Ch. 211..215: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 211-215

Chapter 211: I want him to be mine

Blue

We have been together for two weeks now and he is still stuck on denying his feelings. It is not even just about me. He is blocking the pathway for his wolf to come out.

I don’t know what else I can do to let him see that this is who he is. The sooner he accepts it, the better. "You need to do this on your own G, there is nothing else I can do but be there for you,’’ I tell him calmly.

I have never really been the patient time. Things that don’t have progress disinterest me but I have been patient with him. I have held out for so long even though he is the one that is stopping this from happening.

"I don’t know what you want me to do, I don’t feel anything. There is no pull, there is no force. All that you are asking me to feel... I don’t feel it,’’ he is seated on the grass in the field. His legs are crossed together. We have been doing this for too long. I don’t know what else to do. I have tried meditation, communication with his wolf. I can’t even send his wolf a mind link. I have run out of options and I don’t know what else to do because I imagined this going differently. I had it all planned. I was going to bring his wolf out. We would spend time together—bond. That was the way it was supposed to go but for the past two weeks, all I have gotten from him is attitude and disinterest.

The denial he feels for this side of him is so strong. I don’t know if he will ever accept it.

"You need to calm down, exercise your inner self. That is the only way this will work,’’ from my tone, I am exhausted and I am sure he can tell. It is not like he even wanted to do this in the first place, so I am pretty sure it will take nothing from him to walk away from this. I am dying here from desperation. I just want him to accept me—accept us already. It is taking too long and I just want to be with him already. Rex is accepting of both of us but it seems like Gyles only wants him, or rather, he only wants to accept him. I should be fueling up with Rage at that fact but I don’t want to pressurize him.

He has been through a lot.

There are things that must have happened to him that he doesn’t want to remember. I think the only way he can get closure is by accepting the past and then moving on from it but he is in denial. There is a fear that is still stuck on him.

"I don’t know what you want me to do,’’ he sighs out. He is shirtless under the hot sun. His skin is pale. The color that a vampire carries but I know that is not all there is to him.

"Do you want to take a break?’’ I ask him.

He sighs and then gets up from the ground. His eyes meet mine "I am sorry about this,’’ he apologizes.

I shake my head "This is not your fault, I completely understand how difficult this can be. Don’t worry about it. with time, it will all come through.’’

"It wasn’t this hard for you, was it?’’ he asks me.

In two weeks, this is the first time he has even taken any interest in me and my life. I see the invisible line that he drew from the moment we started this. He doesn’t want to get close to me. He doesn’t want to accept the pull.

Right now, there is a faint slash on the wall. His question throws me off and I can’t help the smile that spreads on my face. "I always knew there was something different about me. in my family, I always felt like I didn’t belong.’’

He furrows his brows "So why don’t I have those feelings. Why is it different for me?’’

"Because you don’t want to accept those things about you. The parts of you that are Lycan. You are in complete denial of them,’’ I blurt out those words before I can even stop myself. I don’t want to offend him. Things aren’t even going so great right now.

I thought we would have become closer by now but that line is still so strong in between us.

"Do you want to go out with me, get your mind off everything?’’ I ask, silently praying that he will agree to this. I know this is not something he will be looking forward to. Avoiding me and any emotions are probably all that is on his mind but I want to try. See if he will say yes to this.

"I don’t think it is a good idea,’’ he breathes out.

I knew that was a possibility but it still feels like a knife to my back. The rejection that he has just given me "Rex could come with us. He told me that you wanted to see a movie. We could go watch a movie together. The three of us.’’

I see the look on his face when I mention Rex. There is an excitement that he didn’t have with me. I should be jealous but I know what it is like to not want something. We are so similar that I don’t understand how he doesn’t want to be with me. I understand him. I can relate to everything he is going through, so he should want to spend time with me.

"Please say yes, I want us to do something together. I want to spend time with you that isn’t this,’’ I wave my hands in the air.

He sighs out loud and my heart leaps around my chest. I already sense his acceptance and it makes me very happy.

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I walk into Rex’s room and he jumps into my arms immediately. He is small against me. so it makes it easy for me to carry him up in the air. "Hey,’’ I whisper into his ear. I feel him tighten his grip around me.

"How was today?’’ he asks me.

He has been going over my process with Gyles. It hasn’t been going well but I have kind of been keeping things from him because I know how he is. He wants this to happen fast. He doesn’t like that Gyles is taking his time. I don’t mind that he is but I just wish that he would be a little open towards us and the things that we could be. I am a patient man. I have waited 21 years for them. This is a piece of cake to me.

I just have to make sure he doesn’t reject us. In this case, it seems like it is me he wants to reject. Rex has no problem. He is already smitten with him.

"A little better than all the other days. He agreed to go on a date with us.’’ I inform him of the reason why I even came to his room in the first place.

He opens his eyes wide "He agreed to that?’’

I nod.

"How did you get him to do that and I don’t think he wants to hang out with me right now,’’ he confesses which makes me furrow my brow.

"What do you mean? Why not?"

"I have kinda been avoiding him. I didn’t want to distract you guys from the progress you have been having."

I don’t want to tell him that there hasn’t been any progress. He has been a stiff wall. Gyles is the toughest nut that I have ever had to crack and I haven’t even made a dent.

"Well, he seemed excited to hang out with you. so you don’t have to worry about that,’’ I tell him, carrying him even further up. He rests his head on my forehead and sighs "I wish he would just love you already,’’ he cries.

I wish he would too.

My phone rings in my back pocket and he jumps off me. I pull him close to me as I check the caller ID. It is my mother. I don’t want to talk to her right now. she has been calling me persistently. I know this is just her way to manipulate me. I don’t have the energy for her and her tricks.

"Are you going to get that?’’ Rex interrupts my thoughts.

I place the phone back in my pocket and shake my head "Nah. She will be fine. So about our date,’’ I wink at him.

He giggles and all I can think about is how this will go. I hope I will be able to penetrate through his wall tonight because, for these past couple of days, the torture has been excruciating.

I just want him to be mine.

Chapter 212: Selfishness

Gyles

I am nervous about this outing. It is not a date but it feels like one. Maybe I agreed to this because of the opportunity to see Rex. he has been avoiding me for the past two weeks. I don’t know why but a part of me feels like he is giving me some space with Blue.

He is on board this whole throuple relationship. He wants us to bond. Have a relationship, so that we could all be together. I am so far from that because I don’t believe in this.

You know it is real.

My wolf interrupts my thoughts. I don’t want to acknowledge him because for the past two weeks. He has been silent and now because I am thinking about them—or should I say, denying my feelings, he decides to say something.

You know you don’t want me to come out. There is nothing I can do if you won’t let me.

He says a lot more than I expected. I shake his voice out of my head because maybe he is right. I don’t know if am ready for all this—I don’t know if I ever will be ready. I just want to live a peaceful life, away from all the problems. I thought I could have that with Rex. hanging out with him was easy. I felt a certain joy that I haven’t felt in a long time and now I have to just accept that this is because of the mating force.

I hate the whole thing and they don’t seem to understand how I feel. They can’t just choose who I end up with. I want that for myself. I don’t like the oppression.

This is not oppression. It is destiny.

I ignore the thoughts. The manipulations of my wolf. I don’t want to know what he thinks. I have my opinions and they don’t involve being with all three of them. I want to convince Rex to choose me. I want him to see that there is something between us, that doesn’t have to involve Blue.

I don’t like that I am singling him out but I don’t want to open my heart to him. I don’t want them both. one is enough for me and I want Rex.

You can’t choose.

My wolf shouts at me. I have never felt him angrier. This date is just a way to appreciate Blue for all his help—or maybe attempted help. He said he would help me with my wolf but it feels like I am farther away from exploring that part of me. I dress up in a pair of jeans and a shirt because I don’t want it to look like I didn’t make an effort. The fact that I will get to see Rex is exciting to me.

I have missed him so much.

After about thirty minutes of waiting, there is a knock on the door. I run over to the door because I feel his scent outside. Rex smiles when he sees me. his cheeks are red, he is totally blushing.

"Hey,’’ he breathes out. I walk over to him and pull him into my arms immediately. touching him has been like some forbidden act. The only time I saw him all through this week was once when he brought drinks for us at the field. He didn’t even look at me and I didn’t want to push things.

Now he is here, away from Blue and I feel like I can touch him. he wraps his arms around me slowly and I feel him give in. I don’t know why he has been acting up with me but I don’t care. Just having this moment with him is enough. It is all I could ask for.

After a couple of minutes and steady breathings, he retreats away from me slowly "Blue is getting the car around,’’ he tells me. I totally forgot that he was going to be on this date with us.

"I just want to be with you,’’ I confess even though I know he might not like it.

"He said you agreed to the three of us.’’

I nod "Because I knew you would be there. I just wanted to spend some time with you. can it just be the two of us?’’

This is not what I want. I want them both.

My wolf shouts at me. it feels like I have been testing his patience. Doing things that I know he wouldn’t want. I mean, what is the worst thing that he could do?

I will lock you up, the way you have been me.

He warns me.

It feels like a threat but I am not the least bit scared. I am in control of my body, in control of my actions. No one can tell me what to do. Not even this monster inside me.

"I don’t want this is if it just the two of us. I want you both,’’ he tells me.

I hate this.

I hate this so much.

Choose me.

For once, just fucking choose me.

I have those thoughts but I don’t have the courage to say them out loud. I want him to choose me, even though he is giving in to his wolf. Even though he wants us both—does that make me selfish?

Yes.

The look on his face tells me that he is never going to choose me. he has already made up his mind and if I disagree with him. I will end up alone. I don’t know how long I can drag this until I have to leave but I want to be with him. I like him a lot and I don’t want to lose that just yet.

"Okay," I agree defeatedly.

He smiles and he is back in my arms again. This time, he places a soft kiss on my lips—being the greedy man that I am, I pull into him for a deeper kiss and he doesn’t fight back as I slide my tongue into his mouth. The gasp that escapes his lips tells me that he wants me as much as I want him. I will give myself to one of them. I don’t have to give in to the two of them. Blue will feel it. he will be the outcast and he will leave.

Chapter 213: The departure

Darrien.

"Ready?’’ I ask him.

He looks up from the suitcase in his grip with a wide smile on his face. I watch him pack all his belongings and the joy I feel is overwhelming. So, it took a while to come to this decision but I am glad that he did. Jabi agreeing to move out of the community and back to my place is everything to me.

I didn’t want to pressure him but I also didn’t want to be here.

I don’t feel like this is home and just the thought that I was going to take him from his home, made me want to settle here but now that I know he doesn’t want to stay here anymore, is all that I need.

"Yes, I am, this is exciting,’’ he exclaims.

So, he doesn’t know about the surprise I have. He knows nothing about the trip I have planned with him. I wanted it to be a surprise because I wanted to see how he handles surprises. Jabi hasn’t had the most exciting life but with me—now, he is going to have it all.

I watch him as he rummages through his belongings all around. They are not much but he has taken a while to get them all sorted out. Just because we are moving out of the community doesn’t mean that he will never come back. a lot of people are still uneasy with him. they still think that he is dangerous after that attack. They don’t seem to care that he fucking saved all the kids and omegas. I wish I could have been there to see him fight. It has been a major turn on just thinking about him killing those vampires, I don’t support violence—who the fuck am I kidding? I support all kinds of violence and just thinking about my baby, taken out all those big vampires, as small as he is, has been on my mind all this while.

It is the most exciting thought I have had.

I don’t want him in that situation again. I don’t want him to have to fight to protect himself. I will be his shield, his protector, but that doesn’t mean I can’t think about all those things and get a hard-on.

"Can you help me with this,’’ he points to the box on the floor. You see, he still needs me to help him carry stuff. I will always be his protector.

I am so sure he can do this on his own but I like that he makes me feel strong, needed, and depended on. That is why we work. That is why our relationship will stand the test of time.

I grab the box and carry it over to the door "I’ll take this to the car,’’ I tell him which gets a nod. He walks over to me hurriedly and places a peck on my lips "To give you the strength,’’ he explains cutely.

I smile that goofy smile that I show only to him as I walk out of the house. Once the box is in the boot of the car, I see Blue walk over to me with a smile on his face "Today’s the day...huh?’’ he asks placing his hand on the car.

I nod.

Ever since he helped me with my baby, we sort of started a strange friendship—if I can even call it that. Talking to him is easy and he doesn’t get on my nerves like a lot of people do.

"Yup.’’

He smiles "Never pegged you for the pack kind of person. This would be good for you guys,’’ he tells me.

I always knew that I didn’t belong here. I don’t even belong with my family. Maybe I do but I just don’t like the whole, everybody is in everybody’s business. I want to have my own place with the man that I love.

"You know he is going to be a lone wolf,’’ he tells me.

I furrow my brows "He is not just a wolf you know. It won’t matter.’’

He nods "Yeah, not every wolf has to have a pack. my father is a lone wolf and he is fine.’’

I actually don’t think Jules is fine. When I see him, I feel pity for him? Jabi is not like him, he will never be like him because he has me.

"You don’t have to worry about him though. He will be fine,’’ he assures me as I have even worried for a second. I don’t have any doubt that Jabi will be happy. I am the only person that makes him happy and as long as he is with me, he will be happy.

"You know, you should focus on your situation. How is the whole getting the hybrid to love you going?’’ I ask him.

He laughs uneasily. I know what he is dealing with and I feel for him. on a normal day, I would joke about how he still has one person even if he gets rejected but I don’t actually want to be insensitive. I don’t know what it feels like to be rejected and I don’t want to say that is what is happening with him but it seems that way.

"We have a date tonight,’’ he tells me with this look of excitement mixed with uncertainty.

"That’s good, right?’’

I don’t know how dating with his kind goes. They are three, how will it work? It is so confusing and I don’t even want to think about it.

"Yeah, all three of us. This will be the first time we will do something together.’’ the excitement in his eyes just tells me how important this is for him. I can already tell that he is looking forward to this.

I smile "Seems like this means a lot to you,’’ I ask him.

He nods "The world. I have been thinking of ways to get us all together, this seems like a miracle with the way Gyles has just been avoiding.’’

The pain in his voice is felt with that confession. I completely feel for him but I know things will come around. Gyles might still be in denial but eventually, he will not be able to handle the pull that comes with having a mate. he might try to push it back but it will not work. He will be miserable without Blue.

I know that much.

"You should get ready for your date,’’ I urge him because he might be here with me but his heart is with those boys.

"Yeah, I should. It would be sad not seeing you in the community anymore.’’

"We will still come around, you don’t have to worry about that,’’ I assure him and this gets a smile out of him.

"Good luck," I tell him as he leaves. I go back into the house and Jabi has another box filled up with stuff.

"I thought you didn’t have much stuff, why does it seem like you suddenly do?’’ I reach for the box and he lets me handle it.

"I don’t know, someone keeps buying me things,’’ he raises an accusatory brow at me. I am guilty of that. I don’t know why I feel the need to spoil him with things but that has been usual for the past month. I would come home every day with new clothes, shoes, and other stuff and now I am the one that is going to suffer for it.

Not like I mind.

He follows me to the car this time and he helps me with a smaller bag. I watch him as I put the last box in the trunk. "How do you feel about water?’’ I ask him curiously.

He still has no clue about our trip.

"I love the beach, so I love water." He smiles and there is that dreamy expression on his face. The one that gives me all the joy I have when it comes to him.

I walk over to him. that is the incentive that gave me the idea of the trip. The first time I connected with him, he talked about the ocean and I did the one thing that I didn’t like. I took him to the beach. The sand, the saltiness, the windy air. All things I hate but with him it was easy. Everything with him is easy.

"We should go to the beach again,’’ he pipes up with shining eyes.

I nod "Whenever you want, just tell me and I will speed you up there.’’

"Right now?’’ he asks with so much excitement that I don’t even know how to say no to him. our flight is in, I check my watch. In four hours. It will take us about an hour to get all these things home and then head to the airport. He still doesn’t know that we are leaving the country. He is clueless about everything and telling him right now defeats the purpose. I should look for a way out of this beach idea but like I said. I can’t say no to him.

"Sure.’’

Chapter 214: I love my man

Jabi.

I love my man.

I love him like no other but I have to say, he is a shitty liar—okay, maybe not a liar because I haven’t asked him anything but it seems like he is hiding something from me. The move out of the community didn’t just happen. He asked me once how I felt about moving and I thought I had no right to. I mean, it would be ungrateful to leave Beau and the rest of the pack.

At least, that is what I thought but with Dar, I have been seeing things clearly. I don’t want to live my life with regrets and I know I will regret staying in the pack. I don’t like the way people look at me. I don’t like the way they treat me. I accepted it all because I didn’t know better. The stigma that just because I am an omega with no family, doesn’t make me prone to suffering and isolation. I thought I needed to stay because I had no one but I have Jabi now and I don’t need to anymore.

He doesn’t belong in the pack. I see it, from the way he acts around everyone else. There was an invite to a neighboring community. It was something I didn’t mind going but I knew he wouldn’t like it. I knew he didn’t want to go and even though he said we could—I knew he was only going to be doing it for me.

I didn’t want to go because he didn’t want to go.

He has overcompensated so much for me. things that he didn’t believe in. I know him a lot more than I know anyone else and maybe that is because he has shown me all there is to know about him.

I know this move will be good for the two of us. Beau doesn’t want me to leave. he doesn’t want to have to worry about me being so far away—his words.

I told him that he didn’t have to worry about me anymore. It still feels strange to me sometimes. I have someone that is living for me, and I am living for him too.

"Come on, do you want to say goodbye to anyone?’’ he asks me after agreeing to go to the beach. I can swear, I thought he would say no to my offer. I just wanted him to tell me what he had planned but in the end, I just got him to agree with me as usual.

"Beau and Rex.’’

They already know we are leaving today but it won’t be such a bad thing to say goodbye to them. "Can you do it in less than thirty minutes?’’ he asks. I raise a brow because I know this has something to do with whatever he has planned.

"Okay."

I go to the house and I see Beau in the corridors. He smiles when he sees me "I kinda wanted to avoid seeing you leave. why did you have to look for me,’’ he exclaims with a sigh as he slowly walks over to me.

I take a deep breath and stop in front of him "I will come to visit all the time and you can come over too. I appreciate all that you have done for me.’’

It seems like I am reading off a script and I am sure he knows I am tense. I actually will miss him the most but I think this move is the best thing for me. staying here is not what I want anymore. All I want is to be with Dar in our enclosed space with no one bothering us.

It might sound like a lonely life but Darrien filled a void in my life that was completely empty. I was in this community with all these people and I didn’t feel like I belonged. Now I have all I could have ever wanted.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah kid. I know this is what you want. You should always do what you want. Live your life for you.’’ he pats my shoulder gently and I lean for a hug. He welcomes me and my arms go around his.

"Thank you.’’ I breathe into his ears. This is not goodbye forever. It is just goodbye for a little while.

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We get to the beach and he grabs my hand in his, squeezing tightly. I close my eyes as the wind hits me. the feeling very euphoric.

I know he is trying to squeeze this into whatever he has planned and maybe I should just tell him that I know about it. then he wouldn’t have to be so nervous.

"Come on,’’ he pulls me closer to him. the sky is that orange color. The one that shows that the sun is about to set. The day is almost over. I spend each day with him and each day has a different surprise. He is the best boyfriend, the best person in my life.

We get closer to the water and he smiles "Everything you wanted?’’ he asks me.

I nod my head immediately "Yes, everything and more.’’

He smiles "I wanted to surprise you but now I kind of feel like you want to stay here for the rest of the night and that will ruin the surprise,’’ he blurts out finally and this widens my smile. I already knew he has something planned. So, there was never really a surprise. Okay, there still is because I don’t know what it is.

"I’ve known all along,’’ I smile feeling a sense of accomplishment.

He raises a brow "Then why are we here? I have been thinking of how to get you to leave. our flight is in two hours and we still have to go home and pack. you are totally unfair to me babe,’’ he lets go of me and runs his hands through his hair.

He turns away from me. I walk around until I am facing him again "We can go home right now. we will make it,’’ I tell him, still smiling because he is really cute when he is nervous.

He watches me intently, the nervousness wiping off.

"I couldn’t even surprise you,’’ now I know he will beat himself off over this. "I don’t know what it is, so it still counts as a surprise," I tell him.

He raises a brow "Really?’’

I nod "Yeah," I lean forward until my lips are on his and I press them to his. Kissing him with all the love I can give him.

"Come on, let’s go. So, we don’t miss our flight.’’

Chapter 215: Feeling like a third wheel

Blue.

There is this awkward silence in the car as we head over to the mall. The only reason why I picked watching a movie is because Rex mentioned that Gyles has never been to one. I wanted to be there to share the experience with him.

I want to get to know him so bad but he is not giving me the chance to know him.

I have to be patient. I look over at him through the rearview mirror and he manages a fake smile. It almost seems too forced. I know he doesn’t want to be here with me. I wish he would look into his heart and see me. Not what he thinks I am but who I really am.

We get to the mall and he gets down from the car faster than any of us. I look at Rex and he gives me this pity look. Almost like he feels sorry for me. I don’t like the way this is going. It makes me frustrated about the whole thing.

Patience.

My wolf reassures me. I know that Rome was not built in a day. I can’t just expect this to go as smooth as it went with Rex. I need to give him the time to come around. "He is very stubborn,’’ Rex smiles at me and touches me gently on my shoulder. I close my eyes for a second because his touch is suddenly everything I need to relax.

"I just didn’t expect this to be as hard as it is,’’ I confess. I don’t know a lot about mates and Links but my willed sense helps me to read and understand things. I have felt a lot of things but, with Gyles, it is very hard to feel him. I had to get into his head to even get a sense of how he feels and even though deep down, I know he wants me, I also know that he could deny this to the point where it becomes rejection.

"Give him some time. I know he wants you too, he is just trying to push it away.’’

He says it like I am supposed to be happy about that. I am not happy, I just want him to take me in his arms and accept all of me. Is that so hard?

We get down from the car and Gyles walks over to Rex and I watch them as they exchange a smile. Something that says ’Our own world without you,’ it feels like they are excluding me and I know for a fact that Rex isn’t but with Gyles, I don’t even know.

"What movie do you want to watch?" I ignore the hostility and direct my question to Gyles because he is the reason we are here in the first place. We walk into the building as he answers me. The mall is large. I don’t even know anywhere in this town but I came here a couple of days ago to get a few clothes. Rex leads us in the direction of the cinemas as we pass people.

"I don’t know any that are good,’’ he smiles at Rex and then I watch his cheeks turn red "Can you recommend one?’’

I watch them and do I feel like a fucking third wheel. I still don’t understand how this relationship is supposed to work. How I am supposed to be in the middle when it seems like he wants me to be pushed aside.

They converse until they finally reach an agreement. After they pick the movie, I pay for the tickets and snacks and we go into the theatre. I watch them as they walk all the way up to the back and the anger resides within me. I know Rex isn’t doing this intentionally but I hate that they are leaving me out of their conversation. Once Gyles sits down, I watch Rex as he leaves a space in between him and then he winks at me. This is his way of giving him a chance to be with me. I sit in the middle of them and Gyles speaks up "I kinda thought Rex could sit in the middle. That way, we could both share him.’’

I hate that.

This is not about sharing Rex. This is about sharing all of us. I don’t know if he is doing this intentionally but I just want to slap some sense into him.

"I want to sit next to you,’’ I interject with a soft tone. I might be angry right now but I don’t want him to know that. Sure, I want him to see that his actions are hurting me but I also want him to have a good time tonight. This date is mostly about him.

"Okay,’’ he accepts dejectedly. It is weird to me that just sitting next to me could make him so irked.

I lean into Rex and he has a smile on his face "You are actually cute when smitten,’’ he exclaims. I am glad one person is having fun right now. I don’t take it as an offence because this involves him. I doubt this mating could work without him. I don’t even know how it will all come down in the first place.

I grab Rex’s hand in mine just as the lights around the theatre dim and the screen comes to light. With the side of my eye, I watch Gyles. I should be more focused on him because this is my opportunity but I can’t ignore Rex. A part of me just wants him right now—even with all the longing, my wolf has for Gyles.

The trailers start and by reflex, I feel Gyles touch me gently "Is it starting?’’ he asks me with excitement in his eyes.

My heart thuds as I answer him because I didn’t expect him to ease into me so quickly. "Not yet, they usually show a bunch of other movie trailers before they start,’’ I explain to him in a hushed tone.

He turns to me fully and our faces are just an inch apart. My heart thuds even louder, I am so sure he can hear it. Fuck, everyone in this room could hear it for all I care.

"What is a trailer?’’ he furrows his brows and the lines on the top of his forehead crinkle. It takes a lot from me to control myself at this moment. I want to reach out to him and just touch him. Know what that feels like.

Just touch him already.

My wolf urges me. A couple of minutes ago, he wanted me to be patient and now he wants me to take control of this situation. Once I touch Gyles, he is going to get that overwhelming hit that comes with finding your mate and I don’t even think this is the right time for this.

"It’s kinda like Ads for other movies, it helps market them before they come out,’’ I explain it to him. Very happy that he is giving me this chance. I know this is pathetic. Like, I am so happy to be explaining about movies and trailers.

I feel Rex as he squeezes my hand encouragingly, letting me know that he is here through it all. the movie starts and I realise immediately that they picked a horror movie. I have never been a fan of horror movies—not like I can’t stand them. I just have never seen the appeal.

"How did you guys agree to this?’ I ask Rex.

He smiles and I see the guilty expression on his face. "I kinda convinced him. He was indifferent about it, so I don’t know if he will like it."

So Rex chose the movie. I don’t know if it is a good idea to start out with horror movies but I am sure he will be able to handle it. Rex seems to like it, I mean, I expected him to be scared of these kinds of movies.

"Thought you would be scared of horror movies,’’ I voice out my thoughts as he starts to devour the popcorn.

He shakes his head, his eyes fixed on the screen. "I live for these kinds of movies,’’ he mumbles with popcorn in his mouth. His attention goes back to the movie and mine stay on Gyles. There is a lot of confusion on his face and I know he wants to ask questions but he is trying to focus on the movie. So far, it doesn’t seem like he is scared of it. So this is not a complete fail.

The movie continues and all my focus is on him. I don’t even care about the movie. All I care about is connecting with him. After about thirty minutes through the movie, his reactions change. I sense him losing interest.

"Are you okay?’’ I ask him wanting to make sure.

His eyes shift to mine and for a second, he has a confused expression on his face as he shakes his head "I am fine, I need to use the restroom,’’ he pipes up, his voice shaking.

"I can come with you,’’ I try to push but he shakes his head again.

"I saw one on the way. I will be fine,’’ he assures me and I watch him as he walks down the steps and out of the theatre.

"Is he okay?’’ Rex asks worriedly.

A big part of me knows that something is wrong and I should’ve followed him but how do I do that when he didn’t even want me to?

"You should go check up on him,’’ Rex tells me.

In that instant, I stand up from the chair and walk out, in hopes that he doesn’t get upset with me that I didn’t listen to him.