“Should I take that as a yes!” he says next to my ear before placing a kiss on my shoulder and starts nibbling on the spot, I pant out from the feeling when he stops. and catches my lips instead. Pushing his tongue inside my mouth he deepens the kiss before he let his hand travel down my body, reaching my nipple I’m overly sensitive when he starts to roll it between his fingers.

Moaning out into his mouth he cups my breast when I feel how my arousal spills out, his hand lets go of my nipple when he drags me up a bit and places me in his lap instead.

Push his legs undermine and pull them apart when his hand starts to move on my side and over my thigh before coming over and cupping my p*ssy, I pant out from the feeling when he traces his middle finger down my folds.

“Kian!” I moan out into his mouth when his thumb presses down on my cl*t.

“Just relax and let me satisfy you!” he says when he places his finger over my entrance before he pushes it inside of me, I gasp from the feeling and buck my hips to meet his thrusts.

He withdraws it from me and adds another finger before he pushes back inside of me and my walls clench around his fingers.

His other hand wraps around my breast when he gives it a light squeeze that instantly sends a jolt of pleasure through my body.

Trying to grind myself against his fingers when he starts to thrust faster inside of my tight channel, feeling how my orgasm build up in my body I lay my head back against his shoulder and place my hands on his thighs.

Trying to stand against coming because I know once I do it will have my walls crumbling down the instance when I feel his head against mine.

“Let go! I’ve got you!” he says and bucks his fingers up while pressing down on my cl*t. I can’t stand against it and let my orgasm ripple through my body when my

walls vanish, riding out my orgasm on his fingers when his feelings flood me and I gasp from the sudden connection I feel again.

I’m highly sensitive and can’t believe how much I have missed him, I miss him!

I have shut him out of my life to not have to feel all these feelings and now it all comes crashing down on me at once.

Taking my hand I pull his fingers out of me and turn around in his lap before I move forward with my legs on each side of his, I need him and can’t wait to feel him inside of me.

Grabbing his hard length with my hand I stroke him a few times before moving forward and positioning myself over him.

“Selena what are you doing!” he says and place his hand on my cheek and tilts it up so our eyes meet, there is no stopping me from taking what I want, what I need. and that is him! All of him!

I see his needs in his eyes when I slowly sink over his hard c*ck and feel the tip push inside my tight channel, taking him inside of me bit by bit, not stopping until he fills me up to my brim and touches all my sweet spots inside.

I cry out and close my eyes when he is all inside of me and take a moment to get used to the full sensation when I slowly start to grind myself on him, digging my nails into his shoulders when I start riding him harder.

I have missed him! Missed feeling this connected to him when it’s just him and met in the world and our need for each other, moving my hips against his at a steady pace I feel his hand on my back when he moves my upper body forward and his hot breath comes to my breast before he takes my nipple inside my mouth and starts to swirl his tongue around it.

Grinding myself harder against him I grip his hair when his hands come down to my b*tt and grab it hard.

“I don’t want to hurt you!” he says and tries to make me slow down but there is no stopping on me, either he will give me what I want or I will take it myself from him!

“You won’t! And either you give me what I need or I will take it from you!” I say and pull his head back by his hair before picking up my pace again.

Catching his lips I’m relentless in @ssaulting his lips when he suddenly grabs my b*tt and lifts me off him before standing up from the tube with me, water run

down our bodies and I have to wrap my arms and legs around him to not fall backward when he walks out of the bathroom and into his bedroom.

He stops by the bed and places me down on my feet before he turns me around and grabs my breast with one of his hands while he pulls me back against him and his hard one poke in my back

“Get on your hands and knees on the bed!” he says next to my ear and I climb up the bed and do what he says, staying close to the edge when he grabs my hips and pulls me back a bit before I feel his

hand come between our bodies when he positioning his tip at my entrance, he pushes himself inside me in one hard thrust that’s making me cry out with how good it feels.

I think my body is overly sensitive and there is no way I’m going to last long with him pumping inside of me and filling up every corner of me.

He picks up his pace and for every stroke, he makes in my wet channel he builds up friction and hit my sensitive spot when his grip on my hips increases, the only sound in the room comes from our wett bodies connecting at a steady pace besides my moans.

My orgasm builds up in my body while I try to hold back from coming, I feel how wet I’m making his hard card c*ck for every thrust he makes inside of me.

Meeting his thrusts when he pushes hard inside of me and pushes me over my peak my orgasm ripple through my body, making my toes curl while I grip the bed sheets with my hands. Feeling him fasten his thrusts and chase his own release, his c*ck jerks and his warm seed pumps out of him and coat my walls while he pushes. inside of me one more time and pant out.

The sound he makes when he comes almost has me orgasm again.

He stills and holds me in place while we both catch our breaths, this moment where pure need after these weeks apart!

Slowly he starts to pull himself out of me before he leans forward and drags me up on my feet.

Pressing me flat against him his arms wrap around my body.

“How do you feel?” he asks and places a hand on my stomach, closing my eyes I enjoy this moment!

“I feel perfect!” I say when he presses his lips to my shoulder and I shiver from it

before he lifts me and heads over to the bathroom with me and places me inside the shower instead when he turns the water on and adjust the temperature before

he pulls me under the water.

“Don’t you ever put up your walls again!” he says and captures my lips with his, getting up on my toes I wrap my arms around his neck and deepen the kiss. I will never do it again if there isn’t a situation that requires it!

I need him and to feel the connection to him!

Chapter 147

Selena POV:

Feeling his hand caress my swollen belly I open my eyes and look at the nightstand, it’s seven in the morning and I have been sleeping a whole night!

The first night in ages I have gotten that many hours of sleep at the same time, turning my head to look over my shoulder Kian lean down and place a kiss on my shoulder.

“How do you feel?” he asks when I turn on my back and look at him.

“Rested and fine, only hungry right now and need to use the bathroom!” I say when he lifts the quilt off us and I swing my legs over the edge and try to sit up but it’s hard to get up straight, feeling his hand on my back when he helps me to sit up properly.

“If I’m already starting to have a problem getting up I don’t want to think about what problem I will have later on!” I say and sigh when I get up from the bed and Kian is instantly by my side.

“Take it easy!” he says but today I feel fine, better than I have been feeling for weeks.

“I feel perfectly fine, better than fine actually!” I say and wiggle my eyebrows at him when he chuckles.

“Then I think it’s better we give you another fill with blood before we get down to eat!” he says when I start to head towards the bathroom.

“Or we wait until tonight so I can take something else from you as well!” I say when he walks up behind me and grabs my b*tt before swirling me around to face him.

“You will have me whenever you want!” he says and capture my lips.

“I will hold you to it, now I have to use the bathroom!” I say and get out of his grip and rush over to the bathroom and empty my bladder.

Washing up before I brush my teeth and leave the bathroom and head out to get dressed, coming out I find Kian has put some new clothes out for me on the bed.

Getting over to them I start to get dressed when he walks out of his closet fully dressed and I almost drool by looking at him.

“Hurry up the chef is almost done with the breakfast!” he says and hands me the shirt I’m fast to put on, sitting on the bed I try to get my sock on my fest b*tt can’t reach down to them. When did I get that big?

Placing my foot on my other leg I can get it on when Kian Takes the other one and squat down to help put it on.

“Am I not even going to be able and take on my socks and shoes by myself any longer!” I say and sigh, hearing him chuckle at me he places the last shoe on before helping me get up from the bed and wrapping me up in his arms.

“I will buy you new easy shoes you can put your feet in and I will help you every day!” he says and start to pull me with him out of the room, I can’t imagine all the things he might need to help me during the rest of this pregnancy.

Heading down to the kitchen the smell of food reaches my nose even before we have entered the kitchen and my stomach instantly starts to rumble, I’m starving! Walking inside the kitchen with Kian’s arm around my waist the chef is standing behind the stove and cooking while Klan walks over with me to the table. Taking a seat he gets over to the counter and picks up a glass with something green inside that doesn’t look good at all when he walks over and places it down in front of me, “you need to drink this!” he says and I look skeptical at him but take the glass to my lips and sip on it, almost spitting it out right away, it tastes as awful as it looks!

“No way!” I say and place the glass clown on the table when look at him

“I will get you the can of pickles if you take it!” he says and I debate with myself if i want pickles that much.

“what’s in that disgusting drink?” I say and take the glass closer to me and sniff at it.

“It can’t be that bad!” Kian says and I hold the glass out for him to taste, he grabs it and takes a sip on it while I raise an eyebrow at his reaction. Waiting for him to spit it out but he swallows and hands it back to me,

“Was it good?” I say and keep my eyes on him when turns around and gets a cup of coffee he sips on before coming back to the table, I chuckle at him, already got my answer.

“It wasn’t that bad!” he says and I sit back in my seat and don’t take my eyes away from him.

“Alright I will contact the doctor and ask for a better recipe if you drink this up, he says you need it!” I sigh and pick up the glass before placing it down and getting up from my chair, I need something to wash it down with.

“Sit down and tell me what you want instead!” he says when I’m about to head for the fridge.

“A big glass of juice and the pickles!” I say and take a seat again when he walks over and gets me what I want.

Placing it down in front of me I take the glass and gulp it down before placing it down on the table and instantly drinking half of the juice.

“That’s awful! He better has something else for me!” I say and open the lid to the pickles and start eating one right away, don’t wait for him to get me a fork.

I manage to get two more down when he comes back with a fork and places it on the table.

“I guess you won’t be needing this!” he says and chuckles when he gets over and heads back with two plates and places one in front of me, the food doesn’t take long to get down before I start to eat the pickles again.

Hearing him talk to the chef from the table I’m about to take another pickle but looking at the can it’s empty, I instantly feel sad and can’t help the tears that fall when Kian is quick beside me.

“Hey what’s wrong?” he asks with concern in his voice and it only has my tears flooding down more.

“I ate them all!” I say and wipe away my tears, can’t understand myself why I would be this sad over some pickles. Hearing him chuckle by my side before he grabs me and takes a seat with me in his lap.

“it’s just your hormones that are speaking now and I will buy as many cans of pickles as there are so you never run out of them!” he says and chuckles while I try to get my emotions under control, sniffing loudly when there are several footsteps inside the kitchen.

“What’s wrong?” I hear a woman’s voice I recognize as his mother stopping beside the table.

“We ran out of pickles, I will order more in a bit!” I hear Kian say and I wipe away my tears.

“Ah I recognize that problem, remember when you craved lemons and ate them every chance you got!” I hear his father say and turn my head to look at them.

“The rage you got when we didn’t have any at home, I had to constantly make sure you had a full stock of lemons every day or I had to flee the castle!” his father says and laughs, when his mother joins him.

“See it’s perfectly normal!” Kian says and turns my head to look at him.

“I will make sure there always will be pickles in the fridge!” he says and peck my lips.

“Did you want something?” he says and turns to look at his parents.

“We wanted to congratulate you, heard you know the gender and wonder if there is anything we can do to help you fix the nursery?” his mother says and I turn to look at them, I hardly got any chance to look at what was brought and not in the room, there where several boxes unpacked in the room.

“Whatever Selena wants but there are several boxes unpacked in the room and I haven’t the time right now to fix it, is everything under control with Owen?” Kian asked and even if I wanted to go up and start to unpack I have to go over to my pack and talk to Jessie and Zoey this morning.

“yes, it’s sorted, they will be here in a few hours!” his father says when his mother turns to look at me.

“If you want my help I’m here!” she says and I would love t spend some time and fix the place.

“I gladly take your help, but I have to head over to my pack first and handle a few things. Can we take it after?” I say and give her a smile.

“Certainly! Let me know when you are back!” she says and I give her a nod when Kian pulls me closer to him.

“Do you want me to come with you?” he says and I have to talk with them alone and he needs to be here when Owen and his men arrive.

“I have to talk to them alone, promise I won’t leave the pack or go anywhere without you!” I say when he is silent for a moment.

“You will be in big problems otherwise!” he says and traces his nose over my cheek before he places his hand on my belly, I wouldn’t do anything to risk my life or our children. Placing my hand over his he leans down and pecks my lips.

“Alright! Come back as fast as you can!” he says when I get up from his lap and open a portal besides me.

“I will!” I say to him and look at him when I step inside the portal and close it after me.

Chapter 148

Selena POV:

Stepping out on the other side of the portal I come to stand right in front of the pack house, it feels like ages since I was here and it’s all different this time.

Take a deep breath before I start to walk up the stairs and head over to the front door, opening it up I hear several voices and know they are in the kitchen and eating breakfast making my way over there I step into the kitchen and see everyone sitting around the table except Jessie, she is nowhere to be seen.

“Selena you’re back!” Zoey says and gets up on her feet and walks over to me when she wraps me up in a tight hug. Feels good to be back with them!

“Yes, I am, and need to talk to you after I have talked to Jessie!” I say to her when she releases me from her arms.

“I have something to talk to you about as well, mind link me when you are done talking to her. You know where to find her!” she says and I think I do.

“I will catch up with you all later after I have talked to her!” I say and look at them when they give me a nod or a smile back in response. Turning around I head out of the kitchen and start to climb the stairs up to her room, finding her scent strong the closer I get when I stop in front of her door.

Taking a breath to prepare myself for this talk when I give the door a knock before going inside, seeing her sitting on the bed she raises her head and looks at me in surprise before she is quick on her feet and runs over to where I am and wrap her arms around me, she breaks down in a sob on my shoulder. Wrapping my arms around her I can only imagine how bad she feels about all that happened.

“I’m so sorry for everything Selena!” she says in a sob and I already know it.

“I know! But you have to explain some things to me!” I say when she lets go of me and turns around to take a seat on the bed.

“What do you want to know?” she asks and wipe away her tears, walking over I take a seat on the bed beside her.

“Did everyone go with Jacob of their own free will or did he command them?” I have had this nagging at my mind since it happened.

“Everyone went because they wanted and were tired of sitting inside here and only waiting for what’s to come, I know we went against your orders and we shouldn’t have then they all would be alive now and you would still be in charge of the pack!” she says and I hear how troubled she is over the whole thing.

“I’m still in charge of the pack, needed to focus on me and our children for what needed to be done, it was for the best he helped and take care of it for the time being!” I say when she turns to look at me.

“So, you are coming back as the Alpha?” she says

“I never stopped being the Alpha, only I had to focus on myself and how this could go so wrong! Both my Beta and my Gamma went against my orders and disobeyed their Alpha, what message does it send to the rest?” I ask and look at her, seeing her take a deep breath before she gets up on her feet and starts to pace around the room.

“We only wanted to keep the pack safe and you, that’s why we wanted to go outside the barrier!” she stops and looks at me, I see the pain in her eyes after everything that happened and I can only imagine how hard she is blaming herself for their death.

“I know why you did it even if it were wrong, they all had to pay the price for it! I couldn’t save them and if I hadn’t forced you to come with me that day you would probably lay dead like the others!” I say when she walks over and takes a seat beside me on the bed.

“I know Selena, my conscious is heavy with their death on it!” she says and I grab her hand in mine.

“No, Jessie! If they all went outside by their own free will knowing what is out there and they would be outnumbered then you couldn’t have done anything to help them, even I tried and couldn’t do anything!” I say when she hangs her head.

“It was me and Jacob who talked about it, he wanted to go out there and persuade me to go, it wasn’t hard and I should have stood against it but it was easy to change my mind!” she says and drags her hand down her face.

“We all have learned a hard lesson here and we have to move forward from this, I suggest you do a far better work from now on!” I say when she looks up at me

“I think there are better persons to handle the job as your Beta than me!” she says when I place my arm around her shoulders.

“No, there isn’t, we both have to change and take a learning from this!” I say when she looks down at my belly.

“I haven’t seen you for weeks, you have grown big!” she says and chuckles, placing my hand on my stomach she is right about that.

“Yes, I have and this morning I cried over an empty bottle of pickles! I need you to keep my head straight these hormones are starting to mess with me!” I say and laugh about it when she joins me and the door flies open when Emma comes walking inside and laughing.

“I recognize that feeling even if I think it’s hilarious you cried over some pickles!” she says and laughs hard.

“Emma have you been eavesdropping outside the door!” I say and look at her.

“Of course, I have! Need you two to be friends again and move past this, I want my pack back!” she says and raises her hands in the air while she laughs

“Well, you won’t get rid of us and right now I have to talk to Zoey if we are okay!” I turn to Jessie when she gives me a big smile.

“Of course, we are! Are you going to offer her to be the Gamma?” she asks and I see her look over at Emma before she looks back at me, I get this feeling they are hiding something from me.

“Yes, I plan to, hoping she wants it this time! Why do I get a feeling you know something I don’t?” I say and look between them.

“I will let her tell it to you!” Jessie says when I hear some footsteps in the hallway and Zoey comes walking to the doorway.

“Alright how about we talk in my office!” I say to Zoey and get up from the bed and start to walk towards the door when she takes a step back.

“I will talk to you later!” I say to Jessie and Emma when we walk out of the room and head over to my office, Zoey doesn’t say anything on the way when we are walking down the hallway and stops outside my office door. Push my door open and walk inside, Kian’s faint scent lingers in the room and I guess he has been working in here from time to time when I have been over at Michaels. Zoey closes the door after her and I make my way over to my office desk and take a seat behind it when she slowly makes her way over to my desk, I know by the sight of her that she has something on her mind.

“I know you already know what I plan to ask you but by the look of it you still haven’t changed your mind!” I say when she slowly takes a seat on a chair in front of me, it takes a moment before she raises her eyes and looks at me.

“That’s not what’s bothering me!” she says and holds my gaze.

“Then tell me what’s your problem?” I say and sit back in my seat and wait for her to tell me, she pulls her shirt to the side and I see a freshly made mark on it, I’m shocked at the sight!

“You have met your mate!” I say and give her a big smile, couldn’t be happier for her when she put her shirt back and sit back in her seat.

“Yes, I did, he came here with a group of Kian’s men to protect the pack,” she says and looks out the window

“You don’t look happy!” I say and can’t understand a thing of it.

“I’m happy, but you might not be!” she says when there is a knock on my office door before it’s opened.

Chapter 149

Selena POV:

Stepping out on the other side of the portal I come to stand right in front of the pack house, it feels like ages since I was here and it’s all different this time.

“Selena you’re back!” Zoey says and gets up on her feet and walks over to me when she wraps me up in a tight hug. Feels good to be back with them!

“Yes, I am, and need to talk to you after I have talked to Jessie!” I say to her when she releases me from her arms.

“I have something to talk to you about as well, mind link me when you are done talking to her. You know where to find her!” she says and I think I do.”

“I’m so sorry for everything Selena!” she says in a sob and I already know it.

“I know! But you have to explain some things to me!” I say when she lets go of me and turns around to take a seat on the bed.

“What do you want to know?” she asks and wipe away her tears, walking over I take a seat on the bed beside her.

“Did everyone go with Jacob of their own free will or did he command them?” I have had this nagging at my mind since it happened.

“Everyone went because they wanted and were tired of sitting inside here and only. waiting for what’s to come, I know we went against your orders and we shouldn’t have then they all would be alive now and you would still be in charge of the pack!” she says and I hear how troubled she is over the whole thing.

“I’m still in charge of the pack, needed to focus on me and our children for what needed to be done, it was for the best he helped and take care of it for the time. being!” I say when she turns to look at me.

“So, you are coming back as the Alpha?” she says.

“I never stopped being the Alpha, only I had to focus on myself and how this could go so wrong! Both my Beta and my Gamma went against my orders and disobeyed their Alpha, what message does it send to the rest?” I ask and look at her, seeing. her take a deep breath before she gets up on her feet and starts to pace around the room.

“We only wanted to keep the pack safe and you, that’s why we wanted to go. outside the barrier!” she stops and looks at me, I see the pain in her eyes after everything that happened and I can only imagine how hard she is blaming herself. for their death.

“I know why you did it even if it were wrong, they all had to pay the price for it! I couldn’t save them and if I hadn’t forced you to come with me that day you would. probably lay dead like the others!” I say when she walks over and takes a seat beside me on the bed.

“I know Selena, my conscious is heavy with their death on it!” she says and I grab her hand in mine.

“No, Jessie! If they all went outside by their own free will knowing what is out there. and they would be outnumbered then you couldn’t have done anything to help. them, even I tried and couldn’t do anything!” I say when she hangs her head.

“it was me and Jacob who talked about it, he wanted to go out there and persuade me to go, it wasn’t hard and I should have stood against it but it was easy to change my mind!” she says and drags her hand down her face.