Ch. 226..230: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 226-230

Chapter 226: Payback

Blue.

"You need to come home,’’ she breathes into the phone.

My heart thuds against my chest. I know what this means and I don’t want to have to up and leave right now, especially with the way things are with Rex. he needs me the most right now but this call also signifies that she needs me to.

"What happened?’’ I ask her worriedly.

She sighs into the phone "Your mom is really hurt; she needs your blood.’’

I know what that means instantly.

"How bad is it?’’ I ask her.

She sighs "Very bad, how long will it take you to get home."

"Two days,’’

"You need to make it one.’’

"I need to go with you,’’ I tell Jules. A smile sprawls up to his face as the words leave my lips. He thinks I am leaving with him but this doesn’t have anything to do with him. I already made up my mind to stay here because of Rex.

And Gyles.

My wolf reminds me. somehow he seems to think that I will forgive him for what he did. That all the anger I had will evaporate but I am so sure that I won’t. I want him to feel a taste of his own medicine. The way he has treated me, I want the same thing for him. there is no way I will just take him back and find a way to make this work. The only person I want is Rex. I want to try for him. I am going to do my research. I will find a way to make sure this doesn’t affect him. he is going to come out stronger once I am done.

He is my only priority.

"Mom is hurt again. I need to get to her,’’ I tell him, so he doesn’t think I am going back with him. I just need him for the ride—until we get closer to home.

He sighs "And she needs you again?’’

I nod.

"Are you coming back here, or to me?’’ he asks.

I know that I will be back here but I don’t know how long it will take this time. This is not the first time mom has been hurt. In the coven, there is always someone that wants to take her place as head witch, I don’t know who it is or what happened this time but from the way her sister sounded, it seems pretty bad.

"I plan to come back. I have some unfinished business,’’

He sighs "Your mates?’’ he asks.

I freeze in shock that he knows. Deep down, I felt that he would. Jules is pretty smart. I am sure he picked up on the way I have been acting. Just because he is a lone wolf, doesn’t mean that he doesn’t know when someone finds their mate.

"You knew?’’

He nods and then smiles "Of course I knew. I knew the moment it happened, have just been waiting for you to tell me.’’

He was waiting for me?

Fuck.

"I just wanted to figure things out.’’

He nods in understanding "So is it the one that came over yesterday?’’ he asks.

I shake my head immediately. there is no way I will accept that he is my mate. especially since I just rejected him.

"No, Rex. the one with the glasses." I know that is the only way he will remember him. rex is not pretty memorable, at least, if you don’t know him. Once you get to know him, you will not be able to stop thinking about him.

He smiles "So, how is he going to feel with you leaving him just when he found you?’’

I shrug. I actually do need to talk to him "I will talk to him about it before I leave.’’

I walk out of the house because I don’t know what to do anymore. I know I have to go home but a big part of me wants to stay here with him. there is this emptiness inside me. I know it is because of yesterday. I don’t fully understand the repercussions of having sex with Gyles but I know they will come and we will both know when that happens.

"Blue,’’ I stop mid-track as I hear his voice. right now, I am not in the right frame of mind. I don’t want to see him. I don’t want to talk to him.

Why not?

My wolf asks me. I know the reason why I think the best thing will be to avoid him is because of how I feel. I still feel things for him. I still wish things had turned out differently and if I keep seeing him. I will get swayed. I will push for more; I will forget all the selfish things he has done to me.

I turn around slowly. I don’t know what I expect but what I see is nothing like it. His skin is pale. There are dark circles around his eyes. His eyes are as dull as yesterday. It has just been a day. How could he look so terrible?

I turn away from him immediately because I don’t want to worry. I don’t want to talk to him. I know why he is here. He is turning around when it is already too late. I gave him enough time to see that we could be great together. I gave him enough time to love me but he chose to be a selfish prick and now he wants to act like yesterday didn’t happen. That he didn’t intentionally deceive me into having sex with me.

I don’t even want to think about it.

"Wait," he calls me, I feel his grip on my arm. It is like electricity surging through my whole body and hitting my heart immediately.

I shouldn’t want him.

I shouldn’t crave him.

He is still yours.

My wolf reminds me. I shake my head immediately because I already rejected him. I don’t want to have anything to do with him. no matter what my wolf thinks. No matter how my body responds to me. I will not accept this anymore.

"You need to fucking get your hand off me this instant,’’ I warn him. My voice is cold. Unlike I have ever heard it before. No one has ever made me this angry. in all my life. He is the first person to channel all this hate inside me.

I look at him and there are tears in his eyes "Please talk to me,’’ he begs desperately.

He is trying to do that thing he does—manipulate me into swaying. This time it won’t work. I will not succumb to him. I will not give him the satisfaction of having what he wants all the fucking time. That is not how works.

He is selfish and inconsiderate.

"I don’t have anything to say to you,’’ I tell him blatantly.

He thinks we will talk about this and everything will get back to normal. I will not give him the chance.

"Can I do the talking?"

"I don’t want to listen to you either. I made myself clear last night. I don’t want to have anything to do with you.’’

He sighs and then slowly his hand detaches from mien "I feel like I am dying. I feel empty. Please don’t do this to me,’’ he begs.

I laugh "I felt that way all along."

He shakes his head "It is different. I didn’t reject you Blue. I didn’t know what I wanted and that was why I acted up.’’ He explains, which just makes me even angrier.

"You were fucking going to.’’

I know he was. He didn’t want me. there was a pull, he couldn’t deny that but he didn’t want me and now that the same thing is happening to him—he wants me to just let things go.

"I didn’t mean to hurt you. I just have a lot of stuff going on. Things that I couldn’t remember. Things that I know will hurt me."

His memories. The one thing that he has been using as an excuse to act like a jerk. He thinks that he would have been a good person if all that didn’t happen to him. he will always be the selfish person that he is. He will always be this way, no matter what happens.

"You want to forget so bad?’’ I ask him.

He nods.

I smile. I want to give him a taste of his own medicine. I want to give him exactly what he gave to me. pain and suffering.

I reach for him.

All the memories he wants to forget. I will do him the opposite. I will help him remember and maybe his pain will intensify. Maybe it will hurt him to the point where he is a shell of himself like he just made me.

"I will help you forget,’’ I grab his temples as he watches me. there is fear in his eyes. He doesn’t know if he can trust me and I know he shouldn’t trust me but he asked for this.

He will get exactly what he wants.

Chapter 227: Remember

Gyles.

You can trust him.

I want to listen to my wolf because everything that has happened to me has been because I have refused to listen to my wolf but I don’t know if he is sincere right now. the look on his face tells me everything I need to know.

He hates me right now.

He hates me because of the things I have done and I don’t blame him. I have been selfish and I used him and I don’t blame him for the way he feels about me. The moment he reaches for me, my heart skips a beat from his touch. I still don’t understand how my feelings could just change overnight but for the first time in my whole existence. I am sure about something. I am sure that I love him. I am sure that he and rex will make me the happiest I will ever be. I have been so blind to it all and maybe having sex with him needed to happen. Yesterday made me see things clearly for what they really are and even though I might have pissed him off along the lines. I want to make things right.

Rex is on a mission to figure out how we can make things right in time for the next full moon. I don’t know what it means. I don’t know what we have caused by what we did last night but I want to fix it with him.

I want to make things right.

He seems to have shut me out completely but deep down I know that as long as I am alive. There will always be a part of him that will love me. just the same way, I didn’t want him but always found myself wanting to be around him.

I close my eyes because his touch is electric and he is not even doing it on purpose. I hear him murmur so low. It almost sounds like he is speaking another language. We are in the middle of the compound. Right now, I am using all the strength I have to stay on my feet. Ever since yesterday, I have felt weak. I don’t know why but it must be because of how angry I made him. he cut ties with me and my wolf felt the most of it. he has been pretty silent all through the night. I know I said I wanted him to shut up but now I miss him. it feels like a crucial part of me is being shut off and it is not a nice feeling.

I will help you.

That is what he said but why does it feel like he doesn’t want to help me. it feels like he wants to hurt me. I want to trust him because this is all my fault but a part of me doesn’t believe that he wants to help.

"You have to loosen up,’’ he bellows at me. I open my eyes and he is watching me with this inpatient expression plastered on his face.

"What do I do?"

He sighs loudly "Close your eyes,’’ he orders me. I do exactly as he asks. "Now think about something that makes you happy?’’ he breathes out.

I open my eyes "Is this going to work?’’ I ask him.

He grunts. I don’t actually think this is the time for this but I want to forget so bad and he wants to help me. I know he hasn’t forgiven me or even accepted me but this could be a start. Maybe this will make things better.

I close my eyes again and this time the only sounds I hear are the sounds of his breathing. Slowly, I feel a chemical pull. At first, I think it is just in my head but after a couple of seconds. I feel an out-of-body experience which in turn feels like my soul is being ripped out of my body. My mind travels far. The first thing I see is his face.

These are the memories I want to forget.

All the time I spent in the pack.

Why am I seeing his face?

No, no, no.

I try to pull myself out of it but I am stuck. I know what he is doing. he is punishing me. making me suffer for all I did to him. I should be upset but I called for it all. This is all my fault. The only reason why he would do something like this is because of how much he hates me. that is the only explanation I have for this and I deserve it.

It has been years.

Slowly, I am getting accustomed to life in the community. I even started calling him dad. It is weird but he has shown me a lot that makes me feel safe with him and my plan is to find Roger once he gives me a chance to leave. he said I am not a prisoner and as each day goes by, it feels like I am not but he still keeps me in the basement. He says that is the safest place for me until I am strong enough. He is scared that something would happen to me. he worries all the time that something would happen and I will disappear just as I did when I was born.

I have never really told him about my plan to find my one true love because I don’t want anything to ruin it. it has been ten years already. He is probably all grown up. I keep thinking about the kind of person he would’ve become.

I imagine how he has aged. How beautiful he would be. There are so many thoughts that run through my head concerning him. I know he will always be my favorite person. No matter how old he is.

"Are you ready for tonight?’’ Will, one of the people dad sent to watch over me. I have become close friends with him. somehow being alone all the time is not the easiest thing to deal with.

"Not really,’’ I tell him. tonight, is my awakening ceremony. Finally, my father wants to bring out the wolf inside me. he has prolonged this ceremony for so many years. He wanted me to be completely ready for it and for the first time in a long time, I feel like I am.

"Fenris looks more nervous than you. it almost seems like you’re the only hope he has left." He tells me jokingly.

Yes, he lets me know that every time. He doesn’t have any family left. His best friend and brother killed his wife. Took me away from him—so I completely understand why he has trust issues. After finding me, he has been on edge. Worrying over things going wrong.

This is the only chance he has left and I want to make him proud.

Chapter 228: The memory I wanted to forget

Gyles.

Memories.

The ceremony is supposed to start in an hour. In the ceremony, they are supposedly going to wake me up and make me who I really am.

I am in my room, or should I say the basement. I hear a knock on the door "Come in,’’ I shout already knowing who he is. Fenris walks into the room with a smile on his face. He is so excited for tonight—a lot more than I am. I am just doing this for him. I want to get to the point where he trusts me so that I can go and look for Roger. I have missed him so much. I have been thinking of the things I will say to him.

He must think I am already dead.

He might have moved on?

I never asked him to wait for me and I will completely understand if he has but there is a part of me that hopes he doesn’t move on. The part of me that loves him so much. the part of me that gave him my heart.

"Are you ready for tonight,’’ he asks.

I grab the pair of shorts on the bed. Apparently, that is all I am supposed to wear. Shorts. He said I will turn, so I shouldn’t have more than shorts. I haven’t really accepted the part fo me that is Lycan but I will do this for him. I will accept it all for him because the man in front of me has been through so much. I think about all he has gone through and all the anger that I felt for him killing my family wipes away. Revenge is not the best thing. It eats at your soul, turns you into a monster and I don’t think he is a monster. He had every right to kill them. He wanted to get his son back.

I have been rationalizing his actions. Trying to understand him and slowly, I have been coming to understand him.

"I guess I am,’’ I tell him.

He smiles.

"Would I be able to leave this basement once it is done?’’ I ask him.

He nods immediately "of course. You know you are not a prisoner. You know that this is just for your own safety.’’

I nod because he has explained it to me so many times. At first, I felt like a prisoner but now, he leaves the doors open. He makes sure I can come out when I want to bit most times, I just want to stay inside. It is comforting knowing that I don’t have anything to do most times. I know the responsibilities will come. I know that eventually, I will have to take on some things in the pack, but for now, there is not too much pressure on me.

"Yeah, I know, thanks,’’ I tell him.

He smiles, I can see the excitement in his eyes. It took a long time for me to be here but I have finally reached a place of acceptance. I know who I am and I am going to take it all with pride. There is no denying anymore and I will not hate the man that has gone through so much. I have accepted him as my father and I will not let him down.

Nighttime comes and all l the nerves that I have been feeling all day dissipate. There is a bonfire outside, from my window, I can see glimpses of people. Their shadows most times, but there is no curiosity in me to know what is happening outside.

Will walks into my room with a smile. "You ready?’’ he urges me but in that instant, we both hear a scream so loud that it echoes through the walls. I freeze at first because this just feels like de ja vu. I already know that something bad is about to happen.

"What was that?’’ I ask Will.

He looks at the door for a couple of seconds and I sense the fear inside him. he knows too that something has happened "Stay here,’’ he tells me before walking out of the room. I hear the click of the lock. He just locked me inside. There is no way I can come out now.

The sounds of cries get louder. This is all too familiar. My body responds to the cries like the last time something like this happened. An ambush. The last time we were attacked. I walk over to the window. I see the fire, it is still bright and booming but here I am, in my room unable to do anything. I try to budge the doors open but to no avail. He kept it tight in order to protect me and now I can’t do anything to protect them. The door opens finally but it is from the outside.

I see the man. His eyes are red, and there is an evil smile on his face as he tries to grab me. I am dressed in only the pair of shorts I was given for the ceremony. I try to dodge him but he is too fast. "what do we have here?’’ he asks as he grabs me around my neck. I groan from the pain of his grip. I try to push him off me but he is too strong.

His scent is strong. I recognize him as one of my kind. He is a vampire. Just like me. he drags me out of the house until we get outside. I see everyone, the whole pack. murdered in cold blood. My eyes search for him. Fenris, the man that has suffered in his lifetime. I pray silently, that he found a way to escape, that he didn’t suffer the same fate as his people.

My eyes find him immediately, in a corner in the compound. There is a hole in his chest. His eyes are open and the smell of death enters my nostrils. I push away from the man that brought me out and he lets me run over to him. I grab him immediately; I already know that there is nothing I can do. He is dead, everyone is dead.

They killed them all.

"No,’’ I manage as the tears fall out of my eyes. I don’t know what to do. There is nothing I can do. They killed them all and they will do the same to me.

"What is a vampire doing in a werewolf community,’’ the man walks up to me.

His eyes are still red. He is murderous right now and he wouldn’t spare me. one of the men with him walks over to him "What should we do to him. he is one of our kind. Cassius never told us to kill vampires." He asks.

The other man grabs his phone from his pocket and I watch them unsure of what to do. I don’t even have the energy to run. I am weak right now because now it seems like I am the problem. I cause pain for everyone around me. people that are around me always end up dying. There is nothing I can do but be alone.

"Hello boss,’’ the man breathes into the phone.

I close my eyes as they continue the conversation "There is a vampire here, what should we do with him?’’

I wait, i hear the voice on the other end. It sounds so familiar. My heart hurts even though I can’t pinpoint it right now.

"Is he one of them?’’ the person on the other end asks.

"It seems like he is."

’’Kill him,’’ he tells them. I am already numb to it all and now dying doesn’t seem like a bad idea. The best thing for me to do right now is die. The vampire ends the call and releases a heavy sigh.

"I didn’t sign up for killing vampires. This is not what I agreed to.’’ He tells his partner. Who just shrugs nonchalantly. They came here with the intent to kill and now they are acting like they are decent people.

"Just lock him up in the basement, he will eventually die,’’ one other person walks over to us and suggest.

They drag me back to the basement. The place I have spent the last five years and they close the door on me. leaving me to rot.

I sit on the bed as my heart breaks. I don’t know what I was expecting but I just needed a break. I just needed the hurt to stop. Slowly, I close my eyes, and then I do the only thing that makes sense right now.

I shut it off.

My humanity, everything that makes me, me.

I let go because there is no point living. The walls I am in will close and I will perish with everyone here. The way it should be.

When this is all over. I will finally be free. I will finally be away from all the misery and I just don’t want to remember this day.

Chapter 229: The black wolf

Blue.

I feel him as he trembles against me. I see everything that he feels. It makes me regret my decision. I shouldn’t have done this. I let the anger get the best of me and now I have done something so vile and awful.

He pushes away from me and I shake as I try to catch him but it is too late as he falls to the ground. His eyes are closed, his breath is heavy. This is the payback I wanted before I left. To see him suffer but this is not the kind of person I am. I hate that I have stooped so low in this money. That I just used his one weakness against him.

He is unconscious "Gyles,’’ I call his name. In a split second, his eyes open and he jumps away from me. there are tears in his eyes as he takes a step away from me "How could you do this to me,’’ he shouts so loud it feels like his voice echoes.

I try to take a step towards him. He raises his hands up in the air—almost like a warning for me to stay back. He is still breathing heavily. I wish I had just walked away from him. I wish I didn’t do this.

His eyes brighten at that moment, just like they did that night. This time is different because I watch him as he falls to his knees. I can’t even apologize because deep down, I am not even sorry. I wanted him to feel a taste of his own medicine. I wanted to let him know that he can’t help hurting people. That he is not the only one that can be selfish and manipulative. Life doesn’t work that way. Yes, I did this intentionally but all I feel is remorse.

He tries to grab the sand and I watch him as sounds of bones cracking erupt out of him. I know these sounds all too well. I know what is happening in this moment. This is not my first rodeo. For two weeks, I tried to bring this side out of him but all it took was a little shake down memory lane.

His eyes remain fixed to mine. I watch as he screams out in pain. Slowly, his skin starts to tear. The clothes on his body rip apart as his true from comes to play.

His Lycan side.

The part of him that calls to me. The best part of him—because honestly Gyles really isn’t such a good person. I don’t want him anymore. I am a hundred percent not taking him back, no matter how much he begs. No matter what happens but I want to help him.

"Please, make it stop,’’ he begs me. He sounds like he is in agony. I remember the first time I turned. I thought I was going to die. It felt terrible and I guess that happens when you are a late bloomer. We were both late bloomers. At least I had Jules. He doesn’t have anyone.

He has you.

My wolf reminds me.

I shake my head because I am not going to go back to him. I am not going to look for ways to make this work. There is no way he will just get away with treating me like shit.

No way in hell.

"Don’t fight it, let it happen,’’ I urge him, completely contradicting my thoughts. I watch him as his fur starts to come out. It seems like he is doing this slowly. It is usually a very fast process. He is still fighting it. I sense his wolf. The desperation is so strong.

He wants to come out.

"Breathe and embrace the pain. That is the only way this will work.’’ I assure him and I watch him as he listens to me obediently.

My eyes remain on him as I hear footsteps. I know who it is before I even see the person "is it finally happening?’’ he asks me excitedly.

I nod even though I can’t look at him right now. I am still upset with him. The fact that he just took Gyles’s side made me feel like I was alone. My feelings weren’t even considered. He didn’t even think about all I had to go through. He just wanted a solution like my feelings didn’t matter.

I want them to think about me for once and how I feel. I know that Rex has the most to lose in this situation but I am here for him. I will make sure that he doesn’t suffer all this. As long as I am here, he will not wither away. Gyles on the other hand is someone that I don’t really want to live with. He is a very difficult person to be with and I don’t think I want to have to go through all that.

We both watch Gyles and a part of me is happy that he is suffering this much. I want him to feel pain and maybe that is wicked of me but he broke my heart—like he literally crushed it into a million pieces. I don’t want to dwell on it but I can’t just forget it. I don’t want to.

He stops screaming once the transformation is complete and I watch him go on all four. His wolf trudges towards us, with a majestic stride. The colour of his fur is jet black. As black as the night, shining under the bright moonlight. My heart races in my chest because I have never seen a black wolf before. He is the first of his kind and he looks fucking beautiful.

God, I don’t want this pull.

His wolf stops in front of me and his eyes stay on mine. I can’t tell what he is thinking. I don’t know what is happening but I am drawn to this. The pull intensifies and I look at Rex wanting to see if he feels the same things I feel in this moment.

It seems like he does. He is as quiet as me and he seems to be lost in this moment.

I am sorry for the way we have treated you.

This is the first mind link that Gyles is sending to me—to anyone. I feel excited at this moment even though I already said I will let go of him. I hate the hypocritical thoughts that are going on in my head right now.

He is giving in to his wolf. Maybe he will give in to me too.

You need to let him suffer for a little bit. He needs to know how much he needs you.

My wolf shouts to me. The thing that shocks me the most is that my wolf is pro, Gyles. He wants me to let go of everything bit maybe he feels like withdrawing from Gyles is the best solution for now.

"Thank you for finally coming out,’’ I tell him and slowly my hands move up to his head and I feel his fur on the tips of my fingers. The feelings that arise are strong, I know that I can’t deny him forever but I won’t make it easy for him. I won’t let him think he can just have his cake and eat it too.

I have to make him realize that being selfish will not work with the three of us. He needs to understand that we have to live for each other.

Going home will be a good idea.

Chapter 230: Wish everyone will just get along

Rex.

The whole thing is beautiful but I can tell it won’t change anything with Blue. I have never seen him this upset and I understand why he is but I wish he would just try and understand that Gyles is miserable because of the life he has been dealt with. I am not justifying his behaviour on his past traumas but I understand how it can mess a person up.

I saw him when he realized his mistakes and yeah, he might be the most selfish person I have ever met but I see the good in him. There is a lot of good in him—even though he keeps it pretty hidden but it is there. He just has to let go of all the anger and hate and just be free. We are his mates, we are the only ones that can help him with that.

"I need to talk to you,’’ Blue grabs my hand.

We are back in the house. Gyles is back to his human form. I Gyles the whole thing was a little overwhelming to him. He is in my room, asleep. He will probably remember everything when he wakes up.

"We can talk here,’’ I tell him.

We are outside my room. He looks very nervous. I can already tell that he is about to tell me something that I won’t like.

"Can we talk outside?’’ he asks scratching the back of his neck nervously.

He leads me outside and I watch him, unsure of what to expect. After a couple of seconds, he grabs my hand in his. The butterflies attack me immediately. I close my eyes for a second because his touch does things to me that I still haven’t gotten used to.

"What is wrong? You have me worried.’’

He sighs "I have some things to do, so I need to leave for a couple of days.’’ He says those words so casually. All I can think about is that he is leaving us. I know he is upset right now but he is leaving us.

"Is this because of Gyles? Are you that upset?’’ I blurt out all my fears. He is watching me and I can’t even tell what he is thinking.

Is he leaving me too?

"I am not leaving you, Rex. I love you,’’ he says finally.

I close my eyes because even being apart from him for a couple of days seems very hard to handle. I don’t want him to leave. I want to figure out how we are going to make it through this ordeal we are facing. I haven’t spoken to Alby or Beau. I think I need to talk to Beau about this—find a solution for all that is happening and how we can get through this.

"I can come with you. I don’t want you to leave." I pull him closer to me and he stays in my arms. He is not fighting me. He was sincere when he said he wouldn’t let this affect me.

I just wish he would forgive Gyles. Maybe it selfish of me to just want all of us to be together and happy. This relationship just always seems two-sided. It feels like one person is always being left out. Right now, Gyles is the one that is left out.

It shouldn’t be that way.

"I don’t know what I am walking into. I need to make sure that things are okay first. You have to trust me. I will come back.’’ He assures me. I don’t know what to believe anymore. I know I can trust him but he hates Gyles right now and I don’t. What if he is angry with the two of us?

"I am not angry with you. Gyles doesn’t have anything to do with you. You are two different people,’’ he assures me, doing that thing where he reads me. He is the only one that can really see right through me. he is the only one that I want to see right through me.

"I don’t want you to leave Blue. We need to figure things out, I just want us to be together.’’ I cry with so much desperation. I hate that my mating had to be this difficult. With everything I have been through, I just wanted an easy love.

I didn’t want to have to juggle between two guys, try to convince them that we could all be happy together. I don’t even know if that is possible. I don’t know anything anymore.

"I will figure this out. I promise you Rex, don’t worry about anything until I get back. Just keep being you,’’ he leans forward and I close my eyes immediately. The second I feel his lips on mine, my whole world crashes. I suck all the energy that he gives me and I believe him. I completely trust him and all I have to do is be patient. Blue is strong enough to carry both of us. He will find a way to make things right.

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"Wow, they actually fucked?’’ Beau asks me with a smile on his face. He is not taking this as seriously as he should. Maybe because this has nothing to do with him and Alanis.

"I am serious Beau. What happens now?’’ I ask him desperately.

He laughs and then shrugs "You seem to have forgotten that I didn’t even know anything about this until you told me. It’s such an irony that your mates will do the exact thing that you warned me not to. Didn’t you give them a lesson on what not to do when you’re mating?’’

Beau is being mean right now.

I don’t like it.

"I didn’t know they would have sex. They hated each other until they didn’t anymore—they still hate each other.’’

He laughs again. This time I glare at him because he is frustrating me right now "Okay, sorry Mr. grumpy pants."

We are in his room right now, I didn’t know who else to talk to about this. Blue leaving is kind of getting to me right now and I don’t know what to do about it. I am going to miss him, I have gotten so used to him being around. He gets up from his bed and for the first time, I notice a ring on his finger.

A smile sprawls up to my face and he traces my eyes to his finger "Don’t say anything," he warns me. "Follow me,’’ he adds and we both walk out of the house.

"You know when you have situations like this, Alby is the one you should talk to about them. I have no clue on what is going to happen to you guys. I don’t know shit about any of this but I doubt it will be that serious."

"I just thought you would be able to tell me what to do.’’

He laughs "I am the last person that would be able to tell you what to do. You have more knowledge on this stuff than I. I am terrible at remembering shit.’’

I sigh. He slaps my shoulder playfully "Why did they exclude you?’’ he asks curiously.

I should feel jealousy or rage. They actually did keep me out of it and that should make me angry but my wolf and I know that they both feel the same way about me. They didn’t do it, thinking about hurting me. Gyles did it to hurt Blue and even though that doesn’t make things better. It makes me feel a little better. I know how they feel about me and I feel the same way. This thing between us is confusing. It has never happened before and we will make mistakes. I don’t want to dwell on those mistakes. I want us to move past them.

"Long story man."

"I can’t even imagine sharing Lanis with someone else. Just seeing him talk to other people make me jealous."

Do I get jealous when I see Blue with Gyles or the reverse?

"It is different for us. I just want them to get along. I want them to accept each other so that we can all be together."

Saying those words out loud makes me feel even better. It is hard to watch the two people I love, turn against each other. Even when Blue assured me that he would be back, he didn’t even mention Gyles. He will be leaving him too. Gyles will feel the void of his absence and I wouldn’t be enough to fill it. He needs to get over his anger and forgive him.

I just want them to get along.

"Dude, you have become a cheesy motherfucker,’’ he laughs at me as we get to Alby’s house. I roll my eyes because I know he is teasing me.

"Says the person that is wearing a ring. I am sure you said some cheesy stuff when you were proposing,’’ I tease him back.

Before he can respond to me, the door to Alby’s house opens "Come in,’’ he says, almost like he was expecting us.

I hope something good comes out of this.