Ch. 491..495: Rebirth_ Dancing In My Destiny Chapter 491-495
Chapter 491: Vacation (3)
James and Randy sat on chaise lounges near the infinity pool in the activity area. They enjoyed the sea breeze as they looked over the emerald sea.
While their partner, Renata, and Karin were ordering their lunch at the restaurant — the four decided to have lunch near the swimming pool, not far from the restaurant.
"Randy, what do you think of Danny’s girlfriend?" James had a sudden urge to gossip about poor Danny.
Randy stopped reading his book and glanced at James, "They look good together."
"Yeah, I saw it too. Danny likes her. I mean, he’s in love with her. But I’m not really comfortable talking to that girl. She looks distant. She doesn’t even talk to us much."
Randy chuckled before saying, "Man... It’s just your opinion. Don’t judge people by what you see!" He continued reading his book, signaling he didn’t want to waste time chatting with James.
But, of course, this shameless James didn’t allow Randy to ignore him. He said, "Yeah, I hope so. Mmm... Man, how about you? When are you going to propose to Renata!?"
Randy, who had just been immersed in reading his book, immediately froze. His facial expression slowly changed from calm to annoyed.
He opened his mouth several times but couldn’t bring out any words to refute James.
When Randy was confused about what to say, at the same time, Rose’s voice was heard from behind.
Randy was relieved. Finally, someone saved him. He ignored James’ mocking smile — at this moment, he didn’t have an answer to his question.
"Rose, Evan, you guys finally appear. Come join us here!" Randy shouted.
"Hey guys..." Rose sat on another chaise chair with Evan. She was surprised to see Randy’s happy expression. "Did something happen, Randy? You look so terribly happy." She asked curiously.
Before Randy could answer, James nonchalantly chimed in, "He’s about to propose to sister-in-law Renata!" He said in his low tone, but Rose and Evan clearly heard him. They were both taken aback by this sudden news.
"R-Really, Randy?" Rose was the first to congratulate Randy. "Oh my god! Randy, congratulations... I hope it goes well until the wedding day." This was the only good news she had heard since arriving on this island.
Randy was rendered speechless. He didn’t say anything, but his hardcover book landed on James’ head.
Everyone was shocked to see Randy’s reaction. Finally, this man showed his angry expression. After all the years they had known each other, they had never seen him like this.
Turns out he wasn’t a monk after all. He was only human, just like the rest of the people.
"Damn it! Why did you hit me?" James was holding Randy’s book while laughing at how dark Randy’s face was now. He was amused looking at Randy’s rare angry expression.
"Aren’t you ashamed? You are so old, yet you still like to tell lies? Shame on you." Randy sneered at James.
James was not annoyed with Randy’s sentence. He actually laughed, feeling happy to anger him.
"What? So, that’s not true!?" Rose was stunned. She narrowed her eyes at Randy, waiting for an explanation.
"James is so noisy!" Randy finally spoke up after taking a few deep breaths. "Well, to be honest with you guys, I have plans to propose to her, but I don’t know how..." He had no choice but to say what was on his mind.
He’s known Renata for a long time, and they’re both very comfortable with each other. Still, their relationship was limited to the friend zone for years, nothing more, nothing less.
However, this sudden vacation made him consider taking more serious steps with Renata. He has many plans, but he is afraid to carry them out.
He was unfamiliar with this love matter — more complicated and troublesome than running a giant company.
"Wow!! Really?? Congrats, man..." Even though James was very shocked, he quickly congratulated Randy. He no longer wanted to tease him.
"Randy, I’m rooting for you, there’s no need to think about how to, but you need to tell her. You have to remember, she’ll never know what’s going on in your head. And do it soon. You have to propose before someone does it faster than you...."
Rose said while feeling like something pricked at her heart — remembering her relationship with Dustin. Her one-sided love ended tragically because she finally chose another man, Evan.
Even though she made that decision after she was reborn, one thing she will never forget, her decision hurt Dustin so much. That man almost forced her in the wrong way to accept his feelings.
Just thinking about those dark times could make her whole body feel uncomfortable.
She didn’t want that to happen to Randy. Now, she is truly happy for him because he bravely decided to take his relationship to a more meaningful level, marriage.
"Thanks, Rose," said Randy awkwardly.
"Anytime! Ah, for how to do that, you should ask my husband. He’s pretty good at it..." Rose glanced at Evan with a faint smile — She still remembers how this man proposed to her.
"We should talk about that later, Randy..." Evan said.
While Rose and the others were talking, Renata and Karin had just finished ordering lunch and returned to see Randy and James. However, before they arrived, they heard what they were talking about.
Instantly Renata and Karin stopped their step. Not knowing whether to keep approaching them or stop where they were.
"Oh my God, Randy is going to propose?" Renata silently talked to herself, feeling shocked.
She had been waiting for Randy to propose to her for a long time, but hearing him make plans to propose somehow made her legs feel weak and her heart feel uneasy.
Worried that Randy saw her, Renata pulled Karin away from the pool. They needed to hide and pretend they didn’t hear anything — they entered the restaurant again and sat there.
"Sis Renata, congratulations..." Karin was happy to see Renata blushing, sitting in front of her.
Renata opened her mouth but failed to make a sound. She shyly smiled at Karin, then lowered her head to hide her blushing face.
Chapter 492: Vacation (4)
Dinner by the beach was held promptly at 6 pm, as the sky slowly turned to dusk.
A long table stands firmly on the white sand, covered with white cloth, and beautifully decorated with fresh flowers.
In some places, some torches make the romantic and warm vibe of the site even more vibrant. Several servers and chefs were busy preparing dishes not far from the main table in an orderly manner.
For this dinner menu, Rose specially arranged it. She asked for fresh seafood like fish, lobster, and oysters. She also provides meat dishes for those who cannot eat seafood.
And that night, they all gathered to dine together in one place for the first time. Rose felt happy seeing all her close friends and their partners eating at the same table as her.
There was no particular event that night, just chatting casually with each other while enjoying the food and drinking wine or beer.
Out of everyone present, only Rose couldn’t enjoy alcohol. Lately, Evan has been very strict about her diet, especially alcohol.
In addition, her tolerance for alcohol is also very low, so she is not allowed to drink in public places, even with her husband present.
Rose envies all of them. She hoped, just for tonight, Evan would grant her wish for a sip of wine or cold beer.
But it seems it was just a dream for Rose.
She was sitting beside Evan. It was clear what the waiter was serving had passed his approval.
And, in front of her, on the table, there is only a bottle of water and, of course, a glass of fresh juice, no beer, let alone wine glasses.
She didn’t even know what juice they served her this time. She was tired of asking. She would drink whatever they gave her. She already knew Evan must have told the waiter to prepare healthy food and drink for her.
Not wanting to think about the wine she wanted to taste, Rose decided to chat with Keira, who happened to be beside her.
They talked about their snorkeling activities this afternoon.
But then, Rose remembered Keira’s text messages this afternoon, "...we don’t need protection!" That sentence still bothered her now.
Rose was stressed. She didn’t have a condom to give to Keira because Evan never had one after they were preparing to have children.
She wanted to ensure Keira was safe, but she was hesitant to talk about this matter. Especially after Evan forbids her from being involved because Keira is an adult.
Even though she agreed with Evan, she was still worried that this silly girl might get pregnant before graduation.
She was confused.
"Wife, eat more..." Evan placed a large lobster grill on the plate.
"Gosh, hubby!! I think I ate too much..." Rose was speechless to see her plate. She had forgotten how often her husband put plates on her plate without stopping every time her plate was empty.
By now, Rose could feel her stomach was about to burst open, and it had probably doubled in size from before. Good thing she’s wearing sweatpants. It feels so flexible and makes Rose feel even more comfortable. However, she couldn’t eat anymore. Her eyes wanted it, but her stomach was full.
Rose motioned for Evan to get closer to her, "Hubby! My belly is bulging now... they might think I’m pregnant if you’re still feeding me!" she whispered.
"Okay, this is the last one." He smiled while stroking her belly.
Rose glared at him. Afraid that this man would kiss her again in front of other people. She wasn’t used to showing her PDA with Evan in front of new people like Willard and her best friend’s female partners.
"You have to promise this is the last food, okay?"
"Hmm... I promise."
"And, after this, I have to walk to digest everything!"
"Your wish is my command, ma’am!" Evan can only grant her wish.
Rose obediently finished her lobster. Even though her stomach feels bellyful, the delicacy of the butter grill lobster is too attempting to reject. The lobster was gone nearly in the blink of an eye.
At long last, the festive and friendly dinner was finally over. Some of the guests were still chatting at the dining table. Some returned to their bungalows exhausted and bellyful.
As for Rose, she walks with Noah after getting permission from Evan, who decides to return to the Villa.
This is Rose’s chance to talk to Noah after months of not seeing each other. In fact, while in the hospital for several weeks, he did not show up.
"Brother, I missed you..." Rose grinned as she looked at Noah beside her as they walked on the beach.
"Me, too!" He lifted his hand and tapped her head gently. "How is married life? Is it okay after the gossip news?" Noah is concerned about her condition after Evan dating gossip with Carla Miller swiping all over Astington.
"It’s fun. Despite a lot of trash news out there..." Rose chuckled. "It’s just gossip news, brother. It doesn’t affect me."
"Very nice, sister!"
"How about you, brother? I heard that you will be busy doing a domestic tour soon?" Even though they don’t see each other often, Rose keeps reading news about him.
"Yes! That’s why I’ve been pretty much swamped recently..."
"You should take care of your brother’s health. You are not as young as you used to be..."
"Hahaha, why do you sound like my father now?" Noah laughed at how this girl talked about his health.
"Speaking of uncle... Where is he now? I lost contact with him too." The last time she heard from her aunt Amanda, uncle Jamie Stone had now opened his cafe in Little Heaven. But she never had time to visit him.
"He’s getting older and, of course, busier. You know, it’s hard for him to open his cafe again, right?"
"Yeah, I heard about that. I think I will visit the cafe soon..."
Before Noah could answer Rose, someone called his name and Rose. They both looked back and saw Willard approach them.
"What are you guys talking about? Can I join the chat?" Willard asked after the three of them sat on the sand facing the dark sea.
Rose smiled and nodded while Noah excused himself to pick up his phone. Leaving Rose and Willard chatting alone.
Chapter 493: Vacation (5)
Willard was thrilled to have this golden opportunity to speak alone with Rose.
He tried to keep a calm expression even though, inside, he craved to pull her into his arms. Something they used to do when this girl still had a crush on him.
Yes, his past life was when he was Dustin Moses. But now, he was reborn using Willard Harper’s body.
God was kind to him. He gave him a second chance to patch things up. He’s back to claim what’s his, the woman he likes, Rose Wilson.
The biggest regret he will never forget when he became Dustin Moses is not immediately accepting this girl’s love.
He was too stupid and ignorant back then. His self-confidence was too high, feeling that this girl would never turn her back on him. He was wrong. Completely wrong.
That bastard Evan Collins stole this girl from him. Evan not only took his woman, but he took his life too.
He knew who had reported him as a drug dealer to the authorities. It was Evan! He would never forget and forgive that bastard, even if he went to hell first. He would come back to drag him down and ruin his life.
In this second life, he retook Rose and killed Evan Collins. But, unfortunately, both are not easy.
He sent assassins to end that bastard, but he failed.
And, to snatch Rose was not as easy as he thought too. This girl had surprised him so much after they parted ways — she had changed a lot. It was as if she was reborn into a new person.
Or...
Did another soul also take over her body, like he took over Willard!?
Suddenly he felt goosebumps at his peculiar thought. That’s absurd, right?
He glanced at Rose beside him. The girl looked calm and beautiful as usual.
Apart from the change in her demeanor, this girl looked prettier. She is a talented entrepreneur. She built her company from scratch.
What surprised him the most was she found her father. And now she has become a Spencer.
Reborn in Willard Harper’s body makes his plans much more effortless. Willard has so many assets that he can use to fight his nemesis, Evan Collins.
"Willard, since when did you become friends with brother Noah?" Rose is still in awe of the friendship between the two kings of this industry — Noah is the king of music, and Willard is the king of movies.
Willard was stunned to hear Rose speak to him. First, he looked at her and satisfied his eyes to see every inch of her flawless skin and bright eyes.
Soon he said, "I knew him when we debuted. We were in the same agency, your aunt’s company. But recently, I decided to build my own studio...."
"Oh, no wonder. Understandably my brother Noah is a bit odd. He doesn’t have many friends, so I was surprised to find out you were close friends with him..." Rose chuckled.
"Hahaha, Noah is indeed an introvert. He rarely goes out and is very picky about making friends." Willard said. In fact, he became very close to Noah after he woke up in Willard Harper’s body.
Willard needs Noah to approach Rose. And by becoming Noah’s entourage for a long time, he could quickly get near him because he knew Noah Stone’s weakness was Rose — he knew that Noah always had some feelings toward Rose.
He clearly remembers the first time his soul entered Willard’s body. The first time he did this was to approach Noah and follow Rose on Instagram. And since then, he became close to Noah Stone and got a new opportunity to be close to Rose again.
"Rose, would you like a beer?" Willard took out a can of beer and handed it to Rose.
He had prepared the beer to drink with Noah in their bungalow. The beer would also smooth up his chat with Rose, so he decided to offer her, even though he knew this girl’s alcohol tolerance was low.
When she reluctantly accepted, he smiled before saying, "You don’t like to drink?"
"I like it. But..." Rose was reluctant to accept it, but deep inside, she really wanted the taste of beer. She still remembers the last time she drank alcohol during her honeymoon in Tuscany, Italy.
"Ugh, sorry, Rose..." Willard raised his eyebrows, surprised by his thought, "...are you pregnant?" Somehow, it hurt when the words left his lips. He felt irritated imagining that bastard Evan fu*k her.
He stared into her eyes, waiting for her to answer.
Rose flinched in surprise at Willard’s words. She suddenly felt embarrassed to talk about it.
"No, I’m not. But my husband told me not to drink..." She took a deep breath as she turned her eyes to the sea. She wanted to taste the beer, but to imagine Evan’s annoyed face, she immediately buried her desire.
However...
She was surprised when Willard put the open can of cold beer in her hand. She slowly turned to look at him with mixed feelings.
"Drink it! He’ll never know..." He laughed and turned his gaze to the sea, ignoring Rose, who suddenly looked so seductive in his eyes.
It was excruciating for him to sit so close to her. This girl is too hard to resist. Her eyes, nose, and lips were teasing him. He felt like kissing her lips.
After a while, he didn’t hear any sound from her. Just before he wanted to take a look, he felt her head resting on his shoulder.
Instantly he froze.
He had thought this was just his fantasy, but when the fragrance of her shampoo entered his senses, it made his whole blood ripple.
He slowly looked at her and was stunned to see her eyes closed as if she were deep asleep.
Is she drunk?
Willard saw the empty beer can that had fallen on the sand. It made him chuckle.
Tsk! This girl hasn’t changed. She passed out with only a can of beer!
For a while, he didn’t know what to do. He’s just enjoying the moment. But a few seconds passed... he heard the voice he hated the most, Evan Collin’s cold voice, stomping his heart.
"What did you do to her?"
Chapter 494: Vacation (6)
Next morning.
As the first rays of sunlight entered the room, Rose woke up from her deep sleep. She felt her head hurt as if someone had hit it with a hard object.
Rose squeezed her hair tightly with both hands to reduce the pain. After feeling better, she looked around, and to her surprise, she realized something.
"Why am I here? How?"
She remembered last night, she had spoken to Willard on the beach. But now? She is in the bedroom, and the sun has risen.
Again she squeezed her hair, trying to remember what happened last night. However, no matter how hard she tried, her memories still faded. And when she realized she had put on her nightgown, she was even more flustered.
"What happened last night!?"
She forced her heavy and stiff body to sit on the side of the bed. Her head still hurt, but she endured it to find Evan.
"Evan, where are you!?" She called him, but he didn’t reply. "Am I dreaming!?" She looked over to the side of the bed where Evan was sleeping; looks disheveled, which meant she had slept with him last night.
But where is he?
With difficulty, she made her way to the bathroom, checking to see if Evan was inside. However, she did not find Evan there,
"Does he cook outside?" She wondered.
After Rose brushed her teeth and washed her face, she left the room and found the living room and kitchen area empty. Evan was nowhere to be seen either.
"Where did he go? Why didn’t he say a word?"
Rose returned to the bedroom, looking for her cell phone. She called him, but again she felt disappointed because she could hear Evan’s cell phone ringing from the nightstand beside the bed.
She went out and sat on the terrace to enjoy the seemingly calm blue sea to calm her mind.
But her mind couldn’t calm down because many questions arose, making her even more confused about why Evan suddenly left without notice. Never before had the man done anything like this. Is he mad?
No!! There’s no way Evan could be mad at her, right!?
Maybe Evan was chatting with the island manager because he got bored waiting for her to wake up!?
Or...
Maybe he was having breakfast in a restaurant with the others?
But all that is not possible.
"Evan... Please come back. Don’t make me worry!!"
After thinking for a moment, she calls Sam — maybe he knows where Evan is.
Sam answered the phone on the second ring, "Sam... have you seen Evan?"
"Boss Evan!?" Sam felt strange. Why is the lady boss looking for her husband so early?
"Yeah, have you seen him this morning?"
"No, I haven’t. Lady Boss... so, boss Evan goes somewhere without telling you? When was the last time you saw Boss Evan, Boss?" Sam looked at his watch. It was only seven in the morning. He didn’t hear her answer, so he continued, "Boss, do you want me to look for him?"
Sam asked as he walked out of his bungalow. He was about to close the door behind him, he saw Evan run past his cabin.
"No need, Sam! Alright, thanks..."
Before Rose ended the call, Sam said, "Huh! I saw him..."
"Really? Where is he?" Rose immediately got up from her seat and walked in. She needed to change her nightgown to her proper clothes. She wanted to go after Evan.
"I just saw him running past my place. Looks like he’s headed to the villa..." Sam said.
"Ah! OK, Sam. Thanks..." She hung up.
Instantly she felt relieved. Earlier, she had thought Evan was angry with her, yet her worry was groundless — he was taking his morning run. Gosh!
Feeling better, she climbed back into bed and checked her cell phone. She wanted to read the news this morning. Before she could do that, she saw a text message from Willard, sent at 6 AM.
[WH:] Rose, sorry I couldn’t stay a little longer. I have important business to do today. (Sad Icon)
[WH:] I’m sorry I couldn’t say goodbye to you in person. (Sad Icon)
[WH:] Enjoy your vacation... (Smile Icon) (Wave Icon)
Rose could only laugh bitterly. She had already imagined this would happen — A superstar like Willard can’t spend two nights and three days staying here.
However...
It wasn’t just Willard who was busy. Her brother Noah texted her too.
Gosh!
[Noah:] Morning, little sister. If you are reading this text, it means that I have arrived at the capital city (Grin Icon)
[Noah:] Sorry sister, I have to leave. I have urgent work. I’ll call you later.
[Noah:] Enjoy your vacation... See ya soon!
"Weird! Why did they suddenly leave together?"
Rose was a little disappointed that Noah left the island. There was so much she wanted to talk to him about.
She threw away her phone and decided to continue sleeping. But before she could sleep, she heard the door open.
"EVAN!" Unknowingly Rose screamed his name. Her smile grew wider when she saw him standing before the open door.
He only wore a short-sleeved tracksuit and running pants that exposed his muscular arms and thighs. His body was drenched in sweat and looked shiny in the light.
Even though she had seen him like this many times in the summer when they were running, she was never bored and always admired his perfect figure.
"Why didn’t you wake me up? I could run with you..." Rose said.
"I didn’t have the heart to wake you up..." Evan said with a smile as he walked in and stood at the end of the bed. His eyes stared at her wife lovingly. "You just woke up?"
"Hmm... I was looking for you. I thought you ran off this island, leaving me." She chuckled.
"Hahaha, you’re so funny! Are you hungry?"
"Yes!"
"Wait, I’ll take a shower first, and then I’ll cook for you." He walked toward the bathroom.
But he stopped in his tracks before entering when he heard Rose ask, "Hubby, what happened last night?"
Chapter 495: Vacation (7)
Evan stopped in his tracks before entering when he heard Rose ask, "Hubby, what happened last night?"
Rose stood up and followed Evan. She stopped two steps behind him.
She wanted to know why she suddenly lost her specific memory about last night!?
Instantly Evan’s face darkened. Before he turned to look at her, he adjusted his expression even though his heart was boiling. Last night, Willard Harper made Rose drink alcohol, and she passed out after finishing a can of beer. He didn’t know what would happen to her if he came late.
Evan had always suspected Willard Harper, and last night’s incident had really scared him; Rose drinks alone with a man in a secluded place. He wanted to kill that bastard, but luckily, Noah appeared, reminding him not to act impulsively.
But...
Something was bothering Evan so much. Even though his wife’s alcohol tolerance was low, she would not lose consciousness after drinking just one can of beer, yet she passed out. Something’s wrong here.
To calm his curious mind, Evan asked someone to check the beer in the laboratory — His guts said the beer was drugged with something potent. He would never forgive Willard if he gave her beer containing drugs.
"Nothing. I wash first, and we talk later..." Evan smiles and enters the bathroom.
Before long, Evan was busy in the kitchen cooking their breakfast. While Rose was sitting on the kitchen island.
She was busy playing the game Oscar had sent her. This is the second coding game she has to master, but it is tough to master it in such a short time.
It seemed her shameless master Oscar was forcing her to stop learning to hack — he was giving her a reasonable target.
Gosh!
Evan said it would be difficult for her to achieve the target.
Has Rose given up on learning? Of course not. She was even more challenged to achieve it.
Rose was engrossed in playing her game, but then she felt sorry seeing Evan busy in the kitchen. She felt like an unfilial wife — letting her husband do the cooking while she does nothing but wait and eat.
She saw Evan skillfully cutting vegetables. She didn’t know what he was cooking, but it looked like he was making soup.
"Let me help you?" She stood up from her seat and walked over to the sink to wash her hands, but Evan stopped her as usual before she touched anything.
"No! Get out of the kitchen Ma’am!" Evan lightly pushed her to go back to her seat. "Play your game again, or just see me..." His firm and clear tone made Rose unable to refuse him.
"You spoil me too much, Mr. Collins! I can get addicted to being treated like a princess..." Rose pouted while sending him a puppy-like gaze — trying to melt him.
And...
It worked. Evan stopped. He looked at her with a frown on his forehead.
This is her chance, "And if my mom finds out, she’ll scold me. Handsome hubby, won’t you pity me if my mother scolds me, huh?"
Evan, "..."
Rose continued, "Give me an easy task... if you’re afraid I’ll burn out or get hurt." Another soft-cute voice could be heard in the kitchen.
After a long pause, Evan finally gave up. "Alright, alright... go set the cutlery on the table. We will eat in ten minutes."
Rose was speechless. She thought he would assign her to wash or chop the vegetables.
Even though she was disappointed, she still did it. And in just the blink of an eye, she was finished setting the cutlery.
She returned to the kitchen, "Hubby, I’m done! Give me another task, please...." she started to feel excited. This time she hoped to get a more difficult task.
"Are you done? Good job, my wife. Now go play your game or watch your favorite Korean drama..." Evan said without turning his gaze at her.
Rose was speechless.
Not wanting to bother him anymore, she went to the couch and played her game.
The day went so fast...
Rose and Evan spend most of the day at the villa; they soak in the pool and read books together in bed. He also spoiled her with his cooking skill, and Evan kept her in bed all night.
She couldn’t even go to dinner with her friends because Evan wouldn’t let her leave the bed. She felt bad for ignoring the other, but Evan assured her that the other would be happy as they could spend quality time with their partners.
Evan managed to convince her. And she finally understood to let her friends spend their time with their female friends.
And with that...
Their vacation on the island is finally over.
On the third day, they all returned to the main island by helicopter. Evan was kind enough to provide three helicopters to bring them back to land.
It was noon when Rose and Evan arrived at Misty Mountain.
Rose was so tired, she didn’t even have time for lunch anymore, she just slept when she entered her bedroom.
While Rose sleeps, Evan gets an important call.
He immediately went to his study room and received Oscar’s call that he had been waiting for.
"Boss, we finally found that bastard!!" There was a cheerful voice mixed with pride from the other end.
"Well done, Oscar!! You did well this time!" Evan couldn’t help but praise Oscar. This was the big news he wanted to hear after so many days.
"Ayee boss. Well, this is all because of the information you sent me..."
Evan rubbed his brows as a smile bloomed from the corners of his lips. He felt relieved.
"Have you interrogated him!?" Evan asks. He wanted to know the mastermind behind everything — they’re a step away from catching that person.
"That’s the problem. This man refused to talk to us. He said he only wanted to talk to you. He was even willing to die when we tortured him..."
Evan frown!
"Should we take him to Astington?" asked Oscar.
Evan didn’t rush to answer.
He was trying to see what would happen if they brought this man to Astington and any excuses for asking him to fly there voluntarily!?