Ch. 191..195: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 191-195

Chapter 191: The silent claim

Gyles.

I didn’t ever think I would find someone else that would make me feel the things Rex is. It hasn’t been a long time but I am glad to have all these feelings back. he seems to think I am his mate.

I tried to explain to him that this is not what he thinks. I chose Roger and now my body or should I say, my heart is choosing him. He makes me feel giddy and excited to be alive. Does that make him my mate, or should I say my link? I was never one to believe in all those things. I don’t know anything about my past anymore.

It was all a lie. The vampires that I thought were my real family apparently took me from my real family. Apparently, I am a wolf. From the visions I had with Roger, that is deep in my memories. I don’t want to remember all that happened before now because thinking about it hurts. It hurts so much that I don’t even want to remember. It is better if it remains in the past. I was locked up to the point where I lost my mind. I couldn’t speak, I couldn’t respond to anything all those years.

It is like a time stop.

My mind just completely stopped.

I am back now and I promised Roger I will live my life. I will find the happiness that we were supposed to have. I don’t know if it is with Rex but for now, he makes me really happy. He completely understands me and that judgment that I thought I would get from the people of the pack; I don’t get it from him.

He seems like the sincerest person in this pack. just talking to him, I can tell he is innocent. The kind of person that will say things as they are. No sugarcoating. "Are you hungry?’’ he asks me. we have been in each other’s arms all morning. I didn’t even want to leave his room. I still don’t want to. Yeah, we had a lot of make-out sessions but it is more than that now. talking to him is easy. I like it a lot and he seems to like it too.

"For food?’’ I ask him.

He lets go of me and suddenly, the bed seems empty. I don’t mind spending the rest of the day, like this.

Fuck, I have it bad.

Mine.

That voice in my head screams out to me. I have been ignoring it all through yesterday. The fact that I want him badly just keeps resonating inside of me. that is the only explanation for that scary voice. it seems like another part of me. something that I have never experienced.

"It could be anything. I want meat, what about you?’’ he smiles at me. We are both shirtless, so my eyes find their way to his chest. That delicious chest. I want a taste so badly. I lean forward until my face is just above his left breast. He watches me, with that smile that he has around me.

"Can I be hungry for you?’’ I take his nipple in between my lips and this gets a gasp out of him. I am pretty sure he didn’t expect that. Like I thought, he tastes delicious.

I want more.

That voice shouts to me.

Fucking controlling.

I push him back to the bed and climb on top of him. My mouth still sucking his chest "I mean food, Gyles,’’ he breathes out. His voice is husky. I haven’t even done anything to him and he sounds like this.

Jeez.

’’I want to eat you. Please let me have a taste.’’

He said we couldn’t have sex; all I want to do is take control of his body and I can’t even do that. I wish he would just give in to me already. At this point, I am just licking him all over. This is just torture for me, but he seems to like it because I feel him harden against me.

"We need food, I haven’t had anything to eat all day." He manages, at the same time grabbing my hair in his fists.

He is telling me to back off but his body is begging me to have him. I have to listen to his words because the sound of his voice is making me weak. Begrudgingly, I pull away from him, going back to my side of the bed. It feels weird saying my side of the bed but it already feels like my side of the bed.

"Let me get us lunch, then we can continue this,’’

My heartbeat spikes from his words "We can have sex?’’ I ask, hopeful.

He laughs "I told you no. What if,’’ he brings up the whole mating stuff. The one thing I don’t want.

"Why did you lift my hopes up. I thought you were finally giving in to me." I groan like a kid that just lost their toy. I don’t know if I will be able to resist him. In just one weekend, we have become so close. I know there is another guy in the picture. This one might be his real mate, but I plan to show him that he could choose. He doesn’t have to listen to the deities. He doesn’t have to follow the rules of the goddess of the moon as they call her. he can make his own decisions. He can choose me.

We would be happy together.

At least I will make him as happy as I can.

"I am sorry,’’ he crawls over to me until he is on top of me again. His arms wrap around my neck and I close my eyes as I register his scent in my memory. He smells like strawberries, my favorite fruit, and some unfamiliar smell that is unknown to me.

"You are forgiven,’’ I smile as he presses his lips to mine.

We are already acting like a couple. Does he need a ritual to even make this complete? We could make this thing perfect.

"So, what are you feeling like? Meat or blood?’’ he asks.

I shrug, I haven’t been hungry for blood since our kiss. I don’t know, it seems weird to me but I don’t even want to think about it. I finished all the chocolates he got me last night. I completely devoured them, as if I have never eaten before. Maybe I should try eating food.

"Meat sounds fine,’’

He raises a brow "Cooked or raw. I am not feeling up to raw today.’’ He informs me. I don’t even know if I will like raw meat. I think I need to find out today.

"I don’t mind raw. I mean I should start getting used to that part of me. see if it will bring anything out."

He smiles and jumps off me, not bothering with his shirt. "I will be back,’’ he blows a kiss to me and I can’t help but smile. He is so fucking cute.

I lie back on the bed and look up at the ceiling. For the first time since Roger died. I feel at peace. I feel genuinely happy.

I hear a vibration on the table, slowly turning to it. I see his phone. I don’t know what compels me but I pick it up. Blue’s name shows on the screen. I know who he is. This is the mate. The guy that could potentially ruin this thing we have. I shouldn’t answer the call but I want to. Something in me pulls me to.

The minute I press the green button, I hear his breathing through the phone. My heart beats against my chest.

"Hello,’’ I manage.

He would recognize Rex. there is no way he wouldn’t know that this is not him. Before his words, I am already expecting it.

"Who is this,’’ the minute I hear his voice. some ache within me takes over. That voice attacks me instantly. I try to hold the phone in my grip tighter but there is something that I can’t even explain that devours me. his voice is the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. His voice sounds like a thousand angels singing. Like feathers in my ear. It does something to my soul. It attacks me.

Takes over me.

"Hello,’’ I hear the voice again. The pull is undeniable.

The voice in my head screams at me angrily.

Mine.

those words again.

A silent claim, that I can’t even control.

I drop the phone to the bed and the call ends. My heart is still beating, as I rest my back on the bed. I don’t even know what is happening. Why I just responded to a mealy hello in that manner.

This is blue.

The guy that has Rex’s heart.

This is the mate.

So why the fuck do I want to get to know him. Why do I want him to whisper sweet nothings into my ear?

What the hell is happening?

Chapter 192: The delicious meal

Rex.

When I walk into the room, Gyles has a weird expression on his face. I see my phone on the bed next to him. I didn’t keep it there when I left. I drop the tray on the table next to the bed. It is almost like he hasn’t noticed me.

He is just staring into space. His eyes are open but it feels like he is not really here. I start to worry because I remember what Beau told me about him. he said I should check on him. make sure he is alright. He doesn’t look alright right now.

"Hey, you okay?’’ I ask him.

He jumps up from the bed the minute I touch him. his hands are shaking. What happened when I left him.

"Uh..." he breathes out. His eyes shift to me as he gets up from the bed "I need some fresh air,’’ he tells me, walking in the direction of the door.

I look at him and then at the tray of the food "What happened? We were going to eat lunch.’’ I remind him.

He runs his hands through his hair, he is still trembling. It seems like something terrified him but it doesn’t seem like he is going to tell me what it is.

"I am not hungry anymore.’’

I nod because there is no point in putting pressure on him. if he doesn’t want to eat, then it is not a big deal "Will you come back?’’ I ask him hopefully.

He walks over to me and grabs my hands in his. "I will be back, our weekend isn’t over.’’ He smiles at me. somehow wiping all the fear in his eyes and replacing it with that smile. The one that shows in his eyes.

"Okay,’’ he leans forward and presses his lips on mine. I close my eyes in hopes that that kiss lasts for a while but his lips are away from mine just as they started. "I gotta go now,’’ he tells me as he walks out of the room.

I look at the door as he closes It, my heart longing for him again. I wish he didn’t have to leave. I wish he stayed with me. I walk over to the bed and grab my phone. I haven’t heard from Blue since our last message. The minute I grab the phone, it blares loudly ringing. It is a call from Blue. A smile springs up to my face when I see his name.

"Hello,’’ I answer the call immediately, the smile still stays on my face.

’’I was worried for a second,’’ he says into the phone. My heart thuds, I like that he is worried but why is he worried?

"Did something happen?’’ I ask, still freaking smiling into the phone. If he could see me right now, he will think I was lame.

"I called earlier. Someone answered the phone.’’

I stiffen from his words. Gyles answered my phone? Is that why he was acting weird before he left?

Did he feel guilty?

"Oh, just someone from the pack,’’ I answer him even though I feel guilty right now. what I am doing suddenly seems real at this moment. I am two-timing if I can call it that. Leading two guys on at the same time.

I need to figure this whole thing out before it gets out of control.

"Okay, do I know this person?’’ he asks.

It is like the more I answer his questions, he has more follow-up questions to those questions. I don’t know if I can keep lying. I hate the fact that I have to keep this to myself. Gosh, it is so hard. I thought when I found my mate, it would be the easiest thing I would go through but this is very stressful. Having feelings for two people is not the easiest thing to have to go through.

"Not really,’’ I tell him trying to change the topic. I just want to talk to him, hear his voice, know how his weekend has been.

"Okay." He pauses "I miss you so much,’’ he adds. My heart races against my chest. I miss him too.

"I miss you too,’’ I manage.

I hear his breathing through the phone, the sound is soothing. I start to imagine him next to me, in bed. His arms around me. I imagine closing my eyes and drifting off the sound of his breathing.

"How has your weekend been?"

I think about Gyles. All the time we spent together.

Fuck, I am thinking about him while talking to Blue. This is not good. Very soon, I will not be able to separate the two of them.

Do I even have to separate the two of them? How will this thing work? Do I date two of them separately?

"Hello.’’

I snap out of my trance, I forgot to reply to him. this is not good. I am not good at this. maybe I should tell Blue the truth. I mean, he will understand. It is not like it is in my control. I didn’t choose to be attracted to the two of them.

My wolf did.

"Sorry, I was just about to eat," I explain. "My weekend has been interesting,’’ I tell him. at least that is not a lie. I mean, finding out that Gyles is also my mate has been interesting.

"Oh, I just ate too.’’

I smile.

"Cool.’’

Our conversation is easy. Talking to Blue is easy. He makes me feel calm. Like I am in his trance and nothing can get me out of it. the door opens suddenly and Gyles walk into my room. He didn’t even knock. I look at him, his eyes are dark as he stops in front of me. the phone is still pressed to my ear. I mouth the word phone to him but he doesn’t retreat. He grabs my waist around his large hands. My heart races in my chest.

Fuck.

I need to control the situation.

"I want to feel you,’’ he whispers into my other ear.

At this point, my chest is pounding. I don’t know how to control this. "Stop," I plead with him as he leans to the crook of my neck and starts to place soft kisses on me. I close my eyes, trying to steady my breath. This is hard. This is so hard.

Gyles’s hands are still around my waist. My phone is still on my ear "Beau knows about us,’’ blue informs me.

I open my eyes immediately but the second I feel Gyles’s tongue on me, they go back to being closed. "Oh, how?’’ I manage. It is very hard to focus on a conversation while being devoured. A moan escapes my lips as he bites into my flesh. Chills run down my spine.

"He just figured it out when I told him I wanted to stay?’’

If Beau knows, he will try to talk to me about it. try to rush this mating ceremony as soon as possible. Gyles pushes me till my back is up against the wall and his hands slide up to my chest. I rest my head on the wall, trying to focus on the conversation with Blue. This is very hard. The reality of it all just dawns on me.

"It’ll be fine. You don’t have to worry about anything. I told him to keep this lowkey. I want to get to know you first. I want to court you properly.’’

Court me?

Gyles moves away from me the same time those words leave Blue’s lips. He goes on his knees, his eyes never leaving mine. The ropes of my shorts that he tugged at the last time are loose. I grab his hand as he tries to pull my shorts off.

"No,’’ I mouth those words, shaking my head.

He smiles "This is not sex, I just want a taste,’’ the desperation gnaws out of his eyes. I am desperate too. I want to know what it will feel like.

"You seem distracted. How is the food?’’ Blue asks.

I look at Gyles on his knees. His eyes are staring deep into mine. His face is red. He looks delicious right now. in a minute, he succeeds in getting my shorts off. My dick is hard and begging. He looks away from me and to my dick and I watch him, listening to the sounds of Blue’s breathing. I think about both of them naked, in bed with me. I think about them both fighting for a taste. It makes me even harder.

Gyles smiles one last time before taking me into his mouth. A silent cry leaves my lips. I cover my mouth to block the sounds out. "I guess I am disturbing your delicious meal,’’ Blue decides.

I shake my head "No, you’re not. You should be here eating with me."

My wolf is screaming.

My wolf wants the two of them.

I imagine them both in this.

Fuck.

 

Chapter 193: Can you choose me?

Gyles.

What the fuck am I doing?

Why am I messing with him?

Why does it feel like I am losing my fucking mind all over again?

The past comes crawling in. those times in the basement. The loneliness. They all come crawling in. bits and pieces that I tried to forget. What really happened after I was kidnapped.

"Fuck,’’ I shout out to the sky.

I ran out of his room. I still don’t understand how I felt when I heard Blue’s voice or why I even felt anything in the first place.

Maybe because he is yours.

That fucking voice in my head screams. I look up at the sky; I don’t know what is going on. Everything is happening too fast. All these emotions, feelings that I have never felt in all my life. It wasn’t even like this with Roger. There was no confusion, no fear of loss. Now all I feel are those things.

"Get your shit together Gyles." I scold myself. That is a thing I do. I am the only one that can tell myself what to do. I only listen to myself.

I run my hands through my hair, pacing back and forth in front of the house. I left to clear my head but it feels like the fog just intensified. I want to be back in that room with him.

Them.

That fucking voice again.

I keep hearing that voice. I want to push it out. I want to fucking get it out of my head. What is even that voice?

Why is it pushing me to do things that I don’t want to do?

Maybe you should listen to me.

The voice shouts at me.

I close my eyes. It gets worse. I feel another person inside me. almost like coming to this pack awakened something inside of me.

You are a wolf.

You are me.

"Fuck,’’ I cry out.

I need Rex. I need to be in his arms.

You should go be in his arms. He is your mate after all.

This fucking voice. I wish it would just get out of my head. He must know by now that I answered his call. Would he be upset? I don’t want to do anything that will upset him. I like where we are. This weekend bubble that we have been in. They will all be back tomorrow. I wouldn’t get the chance to be alone with him.

Fuck.

I need to be with him.

I run back into the house and in the direction of his room. Once in front of his door, I take a deep breath as I open the door. He is standing close to his bed; his phone is pressed to his ear. He is on the phone with Blue.

Blue.

What a beautiful name.

My favorite color.

I shouldn’t be thinking about Blue. I don’t even know him. the person I know is standing right in front of me. He is so beautiful. He is perfect. I walk over to him; he mouths the word phone. I don’t fucking care. I just want to feel him. Remember why he is perfect for me. I don’t want to think about that voice. I don’t want to think about the insane thoughts that are running through my mind. I try to block out the sound of his voice. I can hear Blue through the phone. Almost like my abilities are choosing to work perfectly at this moment. I grab him because all I want to do is taste him. all I want to do is feel all of him and he said we can’t have sex. It is unfair that I have to try and control myself when all I want to do is be inside him.

Fuck.

I eavesdrop on their conversation as I lay kisses all over his neck. Rex is trying to stay strong but I feel him weak in the knees. I push him until his back hits the wall hard. I shouldn’t handle him roughly. He is delicate, like a beautiful flower. He is my flower. At this moment, I am trying to control myself. Which is a lot harder than I thought. He is shirtless. His rosy skin is calling out to me. I move away from his neck to his chest. My hand is all over him. there are goosebumps on my skin. I feel the softness of his. Almost like he hasn’t worked a day in his life. I will gladly do all his work for the rest of our life.

Shit.

I am thinking about the future.

I close my eyes for a second as I grab his nipple into my mouth. It hardens immediately as his breath spikes up. I am surprised Blue hasn’t noticed anything weird.

Now I am thinking about him again.

Blue.

I feel his dick against me, he is as hard as a fucking rock. Not like there is anything different with me. I like that I make him hard. I like that he responds to me well.

My mate.

I ignore the voice even though this is the loudest it has ever been. I don’t want to think about that right now. I want to focus on tasting him. I go on my knees, not taking my eyes off him. He opens his eyes wide, probably shocked by my action. I keep my eyes on him as I pull his shorts off.

Now he is naked in front of me.

This is what I wanted when I came back into the room. He shakes his head immediately almost warding me off him but it is too late. We have come too far already. "This is not sex. I just want a taste."

I give him the best assurance that I can. I don’t know if I will be able to control myself all through the end of this but I want to try my best not to make him regret this. I just want to show him all the things he could get from this. I want to know how he tastes. I am sure he will be as delicious as he looks. I take him into my mouth and his dick throbs against me. I feel it get even harder if that is even possible.

He ends the call with Blue and I am happy that he chose me. I am happy that he is here with me and not him. even if it just for the weekend.

His breath spikes as I take all of him deeper into my mouth. I feel him in my throat. He trickles and turns me on. I love the way he tastes. Just as I expected. Sweet with a little bit of salt. My favorite kind of treat. I don’t think I can go back from him. He grabs my hair in his grip and it is hard. The strands of my hair feel tugged at. This is already intense. So, when I bob my head up and down, he responds even louder. I don’t know how many people live in this house but right now, it seems like we are the only ones in the house. I haven’t bumped into anyone all weekend, which means he can scream as loud as he wants.

No one will be able to hear him.

This gets me excited and I move faster, feeling him shake and shiver against me. we keep at it; I don’t want to stop. I like giving him this pleasure. I want this moment to last forever.

God, I don’t want this to be a moment. I don’t want this to be for the weekend. I want this to be permanent.

I want him to want me.

The moment I feel him stiffen, I pull into him even deeper, this gets a louder scream from him and I feel him spill into my mouth. He falls to his knees at the same time I swallow all of him. he is drenched in sweat. His breath is heavy and hot as he rests his head on my chest. He is still shaking.

I like that I did this to him.

"Wow,’’ he breathes out shakily.

I look at him, slowly wiping the sweat from his forehead. His eyes are still closed. I just made him climax. It feels like the greatest accomplishment of my life. I am glad that Blue is not in my mind anymore. Doing that with Rex just made me realize just how much I want this with him.

"You have to choose me,’’ I blurt out the thoughts in my head.

He opens his eyes immediately, confusion and maybe shock on his face "What?’’ he asks nervously.

I sit up properly on the floor "Can you choose me?’’ I rephrase my sentence. I don’t want to demand; I want to ask him to.

Blue is the major contender but I wish it could be me. with me, he doesn’t have to conform to the deities. He doesn’t have to do the whole mating shebang. He can just be with me.

"That’s not how this works Gyles. I can’t just choose you."

"Why not? You said I am your mate.’’

He nods "I think you both are. Somehow, my wolf is calling out to the both of you.’’

I shake my head "I don’t want to share you. I want you to choose.’’

He sighs. I already know his answer before he even says anything and maybe all this is in my head if it is so difficult for him to make a decision.

Maybe this is all me.

Chapter 194: Everything is perfect

Rex.

"This was the best weekend of my life,’’ Gyles breathes out, pulling me closer in his arms.

As the sun sets, it is a reminder that the day is over and our bubble is about to burst. I don’t know what time Beau and rest of the pack plan on coming but I don’t want us to be caught in our bubble. I don’t want to have to explain anything to everyone, especially now that Beau already knows about me and Blue.

He hasn’t called me to talk about it and I am glad because I don’t want to start explaining things to him. I don’t even know what is going. I don’t understand all the feelings going around my insides.

"This is not over..." I look at him. He has a weird expression on his face "Right?’’ I add in question.

He shakes his head "I don’t want it to. I need you in my life,’’ his words are comforting because I feel the same way. I need him, more than I ever imagined. In just a span of two days, he has become a very important part of my life. I can’t imagine waking up and he is not beside me. That is how important he is.

"We don’t have to stop this,’’ I tell him, nuzzling into his arms. He brushes the strands of my hair gently. That mere action sends shivers down my spine. We are in my bed, in each other’s arms and I just realized something. I and Gyles are perfect for each other. He gets me, he likes being with me. He genuinely makes me happy.

"What about your mate,’’ he ruins the bubble by asking.

The way he calls Blue my mate baffles me. He is so sure that he is not my mate. He believes this thing between us is all on us. I know that he is my mate. My wolf already claimed him—even if he wants to deny it. Blue is not the only one my heart beats for.

"You are my mate too."

He scoffs. "You seem so sure,’’ he points out.

I nod immediately "I know you feel this too. I know your wolf is crying for me too."

He might deny it but his heart is calling out to me. He feels it and I feel it too.

"I don’t want the pressure that comes with being your mate. I am not ready for that responsibility. All I know is that you make me happy. I like spending time with you but if you need to figure things out. You have Blue. I won’t be offended if you choose him.’’

He is saying all this to me but I don’t believe him. He seems to think he will be fine without me but I have read a lot about being rejected by your mate. I know how it will eat you up. I know the things that come with it. Even if he says he will be okay. His wolf won’t be okay. I don’t want to rush him because it is not like there is a timeline to this thing. He can take as much time as he needs to figure it all out. I will be here, waiting for him.

"I am not choosing anyone. I want you both,’’ I cry, desperate for him to see that this is bigger than us. This is more than just me or him. This about companionship and loyalty. Ever since I met Blue and Gyles, I have been feeling stronger. Even without Beau, I haven’t felt as weak as I used to. it just proves that Gyles is my mate. Blue hasn’t even been around all weekend.

He grabs my waist and carries me up until I am on top of him. There is a smile on his face, his dimples pierce at my soul. "Isn’t that a little greedy?’’

I chuckle "I thought about it too. My wolf must be greedy. Since he can’t settle for one person."

"This is not my fault.’’

He laughs, pressing his face into mine. I watch him as he slowly sniffs into me, inhaling for a couple of seconds "I don’t mind you being greedy. As long as you still want me,’’ he breathes even deeper.

I don’t find it weird that he just took a long whiff at me. In fact, it is a turn on.

"Do we have to tiptoe around everyone else?’’ he asks.

I pull away from him with raised brows "I want to tell Blue about this. I want to talk to Alby the elder. I need him to explain what is happening. I can’t be the first person to have two mates."

He nods "As I said, I want you to do what you feel is best, even if I don’t agree with it."

My legs are around him. There is a smile on his face as he looks up at me. What more could I ask for. I want to say that I hate the fact that my mating situation is different because it makes the whole thing problematic but Blue was my first mate. If I only had one mate. I wouldn’t have him and I am thrilled that he is mine.

"Do you want to spend the night here, with me?" I ask him, batting my lashes flirtingly. I have become a whole different person. Someone that flirts, someone that likes people. This is all new to me and the short time of it all still surprises me.

"Being in bed with you is a lot better than alone,’’ he mutters, even though I can sense the joy from my request "What if your people get back early?’’ he asks.

We haven’t decided what we are but I guess we are going to keep things hush until I am sure about it all. I just need more information. All the studying, the books and I have never come across anything like this.

"Sleeping on the same bed is not a big deal,’’ I assure him.

That is a lie. If Beau should see us in bed together, like this. He will suspect something. He can always tell when there is something going on with me and he will ask questions "No one will just barge into my room. We are fine,’’ I assure him.

He pulls me into him and I rest my head on his shoulder, breathing all of him "I never thought I would feel this way. Thank you for this.’’

I don’t know why I am thanking him, but I feel the need to. Almost like I want him to know he is appreciated. Gyles has been through a lot. I have only heard about the stories from people in the pack but from the stories, I know that his life has not been easy. He has been on a standstill for a long time and I feel like this is his second chance.

"It is my second chance,’’ he blurts out.

I open my eyes wide, shocked. "Did I say that out loud?’’ I mutter embarrassed.

He shakes his head "I read your mind,’’ There is a smile on his face as he lays that confession. There is no way he read my mind. Does that mean he has been able to read my mind all through?

"Guilty,’’ he confesses.

I jump up from him but he is quick to grab me by my waist. The speed he uses catches me off guard "Why are you running away?’’ he pins me to the bed with a smile. All I can think about is the fact that he has been in my head all weekend. That is not fair.

"I am sorry, I didn’t know how to tell you and I liked all the things I heard. I didn’t want you to shy away from me,’’ he peers down at me. his expression suddenly getting serious.

I don’t know what to say.

"You don’t have to say anything, just tell me you are not upset with me.’’

I frown "You invaded my thoughts. That’s not fair."

"I am sorry,’’ he apologizes, letting go of me and standing up. I know he is just trying to play me. He is not really sorry. I sit up on the bed and he joins me on his side "Am I forgiven?’’

I shake my head "No you are not. You played me.’’

He smiles suddenly and this confuses me "What do you mean?’’

I sigh, turning away from him. "Do you know what this is?’’ he adds pulling me closer to him. I ignore him even though I can hear him clearly. I am not really upset, but yeah, he did something wrong "This is our first fight,’’ he breathes into my ear.

I can’t get upset with his words because of the fact that he is calculating our milestones warm my heart.

"Goodnight West,’’ he calls me by my last name. I close my eyes as I drift off into sleep, completely content with everything that has happened. Even with all the confusion, I feel like my life will be easier with the two of them.

Chapter 195: Guilt

Rex.

"And what is this?’’

I hear the voice but I am still stuck in dreamland. This is all in my head right. I pull Gyles closer, my eyes are still closed. I am enjoying the comfort of his body heat. I take a deep breath as I try to go back to sleep mode, I don’t feel the sunlight, so it can’t be morning yet.

"Rex,’’ the voice calls my name. I feel Gyles move against me, at first his movement is slow but in an instant, he jumps off the bed. This makes me open my eyes and the surprise I see is not what I expected. For a second, I thought Blue came into my room.

"Beau,’’ I call his name as I try to rub the sleep out of my eyes. There is a smile on his face, almost like he is amused at the situation. I pull the covers over my chest, Gyles is just sitting there like a deer caught in headlights. I know that this is awkward for him but I am glad that it Beau that caught us and not Blue.

"Can you give us a second,’’ I plead with my eyes. He can’t just barge into my room. Granted, he has always done that in the past but he could have at least knocked.

"Five minutes,’’ he agrees, walking out of the room. Once the door his closed, Gyles burst out in laughter. I don’t think this is funny. Beau just caught me. He is going to tease me about this for God knows how long "What is funny?’’ I ask him.

He shrugs and gets up from the bed. I watch him as he picks up his clothes from the chair near my bed. Slowly he puts them on "So much for keeping this a secret,’’ he mutters finally.

I roll my eeys because now, it seems like a joke to him. He is really enjoying this—a little too much "Beau can keep a secret,’’ I assure him.

He nods "Yeah but he will tell his mate, who will probably tell someone else.’’

That is not how it works but I don’t argue with him. I walk over to him and he watches me, the smile still on his face "This might not be a bad thing. Then your real mate will know that he has some competition.’’

I stiffen at his words.

Real mate.

He is still in denial.

It has just been two days but I wish he would accept this already. It is pretty obvious already, he just doesn’t want to see it—or should I say, feel it.

"Don’t worry about Beau,’’ I give him some assurance. Deep down, he must be worrying. Once people find out about us, they will talk. Especially with everything that is happening to him.

"I am not,’’ he smiles and then leans forward, pressing his lips to mine softly "I can’t wait until I can have all of you,’’ he confesses and my heart thuds against my chest.

I can’t wait either, but I don’t say it out loud.

"I will look for you later?’’ I ask him.

He nods and let’s go of me. Suddenly I feel alone. I don’t know when next I will have the opportunity of having this kind of moment with him. I already miss him and he hasn’t even left my room. "Thanks for a great weekend,’’ he says finally before closing the door behind him.

I look at the bed when he is gone, the mess we made evidence. A smile sprawls on my face because deep down, I am sure that I will have more moments with him—even if he hasn’t accepted me and my wolf. There is enough time to explore each other. Enough time to get to know him.

I put on my clothes and walk out of the room, straight to Beau’s room. He opens the door before I can even knock "So when I asked why you were so interested in Gyles and you said nothing, was it really nothing?’’ he bellows quietly.

His expression is unreadable. I can’t really tell if he is upset with me right now.

"It was nothing.’’

I look over his shoulders, Alanis is in the corner of the room sorting out clothes. Our eyes meet and he has a guilty look on his face. Beau has probably told him about me and Gyles. There is no doubt about. I don’t know if they are expecting me to be embarrassed or maybe remorseful but I don’t feel any of that. The only feeling inside me is happiness. I am excited to get to know both of them. Excited for the future, for the first time in my life and Beau and his curious eyes won’t change my mind about that.

"Didn’t look like nothing to me," he pauses and then opens the door. I enter his room because I don’t know how to explain what is going on and he would like to know. "What did I walk into in your room?’’ he raises a brow.

I take a deep breath. "We kind of hit it off two nights ago,’’ I confess.

"What does that even mean?’’ he raises a curious brow.

"He is fun to be with.’’

He nods "Oh, I get that. So you had sex with him?’’

I shake my head immediately. I am pretty sure he thinks that this thing between me and Gyles is a fling. To him, it probably doesn’t mean anything. "I didn’t have sex with him, he is my mate,’’ I blurt out.

Both he and Alanis look at me with wide eyes, the shock evident on their faces "Blue said he was your mate.’’

I nod.

They furrow their brows in confusion. I like that Beau has no clue. He always likes to play smart when it involves me. He likes to be in my business but this thing between us is confusing. I don’t even understand it, so there is no way he would. Both sets of eyes are on me. They expect me to explain this situation.

"What the fuck are you talking about?’’ I can tell he is losing his patience.

"They are both my mates.’’

"How is that possible?’’ Alanis asks me.

"I don’t know,’’ I answer him truthfully.

Beau shakes his head "It is not possible. Your wolf probably made a mistake with one of them. Did you fuck Gyles,’’ he asks again as if I will lie about that.

"I didn’t, I already told you.’’

He nods "You spent the whole weekend with the guy and you still don’t know?’’

I frown because I don’t like what he is saying. I already told him that the two of them are mine. Why is he trying to look for a way out of this when I have already accepted it "I am sure.’’

"About which of them because Blue seems to be so sure about the two of you.’’

"Both of them."

Beau sighs loudly and then walks over to Alanis. They are probably communicating with each other about me. "I feel the same for the two of them,’’ I expatiate.

"That is not possible," Beau deadpans.

"It could be. I mean, we have seen things that we thought were impossible happen this year,’’ Alanis pipes up. That is the truth, the things we have gone through. The fact that Beau’s mate is a man. Everything is new but we have come to accept it as it has always been that way.

"But two people, how does that even work?

I shrug "I don’t know. I was going to ask Alby about it."

"What about them. Are they aware that your heart is wavering?"

"My heart is not wavering," I interject defensively.

He chuckles "Whatever is going on within you. Have you told them?’’

I shake my head "Gyles knows but I didn’t think to tell Blue. I don’t want to scare him off.’’

"He has to know Rex."

I nod. "I will tell him.’’

"You better do that. He has been waiting for you to wake up. You should check your phone for his calls.’’ He relays the message. I feel guilty all over again.

The minute I walk out the door, I feel a grip on my arm. It is gentle, but the butterflies travel all over my body. My eyes meet his. They pull me in, completely absorbing my heart in the process "Hey,’’ he breathes out, pulling me into his arms. He is taller than me, so I rest my head on his chest. His heart is pounding against my ear. I love the sound and rhythm.

"I have missed you so fucking much. It was insane,’’ he exclaims and I believe him one hundred percent.

"I missed you too.’’

We are in front of Beau’s room. I don’t want him to catch us right now, especially with him pestering me to tell him the truth. I had already concluded that I was going to be honest but now that he is here, with me. It is scarier.

He pulls back from me and I look up at him. There is a smile on his face "Are you going to school tomorrow?’’

I nod, he sighs, resting his forehead on mine. I take a whiff of his scent and my wolf screams out to mem begging doe a taste. I close my eyes because this is very hard for me. I hate that I am doing this to him. I should just tell him the truth but I am a fucking coward.

"Can I take you out on a date...tonight?’’

I open my eyes and he is watching me. There is a smile on his face. I feel nervous about the whole thing but I answer him immediately because I am already excited.

"Sure.’’

I have to tell him about this tonight.