Ch. 336..340: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 336-340
Chapter 336: Biggest regret
Blue
"Where is she? You told me you found her,’’ he breathes out with that look in his eyes. The look that makes this harder than it should be.
I don’t know how to tell him. There is this expression on his face. He is hopeful but I already know that there is no hope left. She is dead. How do I tell him when he is looking at me like that?
This is not something he would want to hear. I don’t know his relationship with my aunt but I know there is more than he is telling me and he seems like the only one that genuinely cares about her in this place. Levine wasn’t happy in the coven, she was the one that pushed me to leave. She was the one that gave me the courage to find out more about my truth. Without her, I might have been stuck in this place, living the lie that I lived with my mother. Now that she is gone, I don’t have anything to look forward to in this place. There is nothing holding me here. I want to leave as soon as this is sorted out.
"I don’t think she made it,’’ I tell him because I don’t have any reason to hide or keep this from him. Everyone is so used to keeping secrets in this place—hell, he is keeping things from me too. Granted, people have a right to keep things they don’t want others to know, it is theirs to tell but the secrets they keep in this place is deadly and frankly unwarranted.
His eyes open wide immediately. I see it, the pain and sadness. He shakes his head immediately, maybe he is choosing not to believe. I know this feeling, the denial, and the confusion. I know it all too well. "No, you don’t know for sure. She can’t be dead,’’ he cries. Slowly, I see the tears as they fall from his face. He was trying too hard to control his emotions but how do you stop feeling when you find out that someone you love is gone.
At this moment, I see the love he has for her. Levine was easy to love, I loved her a lot more than I did my own mother. Sometimes, I wondered why the roles were not reversed. She would have been a great mother to me. She had this nurturing side to her, she always made me feel safe in this place.
"She can’t be dead, I can’t live without her,’’ he clutches onto his shirt, his voice shaking. Maybe it was a bad idea to tell him before we found her. I don’t think he will be up for coming with me now that he knows the search will be futile either way.
"I wanted to tell you. I knew you should be the first to know."
He looks away from me as I utter those words. I am trying to be as comforting as I can. I am trying to feel things in his own shoes. I want to know what happened between him and her. What kind of relationship they had.
I want to know it all but I also know now is not the right time. Now I need him to follow me back to the woods. I need him to go with me because I made a promise to Gyles and I have to keep that promise and the only way to keep that promise is to be safe. I have to come back to them. I have to do things cautiously.
"I need to see her for myself, where is she?’’ he starts to wipe the tears from his face. I don’t know what he is thinking right now but this is good. He is going to follow me as long as he knows there is a chance to get her body back. I can do that for him. Give her a meaningful burial.
"In the woods. I know who is behind it all,’’ I go on to tell him. From all I have gathered, Major is one of the only people I can trust her. He has shown me numerous times now and I think it is safe to give him a chance.
"Who?’’ he asks me calmly. At this point, his eyes are red. He has shed tears for a woman that I am pretty sure he is in love with. Now he is in anger mode. He wants this to end and I feel the exact same way.
"Badger.’’
Recognition flashed in his eyes and then the anger is back again "That motherfucker,’’ he bellows so low. "I knew he was a bastard from the first time he cornered me. I knew she shouldn’t have trusted him.’’ he folds his hands into fists and my eyes remain on his.
"What was your relationship with my aunt?’’ I ask him.
He looks away from me "I don’t want to talk about this right now. I don’t want to explain or try to defend the love I have for her. I don’t want the judgment.’’
"I will never judge you,"
He nods "Can we go look for her, I need to see her for myself,’’ he manages, this is his way of evading the question. I nod in agreement because I need to find Badger. He is the biggest threat we have, he is the one I need to get rid of. Now that I don’t have any ties to the coven. I plan on leaving. I want the elders to know the truth. They will handle the rest on their own.
My only concern is starting a life with my mates, finding happiness that I know I could have. I don’t care about Magic and the evil that comes from it. I don’t care that my mother could have been the worst leader to ever exist.
I should have never come to the coven in the first place.
That is my biggest regret.
Chapter 337: Promise kept
Gyles
I feel him shuffle against me on the bed.
He is waking up.
I sit up on the bed as he moves slowly. My eyes stay fixed on his beautiful face. His cheeks are flushed red. There are dark circles under his eyes, even though he just woke up. I get that this has been trying times for all of us. It just seems like we jump into a new problem after getting off one. I just want things to calm down and it seems like they are finally getting tit gat place.
His eyes open slowly and he furrows them, probably trying to register where he is. The last time he was conscious, we were outside searching for Levine. He was the most worried out of the three of us.
"Hey,’’ I reach for him gently. His eyes shift to me and I see the ease in his expression as he registers who I am. The confused look on his face wipes out.
"Where’s Blue?’’ he asks.
I smile, I don’t want him to worry about anything. I want him to just not think and relax. I want him to recuperate. I want him to forget everything that happened these past days. I want the old Rex back. Our time in the community, when we were just getting to know each other. He hasn’t smiled in a while. I know he hasn’t really thought deeply about all the things that have happened. All the things he was forced to do.
"He had something to do, he will be back soon," I try to brush it off as he sits up on the bed and rests his back on the headboard. His eyes roam around the room and even though I didn’t want him to worry about anything. He ends up worrying.
"What about Levine, I don’t feel her anymore,’’ he clutches his chest. I don’t know why he is so bothered. Levine is no longer in his head, which means he is finally free. I just have to make sure it stays that way. I can’t have anything happening to him anymore.
"It’s pretty late, do you want to maybe go back to sleep. You have had been through a lot,’’ I try to rational him into not panicking.
"What happened to her?’’ he shakes his head.
I know there is no convincing him, I might try but he looks like he is not going to listen to me right now. Maybe it is not the end of the world if he is stubborn. I mean, Rex has always been the kind of person to obey and not do what he really wants. I want him to have his own opinions.
"She is dead,’’ I breathe out because there is no point hiding this from him anymore. Blue promised me that he will come back. Once he does, we can all leave this place. He doesn’t have any ties here anymore. His mother is dead, his aunt is too now. There is no family for him here. The only family he has is his father and us.
He opens his eyes wide, the shock evident. I don’t know how this will affect him but I really need it not to. I need him to forget about this and not dwell on it. He has been through too much already. He needs to let go of this too.
"What?’’ he mutters in confusion and maybe a little bit of disbelief. This is someone that he had a connection with—granted, it was forced and she basically manipulated him but at the end of it all, he felt things that she felt.
"I am sorry, she didn’t make it.’’
It is not verified because we haven’t found her body and that is what Blue and Major went to look for, but I already feel it. The fact that he is free right now is all that matters and that means she has to be dead. That is the only explanation.
"She can’t be dead, she has so much to say to Blue. She can’t just leave him like that,’’ he trembles on the bed. Makes me think that he is actually not completely disconnected from her as we thought. At this point, I see the tears in his eyes, the pain for someone that he doesn’t even know. I don’t understand how he is feeling right now, I am not in his shoes but I want to help him. I want to take all the hurt from him but don’t know how to. I don’t know what to do to ease it all from him.
"Babe, calm down, you can pass whatever it is for her." I reach for him. If the only thing I could do is wipe the tears from his eyes, then I will. I brush my fingers against his face as I slowly wipe the tears off. He looks up at me as I try to pull him closer "This is not your fault." I manage. I need him to stop overthinking this and worrying. I need him to calm down.
"She is not a monster, she didn’t have a choice,’’ he cries in my arms and I take him in. I hold him until he stops sniffing. I hold him in my arms until he falls back asleep. This is exactly what I wanted. A moment of peace with him.
After a couple of seconds, I close my eyes and join him. I don’t know how long I am out but the second I hear the creak of the door, I open my eyes immediately. Blue raises his index finger up to his lips to make sure I don’t wake Rex up. I nod immediately and sit up on the bed, letting go of my mate in the process. A smile sprawls up to my face as he walks closer to the bed and reaches for me. He looks intact, he came back just as he promised and that is all that matters.
"You’re here,’’ I whisper as he takes me into his arms.
He came back.
Chapter 338: Moment of bliss
Blue
Everything happened so fast.
Finding Levine was even more painful than I thought it would be. Her body at the bottom of the hill, her eyes wide open, almost like she was staring into my soul. I thought I would be able to handle it. I thought I would be strong enough but, at that moment, with Major clutching unto her, I lost it and let it all out. The pain from everything that happened. I didn’t even get a chance to talk to her. I never even knew that she was hurting. She is gone just like her sister. The only family I have left in this coven. I don’t even know how long we stay in that same position, both of us going through our own different kinds of hurt.
When I look up, the sky is dark and the sun has already set. I know we have to bring her back to the house. I have to inform the elders that she is dead. I don’t want them settled; I don’t want them thinking that everything is okay. Badger is the person we need to look out for. I can’t leave this place until I find him. I need to make sure that he pays for hurting my family.
I take a deep breath "We need to head back,’’ I tell him, even though he is still in the same position he has been in for the last hour or so. I don’t want to be the one to interrupt him in his pain but I also know that we have to take her back to the house. There is a lot I will need to do.
"I can’t let go,’’ he looks up at me. His eyes are red, the pain tugs at my heartstrings. I hate to be here with him. I hate to witness him go through this.
I go on my knees and face him. I can’t even look at her anymore "You have the memories. You have them for the rest of your life. You are not letting go,’’ I try to reassure him. it is hard to tell someone that everything is going to be okay when I know how hard this is going to hit him. if his feelings for Levine are as strong as I think it is, then it will be really hard to just move on. he is going to hurt a lot. it will feel like the world is ending, it will feel like there is no point in living, he will have a rush of emotions. I know that all too well. I feel it all too right now. knowing that I will never see her smile, knowing that she is gone forever without even a goodbye. It is a torment that I didn’t ever want to experience, but we are here and I have to be strong for the people that are still alive. Levine wouldn’t want me to disappear with her death, she will want me to keep shining.
She always used to tell me that my shine is brighter than the stars. She believed in me when no one else did, so I know what she would want from me.
She would want me to leave.
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Gyles pulls away from my arms just as Rex shuffles in the bed. I didn’t want to wake him up but I guess we were too loud. He jumps up on the bed when he notices me and catches me off guard as he pulls me into his arms. I close my eyes because this is double the feeling of warmth. My relationship with both of them feels like a double blessing. I get to feel things twice.
"You’re here,’’ he breathes into my neck. I notice that he is trembling. My eyes dart to Gyles, he has this warm smile on his face, I gesture with my free hand and he crawls on the bed closer to us. Rex gives him some space and he scuffles in between us. The three of us are embracing right now and somehow it feels like all the fear and worry dissipates. The numbness that I have been feeling all day just wipes off completely. This makes me want more and this might just be me being greedy but slowly, I let go of them and kiss Rex first. He needs this the most. The reassurance that we are going to come through this, especially after all we have been through. I feel Gyles’s warmth next to me. his touch sends butterflies to my tummy. The good kind of sensation. Suddenly, the slow pace I was going for, disappears and I grab him by his waist and push him to his back gently as my tongue slides into his mouth. His moan is loud, so loud that my dick hardness immediately from the sound of his voice. The sultry desperation crawls out of me as I pull apart and Gyles comes into view. His eyes are dark, he wants me as much as I want him.
Fuck, this is a battle because I wish I could have them both at the same time.
Well, you can. They are yours.
My wolf reminds me even though I never forgot. The hunger inside me becomes deeper. I feel him begging me to have them. A growl escapes my lips as I take Gyles in my mouth. He makes a different sound from Rex. I feel the need inside him, the longing, everything I have always wanted, and more from him.
"More,’’ he pushes into me, probably not wanting any space between us. I do the same thing I did to rex and push him to the bed on his back. now they are both staring at me with immense hunger in their eyes. I watch the rise and fall of their chests. They want me to make the first move. They are giving me consent with their eyes.
"Can we do this?’’ I ask rex because he is the one that knows more about our Lycan side. I don’t want to mess things with us, especially since we haven’t even fixed things with the whole fucking before the full moon.
He pulls me closer by my shirt and his face is so close to mine "I don’t care anymore. I want you so much,’’ he cries, tears suddenly welling up in his eyes. I don’t want to mess things up but I want to have a release from all this pent-up frustration.
"okay,’’ I tell him as I reach for his pants. they both watch me as I take him in my mouth.
For the first time since I got here, all I can think about are them. I don’t want this to stop. I never want it to stop.
Chapter 339: Is three a crowd?
Rex.
At first, I don’t expect him to even agree to this. he is the only one that thinks with his head before his heart out of the three of us but everything that has happened, has been so overwhelming and I want to feel them, I want the intimacy, the love. I want it all and to hell with the consequences.
With my pants off, the beating of my heart heightens. I am getting a blow job from the first person I have ever felt anything for. Blue is the first person to actually take an interest in me. before I met Gyles, I was so sure he was the only one for me. now that I have them both, It feels like I have the best of both worlds. I have both these amazing guys in my life and they are not going anywhere.
He bobs his head up and down and I try to control myself from this feeling. My eyes are closed, I am too scared and shy to look. Blue has my dick inside his mouth. It feels so surreal to me. the fact that we are still in this hell hole but we can just focus on each other. I still have so much to tell him. Things that I know he needs to know about Levine. She might be dead but I have her memories. I have to show him that she was not the monster that he and everyone made her out to be.
Why are we thinking about Levine? Focus on what is important right now.
My wolf shouts at me, to get my attention back to my mate. I open my eyes because this is the first time, I have felt like myself in a while. Hearing my wolf in my head again just makes me feel ecstatic. I look above the bed and Blue is still on his stomach on the bed, his eyes bore into mine as he takes all of me in and then out, I shift my eyes to Gyles as I feel him close to me. I haven’t figured out the balance of our relationship but I don’t mind what is happening here as Gyles presses his lips into mine. I hold my breath because all my senses are heightened right now. their scents are strong, Gyles taste delicious against my lips. Goosebumps crawl all over my body and Blue starts to increase his pace. It feels like I am the center of attention. They are both doing their best to please me. I want to do the same. I reach for Gyles’s shorts and he stiffens against me but doesn’t stop kissing me. this feels like a puzzle and I want to solve it even if I have to spend all night doing that. I tug at the ropes of his shorts and he grabs my hands slowly directing me until they are off. at this point, all my attention has deviated between the two of them. he helps me get his shorts off just as a loud squeal escapes from my lips, he smiles into my mouth.
In a frenzy, Gyles helps me get his shorts off and I feel him, hard and ready in my grip. I grab unto him and he moans against my lips. Blue kicks in on his speed and I feel myself getting closer to the edge. I feel the butterflies and fireworks, which makes me pull away from Gyles and grab Blue’s hair with my other hand, wanting him to slow down before I explode. My grip is hard but I don’t let go, he stops his movement for a second and I use this opportunity to grab unto Gyles, in gentle strokes. My eyes shift back to Blue and he is smiling and watching. He likes what he sees. "This is the most beautiful sight I have ever fucking seen." He exclaims as he slides forward and presses his lips into my mouth. I don’t care that he just had me in his mouth. I want to melt into the two of them. I want to become one with them and I don’t think I have the patient to even wait for the mating ceremony.
He pulls away from me and does the exact same thing to Gyles, reaching for his dick that is still in my grip. his hand touches mine and the butterflies resurface. I am still as hard a rock. I want more of him.
"Okay, I want to make the two of you cum at the same fucking time, do you think it can work?’’ he asks in this low seductive voice.
My heart thuds against my chest. The room is quiet and dark. I am sure they can both hear the beating of my heart.
"What about you? I don’t know how this is supposed to work,’’ Gyles breathes heavily as he asks. His eyes dart from me to Blue. This is all new to the three of us. Juggling two people can’t be the easiest thing to do.
"I see the two of you on this bed and all I want is to have you. why do I have this dominating feeling right now?’’ he blurts out honestly and I like everything that is coming out of his mouth. We are three people; this is different from just two. I want them equally; I don’t know how it makes sense but it does. It makes me confused and excited. I want to see where this will go. I want to see how we will shuffle it all.
"Why don’t we all just get completely naked first. I want to see you naked so badly,’’ I reach for him and he smiles that sultry smile that plays with my heart. Blue reaches for his pants and they are off before I can even blink. My eyes shift to Gyles and he is doing the same thing with his shirt. They turn to me and they both have smiles on their faces.
"Your turn,’’ they both say at the same time.
Fuck yeah.
Chapter 340: Wow
Gyles
My heart is racing.
I have never felt this way in all my life, it has been a pretty long life but this is the first time that I am excited. This is the first time that I want more from life. We are all naked, on his bed. blue’s eyes waver from mine to Rex. he seems to be handling this the best out of us three. We are all new to this. I have never been intimate with two people before. This is a first for me and I am loving every second of it.
"Okay, we can help each other out, I mean, that is what we are supposed to do,’’ I manage because the staring contest is getting to me. I like that we can all just look at each other and appreciate the beauties in front of us but I am fucking horny and i want to feel them.
Blue smiles and then moves until he is in front of me, he gestures for Rex with his hand and I watch him as he comes closer too. We are like a sandwich as he kisses me immediately. I close my eyes because just a kiss from him does that to me. I lose myself completely and it is a good kind of feeling. I can feel Rex as he caresses my arm. Butterflies dance around as I reach for him, pulling away from Blue in the process. I guess we are just going to wing this. I mean there is no other way to plan this kind of thing. The best thing to do is go with the flow. I want to enjoy this.
"No sex,’’ Blue manages with this husky breath. I turn to him and his eyes are dark. He wants to do things right and I respect that. just because we can’t have sex, doesn’t mean we can’t have fun. Oh, I want to have fun tonight. I want to forget everything that happened and kissing Rex is the first step. The second I press my lips to his, I feel his dick, hard against my thigh. We are all naked on our knees. I pull away from the kiss and start to kiss the crook of his neck. My tongue presses against the skin and I hear him as he moans out in pleasure. After a couple of seconds, I reach for his dick, moving over to Blue. whatever we do must be mutual. We have to all get satisfaction from this. no one can be ignored. Somehow, I want to take the lead. My wolf is fighting for control and I want to give him what he wants.
Blue gives in to me as I do the exact same thing, I just did to him. I kiss him as if my life depends on him like he is the only one that can give me the oxygen I need to survive. I don’t know how long we kiss but he pushes me to the bed and Rex joins in. We take turns in kissing each other. There is a mixture of sweat and pleasurable sounds. The whole thing is driving me insane and I love every second of it. I love the way they both taste. The difference in their moans, their cries. They are the opposite of each other. Blue is hard, almost like he is sculpted from stone. His abs could cut glass, the texture of his skin is rough and titillating while Rex is soft, as soft as butter. He melts to my touch.
They are opposites but I have never wanted two people as much as I want them. My hand is still stroking Rex, he is trembling against me on the bed. I like the sound of his voice in this pleasured state. Blue reaches for my dick and I let him. I let him as he takes me into his mouth, I let him as he continues to suck me into his mouth. I feel my dick on the walls of his throat, I glance at him and the desire in his eyes is strong. I don’t stop stroking him as Rex reaches for him. it almost looks like a circle, my hands on Rex, Blues mouth on my dick, and now Rex on Blue. we are connected by something stronger than anyone could imagine. My eyes are closed but I can feel them. they are both touching me, clutching and clinging. We all feel the same way, I don’t want to let go of them either. I don’t want to lose this special bond. This thing we have, just like Selene said. It is destiny and with destiny, I will be with them for the rest of my time on this earth. I don’t want anything else. I can’t ask for anything else but the little things. Moments when I can open my eyes and see Blue and Rex, looking at me with the same longing.
It is almost like we are all going at the same pace because once I start stroking faster, Blue starts bobbing his head at that same pace. I clutch unto Rex’s hand with my free hand and he takes it in a heartbeat, there is no hesitation. We are quiet, no words but out moans. Somehow, in the silence of the room, I know that I can rely on them, I know how we all feel. I am in a blissful paradise and I don’t need words to assure me. I already know how we all feel.
I feel myself closer to the edge and the second I make my release; I feel them shudder against me. I look at Blue as he slowly swallows my cum. My eyes stay on him because I didn’t expect him to swallow. I don’t know what I expected but this was more than my expectation. Rex squeezes my hand and my attention goes to him. we are sticky and messy but we all fall into each other’s arms. I hold them tightly as our heavy breaths travel around the room.
"Wow,’’ Rex manages with heavy breaths.
I turn to him and his smile is infectious.
"Wow,’’ I mirror him because I am speechless.