Ch. 221..225: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 221-225

Chapter 221: Temptation

Blue.

"Kiss me,’’

Those words and the expression on his face will forever be plastered to my mind. From the second those words left his lips, I knew I wouldn’t be able to refuse him. Kissing him has been on my mind since the day I saw him.

That was the reason why I pulled him into the dream. I wanted him to know what it felt like and I wanted him to want it as much as I do. But he didn’t give in to it as I thought. He stayed stubborn and chose to torment me. Now it is pretty late at night and he is staring at me with those beautiful brown eyes, asking me for the one thing that I have desperately craved.

He walks closer to me and my heart thuds.

Thump, thump.

The sound is so loud that it feels like my eardrums are about to burst. I think this all has to do with him playing hard to get. You know when you want something desperately and it is not easy to get, you want it more.

So that is how it is with him. I want him, and he knows. He has been fighting this for so long but he is here now. Deep down, he wants me and he can’t hide it anymore.

"I can’t kiss you,’’ I decide to play him at his own game. I just want him to get a taste of his own medicine. Know how I have been feeling all this while.

He raises a brow and then rests his hand on my chest. Close to my heart. Now I am sure he can feel it beating heavily. I close my eyes because his touch is doing a lot of things that I don’t want to acknowledge at this moment. He must know how much he is affecting me and now he is choosing to tease me.

"This must be a dream come through. You know you want this as much as I want this too.’’ He breathes out which makes me open my eyes abruptly. He is still watching me. There is a mischievous smile on his face.

Fuck, I hate that the smile is such a turn on for me.

I hate that I can’t resist him. Here I am staring at him with my failed attempt at playing hard to get. He slides his hand down my chest and I hiss because I know that I am going to give in to him. Slowly, he slides his hand into my shirt. His hand is as cold as ice. On my skin, it sends shivers down my spine.

"Stop doing things you will regret,’’ I warn him because I know that once the sun comes up. He will act like this never happened and I don’t want that. I don’t want to be some inconsequential person to him. I want him to remember this moment and smile. I want him to think about our first kiss and how it happened.

I want to be important to him.

"I regret being alive right now, doesn’t mean I wouldn’t keep breathing,’’ he mutters and caresses my chest. I don’t know what he means right now, I want to figure out how his mind works. I want to reach into his heart and know the things that make him sad, worried. I want to understand why he is so hard on himself and why he is pushing me away.

You need to help him remember.

Rex’s words spring up and I sigh from the frustration of it all. I don’t know if it is the best thing to do in our situation. He wants me to lie to him, deceive him into thinking I am helping him and then do the opposite of what he wants.

But you will know his truth.

My wolf prompts.

I don’t want to know his truth. I want him to use his truth to get closure. I want him to want to know. I know it is a lot to ask. Wanting to control someone but I only want this because my heart beats for him. I feel things for this man in front of me that I can’t deny.

I don’t want to.

"I am not a game to you G, I am your mate.’’ I remind him because he seems to forget that a lot. I am just someone that he is attracted to. He grabs onto my waist and presses me to him, I take a deep breath because resisting him is harder than I thought.

How do you resist someone when they are your whole being?

Mine, mine.

My wolf pipes up eagerly.

"I know, but do you want to see this from my side?" he tiptoes until he is on my height level and his lips graze mine softly "This is not easy for me. Accepting you and Rex. It is a lot to ask.’’ His mouth is so close to mine. His breath is hot. The butterflies in my tummy intensify. I can’t resist anymore—I don’t even want to.

He is justifying his actions.

I don’t understand his actions.

I just know that he is beautiful and I can’t stand the temptation any longer. I want him so badly that I will not be able to resist.

I can’t.

I make the first move. I push into him with so much forever that at first, he expresses shock with a loud gasp. A smile sprawls on my face as I slide my tongue into his mouth. I taste all that he is and it makes me tremble and shiver as I push him to the wall. He hits his back with a loud thud and the lamp next to us, huts the carpeted floor. My hands wrap around his waist and with all the strength I have, I pull him up until his waist is around me.

More, more, more.

I have never seen my wolf this excited. I don’t think about anything as I reach for his shirt and pull it off. It all happens fast. This is the first kiss that I have dreamt of. The one thing that I have been thinking about since I met him and now I have the opportunity and I want to take him all.

We keep kissing with him shirtless against me.

"Jeez, what is this?’’ he asks shakily as he pulls apart from me to help me with mine. our bodies are pressed together. There is a lot going on but all I do is focus on him and his beautiful eyes. I have never had a specific gender that I fancied but now, it is all clear to me.

He is everything I have ever wanted.

"This is everything you have been denying,’’ I tell him as he takes off my shirt. My eyes close for a second as I feel his skin on mine. This is the best thing ever. The fact that Rex is at the back of my mind is haunting me. This feels wrong but I also know he wouldn’t be upset about this. He wants this for us. The faster we get together, the faster we can all be together. This is not cheating.

Maybe I am just convincing myself of all that. Trying to make this justifiable.

I don’t know.

Right now, my wolf has all the control as I lead him to the bed. He falls on it gently and I watch him as he taunts me with his eyes.

He wants me.

God, I want him.

I climb in between his legs and he closes his eyes. "I am not denying this. I just don’t want to be tied down."

It is weird that even with everything he is saying, I still want him. I am still desperate to have this intimate moment with him.

Does that make me pathetic?

Okay, maybe it does.

I don’t care right now.

He reaches for my sweatpants. I’m not wearing anything underneath and the thought of that entices me. I want him to see me. I want to see him.

"You are thinking about this the wrong way. This is not about being tied down. This is about having two people that will always love you, for as long as you leave.’’

He rolls his eyes and then pulls my pants off. My eyes stay on him because I want to see his reaction. We are having a conversation and I want to focus on it but my dick has a mind on its own. "Your body wants me to. Why not let it win." He grabs my dick and a soft sound escapes my mouth.

Fucking hell.

What is going on?

"Why not have me...here. Right now. See if we are as compatible as you say we are." He adds teasingly.

Have him.

My wolf is not helping me. I don’t know what I am doing right now and maybe I am weaker than I thought. Maybe this will be a mistake that I will regret for the rest of my life but I lean into him and I take his pants off.

Fuck.

Chapter 222: More manipulations

Gyles.

What are you doing?

I don’t know.

This is fucked up.

I have never done anything this lowly in my whole life. I hate this as much as he will after this happens. My wolf is trembling. The fact that I know I shouldn’t do this makes me want to even more. I am attracted to blue. I think about him when I got to bed. He will always linger in my mind. I will always wonder what he feels like. This is something I have to do, even though deep down, I know that I shouldn’t do this.

Rex mentioned that we can’t have sex until the mating ceremony which is supposed to happen during a full moon. I know that he mentioned consequences. I don’t care about the consequences. I don’t care about mates and werewolves. I don’t care about the goddess of the moon. They want me to be what I am not. I will not succumb to them.

This is the only way that I can do this.

I have to find a way to cut this without being the one to cut this. I don’t know if he will agree to this but I see the desperation in his eyes. If only he reads me, with his powers. He will see that this is malicious. Yeah, I want him but I also have other intentions.

My eyes stay on him as he leans into me, kissing me again. Kissing has never felt as good as it does with them. Both of them, have me in ways that no one else ever had. I didn’t come here to ask him to have sex with me. I really had no thoughts when I walked to his house. This plan was not preconceived. It happened on the spur of the moment. I just thought about it the minute I asked him to kiss me. I am not the monster that I seem like right now.

You are a monster.

My wolf insults me. The fact that I keep shutting him out of every decision I make must make him angry. I want to shut him out to the point where he doesn’t exist anymore. I don’t want this part of me. I might seem like the villain right now and maybe I am. I loved the monster.

The boy that I fell in love with.

A part of me must have always been evil. Selfish and vindictive. I don’t even have a shred of guilt inside me—fuck, that is not true. I feel like shit right now. I don’t like that I have to stoop so low. If he knew about the mating ceremony. He wouldn’t be doing this?

Right?

"This is crazy,’’ his voice echoes in the silence of the room. I open my eyes and he is above me with a smile on his face "Rex wouldn’t like this. I don’t think we should,’’ he exhales deeply. I reach for him, wanting a lot more. Why would Rex think this is not allowed when it feels so good? At this point, I am not even thinking about the consequences. It is just so maddening that I could want him this badly—especially since I don’t want him.

It makes no sense, I know but at the same time, it does. I reach for his dick and he moans loudly against the touch. My eyes close as I start to stroke him, slowly increasing my speed. He gets harder the faster I go but I don’t want this to just end with his orgasm. I want him inside me.

"G,’’ he moans my name as I stop slowly, leading him to my entrance. There is doubt in my mind that I want him to take control of this. I know he is an Alpha male. He has it in him to take charge but I know he is scared. Terrified that I would retreat from this and pull back.

My mind is already made up.

I want him to fuck me.

"Can we not fight this, I know you want me as much as I want you,’’ I whisper into his ear seductively. I have never been this kind of person, desperate for another man’s touch but at this moment with the way my body is responding to him—I want to feel everything.

For the first time in a long time, my heart is responding to someone. It is aching desperately. He must feel the same way. He loves me.

Then don’t do this.

My wolf cries. I feel it giving up on me. He is begging me right now because he knows that there will be repercussions. I don’t care about the repercussion because I don’t want to think about them. Maybe this is just me proving that I don’t deserve this end that they all want me to have.

"You know I want you more than anything. This is the closest we have gotten since I met you. It is a gift from the deities.’’

A gift from the deities?

I call that bullshit.

This is not a gift.

He seems to think this is some sort of blessing from the gods. That I am finally giving in to him. I don’t want to give in to him. I just want him so badly. I arch my back forward until I feel his dick against me. He grunts loudly. This is torture for him. The kind that can drive a person insane.

I keep grinding into him because I am all out of words. I want him to reject me right now. I am suddenly the desperate one in this situation. This is a damn the consequences situation.

Are you giving him the opportunity to know about the consequences?

My wolf asked quietly. I am not getting the same anger from him. He seems defeated. It is nice that I finally made him this way. I made my wolf give up. This should be a celebratory moment. I am sure Blue is smart enough to decide this on his own. I am not making him do anything he doesn’t want to.

"Please give in to me," I beg him desperately.

He closes his eyes and I take that as his go-ahead. Slowly, I push him into me. At first, all I feel is pain, this kind of intense pain in my lower region. I even star5t to think it is punishment for what I am doing. My body stiffens against him and he tries to pull out of me but I quickly grab him by wrapping my legs around his waist, which in turn pulls him deeper into me. He moans loudly, opening his eyes and looking at me. He is worried about me. It warms my heart.

I take a deep breath as I try to acclimate to him. Make the pain, subside and start to feel the pleasure that I already know will come.

"Are you okay?’’ he exhales with a tone that tells me he is worried.

All I see are stars around him. This is not how I thought it would feel. Even with the pain, my heart is screaming for him. "I am, please keep going,’’ I assure him with an urgent need for me.

He smiles slowly, his eyes fixed on me. Slowly, I feel him move, at first he is gentle but the second all I feel all of him. My body finally adjusts to him. "Yeah, more,’’ I urge.

This is unlike anything I have ever felt. I start to imagine it with the two of them. Taking turns to fuck each other. My dick hardness at the thought. All the excitement that I have been refusing. The stubbornness that I have. It all completely evaporates at this moment. I start to imagine more from both of them. The love that they could give me. The life I would have with the tow of them.

Then stop this.

Don’t do things this way.

My wolf begs me. I stiffen suddenly as he pushes into me. This time, he doesn’t sense my change in mood. For the first time, I have regrets. I don’t know why this has to happen now but everything that I have don’t up until this moment, flashes right before my eyes.

The way I have treated him.

The decision to make him do this even though I knew I shouldn’t. "Wait,’’ I grab his waist as he tries to kiss me. He stops immediately because that is just the kind of person he is. He cares too much and I have not even appreciated him once since I came here. I used him and manipulated him.

I treated him like shit and I had no remorse.

"What’s wrong?" he manages with heavy breaths. His face is red, his eyes are dark. This would have been a perfect sight, if not for the situation. The fact that I might have ruined all the chance I have of being with him.

Fuck.

Chapter 223: The rejection

Blue.

"What’s wrong?’’

I ask him because he is as white as snow. There is an expression on his face that I can’t sense. I am always good at reading people. My willed sense is not working with him. It hasn’t been working all night. Maybe all my emotions have been clouding my strong sense of judgement. It was overwhelming. The fact that he was here with me. He wanted me for the first time and my wolf just couldn’t handle refusing him.

We gave him what he wanted because we are weak. So weak that we couldn’t even control ourselves.

Don’t blame me. This is all you.

My wolf denies having any part in this. It wasn’t just me but maybe a stronger part of me. I mean, I am the one that accepted to do this even though I knew that it was not right excluding Rex. I just think that he would understand this.

The mating ceremony.

It’s just a thought that comes to my head. I don’t even know why I am thinking about that. He hasn’t even agreed to be with us. He is still in his denial phase. I don’t think this even means anything. He won’t just accept me all of a sudden. That just seems too good to be true.

He pushes out of me and I feel as alone as I did just before he came to see me. I don’t know what I could have done wrong but the regret kicks in. he grabs his clothes immediately and I see the tears in his eyes. He looks so terrified. I want to read him right now but it is not working. He is blocking me out. I don’t even know how he does it but the wall that I am always able to penetrate him is blocked.

He grabs his clothes and I watch him as he hurriedly puts them on. I get up from the bed and grab him quickly before he can escape out of my room without explaining to me what is wrong "Hey,’’ I mutter quietly.

He wipes the tears from his face "I got to go, I am sorry.’’ he manages, his eyes fixed to the door. He wants to escape from this without talking to me about it. We had sex. No matter how much he wants to deny this—it happened.

I shake my head because I refuse to just let him go "This is not a big deal. We can talk about this without any problems. Rex wouldn’t mind. He will understand.’’

I try to reason with him but all he does is cry and shake his head "You wouldn’t think so after you find out,’’ he manages.

I furrow my brows because I don’t know what he is talking about. I know that Rex shouldn’t be kept out of these things but we are in this relationship together. There are bound to be times where we will have intimate moments with one person absent. This whole thing is confusing. I don’t still understand how it works but I want to make it work. If he is scared about how Rex will react then I will talk to Rex. I will make this right so he doesn’t have to worry.

"We will work this out,’’ I assure him.

"It’s too late. I messed it all up,’’ he shouts at me. Finally, I get into his heart. He shows me everything and slowly, I let go of him because I can’t comprehend this. How much could he have not wanted this that he would sabotage it all?

He closes his eyes as the tears fall.

I take a step away from him because suddenly, it all makes sense. How could I be so stupid? How did I not know about this?

I was present for Beau’s ceremony. I should’ve asked Jules. I should’ve understood the process. Sometimes I feel like I know everything but now it is clear to me that I don’t know the things that are important. My happiness is suddenly snatched away from me in the blink of an eye. How will I tell Rex? What do I even say to him?

Will he ever forgive me?

"What happens now?’’ I ask him.

He knows that I already know. There is no way I would’ve If he didn’t want me to. He showed that to me intentionally. He wanted me to see what he has done. He wanted me to feel this pain that is gnawing at my chest. My heart is shattering and it is all thanks to the person that is supposed to protect it. I see him and my future with him is slowly slipping away. I am slowly losing everything just because of him.

"I don’t know,’’ he cries and I watch him run his hands through his hair from the frustration of it all. I take a deep breath because I have no words. I don’t have the answers to this for the first time in my life. I am speechless.

"You didn’t want me. You were so clear on that. Why did you do this?’’ I ask him because I want to know what he was thinking.

How selfish could he be?

"I don’t know. I..." he doesn’t answer me. He doesn’t say anything sensible at this moment, even though I am so sure that this move he made was vindictive. He knew what he was doing and he knew that I had no clue. He knew that I would do anything he wanted and he took advantage of that. i am so angry. My wolf is angry too.

"I feel everything now. I don’t want to deny this anymore." He confesses and this is the moment I have been waiting for. This is everything that I have wanted, from the first day I met him but it doesn’t feel the same anymore.

It took breaking me completely to get him to want me—now I can’t have him. Or at least it feels like I have lost the opportunity to.

He tries to touch me but I take a step from him and shake my head "I need you to leave,’’ I tell him. I am done fighting for him./ I have fucking tried and he hasn’t even helped me once. He makes me think that I have a chance and he completely crushes that chance. I won’t be taken for a fool. It seems like this isn’t going to work.

"Please, I don’t want to. I can’t right now," he begs. I feel his pain but this doesn’t mean anything. It is just the guilt of the whole situation. I know he is not a bad person. I just don’t think this thing between us is going to work. I can’t be with someone that would deceive me or trick me.

He keeps saying he doesn’t want to be controlled, that he wants to choose. Well at this moment, I am choosing to let him go.

"You finally have what you want. I am fucking done. I will never ask you for anything. I will never expect anything either.’’ My words are cold and my wolf is crying, begging me to look for a solution to make things better, instead of shutting him out but I can’t anymore. I see things clearly now and nothing is going to change how selfish he is. he will always think about himself. He will never fully live me as much as I love him.

There will always be something that will make him do things and I don’t want to be here for it.

What about Rex?

Rex will have to choose. He will have to decide who he wants. I don’t want to do this with Gyles. I don’t want to have anything to do with him again.

"You thought you would be the one rejecting me," he shakes his head incessantly.

"I don’t want that. I want to try. I want to make things right. I want things to work between all of us. Please give me one last chance." He cries.

He is trying to pull my wolf in.

I look away from him because as much as I want to deny this, my heart still beats for him. Even though it is shattered now and bleeding, it is still responding to him. I am not going back from this. I am not taking this back.

"I am rejecting you, Gyles. This is your chance to be free. No more control.’’ With those words, I see the light in his eyes dim. I have never come across a rejected wolf. I never thought I would but I see it in his eyes. The light is gone and with that, he would wither, until every bit of him slowly dies. The anger in me is too much to even feel anything. He has succeeded in making me numb to everything.

I leave the room for him, not even taking a glance at him.

I am fucking done.

Chapter 224: The truth is out there

Rex.

I open my eyes abruptly, my heart racing uncontrollably. I don’t know what is wrong but I feel weird. I look around me and the room is empty. The lights are off. The only light is coming from the window. The moon is almost full.

The closer we get to a full moon, the more eager my wolf is.

It has been pretty chill, considering everything that I have bombarded on him. I just want things to quicken between all of us. Maybe that is a lot to ask for considering the direness of the situation. Gyles is stubbornly refusing us. He is refusing to accept Blue and I sense him withdrawing from me in the process.

Something is wrong.

I feel something heavy in my chest. It is the middle of the night. I don’t know why I have this feeling that something terrible has happened. Slowly, I get up from my bed and walk to my bathroom pouring water on my face. I was supposed to see Blue but we had already talked about what he wanted to. I am very worried about him—Gyles is affecting him a lot more than I actually thought he would. Blue is strong and resilient.

I hear a knock on my door, which makes me walk over to the door slowly, there is a part of me that doesn’t want to open it. Something is very wrong and I can’t pinpoint what it is exactly. The fact that someone is outside my door so late at night terrifies me because of all I am feeling inside.

Once I open the door, I see Blue, his eyes are red, and he is breathing heavily. It seems like he ran here. "Hey,’’ I manage, opening the door further.

He walks into the room, and I watch him as he stops near the bed and sits down on it. Slowly, his hands cover his face "I messed up Rex. I don’t know if I can fix it,’’ he admits.

I furrow my brow as I walk over to the bed and place my hand on his shoulder. His body feels like it’s on fire. He is burning up. I can’t even focus on finding out what is wrong with him because I have never seen a wolf sick. It feels like he has a fever.

"Babe, you’re burning up,’’ I try to look at him. His eyes are covered, he is shaking.

"I messed up,’’ he tries again as I finally succeed in getting him on his feet. I reach for his shirt and pull it off immediately as I lead him to the bed "I need to regulate your temperature." I tell him before running back to the bathroom. I grab a bowl and fill it up with water, grabbing two towels from the drawer under the sink. When I get back to the room, he is asleep. I walk over to him and pull the covers over him, placing the towel on his head. I don’t know what happened and I am so panicked right now.

Whatever it is, seems serious. I have to wait until tomorrow to find out and I can’t do that because I know myself. I will worry and think the worst and then I won’t be able to sleep all night. Blue is not in the right frame of mind to tell me. I just have a feeling that this must have something to do with Gyles. There are on rocky grounds right now and I feel like he is the only one that could really affect the guy like this.

I should be upset with Gyles because this is affecting me too. As long as he doesn’t accept Blue, he won’t accept me too.

I walk out of the room and in the direction of Gyles’s room. Before I even knock, he opens it up. His eyes are as red as Blue. He looks as tired and sick as Blue. What the fuck happened between them.

"You have to tell me what happened,’’ I blurted out those words. Deep down, he knows what I am talking about. I don’t know what it is but he does.

"He rejected me,’’ he manages.

I shake my head in disbelief. I know what he means but I can’t believe it. There is no way Blue would reject Gyles. He loves him. For the past two weeks, he has been fighting to finally get him. This makes absolutely no sense.

"That can’t be right,’’ I manage, still at a loss for words.

He sighs loudly and a tear falls from his eyes down to his cheek, I reach for him to wipe it off and his temperature is as hot as Blue. They have the same symptoms.

"He hates me and it is all my fault.

Which means that he is the one that did something. Whatever transpired between them must be Gyles fault. It seems like he is the one that did something. Saying that he rejected him seems farfetched to me. He must have just been angry. That is the only way he would say that. I don’t even want to believe it because I know Blue. He is a calm person. He is the one person that I know doesn’t get angry. He wouldn’t just condemn Gyles.

He is patient.

"I will talk to him. I will figure this out, don’t worry about anything.’’ I try to assure him but this time, it feels different. Something is really wrong and I don’t know if it will be okay. Will things get back to the way they were.

"There is no going back,’’ Gyles rambles on and on. I am trying to be here for him even though Blue is in my room right now. I have to be in the middle. There are no taking sides because I feel the same things for them equally.

"Just calm down. Let me talk to him.’’

He shakes his head and grabs me tightly "Don’t leave me,’’ he begs desperately. He is doing what he always does. He is trying to make me choose him over Blue. I can’t choose. I don’t want to be put in the middle because I don’t have the will power to do that.

"I will be back,’’ I tell him.

He shakes his head incessantly "If you leave, you will choose him.’’ I know that has been his fear all along. He doesn’t want to lose me and he thinks that Blue will take me from him when I am here to stay. I am here for him but he doesn’t believe that.

He doesn’t trust me.

"I am not choosing anyone. I love you both." I interject, my eyes fixed to his. Right now, he needs to rest and stop worrying about all this. I am sure they had a fight. Or he said some hurtful things to get Blue upset but I am pretty sure it will be settled when they wake up in the morning.

"You won’t love me when he tells you the truth. You won’t choose me when you know." he lets go of me and rests his head on the bed. I take a deep breath because now I am scared of whatever transpired between them. "Nothing will make me love you less. This thing between us is unconditional. You need to understand that.’’

He scoffs, "Even if I had sex with Blue knowing that it would ruin the mating Ritual?"

I freeze at his words because I wasn’t expecting that. Blue would never do that. I know this is something that Rex might do but Blue wouldn’t do that. He wouldn’t be so rash about a decision.

I messed up.

His words spring up to my head. He came into my room looking dejected. He said he messed up. Is that what he was talking about?

Shit.

"That can be true. Blue wouldn’t.’’

The tears that were starting to dry up, start falling again as he sits up, on the bed "He didn’t know. he didn’t know about the consequences."

That makes no sense to me.

Blue is smart.

He should’ve suspected.

He knows better.

Chapter 225: The call

Blue.

I open my eyes and I look around. The sun is out, the room is bright. I know where I am instantly but I don’t remember how I got here. I sit up on the bed and look around. The room is empty. Last night comes surging in and my heart pounds terribly. I didn’t want to remember everything but how can I forget the betrayal?

How can I forget all the words we shared amongst ourselves? The look on his face as I said those words. I have regrets but I can’t go back.

He hurt me so much and I don’t know how to go back from that.

He didn’t even think about me at all. He used me for his selfish reasons and now I am supposed to just accept him.

The door opens suddenly and I jump off the bed "Oh, you’re awake,’’ Rex walks into the room with a worried expression on his face. I don’t know if he knows everything that happened and frankly I don’t even know how I am supposed to tell him of this betrayal. Having sex with Gyles ruined everything and my decisions will always affect him. No matter how I see it. This thing is between three people, so we all have to make our own separate decisions. I want to ask him to choose me but I don’t know if his answer will go in my favour.

You can’t choose.

My wolf informs me of the one thing I already know. I don’t know how this thing work and I don’t know if I can handle everything because this is more than I even know. He said there will be consequences of having sex before the ritual, I want to know what those consequences are. I thought I had vast knowledge and I could sense things but my powers are useless when it comes to me. I can’t do anything to help myself.

"How are you feeling now?’’ he walks over to me and places his palm on my forehead. "Your fever is gone,’’ he manages a faint smile. I look up at him. I am fishing for information silently because he must know already.

Right?

"You can just ask,’’ he states finally.

I sigh because I don’t know what to ask. He doesn’t seem angry with me and if the roles were reversed, I would be upset. What we did, we excluded him and that is not fair. Now that everything has happened, it feels even more like cheating. The fact that I have ruined the chances of all three of us together making it hurt even more.

"I am sorry,’’ I go for an apology because I feel like that is what he needs right now. I also need him to forgive me. I shouldn’t have been as rash as I was yesterday.

"For what exactly. You have to be specific because I think you have a lot of things to be sorry for.’’ He breathes out coldly.

I don’t like the way he is right now but I can’t blame him. This is all my fault. At the end of this all, I am the one that caused the most damage. I shouldn’t have given in to Gyles. I shouldn’t have brought him into my room, knowing how I was around him. It was a mistake but there is nothing I can do now. it has already happened.

"Why did you tell him you rejected him?’’ is that all he can take from this, my rejection?

I sigh "Does that even matter anymore?’’

He nods "You can just go around rejecting your mate,’’ he says defensively.

I raise a brow and move away from him. He is really going to take Gyles’s side on this? I don’t even want to believe that is what is happening. It baffles me that he would think in this way.

"I don’t want to be with him anymore,’’ I tell him blatantly.

"You have no choice. We have no choice.’’

I laugh "He doesn’t want you. You will never accept us, so the sooner you get that into your head, the better.’’

I have been deceiving myself all this while. Thinking I would have a chance to make him mine but after last night, I don’t want to anymore. I don’t want to beg for his love and affection. It shouldn’t be this hard. He is not the first and he will never be the last, so why do I have to suffer for him?

"You had sex with him, he didn’t force you.’’

I knew he was going to say it like that and he is right. I chose to have sex with him—last night, I was excited. I wanted him so badly and the little attention he was giving me, made me go crazy and it ended up messing everything up.

"I didn’t know,’’ I tell him the truth.

He sighs "Deep down, you must have known Blue. You had to know that having sex with him would be wrong. I wasn’t there. So this is on the tow of you. Not just him.’’

He is fucking accusing me right now.

"This is not my fault, please don’t twist things and make me the bad guy," I beg him desperately. I need him more than anything right now. He is the only one I have on my corner. If he chooses to stick to Gyles’s side. I will have no one and I wouldn’t be able to survive it.

"I am not saying it is your fault—okay, maybe I am but I just need you to understand that we need to focus on a solution and not the problem. Can we do that?’’

"I don’t want to be with him again Rex. I am fucking done.’’

My wolf doesn’t agree with me but right now, I need to do this for myself. I have never been taken for a fool by anyone as much as I have with him. I hate that he manipulated me so much to the point where I did something that messed everything up. He will only continue to use the power he has over me for as long as I let him and I am done letting him.

"You are breaking up with me.’’

I shake my head "Not you. I don’t want to let you go. We can find a way to make this thing work with just the two of us.’’ I grab his hands in mine and squeeze them gently. I know I am putting him in a tough spot but it needs to be done. I met him first, I knew first. I can sever their bond.

There could be a spell.

"I am not choosing. I will rather die from heartbreak than choose.’’

Rex is the one that would suffer the most out of us. He needs us to survive, so in the end. I have to make him choose. I can’t let anything happen to him. He is too important to me. I need him to be okay after everything.

I need to make sure of that.

"I am not going to let that happen,’’ I tell him.

He sighs "Then let us figure out how to appease the gods. I know that there are consequences but there will also be a way to get out of it. Let’s ask Alby and get to the bottom of it and then we can find a way to make it work.’’

He is trying to rationalize.

I can’t anymore.

"I can’t.’’

"Please Blue. Gyles made a mistake and he wants to make things right. You can’t just shut him off now, he needs us.’’

He is sympathizing with him.

Maybe because of all the things that he has been through. He doesn’t even know what he went through. The guy doesn’t even want to remember. What could he have gone through that would make him so fucked up.

I still can’t get over what he did.

It makes me mad.

So mad that I can’t even see myself getting over it anytime soon. I leave Rex, even more, sure that I don’t want Gyles anymore. He tried to convince me but I will not take it. I will not accept him. When I get to the house Jules looks up at me from the couch in the living room.

He is leaving tomorrow.

"Your phone has been blowing off,’’ he tells me "Your mother called me,’’ he says almost in confusion. They don’t have a relationship, so whatever she called him for must be important.

"What did she want?" I ask him as he hands me my phone.

"I took it from your room. You should call her back.’’ He informs me as I collect the phone from him. There is a look of worry on his face. Almost like he knows something that I don’t. I walk to my room and dial her number immediately. Someone else answers.

Her sister Levine.

The minute I hear her voice, I know that something.