Ch. 206..210: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 206-210
Chapter 206: Forgiveness
Blue.
I try to walk into the house quietly but I am unsuccessful. Once I get in the front door, Jules is waiting for me in the living room. I don’t know why he feels the need to make sure I come back every night. He has made it a habit.
I stop "Oh, hey,’’ I manage at the same time scratching the back of my neck nervously. He stands up from the couch and walks over to me.
"Where did you go?’’ he asks worriedly.
The fact that he just met me should give him a chance to chill. I have been doing fine on my own. He hasn’t really been in my life all this while and I know he is trying to make up for it but I am not a kid. I am old enough to go out on my own at night.
"I just went for a walk,’’ I tell him nonchalantly. It is not like I am lying. Sure, I bumped into Gyles and it made me happy that I went for that walk in the first place. I didn’t even expect to see him there. It was almost like those forces keep pulling us back together.
"Just a walk?’’ he asks. I can tell he is suspicious of me. Like I would lie to him. Sure I am keeping my whole mating situation a secret from him but I have my reasons. The moment he finds out, he will want to rush it and I want to understand everything else before involving him.
"Is there a problem?’’ I raise a brow.
He sighs and then rubs his eyes "It is late. Why don’t you get some sleep,’’ he tells me before walking away from me and back to the direction of his room. I walk all the way to my room and jump on my bed. My heart is still racing from just talking to Gyles. The feelings I have when it comes to the two of them is overwhelming. How did I get lucky enough to have two people that care for me at the same time?
It just seems so surreal.
My phone rings and I check the caller ID. Mom’s face blares up brightly on the screen. I have been avoiding her for over a year. I just didn’t feel the need to talk to her, I am still upset with her. Today though, I feel a little happier, more forgiving.
"Hello,’’ I answer her call.
This gets a sigh of relief from her "You finally answered my call. I thought you would never forgive me.’’
"I haven’t forgiven you,’’ I tell her blatantly.
I don’t know why she was expecting that. "Oh, I thought with all the calls and the time away from me..."
"You thought what?’’ I ask because I genuinely want to know what is going through her head. I lived in a coven, with a bunch of witches and warlock. I always told her that I felt different from everyone. I would always ask her about my father and she kept the biggest thing from me.
I can’t just let that go.
"I don’t know what I thought. I am sorry Blue, I am really sorry.’’ She tells me.
"Apologizing doesn’t make things better. I need some time away from you,’’ I tell her honestly because, in truth, that is all I need. If she thinks I will just act as if nothing happened, then she is wrong.
"You have had a year. Isn’t that enough time to forgive me?’’
True, a year is a long time but she knows what I need from her. I asked her why she kept it from me for so long. If she can give me a good enough reason, I will let things go. Right now, she doesn’t even have a reason. She can’t tell me why she would keep my father away from me.
"I am sorry mother but I can’t forget so easily and you know what you need to do to make things better,’’ I remind her.
There is silence on her end of the phone for a couple of seconds. Finally, she speaks up "Please come home Blue, we need you here,’’ she manages. I can almost sense her pain. If this was some other time, I would take the next flight home but I can’t right now. My life is just starting and I don’t want to lose that for a woman that lied to me all my life.
"I can’t right now mom. I have things to do here.’’
She sighs "Stuff that is more important than your own mother?’’ she is doing this thing where she guilt trips me. She is trying to manipulate me into doing what she wants—it usually works most time but not this time.
"More important than the woman that lied to me.’’
She should be lucky that I answered her call in the first place. I don’t even know why I did. She just likes to bring me down. Make me feel like shit.
"Mom, why am I not like everyone else?’’
"Because you don’t work hard enough. You need to work harder.’’
I remember times when she would make me feel like shit. Make me think I was different because I was lazy. I will not let her manipulate me right now.
"I will talk to you later mom,’’ I tell her.
"Wait--,’’ I end the call before she can say anything else to try to convince me to come home. Right now, I need to focus on my life and the people that matter. Gyles and Rex are all that matter to me right now. I need to make sure we don’t scare Gyles away. I have to help him transform into his true self.
I go to bed with thoughts of them and no one else.
Not Jules and certainly no my mother.
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"He agreed to let you help?’’ rex asks with disbelief.
I don’t know why he finds it so hard. It didn’t even take a lot of convincing to get him to agree. Gyles is not even problematic. It was easy to talk to him. I liked everything about our moment yesterday.
"Yeah, I bumped into him last night,’’ I tell him everything that happened because we are not keeping secrets from each other anymore. Whatever happens between me and Gyles, I want Rex to be aware. Right now, I need to touch him. I need to feel everything that comes with finding your mate. I felt all these things with Rex, but I haven’t gotten the confirmation from Gyles, even though my wolf is pretty sure.
"That’s good that means you can spend some time with him. Get to know him, maybe that will push him in the right direction.’’
He smiles eagerly. I know he is excited about this. I am excited to. He grabs his shirt from the bed and I walk over to him before he can put it off "Where are you going?’’ I ask him at the same time grabbing the shirt from him. He opens his eyes wide "uh...school,’’ he tells me, with that innocent expression on his face. Right now, he looks delicious to me.
I just want to taste him and squeeze him and never let him go.
"Do you have to go today,’’ I lean forward, pulling him closer to me. He looks up at me and my heart pounces in my chest.
"I have missed a lot of school. I can’t miss anymore school,’’ he whines, I can tell he doesn’t want to leave. He would rather be here with me. I know that much.
I hear the footsteps out in the hallway and in an instant, my wolf pikes up excitedly before the knock on the door. I know it is Gyles, I can already feel him. I put on Rex’s shirts immediately and walk over to the door. You can’t blame me, this is the first time we will all be in the same room after figuring everything out. I can’t wait to be with them, I can’t wait for him to accept us.
He opens his eyes wide when he sees me. Maybe he wasn’t expecting me. I get that but he has to get used to all of us together. "Hi,’’ I manage with an eager smile. My heart is racing right now and I am sure he can hear it.
"Hi,’’ he looks over my shoulders to Rex "I kinda wanted to talk to him before he leaves for school,’’ he adds quietly. That is him indirectly saying he didn’t come here for me.
There are no hard feelings. I know what he is going through. Trying to understand all his emotions. Like I told him, there is no pressure, as long as he doesn’t reject us.
"Oh, okay." I walk back to Rex and place a kiss on his lips. Maybe I want him to be jealous. I want him to see that I and Rex are a package deal. He can’t just pick one of us.
He has to choose the two of us.
"I will see you later,’’ I manage. With Red cheeks, he nods as I walk back to the door. "Are we still on for tonight?’’ I direct my question to Gyles.
He nods immediately and with that I walk out of the room, feeling very accomplished even though I haven’t accomplished anything.
Chapter 207: Alanis and his fear.
Two weeks later.
Alanis.
The drive back home feels nostalgic.
I haven’t been home in a month. I have missed father and mother. I don’t think he has officially accepted Beau. This is me trying to convince him to accept the man I love. It has been a while and even though he said he has; I know he hasn’t. I park the car in the spot that used to belong to me in the garage. Now, this doesn’t even feel like my home. Somehow, the community has become the place I want to be.
It has become my home.
I switch off the ignition and Eligio walks out of the back door of the house with a wide smile on his face. I haven’t seen him in a month and I actually miss him a lot. Everything he did for me and Beau. He acted like a true brother and I will never forget all his kindness. The fact that he was the one person that had my back will never be forgotten.
"You are back,’’ he exclaims with a smile, just as I get down from the car. I walk up to him with a nod. "We thought you had abandoned us all,’’ he adds just as he hugs me. I welcome him into my arms and it doesn’t even feel awkward. Granted it is a man hug, you know the kind where you just are close enough but you only use one arm?
"Yeah, I came to ambush father. He hasn’t officially accepted Beau into the family. Want to talk to him about it,’’
I actually came home to get more of my stuff. I still haven’t packed all my shit. Most of the clothes I wear belong to beau. I don’t mind wearing his clothes but the other day, he created space in his closet for me. The fact that I didn’t even have anything to put in it just said a lot.
"You know he is still not happy with you. He might have accepted your mating but he never really gave you his blessing.’’
I already knew this. He wanted me to be without Beau. He said being alone was better. I made my decision and he didn’t push me not to but he also made it clear that he wasn’t in support. I hope things will eventually change for the better and maybe that is why I am here.
To talk to him. Get him to see that my mating with Beau is not really a bad thing.
We walk into the house and Elu appears from nowhere. She runs into my arms and I hold her because I actually missed her. Eligio and Elu are my people in the family. The ones I can count on "You’re here,’’ she mutters still in my arm.
"You guys know you are welcome in the pack?’’ I tell them as I pull away.
She shakes her head "It was weird last time we were there. Kind of scary too,’’ she grabs unto El and I can’t help but smile. I understand not feeling welcome but things are better there. No one is really judging or making anyone feel unwelcome. I think they are all getting used to the fact that vampires are part of the pack now.
"You’re here to see father,’’ she points out in a statement.
I nod "Yeah, is he home?’’
"Not yet." I knew he might not be home. I wanted to use the opportunity to pack my things before he came home. "I will just get some stuff from my room. Maybe when I am done, he will be back home.
They both nod and El follows me into my room "The Elis said you want to keep the vampire?’’ he asks once we are alone.
"I am not keeping him. I welcomed him into the pack,’’ I tell him causally because it is not a big deal. Gyles is not their property, so they don’t have the right to dictate what happens to him.
"Is that a good idea?’’ he asks me. I can sense the worry in his tone. Eli finds it hard to trust people. He believes that betrayal is done by the people closest to you. He seems to think this will be a bad idea. That somehow, Gyles will end up betraying us.
"He is Rex’s mate man. I can’t throw him out now,’’ I tell him.
The whole thing with Rex is weird but I find it beautiful. I never imagined that I will end up with a vampire but here I am, happier than I have been all my life. Rex has found his people and no one can take that from him.
’’Wasn’t he in love with Cassius?’’ he remembers the whole reason why we took Gyles in the first place.
"Cassius is dead, does that even matter anymore?’’
He sighs "It seems weird to me that this is all happening so fast, don’t you think?’’ he asks with me with a concerned ridden expression. El seems to think this is strange because he has trust issues. So I can’t really use him as a determining factor on Gyles. The thing that is happening between them is beautiful and I want to see it to the end. I want to know how the whole thing will work and I am in support one hundred percent.
"There is nothing there El, so maybe just relax a bit. Your lack of trust is showing too much right now,’’ I accuse him playfully.
He hits my shoulder playfully and takes a step towards the door "Why don’t you do what you came here for. We both know you didn’t actually come to see father,’’ he reads my mind like an open book. If I could’ve avoided the house, I would. I like the space I am in. I like the way things are and Father will just bring me down right now.
I am so sure of that.
The moment Eligio walk s out of the room, my phone rings. It is a facetime call from Beau. I answer the call immediately and his face pops on the screen. He is outside, I can see the trees behind him but his smile is what draws me in "Hey,’’ I greet him calmly.
"Why aren’t you back?" he exclaims with a pout. I can’t help but find it really adorable. Everything about him is adorable to me."
"It has just been thirty minutes,’’ I tell him as I check my watch for the time. He doesn’t want me to leave him. There is this clinginess that I have come to expect and I love it so much. Being so attached to me just shows how much he loves me.
"Come home,’’ he demands playfully.
Still smiling "I am waiting for Father,’’ I tell him seriously.
"The man that hates me.’’ he rolls his eyes.
"He doesn’t hate you.’’
"You hated me a couple of months ago. So I don’t expect otherwise from him,’’ he reminds me of the time we were enemies for no absolute reason. When I think about the past, I wonder why I cared so much that he was a werewolf. Now it all seems inconsequential to me.
"Okay, I get your point but you have to give him some time. He is not fated to you like me,’’ I tell him.
A Knock comes from the door and I look away from the screen of my phone "Come in,’’ I call to the person on the other end, even though I can already sense that it is Eligio. He walks into the room and over to me.
"Father is home,’’ he informs me as he comes even closer and peers into the phone "Hey Beau,’’ he waves slightly smiling.
Beau waves back at him.
"I gotta go, babe,’’ I tell him.
I walk out of the room with Eligio. I am very worried that this will not go the way I planned. I want to talk to him about Beau. I want to tell him how I feel about his denial of my Link. Things might not go the way I want them to but it is always better to confront a problem and the fact that the man I respect the most in the world, doesn’t like the man I love the most in the world.
"Good luck,’’ El waves before walking the other direction.
I stop in front of his study and just as I am about to open the door Belis walks out of the room. He raises a brow at me "Oh, we thought you had abandoned the family,’’ I know he is being sarcastic. This is his own form of humour. I don’t find it funny though. It has just been a month, so his accusations are unnecessary.
"I didn’t,’’ I manage to not sound upset.
"Welcome home bro,’’ he slaps my shoulder a little too rough but I manage to not flinch. I grab the handle of the door just as he walks away from me. Father is seated on his chair in front of his office table. He looks up and smiles warmly.
I release a sigh of relief. He is smiling, so that is a good thing. I walk closer to him and sit down on the chair in front of him. The smile wipes off his face immediately.
"Something is different." He mutters.
I furrow my brows in confusion "What do you mean?’’ I ask.
"There is something off about you. Something that I can’t pinpoint. What is going on with you right now?’’
I don’t know what he is talking about but I can’t help but panic.
Chapter 208: The note and dismissal
Alanis.
"What are you talking about?’’
He is saying words but they are not clear. Maybe this is just him trying to scare me or something because I don’t understand what is happening.
He sighs and then runs his hands through his hair. My eyes shift to his face because I want to read his expression. His eyes are shifty, they seem very stressed. Maybe he is stressed out because that is the only way he will not be making sense right now.
"Your body, your scent, there is something off about it,’’ he informs me like I have a clue on what he is saying. The last time I came here, I had completed the mating ritual and he was not happy because he didn’t want me to change. He kept saying that I would lose parts of me. Right now, it seems like that is what he is talking about.
"We already established that. I told you all about it.’’
He shakes his head "That is not what I am talking about. I feel a presence inside of you,’’ he bellows anxiously.
I take a deep breath "Okay, I don’t know what you are talking about but you have me worried right now."
"I feel the blood running through your veins. You feel more human right now.’’ he adds. His explanation is supposed to make things clear but the more he talks, the more confused I am. When Blue told us about his willed scent. There were some things he said. They all seem familiar right now.
"I am still me, father. Please stop trying to make me panic or whatever.’’
He nods "I know that, but I think you need to check deep within you. Something is really wrong but I don’t have the abilities to tell you what it is.
He hasn’t said anything.
I have heard all this and they only take me back to one thing. Our babies. The ones from the dream. The ones that Beau can’t get over. I am a little bit terrified and it doesn’t make any sense to me because there is no logic to it. How will I bear children?
I am a man.
Beau seems excited about it. We have sex a lot and I mean a lot. When he talks about it, I act excited—okay, I am a little bit excited because I want a family with him. He is the love of my life. The person I have chosen to spend the rest of my life with. I want this amazing gift that we have been dreaming about. I want that life with him but I am scared.
I am scared of how this will work.
"Why are you here?’’ he asks me, interrupting my thoughts,
I snap out of my mind and all the fear inside me "I came to see you,’’ I lie. We both know that I didn’t come to see him but I have to act as if I did.
He raises a brow "Everything alright with the pack?’’
No matter how unaccepting he is of the whole thing, he will always care about me. He will always make sure that I am fine.
"Yeah, there is no drama if that is what you are asking,’’ I tell him.
He chuckles "You know for a second, I thought I was going to end up losing you, with all that went down in that pack."
I never for one second doubted it. I knew we were going to come out of it all stronger. I had faith and so did Beau. It was just a minor setback that we have overcome.
"Are you okay with Beau now?’’ I ask him because that is where my next question will come from.
He nods his head "I never had a problem with them. I just didn’t want him for you is all.’’ he smiles like he is not crushing me with his words. From the moment I found out that Beau was my mate. I accepted him. I didn’t care anymore about everything else. I chose him because in my heart wanted him and no one else. So the sooner he comes around to it all, the better.
"It is too late for that now. He is mine." I tell him, laying claim again even though he already knows.
’Yeah, I know that now but I don’t know why you need my approval.’’
"I don’t need your approval anymore. I just need you to accept him. I want him to feel like he belongs in our family,’’ I convey with words how I feel.
He sighs "He doesn’t belong in our family. You chose to stay in his community, so there is that.’’
He is being harsh right now. I know why he is doing this but I just wish that he will cut it out already. "That is not fair. You know going to the community was the only option. He is the Alpha of his pack. He can’t leave.’’
He nods "I know that but you didn’t consult me on that. You don’t need my acceptance."
I hate that he is talking this way because before I did anything. I let him know. I told him about the ritual, I asked for his blessings. It is not like I just disappeared and did everything on my own. He was there through it all so I don’t know what else he wants.
"I don’t know what you want from me, father. I have held you on very high ground. Your opinion is very important to me. It is important to me that you like the man I love. Why won’t you just try to get to know him?’’
"He is a wolf,’’ he states like that suddenly explains it all.
"Does that even matter anymore? Darrien is with a wolf too,’’ I remind him that I am not the only one.
"Darrien doesn’t give a shit about my opinion. He is not like you.’’
He knows this and he is still beating me up for everything. It is unfair that he won’t just do the things I want him to. ’’I am not asking you to be his friend or to hang out with him. I want you to act like a father to him. He doesn’t have anyone else.’’
"I am not his father,’’ he says deadpan.
"Elu came into our family. You treat her like a daughter. So why is mine different. Why can’t you just treat him the same way you treat the other Links?’’
"Because you didn’t listen to me. I told you not to rush into this and you didn’t listen. You chose to go against my order even though I was uncertain about it all. You can’t expect me to accept your decisions when I don’t support them."
"Please," I beg him. "Just give him a chance,’’ I add with so much desperation.
"I can’t do that. I am sorry but I don’t trust the wolves. I won’t accept them no matter what,’’ he tells me.
I leave his office with so much anger. I don’t want to even think about it because I thought this was going to go another direction. I could almost swear that he would tell me that Beau could come over for dinner or something. I actually thought I could convince him.
I go back to my room and pack a couple of my things in a suitcase. A message pops on my phone, so I grab it.
Beau: Hurry back home.
It is a message from Beau. I have been gone for an hour max and he misses me. How can someone even say that they can’t accept this kind of love? It seems terrible to me. Makes me angry and I have no one to talk to about it. I don’t want to make Beau upset to.
I get home and I see Rex in the living room. He has a smile on his face "Beau said I should give you this,’’ he hands me a note and walks away from me. I don’t know what it is but I am already smiling. All the frustrations that came with visiting my father, wipe out with just one little act. A note and I don’t even know what it entails.
Meet me in the place of our first dream.
I furrow my brow in confusion. As I try to remember where he could mean. The only place that comes to mind is the caves. The one where I saved him that first time that I had a dream about him. That has to be it. I mean, there is no other place. I put the note in my pocket and walk out of the house excitedly. It suddenly makes sense that he told me to go home today. It felt weird that he pushed me to leave but now it all makes sense.
Also his eagerness to have me back home.
I feel like a child playing a game with his crush. It is exciting.
Chapter 209: The date and the quickie
Alanis.
Before I get to the caves, I feel his scent. Almost like a pull that drags me to him. I follow the scent until I see the roses trail on the ground. My heart is thumping against my chest because this is already making me giddy all over and I haven’t even seen him yet. The roses lead into one of the caves and just as I enter, I stop in front of the caves. I am nervous because I don’t know what to expect, even though I have an idea.
Once inside the caves, I see the lights. They are just like a reflection. The walkway is dark, so I walk closer to the light. Wanting to see him, wanting to hold him and kiss him.
The meeting with my father has me angry. the fact that he can’t even accept the man I love because I didn’t listen to his advice baffles me. I am already with Beau, there is no going back. there is no point thinking about the what-ifs.
"Hey,’’ I feel him sneak up to me from behind. His arms go around my eyes, covering them completely. I was so lost in thought that I didn’t even sense him. "Don’t move, this is an arrest. You are all mine for the rest of the night,’’ he whispers into my ear. My heart races in my chest from the excitement of everything that is happening. He planned this and I am already eager to see what he has planned.
"At least let me see you.’’ I breathe out desperate to see his beautiful face. The sound of my voice echoes in the cave. I sound sad, I am sure he can sense it.
"I take it the visit didn’t go so well.’’ He reads my mind. I take a deep breath because being with him is easy. He takes all the pain away and he hasn’t even done or said anything.
"The man is stubborn,’’ I confess because, at this moment, I am ashamed to call him my father. If he could just see Beau as the man that I see him, maybe he will come to accept him as I have. Maybe he will love me the way I love him.
"You know what, just forget about him for now. I have something special planned,’’ he changes the topic and I am grateful for that. I don’t want to think about the visit because it will be a downer to my mood and I am so excited to see what he has planned.
"Keep walking,’’ he urges me.
I take a step forward "I am going to let you go, I want you to keep your eyes closed. Can you do that?’’
I nod my head and he lets go of my face immediately. I feel his grip on my waist as he leads me further into the cave. I keep walking until he tells me to stop.
"What is this for ?’’ I ask him because this is something I didn’t even expect. Things are great between us. We are ready for our future and for the past two weeks, he has been kinda busy with Alpha duties. His search for Fallon has been taking a toll on him and to no avail. It is exhausting that no one knows where he is.
At this point, beau just wants to find him for the fear that he will eventually sneak up on us. He doesn’t want any surprises. The last surprise we had caused a lot of havoc.
"I have missed you,’’ he confesses and I believe him one hundred percent.
"I see you every day. You keep forgetting that you have been pumping me with your seed.’’ I remind him of all the sex we have been having. I don’t have the courage to tell him of all the fears I have regarding that. He is so sure that I am the one that is going to be pregnant. I don’t even know how that will happen but every time we have sex, he is doing it for the twins.
That is what he calls them.
His babies.
They don’t exist yet but he is so sure that they will. I believe the dreams. I felt the connection with those babies and they aren’t even born but I don’t know how it will happen. I keep thinking about the different scenarios. Maybe we will need a surrogate. Someone that will carry the babies. There must be more to those dreams and there is no guidance. No one is telling us how this will happen and maybe we just need to relax. Maybe everything will fall in place but I am still terrified.
I haven’t told him that I don’t want to be the one to bear them. I am scared shitless. A fucking coward and I don’t know how to talk to him about it.
"You know you have enjoyed every second of it." he pulls me closer to him and I feel his dick press up against me. he is already hard.
Fuck, I don’t want this night to end.
"Can I just kiss you already?’’ I ask him anxious for his lips on mine. he chuckles into my ear and the sound is like a piece of melodious music. The kind that feels like a highness that you never want to come off.
"In a minute,’’ he assures me. we stop walking and he grabs my hand in his "This is not much, but I wanted to do something nice for you—for us. You know we haven’t really gone on a date. I haven’t done anything nice for you,’’ he sounds so nervous. I have never heard him this nervous.
I open my eyes and the first thing I see are the string lights in the form of stars. They are all over the walls of the cave. This looks like it took a lot of work. He must have spent so long doing it. I move around in circles, following the trail of the lights. They are bright, the fact that he did this makes me love him even more. My eyes stop on the ground. There is a red blanket on the floor and a picnic basket. I see the bottle of champagne.
"Cheesy right?’’ he distracts me from the beauty in front of me. I can’t even think straight. The fact that he did this for me. the fact that he took the time to make this special night for me is overwhelming.
"Say something baby, I am losing my mind right now,’’ I look at him. I feel the tears well up in my eyes. They don’t fall. "shit, you hate it. I knew this was a bad idea, I told—" I run into his arms instantly and my lips shut him up. He lets out a breath of relief in my mouth as I slide my tongue into his. My heart is pouring out right now. the emotions are too much to handle. I just can’t handle how in love I am with him. we keep making out in the middle of this brightly lit cave. I push him so hard and fast that his back hits the wall roughly. I don’t know what comes over me but I want him inside me. I want to feel all of him. I want him to take this overwhelming sensation with him.
I reach for his shirt and take it off immediately. he pulls away from me "I didn’t bring you in here for sex. We are not having sex right now,’’ he interjects. I feel him hard against me. his words contradict his body. He wants me and there is no denying it.
"I just want to feel you,’’ I confess with so much desperation. I don’t know why I am so emotional right now but he senses it and I watch him as he helps me take his shirt off and then he does the same with mine. in less than a minute, we are both naked in this cave. The silence eats at me as I melt into his mouth, sliding my hands all over his body. The butterflies attack me, sending waves of electricity all over my body. I keep going until he is inside me. the sounds that come from him urge me to continue. He pushes hard, the pain is the sweetest pleasure I have ever felt. I love this man so much, that it hurts. I can’t wait for forever with him. I can’t wait to be with those babies. No matter how scared I am right now, no matter how much I don’t want to be the bearer.
"I love you,’’ he breathes into me, the sounds eat at me.
"I love you too,’’ I manage in between breaths. I feel the euphoric bliss that comes with our climax and just as we started, he holds unto me to stand on his feet. These caves have a lot of memories.
He looks at me and there is a smile on his face as the sweat trickles down his forehead "Can we continue the date now?’’ he asks with a wide smile.
I nod as he grabs his shirt from the ground and wipes me with it.
Chapter 210: The proposal
Alanis.
I don’t think my heart can take all this extra gushiness. We have never been the type of couple to show emotions like this. Okay, maybe that is a lie but he has never done anything like this.
He was busy fighting a monster.
My wolf pipes up a suggestion. Beau has completely obliterated every bit of my heart. I am overwhelmed and we haven’t even started the date. I tried to control myself but I just couldn’t resist him. At that moment, with his awkward smile, the nervousness in the tone of his voice.
"Come on, sit before we tear our clothes off again,’’ he bellows breathing heavily. I smile because he is shirtless as he sits down on the blanket gently. He stretches his legs out next to me and pulls me closer.
"So I know this is pretty strange. I mean, kind of cringey, isn’t it?’’
I shake my head "I don’t think this is cringey. I love this,’’ I reach for the basket and pull out the champagne. He smiles as I grab the glasses "Can I open it?’’
He nods and I pop the champagne and pour them into glasses. I give him one of the glasses and he gulps it down. He is so nervous; I can’t even believe it.
"Why are you so tense?" I ask him curiously.
His cheeks redden from the embarrassment of my question. There is more to this date. That is the only reason why he would be this nervous.
"I don’t know, I have never done anything like this. You know you are the only real relationship I have ever been in. so this is all new to me,’’ he confesses. I could tell that he didn’t want to mess things up.
"You know this is me right, I don’t care about anything but being with you. that is all that matters to me.’’
He smiles "What do people do on dates?’’ he asks nervously.
I can’t help but laugh at how cute he is. I had a girlfriend for a while. I know how to go on dates but he was a player. He didn’t do girlfriends. He only cared about sex.
"You know all you have to do is talk to me.’’
He blushes "We talk every time. Is that all there is to this?’’
He is being the Alpha male that he usually is. I pull him closer to me and drop the glass on the ground "Tell me about your day,’’ I breathe out because unlike him, I have a lot to tell him.
"My day was spent in a meeting with Olin and Jules. He is leaving in two days and he just wanted to finalize all talk on finding Fallon."
His search for the man has been crazy, I don’t even know how he has hidden so well. To me, Fallon is a coward. He is hiding because he knows that he is at a crossroads. He can’t succeed in deceiving the pack. everyone wants him punished, so showing face will only end in his demise. I can’t wait for him to be found. I just want that Chapter of our life to be over.
"How was your day?’’ he asks me casually.
I don’t want to think about my father and talking about him will just ruin this date. "You can tell me about it. After all, that is my job.’’ He reads my mind. I have told him about my worries and unhappiness in concerns with the man. I don’t understand why it is so hard for him to just accept Beau and everything we had.
"he doesn’t want to have anything to do with you. he still hates you,’’ I confess because there is just something about Beau that makes me want o pour out my heart to him.
He closes his eyes for a second "Scratch that, I don’t think we should talk about him,’’ he huffs out opening his eyes. I know he is not happy with the denial. He wants to be accepted by the man I look up to. No matter how unhappy I am with him right now, he is still my father. He is still the one that saved me in my time of need.
He reaches into the basket and pulls out a transparent container full of strawberries. I watch him as he opens the lid and I see the chocolate all over it. I like that he is going with the cliché things. He is so bad at this that It makes me love him even more. The fact that he planned this when he has no clue on how to do it.
"You want one?’’ he grabs one of them and pushes it to me. food Is not important to me but for him, I will eat every single day for the rest of my life. I will gladly have the metallic taste that food gives me. I will take it all and never get tired of it.
I bite into the strawberry and I feel something strong in between my teeth. He is watching me, with this suspicious stare. The kind that makes me know that he is up to something. I open the strawberry into two and for the first time I realize that it is cut. There is a ring inside, which makes the strawberry look like a box.
My heart is throbbing against my chest because he hasn’t even said anything and I already know what this is.
Holy shit.
"What is going on beau,’’ I call his name, I hear my voice and it is unrecognizable to me. I can’t believe this is happening. Is this real?
We joked about this once.
I didn’t ever imagine that he would do this. I didn’t even think it was something I would be excited about. We are already basically married. The mating ceremony settled that, so why am I so excited for this?
Why do I want him to say the words?
The things people do in this situation.
He lets go of me and I watch him as he grabs my hand and carries me up on my feet. I am still holding the strawberry. The diamonds on the ring are tiny but the sparkle is bigger than anything I have ever seen. The band is plain gold. To me, it is the most perfect thing I have ever seen.
"Is this real?’’ I ask him as he gets on one knee, his eyes remain fixed on me. they bore into mine. my heart is still screaming. This is even more beautiful than the date. I will never forget this day. I will die and know that I lived a great life all thanks to this man in front of me.
"Alanis Dravon." He calls my name.
I nod my head like he just asked me something interesting. We haven’t even gotten to the best part and I am already behaving like a fool.
Get yourself together man.
I talk myself up to behave.
There is a smile on his face. He doesn’t see anything wrong with me and my eagerness. He already knows the answer to the question. To some people, this will be pointless but to me, it is everything.
"I have loved you since the first day I touched you, I continue to love you even through all our fights, and you know there will be a lot of those because I am a stubborn motherfucker,’’ he jokes and I can’t help but laugh. I already feel the tears. I am going to cry and there is nothing I can do to stop it.
"When I look into your eyes, I see the reflection of the two of us, I see the life I hope we will share together. I see my happiness in your eyes Lanis." A tear falls down my cheeks as he continues "You have saved me so many times and I know you will continue saving me. Please do me the honors of saying yes to this cheeky man’s proposal, even though we are basically already a married couple,’’ he ends it with the question.
The one that I have been waiting for. I didn’t even know I wanted this. I joked about it, I didn’t think it would make my heart melt so fast. He stays on one knee; he is still looking at me hopefully but I don’t know how to form words anymore.
I have never been this nervous. I want to scream out the words. I want to tell him that I love him too and I want to marry him. I have them all in my head but they won’t come out.
You can tell me here.
He sends me a mind link.
These are the reasons why I am so in love with him. he gets me completely, more than anyone else on this earth. He looks at me and he stares into my soul. The deepest parts of me that no one else sees.
He reads my mind and my heart and all my other parts.
He is my soulmate.
Yes, I will marry you.