Ch. 181..185: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 181-185

Chapter 181: Certain but confused

Rex.

"Why?’’ he raises a brow at my question. The suspicion is obvious in his eyes. He is wondering why I want to do this. I don’t even have the answer to his question.

"You asked him to stay. I thought I’d use this opportunity to welcome him to the family.’’ I smile nervously, hoping he doesn’t catch me in my lie. They are all going to the neighboring community today. I asked Gyles to join me tonight at the gathering. I still don’t know if it is a good idea but I want him to come with me.

He watches me. even I don’t believe my words. I like to keep to myself. I am not the forward type. The person that would invite someone somewhere. So now, I can understand why he won’t believe me "You sound suspicious, why?’’ he asks me.

I take a deep breath because I don’t know what to say to his questions. He keeps asking me why when I don’t even know myself "Do you think I should not have, just tell me and I will revoke my invitation,’’ I put it to him to make the decision. I don’t know why Beau asked Gyles to stay in the pack but he must have his reasons. If he doesn’t want me mingling with him, no matter how curious I am. I will take a step back. I mean, yesterday, I was so sure that Blue was my mate. Now I don’t even know again.

"This is not about me. I actually don’t think he is a threat to us. That’s why I suggested he stay. I just want to know why you are so curious about him.’’

I furrow my brows wanting to dismiss the thoughts he is having in his head "I am not curious. I just feel bad for him is all.’’

His brows are still quirked with curiosity "Are you sure about that?’’ he asks. I nod my head immediately, in hopes that he will dismiss this conversation completely "You would tell me if there was something up?"

I nod again.

I am not sure about anything yet. I don’t even know if blue is my mate. If he is, why am I feeling some type of way with Gyles? The whole thing is still a mystery to me; so, I don’t want to involve Beau yet, until I am one hundred percent sure.

"Great, so enjoy your party with Gyles. Just keep an eye on him. He might still be wobbly with everything."

I smile in contentment, glad that he actually agreed to this. It would be good for Gyles to go out of the community. Meet people. I don’t know why I am so excited.

I leave Beau and head in the direction of my room. Blue catches me off guard in the hallways of the house. His eyes light up when he sees me. They shine as bright as a diamond "Hey.’’

I look at him closely. Wanting to remember all his features while he is away for the weekend. He is dressed in black slacks and a plain white shirt. This is the fanciest anyone has ever been in the community. He has this manner about him that just screams class.

"Hi,’’

He stops walking once he gets to me "So we are leaving in a couple of minutes,’’ he buries his hands inside his pocket. I try to keep my eyes on his face but the top button of his shirt is loose. I can see his skin, it has me imagining all sorts of things. I wouldn’t mind seeing him naked.

Fuck, what the hell am I thinking.

I think the problem has to do with never having had sex. Maybe I just need to find someone. Anyone that would help me get rid of all this hunger within.

"Yeah,’’

He takes another step towards me. there is a faint smile on his face. He stops walking in front of me and cups my face again. Just like the last time. All the butterflies attack me. all the emotions that I want to explore with him pour out. I am not even thinking about Gyles at this moment. All I can focus on is him and all his glory "I want to pursue you. Do you feel this thing between us?’’ he breathes into my face, his breath hot and heavy.

I close my eyes because like I said earlier, it seems like I am sex-starved. If he chooses to kiss me. I will not push him away.

"I know you feel this too,’’ he continues. The sound of his voice melting my heart into goo. I feel it too. I want you to pursue me.

I say those words in my head. The cowardice part of me keeps the thoughts. I am too much of a coward to say that out loud.

"You know what this means?’’ he asks me.

I want to pull him away from me because we are in the middle of the halls. Anyone could walk out of their room and see us. I don’t want to be caught by Beau. Especially when I just denied everything to him. His hands slide down from my face and down my chest. I am dressed in a pair of very short, shorts and a tank top. I am very sure he can feel the pounding of my heart against my chest. There is no hiding how I feel. He can see—or rather feel right through.

"Rex, do you give me permission?’’

I open my eyes at his question. His eyes stare at me hungrily. I don’t know what he sees as he is watching me but it seems like we both have the same expressions on our faces. "Permission for what?’’ I stutter nervously. My voice is low, husky...sounds unlike I have ever heard before. These are the things he is doing to me.

"First," he slides his hand lower and around my waist. This is the closest I have ever been with anyone. This is a lot but it is also exciting. I feel the chills as he pulls me closer. I feel the butterflies dancing with joy "Permission to kiss you,’’ he finalizes at the same time my heart stops against my chest.

I am shocked at his directness. I didn’t expect him to be so direct, so soon. Fuck, I want him to kiss me. I wish he didn’t ask. I wish he just went ahead and smashed his lips to mine but now that he has asked. I don’t know how to answer him. The part of me that is terrified will fight this beautiful moment. He moves his hand around my waist. My shirt rides up just as I feel his hand on my skin. The goosebumps crawl all over my hands. It feels so good to have him touch me. I wish he never let’s go.

"Rex,’’ he calls my name. it sounds strained, almost like this is hard for him. Like this is some sort of torture.

"Mhmm,’’ I mutter, speechless at this moment.

The fact that we are still in the middle of the halls is at the back of my mind. I don’t even care that anyone could walk out and see this. All I want to do is kiss him. His fingers play around until he is on my chest through my shirt. I feel him brush against my nipple. This gets a moan out of my lips. I cover my mouth to hide the fact that I just moaned from just a touch but it is too late. There is a smile on his face—he is letting me know that he heard that. I hide my face in his chest from the embarrassment, but he is already pulling me back again to look at me.

"One kiss,’’ he pleads.

I nod my head slightly. This is the only way I will say yes. It is so subtle that I am almost sure he didn’t see it. "Thank you,’’ he manages, and in that second, his lips press to mine roughly. I didn’t expect him to be rough—or rather should say, I never expected to like a rough kiss because as he pushes me to the wall. The hit entices me. I only feel pleasure as his tongue slides into my mouth, as his hand roams around my body. I kiss him as hungry for him as he is for me and in that moment, in the split second, my life flashes right before my eyes. All the talks about finding your mate. How it will be. It all engulfs me completely.

I pull away from him and there is a smile on his face. A dreamy expression plastered. I can’t even stay in this beautiful trance because from my side-eye, I feel someone watching me. I look over Blue’s shoulders subtly and Gyles is there. In front of his room. His eyes are sad. I feel his pain.

Why do I care about his pain?

When I am so sure that Blue is my mate now.

Chapter 182: Just a kiss

Rex.

I thought about his expression all day. I couldn’t focus on anything but that look on his face. The majority of the pack had gone for the visit. I thought about what I would say to him when I saw him.

I have to explain kissing Blue. I mean, it is kinda weird. I wish I could be focused only on that kiss but it is like my mind is split into two. There is the part that is only thinking about Blue and then the other part that drifts to Gyles. I don’t even know what the fuck is going on. I mean, Blue is a way better bet than Gyles. Gyles is supposedly Cassius’s link. I mean, the guy literally spent his life trying to avenge his death. There is no way he is drifting towards me.

Right?

I walk into the supermarket as the worries take over my mind completely.

Looking around the chocolate aisle. I search around for the best kinds. He has tried snickers. I want him to try other ones. I mean, maybe this could be my truce to him. I don’t even know why I need a truce in the first place. I haven’t done anything. So why does it feel like I have?

I grab a couple of chocolate bars and go to the counter. Once I pay, I head back to the community. I can’t believe in the span of a week things are back to normal. I don’t have to look over my shoulders anymore. Thank the lord for Beau and Alanis. They are literally the ones that saved all of us.

Once in the community, I head over to Gyles room. The door is open. I know I should knock but I can see him from the little opening. He has a towel wrapped around his waist—looks like he just came out of the shower or something.

My hand rests on the handle of his door, as I stare at him like a creep. I know this is wrong. I wouldn’t like someone invading my privacy but I can’t take my eyes off him. I want to look away but I can’t. I watch him, still clutching the bag of chocolates as he grabs a pair of boxers from the bed. I hold my breath, almost like if I even as much as take a breath, he will hear me.

"You can come in you know,’’ I freeze at the sound of his voice.

Fuck.

He knew.

I open the door and he drops the towel to the floor. My eyes shift to him and all his glory. I can’t take my eyes off him. He is big, very impressive. Why am I staring at another man’s junk? Why do I want to keep staring?

"Are you ready?’’ he asks as he puts on his boxers.

"In about thirty minutes,’’ I tell him. He walks over to me with a nervous smile. He is not naked anymore but I am still ogling at his chest. God, Abs. beautiful and a gift from the deities. This is me, Rex the nerd, staring at this man like he is some delicious piece of meat. I don’t even know if he can sense the hunger emanating from me. he wouldn’t like the thoughts that are running around my mind. What will he think if he could see my mind and how I am thinking of how delicious he would taste against my tongue?

Fuck.

"I got you,’’ I cough nervously before I can finish my sentence. I raise the bag up and his eyes shift to it "Chocolates,’’ I stutter nervously. Feeling very stupid right now. What the hell is wrong with me. I was just kissing blue a couple of hours ago and now; all I want to do is lick all the water of Gyles’s body.

This is insane.

"Oh,’’ he mutters. I push the bag towards him and he grabs it gently. He opens the bag and pulls out a bar of Almond joy. The wrapper is blue. Not my best but he smiles "It has coconut in it. Do you like coconut?’’

He nods "Then you will like it,’’ I add.

His smile widens. He doesn’t seem upset. Almost like my kiss with Blue doesn’t matter to him. I mean, maybe it was all in my head. I could have imagined his expression. That could have been what I wanted. Maybe a part of me wanted him to be hurt by it, to be jealous. I don’t even know what I am thinking anymore.

He drops the bag on the floor gently and rips the chocolate wrapper off in a hurry. I smile as he puts the whole bar into his mouth. Watching him as he eats the chocolate quickly makes my heart race. I can’t believe I am excited that someone is eating. Does this make any sense at all?

"Mhmm..." He exhales as he licks the top part of his lips. My eyes stay fixed on his mouth. My breath already spiking up. I don’t think this is good for my health. He is affecting me in ways that I didn’t even think were possible. "it is really good,’’ he finishes it up and picks up the bag.

"I told you,’’ I manage with heavy breaths. This feels like an accomplishment. Like I have just won the lottery. It feels so good that I am the one that brought this smile to his face "There are others in there. You can use this opportunity to select your preferences."

He nods "Thanks a lot, Rex. This means a lot to me. you have no idea.’’

I smile "It’s not a big deal. I am glad to open up your palate to the finer things in life,’’ I mutter sarcastically. It is nice that we are talking about chocolate like it is some fancy food. This is just random and I love every second of it."

"Is Beau okay with me going with you?’’

I nod.

"great. I don’t even know how it will feel stepping out into the world again. My heart is still aching right now,’’ he confesses.

He is talking about Cassius. I know the guy still loves him. He basically lost the love of his life. The man that caused so much misery to our pack. He must still feel the pain. I completely understand his pain.

"You just have to take this one step at a time, there is no pressure.’’

He smiles "Okay. No pressure."

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"I am outside,’’ I breathe into the phone.

My car is parked outside Freida’s house. It has been a while since I have been here. Thinking about it, I have been out of the outside world for a while too. I can’t compare it to Gyles but it is kind of similar.

"I will be out in a second,’’ she informs me before hanging up.

I look at Gyles. He is dressed in one of Beau’s shirts. A black shirt and a pair of faded jeans. I mean. The guy didn’t have anything. Even clothes.

"So, Frieda is a friend from school. She is one of the good ones. I am sure you will feel comfortable with her.’’

He nods.

"What is going on with you and that guy I saw you with, in the halls?’’

I open my eyes wide from the shock of his words. I knew he saw us kiss. I mean, he was standing right there but I thought he would just ignore it and act like he didn’t see it.

"What?’’

He shrugs "Outside my room. The guy you were kissing.’’ He reminds me as if I have even been able to stop thinking about it. From my kiss with Blue, I am sure he is my mate. Or at least. He should be my mate but I have done my studies. I know what it is to find your mate. It should take over you. You shouldn’t be thinking about another guy and how you want to taste him.

I just knew my mating would not be the same.

Just give it to me that this kind of thing would happen.

"Is he your link?’’ he asks. I look at him, trying to see his reaction. A part of me wants him to feel sad. That I might already be taken.

Am I taken?

"We don’t call it links. That’s a vampire term.’’

He nods "Mate? Is he your mate?’’ he corrects himself.

I shrug even though I am pretty sure he is "I don’t know.’’

He furrows his brows "Why did you kiss him then?’’

Because there was a pull towards his direction because I wanted to kiss him. I would kiss him again If I got the chance. I want to kiss you too.

I have all those thoughts in my head but I don’t say them out loud. I don’t have the courage too. "It was just a kiss,’’ I go for that instead.

The worst thing I could’ve possibly said.

He smiles. "Would it be just a kiss If I do the same to you?’’ he asks.

I don’t know what the hell is going on.

Shit.

Chapter 183: Operation make babies

Beau.

The trip to the Greenspring community was long but once we get there, it makes it all worth it. It feels good to leave the community. The memories I have of the place are not that fond. All the deaths, all the killings but I am trying to make new memories with Lanis and the rest of the pack.

I am also looking into finding Fallon. He is basically a fugitive on the run. I need to find him because he needs to pay for his crimes. I doubt he will have any regrets for his actions. He is probably plotting against me as we speak.

"Moonlight Pack,’’ Walker walks over to us in the compound. He is dressed in a pair of shorts and nothing else. There is a wide smile on his face. We created a relationship with these people that was not there before Cassius.

"Hello Walker,’’ I greet him. He stops in front of me and leans forward until he is hugging me. he is a lot more excited than the last time I saw him. It makes a lot of sense—I mean, he came to the pack to help start a war. Now he is in his turf. The place he calls home. Of course, he would be happy.

I am happy being here. I don’t know why but it feels like a vacation. Lanis and I never really had a honeymoon. Fuck, I make it sound like we are married. I want to be married to him. That would be a dream come true. What is even stopping us?

I am in another man’s arms and all I can think about is how to wife my mate. Fuck, I have it bad.

You know I can hear your thoughts.

I pull apart from Walker and my eyes go to Lanis. He has a mischievous smile on his face. I am sure I have a guilty one on mine. I shrug and face walker again "Welcome to my humble abode,’’ he slaps my back roughly. This doesn’t deter me as I return his smile.

"Thank you for having us,’’ I mutter truthful. I am excited to be here. It feels like a vacation—even if it is not.

"Not as much as we are,’’ he leads us to a large building. The green springs pack is more technologically advanced than ours. Their community is bogger, the buildings are taller, more advanced than ours. I mean, this is the way we have always been. We didn’t want to conform to the outside world but seeing this community, it feels like we have made a mistake. There is no problem following the trends. I plan to change things in the pack.

He leads us into one of the larger buildings "So since you are my guests, you will stay in my house,’’ he stretches his hands out, showing us the place. My eyes dart around and I can’t help but be impressed. We have houses, theirs are just better. Even walking in, you feel the air conditioners as they hit you. The bright lights. The décor. Everything is just beautiful.

"We appreciate your hospitality,’’ Lanis speaks on my behalf. I came here with Lanis. Blue and uncle Jules joined us and a couple of other Alphas in the pack, including Olin.

Walker shows us all into our rooms, saving me and Lanis’s for last "So you freshen up and join us out in the field for the celebratory ceremony,’’ he tells us.

I nod with a smile until he leaves.

"So you want to marry me?’’ Lanis speaks up immediately the door is closed. I rest my forehead on the door from the embarrassment of it all. I feel him as he presses up against me "You should put a ring on it,’’ he breathes into my ear.

"You should learn a thing or two about privacy,’’ I tell him playfully.

He chuckles against me. I feel him, all of him as his body is on mine. I will always react this way to him. No matter how long we are together.

"you wanted me to hear you. I mean, you literally pulled me into that conversation in your head.’’

I didn’t do it intentionally but it seems like my wolf has a fucking mind of its own now. He did that shit intentionally.

"You think so,’’ I turn around swiftly which catches him off guard. He opens his eyes wide as I grab him by his waist till his legs are around me. "hey,’’ he echoes playfully.

My eyes stay on him because this was a way to get him to change the topic. I mean, I like that he is in my head but I also didn’t want him to hear that. There is no such thing as a marriage in the pack. once you are mated to someone, that is our own form of a marriage. I know I have already claimed him with my mark. Tilting his head, I see the mark. No matter his abilities. That mark will always be on him—almost like a permanent claim. I don’t know how it works with Vampires but if he wants a wedding. Fuck I will give him a wedding. Not just because he heard my thoughts.

"What were you saying?’’ I challenge him as I feel him harden against me.

He chuckles his cheeks red and his eyes shining in the darkness of the room. I haven’t even taken a look at the room. All my focus has been on him all through. this is how much power he has over me.

"You were saying we should get married; I was merely saying your thoughts out loud.’’ He sings happily.

My smile widens. "You want me as your husband so bad?’’ I raise a brow. Lifting him up even more. I turn him until he is against the door. We are having the lightest conversation ever. This is about marriage but there is no pressure. There is never pressure with him. Everything with him is easy.

"We will both be husbands,’’ he reminds me.

I laugh, tilting my head backwards, his hands go up to my hair and he uses his fingers to brush the strands out "What if I call you wifey?’’ I ask.

This time he laughs, a very hearty laugh. The sincerity is evident in his eyes. God, I love making him laugh "We are going to have babies, anyone. I mean, thinking about it. How is that going to even happen.’’ He creases his brows and I reach for his face, softening the lines on his forehead. He is talking about it, which means he has been thinking about it. I haven’t stop thinking about it. I need to ask Alby about it.

That dream still resonates within me. it felt more real than my reality. So, it has to be the future. There is no way it was a dream if we both felt it.

"You’re thinking about it right now,’’ he mutters and then closes his eyes "You are thinking about them,’’ he whispers. This feels like our own beautiful secret. I feel the craving, as his chest pounds against mine. I have never been surer about anything.

"Colin and Colm,’’ he adds. This is the first time he has said their names out loud. They are in our minds. Just visions that we could have concocted. He opens his eyes and there is a shine in them. He is happy.

I feed off his happiness and it is making me happy.

Slowly, he leans forward until his forehead is resting on mine "However this is going to happen. We will make it work,’’ he assures me determined.

I nod as he smashes his lips to mine. I kiss him back with as much energy I can muster. I don’t want to let go. I want to make our sons tonight. It might seem like the most impossible act, considering we are both men but I want to try. I want to plant my seed inside him, make is grow, make it possible.

"We should have sex,’’ he manages in between kisses.

I smile my lips an inch away from him. Leaving the light off, I carry him till we get to the large king-sized bed. His hands clutch unto me, I don’t even want to let him go, so I jump on the bed with him tightly on my grip. This gets a laugh out of him as he pulls my shirt over my head. He smiles into my mouth as I taste him deeply. Our hands dance all over our bodies. He grinds into me roughly. It almost feels like he wants this to go quickly. He feels the same way.

Our bodies presses together, with no room for foreplay as I pound into him. The part of his body that is mine and mine alone. He moans as I go deeper, feeling all of him.

This feels different than all the other times.

I know he feels it too.

Operation make two babies is on the way.Chapter 184: Do you feel the same?

Rex.

"What?" I stutter in shock at his words.

He is watching me. after saying something so outrageous. There is no look of shame in his words. why would he suggest kissing me? does he feel something for me?

"Just joking,’’ he smiles.

I am still in shock that he even suggested it but the best approach is acting like it doesn’t affect me. If he thinks it does, he might think I have feelings for him. Gyles doesn’t like me. he doesn’t even feel anything for him. This is just him trying to figure out what he is going to do. The love of his life just died. He has no time for anything else.

Fuck, why am I thinking about this?

Blue is my mate.

I confirmed it with the kiss.

He said he was going to come back to make me his. That is the plan. I shouldn’t deter from that. I am an omega. Even though blue is a lone wolf just like his father, he is still an Alpha. I need an Alpha to survive. He is the best bet. At least I think he is. Gyles on the other hand comes with so much drama. He is a vampire and a wolf. A hybrid. Jabi is the only other hybrid I know. Gyles has a lot of drama with the Elis. He is not sure he wants to stay in the community but Blue would stay for me.

This should be a no-brainer but I feel like choosing Blue would be settling. My wolf is screaming for the two of them. Is it possible to have two mates?

Does that even make any sense?

"Oh,’’ I manage disappointed that we are not making out right now.

He smiles and I look away from him because his smile is blinding. Holy shit, it makes my heart race. Freida takes this moment to come out of her house. She said she was going to take a second but being in this car alone with him feels like an eternity. Somehow, he found a way to slow down time or rather stop time.

"Hey.’’ She screams hitting my side of the window.

I get down from my car and she hugs me immediately "it feels like a year since I last saw you T-Rex,’’ she manages in my arms.

I watch Gyles from the corner of my eye wanting to see if I will get jealousy out of him. I want him to hate her. feel like she is a threat.

I know that is far-fetched but he is messing with my mind. Making me crazy. "There is someone in your car,’’ she whispers into my ear. I smile because there is a smile on Gyles’s face. He can hear her.

"Yeah. He is a friend.’’ I tell her.

She pulls away from me and waves at him "he is fucking hot. Why are you always surrounded by hot guys?’’

I laugh. It is not my fault that I am an omega and I have to be surrounded by Alphas to fucking survive.

"Is he single?’’ she asks. Suddenly the jealousy that I wanted springs up to my guts. I wanted him to be jealous but just thinking about Fry and Gyles is sending me into a rage.

"He is not dating anyone right now,’’ I tell her straightforward.

She furrows her brows. At this point, we are just gossiping about the guy when he can literally hear us.

"Why?’’

She seems interested in him but in any world, Freida is not his type. Gyles wouldn’t be with a girl like her. okay, that is the meanest thought I have ever had. There is nothing wrong with her. she is my friend. She is beautiful with black curly hair and grey eyes. She is petite, easy to carry, and as pale as snow. To a vampire, that must be a dream classification in a girl. He will be lucky to have someone like her but I don’t want that.

Thinking about it is making me boil.

"He is just not Fry. Please don’t hit on my friend,’’ I pull away from her completely and she chuckles.

"It seems like YOU have a thing for him.’’

I freeze at her accusations. Quickly, I look in his direction. He is still smiling; I know he is waiting for an answer. He wants to know if I actually like him.

There is no way I am confessing to that.

Especially when I am not sure that I actually do.

"Get in the car, let’s go.’’ I ignore her and enter the car. This gets a laugh out of her. Freida likes riling me up.

She enters the back seat and I watch her as she leans in between the two seats "hey T-Rex’s friend.’’ She stretches her hand out for a handshake but there is only confusion on his face.

"T-Rex?’’

I smile.

He is so innocent.

"T-Rex is a nickname,’’ I explain and with that, he takes her hand in his. A smile sprawling on his face.

"What is your name, pretty lady?’’ he asks her, I can swear he is being seductive right now. Holy hell. Why is this getting to me as much as it is?

I watch Freida as her cheeks redden. She is totally blushing because of him. I don’t think I can handle anything happening between them. "I am Freida,’’ she tells him.

They are still holding hands.

Fucking let go.

Gyles looks away from her and for a second it feels like he heard me because he lets go of her hand immediately. the relief I feel from that is scary to me. I don’t want to care. I want him to move on from Cassius and be happy but I don’t want him to move on too.

What the fuck is going on with me?

We get to Hudson’s house in less than fifteen minutes and the whole car ride was awkward for me. I have so many regrets and they involve bringing him to this thing. I should have kept him hidden from the world. He and Freida are hitting it off. He likes her. she is easy to talk to and it feels like before the night ends, I will be alone.

I don’t want to be abandoned by him.

I want him to stay by my side all night but I also know that is not possible.

Freida is the first person to get out of the car. She whispers to me that she would be inside, giving Gyles a flirty smile. I roll my eyes because of everything that has happened inside this car tonight. I can tell that she likes him. It might just be an attraction—maybe the exact same thing I am going through. I see Gyles and I want to devour him. Is that even a good thing? It is not like I know him.

He is basically a stranger to me but all I want to do is change that. I want to get to know him. What he likes, what makes him tick, how great of a kisser he is.

What about Blue?

The voice in my head asks. He is on my mind. After our kiss, he never left but it feels like I feel an equal amount of emotions for the both of them. Does that even make any sense? To an outsider, I might look greedy but this is not me. there is a pull. With both of them. Blue is not here right now. Gyles is the only one I see. I want him so badly.

"Why am I nervous to go inside with you guys,’’ he mutters shakingly.

I get out of my head because thinking about how much I want him is selfish at this moment. I have to focus on him. This is his first outing in God knows how long. He needs to get through this without causing a scene. I have to be there for him.

"Well there is nothing to be nervous about,’’ I try to assure him even though highschool in itself is nerve-wracking.

He smiles warmly "you seem nervous too,’’ he counterattacks.

I am not nervous about the gathering. This is not a typical high school party like the ones I used to go with Beau. This is full of nerds. In the mix of nerds, I am popular. They see me as one of them and also an outsider. So it usually helps me.

"Your hands are shaking,’’ he points out at the same time reaching for my hand on my knee. I stiffen against his touch because that was unexpected but the moment he touch registers within. I feel it all. I feel the butterflies. I feel the tension. Everything that could make this situation a lot more complicated.

His eyes bore into mine. There is a faint smile on his face but in this empty car, with the silence between us. I hear everything from his heavy breathing to his heart racing.

I know what I feel.

Does he feel this too?

Chapter 185: I like you.

Gyles.

His eyes are captivating and just thinking that makes me feel guilty.

He is watching me, waiting for me to say something and all I can think about is him kissing that guy at the house. I don’t know any of these people. They are all strangers to me. granted, they took me and, they agreed to let me stay but I don’t know if I really long here. I see the look they give me. Rogers is someone they hate. they will always remember him when they look at me and I don’t blame them.

They have every right to.

I heard all the things he did.

All the people he killed.

Because of me.

"We should go in,’’ he coughs out nervously.

I don’t know what is going on but I am taking a liking to him. Rex is not someone I would’ve noticed. He is not someone that is all out in anyone’s face but I see him. I see him even though he is not in the spotlight.

"Sure,’’ I open the car door and walk out of it. He gets down and comes beside me. he is so close to me. I can feel the heat of his body. Not that I am complaining. We walk side by side until we get into the house. He seems very nervous. I mean, it might have been my fault; after all, I am the one that talked about that kiss.

I don’t even know why I asked. I saw him kissing that guy, the man I don’t even know and jealousy stirred inside me. I wanted to rip them apart. Fuck, I have never felt this kind of anger towards someone I don’t even know.

It is too early to feel this way about Rex. Roger just died in my arms. I lost him and now I am reflecting. Maybe, trying to move on. This time, it feels like it is out of my control—whatever is going on is uncontrollable. Almost like there is someone else inside of me. tugging at my heartstrings.

"If it isn’t Rex west,’’ someone walks over to us. His smile is wide and there is somewhat of a surprised look on his face. I don’t know how to react to this scenery. There are about ten people in this room. They all seem too engrossed in different conversations. I catch Freida’s eye in the corner. She waves at me and walks over to us hurriedly.

"Devon Mills,’’ Rex breathes out. I sense a little hostility.

Are they friends?

Is this what people call a party?

It doesn’t seem like it is.

My breath spikes up as two more people walk over to us. All I can smell is blood. It is very strong. I don’t know how to control this in this room full of bloody humans. Maybe it was a bad idea to come here. "What brings you here?’’ the same guy asks him.

Freida speaks up "You knew he was going to be here, Jerk,’’ she rolls her eyes but I can’t even focus. Something is going incise me. a battle that I don’t think I can control.

I fold my hands into fists. I hope they haven’t noticed anything. I want to prove that I can handle the real world. This would be a test to see how I would fare. Shit. The last time I was conscious, I was just a newly turned vampire. I never really got used to handling the human scent. Surrounded by the wolves. It wasn’t as difficult as this moment.

Rex turns slowly and for a second, he knows something is up,’’ You okay?’’ he whispers and the hush of his voice travels down my neck, distracting me.

I close my eyes but manage a nod "You even brought a friend,’’ I open my eyes again and that same guy—Devon, is still talking. I already know I don’t like him. He is dressed in black pants and a white shite, which is buttoned to the top. He looks pretty stupid to me. he has glasses on his face. They are big and horn-rimmed.

Not like the kind rex has. Rex’s own is pretty adorable, unlike this person.

"I didn’t know I wasn’t allowed to bring someone,’’ Rex pipes up in my defense.

Suddenly I feel bad for coming. I don’t actually belong here. I am some loser that doesn’t even remember anything before last week. I have no one. Fuck, I don’t even know who I am. Maybe the best thing would have been to die with Roger.

"More losers to the mix.’’

"shut up dude. This isn’t even your house, so you don’t have a say in who comes," Freida grunted, suddenly, she has her hand around my arm and she is pulling me away "Come on Gyles. We shouldn’t even be answering Devon,’’ she tells me like I even know anything. I let her drag me away from the crowd and to a corner of the room. My eyes stop on Rex, he is standing with the crowd, probably unsure of what to do.

"Don’t mind him, Devon is a hater,’’ she tells me, not as if I care about Devon.

"Thanks, but I don’t think I needed you to defend me like that. It was not a big deal.’’

She giggles batting her lashes. I swear, she is flirting with me. The question is why? Right now, I am in a battle with my mind. All I can think about is blood and all the blood surrounding me.

"Do you want something to drink?’’ she asks me.

I look around and everyone has red cups in their grips. This is a party after all. A party with only like ten people.

"Sure.’’

She beams brightly, something other than excitement in her eyes "I will be right back,’’ she pats my shoulder softly before walking away from me. I watch her stop by rex and whisper something in his ear. He looks at me immediately, suddenly I wished I focused on what she was saying. I can still feel rex’s gaze on me. He hasn’t stopped looking at me. why won’t he just come back and talk to me?

I manage a faint smile. When I focus on him, I am able to block out the hunger inside me.

His eyes catch mine and I hold my breath from the expression on his face. I have never seen anyone as beautiful as him. His eyes are bright and blue. They shouldn’t go with his red hair. It is not something that should blend well but on him, it looks perfect. All his features are soft and gentle. The kindness in his eyes, the taut and pink lips that carry all his emotions. His button-like nose. The freckles on his face that look like art carved to accentuate his eyes. Even behind those glasses, I see it all clearly.

"Here you go,’’ I force my eyes away from him as Freida comes back with a cup just like everyone here.

"Thank you.’’

She smiles suddenly blocking rex from my view. Why the hell am I stuck with her? I didn’t come here to make friends. Is that why he brought me to this party?

"T-rex mentioned that you are staying at his place. Are you like related?’’

I raise a brow "Related in what way?’’ I ask unsure of what she means by that. Does she know who Rex really is? Or is she just a friend out of the loop?

"Like a distant cousin or something, he didn’t mention though. Just wondering,’’ she takes a sip of her drink and a little spill down her chin to the top of her chest. I reach for her—call it reflex, I don’t know, and wipe the rest off of her face. She stiffens against my touch.

"Thanks.’’

Touching her must have been a big deal from the expression on her face "So you didn’t answer my question,’’

I furrow my brow. I am really not following her conversation. My eyes find their way back to Rex. he is still watching us. Why the hell isn’t her here with me? I see him but he feels so far away from me.

"What question?’’

She giggles again. She seems to giggle a lot. Why does it bother me as much as it does? She seems like a nice person. It would be good to mingle and makes friends but with all the blood available to me here—distracting me. calling out to me, I can’t really focus on friends.

"Are you related?’’

I shake my head "excuse me for a minute. I need a bathroom,’’ I tell her, not even waiting for a response. I don’t need a bathroom. I just need an escape from this place. Once outside through a back door in the house, the night sky and fresh air hit me, somehow calming my nerves. This was a mistake, coming to this thing. I am not prepared.

It is all too soon.

Why am I desperate to forget it all?

Move on from Cassius.

"Hey,’’ I turn around and Rex is on the steps. He has a worried expression on his face "Too much?’’ he asks.

I nod immediately.

He walks closer to me.

"Do you want to leave?’’

I shake my head "Do you?’’ I retort. He brought me here, it will be unfair to pull him out of this outing.

"Makes no difference to me,’’ he shrugs nonchalantly.

"Freida seems to like you,’’ he tells me.

I frown "I don’t like her.’’

The only person I have focused on tonight is him. The pull is immense. I don’t know if I will be able to deny it any further.

"Oh,’’

He sounds disappointed. Did he want me to like her?

Is that why he brought me here?

"I like you.’’ I decide because he is the only person, I have taken a fancy to. His eyes open wide, he is shocked at my confession.

I don’t regret it.