Ch. 111..115: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 111-115

Chapter 111: Sudden courage

Darrien.

Kissing him is not enough.

Being as close as I am to him is not enough.

I want to melt into him, I want us to be one. I want to be in his head, I want to be in his heart. I want to taste every fibre of him. My mind is in a fog, he is lying down on his back, naked and I have never wanted anyone as much as I want him.

A thought came to my head. if this doesn’t count as the mating ritual and we have sex, there could be repercussions. I want to have sex with him—hell, I am going to have sex with him. My soul already craves this intimacy with him. there is no going back from this and I think we both know that.

Jabi bites his lower lips and closes his eyes. My heart thuds against my chest as I watch him and his act of seduction. I don’t even think he knows what he is doing. This is not some planned out action, he is not even trying, and he is driving me crazy.

My eyes keep wavering to the vein on his neck that seems to be calling me. I know how this is to be done. I need to drink his blood and he needs to drink mine. I am going to give him a part of me and he will do the same. That is how it works with Vampires, but he is not a vampire, so will this work.

I lean forward until my lips are just an inch away from his, his breath is hot and heavy as he bats his lashes slowly, watching me with that same seductive look. I indulge to just a taste of his lips, slowly pressing my lips to his. He moans into my mouth as I straddle him, feeling all of him. It feels like silent fireworks are going on in my mind. I feel my fangs come out; they do this on my own. Like I said, out of my control.

I move away from his lips and he watches me, his arms around my neck, pulling me into his orbit. I glance at the vein again, getting bloodthirsty for him. I lower my head until I am towering over his neck. He pulls me closer, granting me access. I don’t want to yet... I want to take my time. Enjoy this moment with him.

I nibble at him, slowly and then with more force as I try to control myself. Try to take this one step at a time. Jabi slides his hands off my neck until he is gripping my back with his nails. The pain is pleasurable as he grinds into me, trying to find a way to mesh us into one. his hands reach for my pants, I don’t fight him off. His sudden courage is exciting to me, he wants to feel me, I can hear his thoughts. They are screaming out to me; he wants me to listen. Pay attention and satisfy him. he gets my button off and I help him slide my trousers off. His fingers brush against my member, I feel him shake beneath me as he tries to control the situation. It is obvious, he is nervous, but he is not the only one. I don’t have a clue; I don’t know what I am doing but I want him—so badly.

He grabs my member and I stiffen from that unexpected action. My breath spikes up, my chest rises and falls as I try to control myself. Hold on until I get the chance to be inside him. His eyes open suddenly, and they are bright blue. This is the colour he had when we went for that run. This is his wolf’s eye colour. Does that mean he is in his true form right now? There is an act of sudden courage in his expression, almost like he is ready to try this. he grips the hem of my boxers and pulls it off at once, those beautiful eyes shining as bright as the moon.

I watch him as he watches me, the lust evident in his eyes. He wants to do so much more than he is doing. I grab his hand in mine and drag it to my dick. I want him to touch me too. I will guide him. he doesn’t have to worry about anything for as long as I am alive. He opens his eyes and a smile spreads through his lips. Suddenly he holds me gently and I feel the pleasure which causes me to exclaim.

’’Do you like that?’’ he asks me as he starts to stroke my member leisurely. I nod my head and he continues the hand movement. Teasing me in the process. My head is spinning at this moment because all I want to do is be inside him. suddenly Jabi slides down until his face is just an inch from my member. I know what he is about to do. He is doing exactly what I did the last time we were intimate. He is learning. He takes me in his mouth, or at least he tries his best to take all of me in. his mouth is pretty small, so I didn’t expect him to be successful at his first try.

I am not in the right state of mind, to focus on what he isn’t doing right. His mouth does this thing to the tip that is driving me insane. With generous licks, he bobs his head up and down and I moan out from the pleasure he is exerting on me. He will be the end of me if he continues what he is doing.

I grab his hair in between my fingers, and he goes faster; sucking and slobbering on my dick.

’’Fuck,’’ I scream out because this is a lot.

This is everything.

He looks up at me, his eyes shining in the darkness. My heart thuds and thuds against my chest, fighting from the confinements of its cage. My head bangs, my legs tremble as I try to hold on, last longer. Jabi reaches for my entrance and this makes me confused as fuck. The sudden courage he has, I can’t comprehend it. He slides lower until his lips are perched on my entrance. I gasp out from the whole ordeal as he starts to jerk me off. His tongue trickling me down there.

The faster he goes, the closer I get. I close my eyes as I try to take all this in. Jabi moans against me, loud enough for me to hear in the silence of the room. That is the final gesture that drives me to my end. I arch my back forward as I release all that has been pent up within me. my seed spills all over my body and he comes back up to me, stained with all of me. I reach for him and he smiles tenderly driving me insane.

I press my lips to his, tasting myself in the process. Somehow that just serves as a turn on. Now I want to make him feel good, I want to feel his insides as I plunge into him. I push him to his back and he smiles as I press my body on his, getting him ready for this. I knew it was right to do this my way. It feels very right to me.

Slowly, I position myself to his entrance. I don’t want this to be painful, I don’t want him to hurt, so I slide one finger into him. making sure to be as gentle as possible. Jabi winces, and I watch him as I go deeper, wanting to see his reaction to it. like I always said, if it is too much I will always stop. He closes his eyes, and he sucks a breath in as I add another finger in. this time, he doesn’t look like he is in pain. just a little discomfort. I do the same thing until I feel him loosen up around my fingers. I lean forward until my face is in the crook of his neck. That same vein calling out to me. I am surprised that I have held out for this long.

The urge to have his blood is very strong. It is going to happen any minute from now.

I pull my fingers out of him and then my member slides in, slowly. He is very tight against me, which makes my dick harden.

’’Fuck,’’ I groan out in pleasure.

He moans against me as I move into him deeper. I grab his leg to open him up and he screams out. The deeper I go; the more cries escape his lips. He is enjoying this, this is what I wanted. I wanted to drive him crazy. I wanted him to want this as much as I want him.

Fuck.

Chapter 112: The chance to live.

Jabi.

So, this is what sex feels like.

I have never even thought about it. in my life, I always had bigger things to worry about. I was told that if I didn’t find my mate, I would end up dead. So you can just imagine how I lived, waiting for the time where my heart would just stop. Then Darrien came along, like a miracle. I would have never had any reason to come across him if not for Beau. He came into my life and he saved me.

He came into my life and I had the chance to live.

Now we are doing this ritual. Finally becoming one with him and this is what it feels like. Sex. Something I have come to love.

He is inside me. I heard it is supposed to hurt, I am supposed to feel pain as he thrusts deeper. I don’t feel any pain, all I feel is this intense pleasure that only he can give. His fingers slice into my skin which just tells me that he wants me as much as I do him. Darrien groans out this manly sound comes out of his lips as he hits a spot I didn’t even know existed.

My eyes open wide from the shock, the unexpected feeling. ’’Oh my God,’’ I cry out.

He pulls back, stopping for a second ’’Are you okay?’’ he asks, worry filling his face.

I pull him deeper into me and he groans out without warning, whatever I am feeling, he is feeling it too. He takes that as my answer and continues his movements. I moan into his ears because this is a lot more than I expected. Everything that is happening is happening so fast. I can barely even catch my breath. Darrien leans into me as he pummels deeper. I feel the crinkle in my toes, all this pleasure is overwhelming.

He leans even closer, this time his lips hover on my neck. He teases me with a lick and I tremble in his arms. He is still inside me; he is still moving to the beating of my heart. Everything in this moment seems perfect. I don’t ever want him to pull away from me. I want to have this opportunity for the rest of my life.

’’I love you so much,’’ he whispers into my ear. still playing around close to my neck. I know what is about to happen before it happens. I wait patiently for this intimacy that he is about to share with me.

I want him to have all of me. I want him to do this his own way. The Darrien way. I don’t mind that things are different; I don’t care about being normal. As long as I have him in my life.

I feel his teeth as he grazes my skin tenderly, he is still moving inside me. hitting that spot that I didn’t even know existed until now. It is a lot because I have to focus on him inside me and then the soft touches on my neck. I don’t know if I will be able to handle it all.

He pulls away from me, still grinding into me. A loud moan escapes my lips as I look at him and all that he is. This man is mine like I am fortunate enough to have him all to myself. This is the luckiest I have ever felt in all my life.

’’I want your blood,’’ he breathes out heavily. I notice his fangs, sharp and calling out to me.

He doesn’t need to ask me. This is something I want to, so there is no need for permission.

He watches me as he moves inside me, he is waiting again for consent. I don’t know how to form words right now. My mind is so out of reach, I am lost in this moment with him. I manage to nod my head gently as he twists into me which just brings out a scream of pleasure from me.

’’Is that a yes baby. Tell me it is a yes,’’ he pleads with so much desperation etched in his voice.

I close my eyes with a nod because while he is saying all this, his dick is pounding into me so hard. I don’t know how much longer I can last. I am about to explode. I hold him around his waist to slow him down. I want this to last forever. I know it is not possible, but I would like to drag this for as long as I can.

His face moves from the crook of my neck to my forehead. I keep my eyes closed. He stops moving inside me. I hold my breath, patiently waiting for his next move. I feel his breath on my skin, hot and alluring. I feel his lips as they press to the skin on my forehead. Completely obliterating my world as I know it with that innocent action. It feels like all my worries are dissipating from that action. All my fears have vanished. I feel like he is sucking all of me into him. I open my eyes and notice his are closed. His breathing suddenly very calm. I watch him as he shifts to my chest. The part that contains my frenzy heart as it beats. He does the same thing again. My heart pounds heavier, I let in a breath because this is a lot. I keep saying that in my head and somehow, he does something else that surpasses the earlier action.

I don’t know how much more I can handle again.

He said he wanted my blood.

I want him to taste me.

Why hasn’t he tasted me yet?

His lips linger on my chest just a little bit above my nipple. After a couple of seconds, he moves up until my nipple is in between his lips. I shudder from his touch as his grip on gets tighter. I feel my dick get harder. He pulls away from me and his eyes open, that seductive smile on his face. He goes back to my neck and this causes a shift in his movement.

’’Fuck,’’ I exclaim from the pleasure of him inside me.

He grabs my hand and squeezes it tightly. His face perched to the most important part of my body in this situation—my neck. This time, I wait for him. I wait for the pain that I think is about to come from this bite. I feel his lips as the offer me a slight peck. Taking deep breaths in preparation for what I feel is going to be painful, I squeeze his hand tighter. My way in seeking solace. I am scared, I am so scared, but I trust him with my heart.

The kiss sends butterflies all over me. I feel it from my nose to my toes. Just from an innocent kiss, he has succeeded in sending me off the walls. His hand is still gripping mine, tightly to the point where it feels like the blood around my fingers have stopped flowing. He is as nervous as I am. I like that I make him nervous.

’’Now,’’ he asks but it doesn’t sound like a question. It is more of a statement like he is just giving me a fair warning. I can’t even react because he is fast, so fast that I am caught off guard. I let out a loud gasp as his teeth pierce into my skin. I don’t feel any pain, it doesn’t hurt as much as I thought it would. Darrien moans into my neck as he sucks harder. I feel light weighted, I feel confused by the reaction my body is giving this moment. I feel like I am floating on a cloud that is taking me to another world. A world where it is just us, the two of us and no one else.

My eyes close tightly as I try to steady my breathing. Darrien pushes into me, sending me to heaven. He is multitasking right now. He is taking all parts of me and I feel like I am flying. All the fears I had before we did this disappear. All my worries and angst emotions. All I know at this moment is that we will work. We will be the best versions of our selves. I will love Darrien with all I can. He is all I want.

’’Oh my God,’’ I exclaim from the shock of this overwhelming sensation.

He squeezes my hand even tighter and I feel closer to my climax. I am about to burst ’’Don’t stop,’’ I plead to him to go faster. He obeys my command and moves even faster, grinding into me. I feel pressure on my neck as he sucks even deeper. These two things happening at the same time is everything to me.

The moment of release comes so instant that I arch my back bringing him with me at the same time. I open my eyes and his face is buried deep in the crook of my neck. I feel him cum inside me, his hot seed warm inside me.

My heart thuds against my chest as he rests on me.

Oh my God.

Chapter 113: The vivid dream

Beau.

Dream.

’’Wake up,’’ my eyelid flutter from the sound of his voice. That beautiful voice that is all mine. I know this is a dream. It feels like a dream. I open my eyes and he is staring at me with a warm smile on his face.

This man is all mine.

I reach for him and he welcomes me into his arms. I rest my face in the crook of his neck and he breathes into me ’’It’s been just a couple of minutes but I already missed you,’’ he exclaims dramatically.

I nod into his arms because even though I have no idea what Is happening, I am enjoying every minute of this dream. Longing for Alanis has made me concoct different scenarios in my head that make up dreams. I know the moment I wake up from this dream, he will be next to me in real life. the opportunity to have him in both my dreams and reality is a blessing that no one can ever understand.

The delicate warmth of his scent kicks in, the one that makes me know I am home. Being in his arms is home to me. ’’The kids are asleep,’’ he exhales a sigh of relief.

I pull apart from him at his words.

Kids?

We have kids in this dream.

It just got even better.

’’It took a while to get them to fall asleep. I had to bribe them; said we will take them to the beach.’’

I don’t even know how it will be possible. Is there even a chance of us having kids? That makes no sense but I like this, I like this a lot. Looking around, I notice we are still in my room. This is the community, everything is still the same except for the mention of kids.

’’You’re gonna have to take them to the beach tomorrow. Do you have any Alpha duties?’’ he asks me. I watch him stand up from the bed and walk into the closet. Not even waiting for my reply. I stand up and follow him into the closet. Suddenly, this is feeling more real than earlier, it doesn’t seem like a dream anymore.

’’Are you okay?’’ he asks me, taking off his clothes and grabbing a folded shirt from one of the shelves. He puts it on immediately and wears a fresh pair of boxers. Slowly he walks over to me and wraps his arms around my neck ’’You look confused. Did you have a nightmare?’’

I shake my head and he smiles, pressing his lips to mine for a soft kiss. I deepen the kiss and he moans deeply into my mouth, deriving pleasure in our kiss.

I push him till his back is against the door of the closet and he giggles as I press the lower part of my body to him ’’Oohh someone is eager,’’ he mutters in between wet kisses.

The more I kiss him, the more real this feels. I don’t know about anything right now but I don’t want to wake up from this dream. I want to stay here for the rest of my life. things seem less complicated in this dream, we both seem happy, like we don’t have any worries.

’’Daddy,’’ I hear the voice. It makes me stiffen.

Lanis pulls away from the kiss and rests his head on my forehead ’’Shit, he is awake.’’ He grumbles in my arm.

The tiny voice pulls me out of my daze as it calls out again. ’’He wants you,’’ Lanis informs me.

I am the daddy?

Wow

We walk out of the closet and there is a little boy. Looks to be about three years old. His hair is black, he has the greyest eyes I have ever seen. This kid looks exactly like Lanis. He is a carbon copy of my boyfriend. Holy shit.

He runs into my arms catching me off guard, but somehow instinctual, I lift him off his feet and he rests in my arms ’’I am scared,’’ he breathes out.

Lanis speaks up ’’Is Colin still sleeping?’’ he asks the child in my arms. I can’t focus on anything because I have never felt any connection to anyone the way I feel for this child. I never want to let him go again.

’’Yes, he said the evil man was under my bed,’’ he explains in my arms.

I remain quiet because I am at a loss for words. I don’t know how to handle all this, it is all so overwhelming.

’’Come on kiddo, daddy had a long day. You need to go to bed,’’ Lanis stretches his hand to take him from me.

I shake my head, I meant it when I said I was never letting go of the kid ’’Let him stay here tonight,’’ I suggest.

’’He has slept in our bed for a week straight. I need some alone time with you,’’ he whispers to me with pleading eyes.

I don’t know what is happening but the expression on his face is the most adorable thing I have ever seen. He misses me. I know what alone time means.

’’Please dad,’’ the kid I have come to love but don’t even know his name begs Lanis.

We both look at Lanis with our puppy dog faces. He rolls his eyes, almost like he is used to this.

’’Fine, tonight really is the last time Colt.’’ He warns him.

’’Thank you, dad,’’ he jumps away from my arms and to Lanis. Time stops, it feels like my heart is going to explode. Watching the love of my life hold him in his arms. It is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen, and I don’t think I will ever get over this.

Holy shit.

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I open my eyes and Lanis is sleeping soundly beside me. we are still in the caves. It looks like the sun is about to come up. My heart is racing heavily. I remember the dream. It felt so real, the most realistic dream I have ever had. I want the dream to be real.

We had a family.

I had two boys.

I want that so badly.

I reach for him and brush a strand of hair from his face. he snores soundly next to me. this is the first time he has ever slept so deeply. I guess the mating ritual took a toll on him. I can’t believe the ritual is finally complete. I don’t know how I feel about it. nothing feels different. Jules said I will feel stronger, but I don’t think I am any different. the only thing that has changed is the connection I feel with Lanis. it is stronger. There is an internal pull. Something that is binding us together.

Slowly his eyes part open and he smiles when he sees me awake ’’Hi,’’ he mutters still sounding sleepy.

’’Hi,’’ I reply still caressing his strands of hair.

’’We did it,’’ he exclaims.

I know what he is talking about instantly. We finally did it, it felt like a lifetime ago, but we did it. nothing can keep us apart anymore. He is mine, for the rest of our lives.

’’Yes we did,’’ I agree with him.

Today is the happiest day of my life. the dream I just had that felt so real, makes me all the more convinced that this thing between us is going to stand the test of time. I don’t know how possible it is going to be but we are going to be a family.

That is all I ever wanted, that is why I searched so hard for my mate. I wanted a family so badly. I wanted someone that would always be there when I am happy, sad, angry. Alanis is that person and everything that has happened between us just proves that.

’’I had a weird dream,’’ I confess.

He watches me as he waits for me to continue ’’We had kids. Two boys. One looked so much like you; it was uncanny.’’

Saying it out loud is even scarier. What if he laughs at me, thinks I am hilarious? Guys can’t have kids. It is impossible. I look at his expression, I need to know what he is thinking. His eyes open wide and there is a crinkle on his forehead.

’’I know it sounds crazy; it is impossible. It just felt so real.’’

He sits up and shakes his head immediately, pulling me up with him ’’No, I don’t think it is crazy. I saw it too. Last night. I saw them. They were ours.’’

So, it is not just me.

He feels this too.

Or rather he saw it too.

It must mean something. It felt too be real to be just a dream. I don’t know what it means but I am going to hang on to those dreams. I am going to handle everything that is happening in our life for them. I will deal with Cassius and Fallon. I will protect Lanis for those kids that I haven’t even met.

They are ours.

Chapter 114: The morning after.

Alanis.

’’Are you guys decent,’’ Eligio pokes his head through the entrance of the caves. I grab my shirt from the corner on the floor Beau stands up, not even bothering with clothes.

’’Yeah,’’ he mutters loud enough for him to hear.

Eligio walks into the caves with a wide smile plastered on his face. he stops once he notices that Beau is naked ’’I thought we said we were decent?’’ he questions with a raised brow.

Beau shrugs and grabs his shorts from the ground. He puts it over his legs ’’So, you guys feel any different?’’

I shake my head, not sure what is supposed to have changed. ’’I don’t know. I still feel like myself,’’ I shrug ’’Maybe father was wrong?’’

I look at Beau for some confirmation. Hoping that he feels the same. I don’t want things to change. I want us to stay the same way we are. I really want him to be who he is and nothing else.

’’I guess we will find out,’’ he says to me.

’’I didn’t come here to talk about this. Those vampires are still with us. We need to do something about them.’’

I totally forgot about them.

’’I need to talk to Jules. I only care about finding Cassius right now. Whatever it takes.’’ Beau admits. I know how all this is taking a toll on him. The fact that Cassius has such a strong pull on him is ridiculous. That man just needs to die.

’’You found him,’’ Jules announces as he steps into the cave.

His hair is let down today, the expression on his face is calm and very relaxing. Like he has no worries in the world. This is how I want to be, I don’t want to be the over-thinker that I usually am. I don’t want to worry about anything right now. I am still in like my honeymoon phase but it feels like there is so much to do.

’’What happens now?’’ Beau asks him.

He smiles ’’I see last night was a success.’’

I don’t know what he means by that. it doesn’t seem like anything has changed within me. I still feel like my usual self—I mean my vampire self.

’’Yes it was, I need you to teach me how to control my powers. How to be stronger.’’ He pleads.

At this point, I know this was the reason why he called Jules in the first place. Everything that has happened has not been because of strength. Now that I think about it, we did things very sloppy. Cassius is a very strategic person. He thought everything through. We went it blindly and we got burned. That is the only reason he is always two steps ahead.

What Beau needs is a plan. He has enough strength to kill Cassius.

’’What about Darrien and Jabi?’’ I ask out of the blue remembering that we didn’t do this alone last night.

Jules sighs ’’They left last night.’’

’’what do you mean. How did they just leave?’’

I look at Eligio and he is the one with the most guilty expression plastered on his face ’’What happened last night?’’

He shrugs ’’Darrien was being Darrien. He didn’t think this was the way he was supposed to do it.’’

I frown ’’What does that mean. He took the kid with him. what if this ruins everything?’’

Jules interjects ’’I actually don’t think he would leave if it wasn’t the way it is supposed to be.’’

’’No one has ever mated outside this cave. It is a tradition.’’ Beau speaks up.

Jules nods ’’Things are different. This is not a regular mating ceremony. Traditions change.’’

I don’t know how to even react to this, I mean. Darrien could’ve ruined everything for him and the kid. I would hate for things to go that way but it is a possibility. If Jules thinks this is how it is supposed to be, then I guess we have to be hopeful and see how things turn out.

’’They said they will be back today,’’ El explains to us.

I nod.

’’I want you both to freshen up. Come to the field when you are done,’’ He informs me, walking out of the cave instantly.

’’I think I should go talk to those Vamps. See how they could be of help to us.’’ I tell him.

He nods ’’Can it be after you see Jules. I want him to check you. Make sure everything is okay.’’

I nod and the three of us walk out of the caves and to the direction of the main quarters. We get to Beau’s room and he walks into my arms slowly. His eyes are half-closed as he wraps his arms around me.

’’God, it feels so good to be yours,’’ he exclaims excitedly.

’’You’ve been mind since the beginning.’’

He nods ’’But now it feels different. I feel tied to you. Almost like we are married now. Does that even make sense?’’

I pull away from him so that I can look at him. he still has that dreamy expression plastered to his face ’’Can we still have a wedding?’’ It is just a random question because I haven’t really even thought about it but it sounds nice now that he brought it up and I realise I wouldn’t mind being married to him.

’’It feels like we already are. We are bound together for the rest of our lives,’’ he reminds me even though I was present last night.

’’I know, but like will we have a wedding and stuff?’’

I don’t know how it works with Wolves.

We don’t do weddings.

But I kinda want a wedding with him.

I want the whole shebang with him.

Does that even make sense?

’’The ritual is kind of like the wedding, don’t you think?’’

’’I know. Forget I said anything. It is stupid.’’ I dismiss it all because I am being kinda ridiculous right now. We have bigger things to worry about that a wedding. There is a man hunting us down and I am being stupid and talking about a wedding.

’’I will give you a wedding. I will give you the whole world Lanis. whatever you want, demand it from me. Do not be shy to ask,’’ he grabs my hand in his. He is being very confident right now. I love confident Beau.

’’I want a wedding,’’ I breathe out those words.

He grins ’’I will give you a wedding. Once this is over. I will do everything right by you. I promise.’’

Thinking about everything that has been happening, I feel like it only brought us closer. Cassius thinks he will win this fight, but I know he will only end up being the one that suffers through it all.

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After our shower, we get to the field that Jules asked us to go to and he is there, with his son. The guy I met with Rex last time. I can’t remember his name.

They are both seated on the grass, their legs crossed over with their eyes closed. Beau walks closer to them and Jules opens one eye and with the calmest voice I have ever heard ’’Sit down and meditate with us,’’ he commands us.

I have never seen a werewolf-like this man in all my life. wolves are always so aggressive. Even Beau, he has his moment. There is nothing calm about them but this man seems like he can handle anything he comes across.

We obey them and do as they do. it is easy for me to meditate. It is almost like sleeping. Vampires have sleep states. That is moments when we go into a deep slumber for a long time. It usually happens when we don’t take enough blood.

I look at Beau one last time before I close my eyes. He smiles at me warmly which makes me see his smiling face in my mind.

’’Inhale,’’ he directs.

I inhale.

’’Exhale.’’

I exhale.

This breathing movement is soothing. It makes me feel good like I am ready to take on the world. I guess that was his intentions.

We meditate for a couple of minutes.

All my nerves calm down.

I hear shuffling and then Jules speaks up ’’You can open your eyes now.’’

I open my eyes and beau and look at my mate immediately. He has a calm expression on his face. He had this expression on his face even before the meditation.

’’I want to see what is different. I want to see if there are any changes in your bodies.’’

He walks over to us and his son moves next to him. We are still seated on the grass and it looks like he doesn’t intend for us to get up ’’There was the possibility that the mark could turn you.’’

’’I knew that was a possibility.’’

He nods ’’Have you had blood today?’’

I shake my head, I realise I haven’t even craved it. I don’t know what that means but suddenly there is a worry in my mind.

Why am I not craving blood?

Chapter 115: Intimacy before a disaster.

Darrien.

I know he is watching me.

I feel his eyes on me, and I am not complaining. I can feel the rise of the sun, even though my eyes are closed. I spent the night with Jabi and I have to say that it was the best night I have ever had.

Nothing can compare to all that happened between us.

I open my eyes slowly and he jumps surprised that I am awake, he pulls the covers over his head, hiding his face in the process. I try to grab the cover off him but he uses all his energy. Granted, he is not strong enough but I act like I can’t get to him.

’’I just want to see your face,’’ I groan using the most desperate voice I can muster.

’’No, you caught me staring.’’

This brings a smile to my face. even after everything that happened between us last night, he is still the same shy kid from the first time I met him. I keep thinking about last night, the expressions on his face the whole night. The courage he got, he completely destroyed me for anyone else—not that I plan to have someone else but I don’t even think he noticed just how much of a pull he has on me.

’’Please baby,’’ I succeed in slipping my hand in through a tiny space under the covers. I feel his leg immediately. He tries to scurry out of my grip but that is all it takes to send me off the wall with him. a little contact and I crave more.

I push harder until I am under the covers with him. it is dark but I see him clearly. He closes his eyes and covers his face with his palms. I can tell that he is a little nervous, probably because of last night. I feel closer to him, I feel this silent pull, one that makes me want to take him into my arms and never let him go.

I might have had doubts last night that coming here was a mistake but I don’t have any doubts this morning. I can feel the connection, the bond, this is how it is supposed to feel, and I feel it all. I hope he feels it too.

’’Why are you hiding from me,’’ I try to pry his hands away from his face because I want to see him.

He shakes his head but remains quiet. Slowly, his hands fall from his face and I see the features I have come to memorise. His brown eyes, pink luscious lips, the little crook on his nose. This is the man I love, the man I will love proudly for the rest of my life.

’’I am embarrassed,’’ he admits even though I kinda had my suspicions.

’’Of me?’’

He shakes his head immediately, pulling the covers off him with his eyes wide. The brightness of the room hits us ’’I will never be embarrassed by you, you are my pride and joy,’’ he confesses.

These are words I like to hear, the kind of assurance that makes this all worth it. makes me know that he means everything he is saying, he feels the same way as I.

’’Embarrassed of what?’’ I ask deciding to focus on him.

Once I figure out what is troubling him, I plan to wipe all his worries out of his mind.

’’Last night, I don’t know. Thinking about it, I acted crazy.’’

I furrow my brows in confusion. I was there last night. He didn’t do anything crazy. Last night was perfect.

’’What makes you think you acted crazy.’’

He shrugs ’’I don’t know. I was unlike myself. Thinking about it now, the person from last night wasn’t me.’’

I smile.

It is fine for him to be embarrassed. This was his first time.

I was his first.

’’We had sex last night.’’

He nods covering his face again ’’I know.’’

I pull his hands off his face because I want to see him when I tell him what I am about to say ’’We had sex last night,’’ I repeat. His cheeks redden as I continue ’’You have never had sex before. This was your first time, so how do you know it was unlike you. What if you never knew you could be so adventurous because you have never done anything like that.’’

That is the word to use for him.

Jabi was adventurous last night.

He drove me crazy—not that I am complaining. I loved every second of everything. it was the most intense, magical night of my life.

’’I don’t know,’’ he mumbles, looking away from me. I love the fact that he is shy, that is the first thing that caught my attention. I don’t want him to change, I just want him to be shy to everyone else but me.

We are one.

He has to be comfortable with me.

I pull his chin up so that he can look at me ’’You have nothing to be embarrassed about. We both did everything together. You fucking rocked my world,’’ I remind him of the night he seems to have forgotten.

’’Are you sure?’’

I smile ’’one hundred percent.’’

Everything he did last night, I fucking loved. So now he can’t be beating himself for anything.

’’How do you feel this morning, do you feel any pain?’’ he shakes his head immediately. ’’Should we have a shower and then look for something to fill your tummy with?’’ I ask him, rubbing his belly in the process.

He blushes.

We walk into the shower hand in hand. We have sex in the shower. The kind of sex that makes me more excited about this unity, all the shyness that he had earlier disappears. After our shower, I lead him into the kitchen for breakfast.

’’What’s your poison?’’

He shrugs ’’Can I make breakfast?’’

I raise a brow ’’Are you tired of my cooking?’’

He shakes his head immediately ’’I just want to do something for you today.’’

I don’t know why he feels like he owes me something.

’’You don’t have to feel obligated.’’

’’I know, I just want to do this.’’

I smile.

I give my baby whatever he wants. He wants to cook for me even though he is the one most likely eating most of the food. I will give it to him.

’’Everything’s in the fridge and the pantry is stocked,’’ I wink at him and sit down on the stool. He jumps up and walks over to me. his arms wrap around me and I pull him closer, inhaling his aromatic scent into my nostrils.

’’What’s your favourite food?’’ he bats his lashes, still in my arms.

’’You?’’ I bite his earlobe softly. He buries himself deeper in my arms obviously embarrassed by my answer.

’’Stop,’’ he hits my chest softly.

I grin as he watches me again ’’Tell me, I want to make that for you.’’

I think back unsure of what to tell him. I have never been a food person. When I was human, I grew up in a poor household. We didn’t have much, so the only things we ate were bread and cabbage soup. I never fancied all that, but I had no choice.

Being a vampire, I don’t get the same satisfaction from eating, so I can’t really tell him that I have a favourite food.

’’Think of something. The first thing that comes to your head,’’ he urges me. I see the joy in his eyes, he really wants to do this for me. I cannot deny him this. I cant deny him anything.

’’Potatoes, anything that goes with potatoes is fine for me,’’ I tell him finally.

He jumps away from me. he opens the fridge and brings out the crate of eggs ’’Where do you keep your potatoes?’’ he asks excitedly.

He runs into the pantry and I hear him scouring around for the bag of potatoes. I hear the tone of the landline. I never use the landline, so this comes as a surprise to me. Somehow, I know it is either Eligio or Beau. We are supposed to report back to the community, but I want to stay in our bubble a little longer. I walk over to the living room and place the phone in my ear answering.

’’Where are you?’’ El’s voice comes into the phone.

’’Home.’’

He sighs ’’You were supposed to come back. Jules is examining them, making sure everything is okay. You should come back too. Make sure you didn’t royally fuck things up.’’

Eligio has little faith in me. I know I didn’t mess things up with Jabi. We are great right now.

Nothing is wrong.

I hear a crash in the kitchen, it is so loud that it catches me off guard. My heart thuds in my chest for fear that I have just been proved wrong. I end the call without even saying anything to Eligio and run into the kitchen. At first, I don’t see him. The frying pan he placed on the stove is on the floor, the carton of eggs too. I try to steady my breathing as I walk closer. I see him immediately. His eyes are open, the pupil hidden behind his socket. He is shaking, almost like he is having a seizure.

I go on my knees and try to hold onto him.

Spit comes out of his mouth, he becomes so pale, as pale as me.

I watch him, unsure of what to do.

’’Shit,’’ I exclaim, still holding him tightly.