Ch. 446..450: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 446-450

Chapter 446: I will be here

Beau

I don’t know how I even feel about all this.

Looking at him on the hospital bed, unconscious and in pain, is fucking breaking my heart. I hate this place I am in. The helpless spectator place I am in. I can’t do anything for him except just sit here and watch him suffer. I haven’t ever felt this helpless in my whole life. I wish this was happening to me. I wish he didn’t have to go through all this alone. There is nothing I can do and I am beginning to hate myself for this.

I am being to blame myself for this even though I know it is not my fault. Even though I know he doesn’t blame me.

I only wish I could do something for him.

I can’t even hold his hand or tell him I love him. I don’t even know if he can hear me. He is on so much medication. All I can do is sit here and watch him suffer.

I hate this. I hate this feeling of helplessness and being on the outside looking in. "Hey,’’ I look up and Bells is by the door of the room, hesitant to walk in.

"Hey Bells,’ I say.

"How is he?’ she asks.

"Not good. He is still unconscious,’’ I tell her.

"He is going to be okay,’’ she assures me, slowly walking into the room. I watch her as she sits down on the chair beside me and looks at him. My eyes find their way to him again. His stomach is exposed. There are more bruises on his body. He looks peaceful right now and the fact that he isn’t feeling any pain is all that is making me sane.

"He is going to be okay,’’ Bells says again. I know she is trying to reassure me, but that is all I have heard ever since this happened. His body needs to heal. The fact that he is not healing right now just means that he is human and being human means that he could die.

That is all I have been thinking about. I don’t want to lose him because of this pregnancy. I don’t want a situation where I will be left alone. I don’t want him to suffer because I pushed him to do this.

I have lost a lot of people to know how it feels and I don’t want to go through that with Lanis.

"He is going to be fine,’’ Bells places her hand on my shoulder

I look up at her. Her dark brown eyes are filled with concern.

"I am scared,’’ I tell her.

"Don’t be. He is going to be okay. Lanis is a fighter, I mean the guys got balls. He will get through this.’’

she seems so sure and I want to believe her. I want to believe that he will be okay. I want to believe that this won’t be the end of us. I just want to stay strong for him but I am the weakest I have ever felt in my life.

I hate this feeling.

"Do you want to go for a run, get your mind off this for a couple of minutes,’’ she suggests slowly.

I shake my head immediately because I don’t want to leave him alone, not even to feel better.

"No, I can’t leave him, I need to be by his side."

I know she is trying to help but I just want her to leave me alone right now. I just want to stay with him. Make sure he is okay.

"Okay, if you want to stay here then let me know if you need anything,’’ she says standing up. I watch her walk out of the room.

I feel so alone right even though he is in this room with me, I don’t feel him. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I am falling apart.

I watch his face, his beautiful face. Even in this state, he is still beautiful, still perfect. I wish I could take this pain away from him. I wish I could hold him and tell him how much I love him. I wish I could kiss him, but I can’t.

I am so lost in my thoughts that I don’t even notice someone walk into the room.

"Hey," I hear a voice say. I look up, I see Eligio. I look at Lanis and he is still unconscious. I look back up at Eligio and he has a worried look on his face. "How is he?" he asks. I shrug my shoulders and look back at Lanis. "Not good," I tell him. "He is still unconscious. This is the only way he isn’t in pain," I inform him of what Alby said before he left.

Eligio looks at him for a moment and then nods. "How are you doing?" he asks. I look at him and then look down at my hands. "Not good," I tell him. "I am sick with worry."

"We all are."

I look at him and then look back at Lanis. I have so many things running through my head right now. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to say. "I want to do something," I tell him. "I just want to do something."

Eligio comes closer to me and places a hand on my shoulder. "Just be here for him," he tells me. I look at him and nod my head slowly, I know all Lanis needs is me by his side. When he wakes up, I am the one that he will want to see. If that is all I can do for him then I will. I will never leave his side; I will stay here until this is all done and over with.

I am not going to let him down.

I look at his face again and his chest is rising and falling slowly. His breathing is so slow that it is almost like he is not breathing at all. I place my hand on his chest. I feel the beating of his heart and I close my eyes for a moment.

I am not going to let anything happen to him.

I open my eyes and look at the clock on the wall. It’s already after midnight. I am not even sure how long I have been sitting by his side. I am not even sure if he is going to wake up tonight but I will be by his side when he does.

I will be here.

Chapter 447: The final stage

Alanis

I open my eyes slowly and Beau’s beautiful eyes stare back at me, with worry lines etched across his face. I don’t know how long I have been out but he looks so stressed right now.

"Baby,’’ he sits up over the bed and grabs my hand in his tightly. feeling his touch instantly calms me down.

"Fuck,’’ I run my hand through my hair "How long was I out?’’ I ask him, my voice shaking.

"Too long,’’ he says, sadness evident in his voice. I look around the room but it is just the two of us. "Do you feel any pain,’’ he asks me worriedly.

I take a deep breath as I try to remember what my body feels like. I cannot feel any pain or discomfort, I just feel weak. I look at Beau and all I can see now is worry and fear in his eyes. "No, I don’t feel any pain or anything,’’ I say, trying to make him feel better. he lets out a sigh of relief.

"I should go get Ogma,’’ he says trying to let go of my hand but I grab him with all my strength.

"No, don’t leave me,’’ I say to him desperately. I don’t want to be alone right now. I am in a foggy state of mind and I don’t have a clue on what is going on. I expected the pain to be worse when I woke up but now, I don’t feel anything.

"I am not leaving you, baby, I just want to get someone to come and check you out. I don’t want anything to happen to you.’’ he breathes out worriedly. All I see to do is make him worry.

I just want things to go back to the way they were. I just want to go back to the way we were.

This is a wish of mine but I doubt things will ever go back to the way they were. I try to sit up and even though it is hard, I succeed on the first try.

"You should rest, I don’t want you to wear yourself out,’’ he adds, still worrying. I nod and look at my stomach. It is still ginormous.

they are still inside me.

I stroke my stomach gently and I can feel them kicking. I am glad they are okay and safe.

I look back up at Beau and he gives me a comforting smile. He leans down and kisses me on the forehead. "I am going to go get Ogma, stay here and I will be back before you know it,’’ he says softly as he leaves the room, this time I don’t even think I should argue with him. I don’t want to make him do something that he doesn’t want to, I want him to be comfortable with his decisions. I watch him leave and he turns around when he is halfway out. He smiles at me reassuringly. I smile back at him and watch him leave.

I am alone again.

I am alone with my thoughts.

I don’t even know if I can handle this by myself.

it feels like everything is happening so fast, I know that the change will happen soon. they will be out of me soon and I don’t know how the whole process will go.

I don’t even know what to expect.

I hear the door open and I look in the direction of the door. I see Ogma walk in and she is smiling at me. "How is the patient doing?’’ she asks me calmly. A totally different mood from earlier.

I can never tell with the people in the community. sometimes, I feel like they don’t like me and other times, I feel like they are accepting me. I will always be the vampire that came to their turf and no matter how hard I try to fit in, I will always be the outsider.

"Not in as much pain anymore,’’ I tell her returning her smile.

"Really?’’ she asks me as she walks closer and sits next to me. "That is good to hear.’’ she grabs my hand in hers and examines it.

"Are you feeling any pain anywhere else?’’ she asks me.

I shake my head. "No, I feel weak and tired, but that’s it,’’ I tell her. she grabs the machine for the sonogram and checks.

"It seems like they are doing fine,’’ she says smiling.

I smile back because that is all I want to hear. The good news, I want my babies to be okay through all this.

"You are doing really well, a lot better than I thought you would be once you woke up,’’ she says smiling at me, now she seems very happy for me. I am happy that I am not in as much pain.

"How long until it is time and when will we know?’’ I ask her because I just want this to be over with. I want to hold them in my arms, I want to see all the things I saw in my dreams.

I want to see them grow.

"You are in the last stages of your pregnancy now from what I can see but I can’t give you a definite time yet, because this all depends on them and when they are ready, they will come out and you will know when it is time because you will feel it. The best thing you can do is to rest and be patient. You don’t need to worry about anything else now,’’ she tells me.

I nod. I was hoping she would be able to tell me, I mean, she is a doctor and all. But I guess I will just have to wait until it is time.

"Okay, thanks,’’ I tell her, and she gives me a smile before leaving the room.

I lay back down on the bed and close my eyes.

I can still feel Beau’s presence and it is comforting to me. Somehow through all this, having him here makes it all better. My hand is still on my stomach, I can still feel them inside me.

Her words echo in my head, they will let you know when they are ready.

I will wait for my babies.

Chapter 448: The right thing to do

Beau

I watch him as he tries to go back to sleep. I watch his eyes fixed on mine and a smile sprawls to my face.

This is a new light, I am seeing him for the first time in all the time we have been together. I never knew he was so beautiful, I never knew he was so strong. The man in front of me is a warrior, stronger than anyone I have ever met and he is all mine. He is strong for us. He is fighting for our future and he doesn’t even look dazed. He is holding on a lot better than me and I haven’t even gone through an inch of what he is going through. He might not be in pain right now but I know that once it is time for the babies to come out, he will be back to the pain. I want this to be an easy birth for him but I can’t do anything about it but hold his hand.

"You have to stop staring at me, it is messing with my head,’’ he smiles as he stretches his hand out to me. I take his hand in mine and but I don’t look away from him.

I am not going to take my eyes away from him. I am not going to let go of this moment. For the rest of our life, I will remember this time and this struggle and it will make me appreciate him even more.

"I can’t help myself,’’ I tell him.

"Can you come up to the bed?’’ he asks me calmly, ignoring my confession. I shake my head immediately because I don’t want to hurt him. The bed is not even big enough for the both of us and if I get on it, I will end up squashing him tightly and he is already taking a lot of space on the bed.

"I don’t think that is a good idea,’’ I tell him.

He frowns "Why?’’

"Because I am heavy and I might hurt you,’’ I tell him.

A smile spreads across his face. "You are not heavy,’’ he argues.

"I am! You need all the space you can get. Don’t want to mess with the way things are right now. The fact that you are not in pain is a good thing. We shouldn’t mess things up.’’

"I want to hold you,’’ he pouts in the cutest way I have ever seen.

I smile back at him. "You can hold me but I will be careful. I don’t want to hurt you or the babies.’’

"Okay,’’ he smiles back. He brings his arms out of the cover and I get on the bed with caution. I put a pillow between us so that I am resting on my back and the weight is distributed evenly. I turn to him and I smile at him. He is smiling back at me. "I will be okay for this moment, now close your eyes and try to sleep. I will be here when you wake up,’’ I tell him.

"I am not sleepy, I have been asleep for a whole day, can we just talk?’’

I want to argue with him and tell him that he needs all the rest he can get but I know that I am at this place where I want to give him everything he wants and right now, he wants to talk. So I will give him that.

"What do you want to talk about?’’

He smiles "Anything, distract me from the babies."

I think back and there is nothing I want to talk about. I don’t want to talk about Fallon and the problems I am having with making a decision.

"Talk about it, I see something is bothering you,’’ he says doing that thing where he reads my mind and knows exactly what I am thinking.

"What are you talking about?’’ I try to play dumb.

"I can see it in your eyes, you are worried about something. What is it?’’

"It is just Fallon,’’ I tell him.

"What about Fallon?’’ he asks me almost instantly. He is going into protective mode. This is the person that killed my father after all.

"We had a meeting in the pack, everyone wants him to be executed. I don’t know I that is the right thing to do."

"What do you think is the right thing to do?’’ he asks after a couple of silent seconds. I take a deep breath because it is exhausting thinking about it. I don’t want to kill him. I don’t want his life in my hands but I also don’t want to worry about my packs safety, I don’t want to worry about my mate’s safety, I don’t want to worry about my babies.

As long as Fallon is alive I will always be worried.

"I don’t know," I confess.

He is the only one that will ever see me confused, or in doubt. In the pack meetings, I just made it known that executing Fallon is not something I wanted to do. That is not something that I will be proud of, so I didn’t want it on me.

"You have to make a decision, at the end of the day, you have to do what is best for you and your people."

His words are sincere. He is right, at the end of the day, as the Alpha, it is up to me and I need to make the decision but I don’t want to do that on my own.

"What do you think the right thing is?’’ I ask him.

"It is up to you but if you ask me, I think he should die. He is a threat to our pack, to our people, and our unborn children,’’ he tells me.

His words flow through my body and I feel my heart drop. I knew what he was going to say, I knew what the pack wanted and I knew what the right thing to do was but I didn’t want to admit it.

Shit.

Chapter 449: Time

Alanis

He is watching me with a confused expression sprawled on his face and I see how hard this must be for him.

Beau is the most compassionate person I have ever met. He looks very hard don’t he outside but he is as soft as a marshmallow on the inside. He is the kind of person that would do anything for the people he loved, he is protective of his family and right now Fallon is still his blood.

Even though he killed his father and he has a lot of hatred in his heart, Beau doesn’t just want to eliminate him from existence.

He doesn’t want him to die and that breaks my heart.

How can someone who is so evil and heartless make my man so worried? I don’t want it to even be debatable because I want the motherfucker dead, but as I told him. At the end of the day, it is up to him and what he wants to do. I am just thinking about my babies. The ones that are about to come into this world. I don’t want them to have any threats and Fallon is a threat to my happiness.

I might be selfish but I don’t believe that he has changed.

When they found him, he was less of the man than he was before he disappeared. Something must have happened to make him the way he is. I don’t believe anything. I don’t believe that he has changed.

Once I am strong enough, I am going to get to the bottom of everything. I am going to get Eligio, I am going to find out what is going on in his head. He can’t have given up without a fight. It just doesn’t make any sense to me.

"I don’t know if I am strong enough to do this. I can’t just end his life,’’ he covers his face with his hands as he confesses. I know that this is eating him up but I can’t make the decision for him. He needs to make the decision for himself.

"But you are strong, you are stronger than you give yourself credit for. If it is what you want, you will be able to do it. It is not easy but you can do it. You are the Alpha and you have a duty. You have to do it for your pack, for your people.’’

"You are right, but it is not going to be easy.’’

"You don’t have to do it alone, I will be by your side,’’ I assure him even though I am pretty sure that he already knows. I don’t need to spell it out for him, just the same way he doesn’t need to with me.

"I know you will, and I love you for that. You are the only one I have, the only one I want," he tells me.

He doesn’t say it out loud, but I know that he is thinking about his father and how much he misses him. He never really had the time to mourn his father’s death. A lot happened, and he had to focus on being strong.

He had to focus on becoming the new Alpha.

"I love you too," I tell him and I kiss him. That is something that has always helped us through the hard times. We are not scared of showing our affection.

This is who we are, we are not afraid of kissing each other, of loving each other.

I am not afraid of being with a man. I am not afraid of the strength he has. I am not afraid of his power.

"Enough depressing conversations, are you hungry, do you want me to go get you something to eat?’’ he asks as he pulls away from me slowly. His hands are still resting on my stomach gently. I have noticed that he likes touching my stomach.

"I am starving,’’ I admit with a goofy smile on my face. I didn’t want to think about food because of everything that has been happening but at the end of the day, my body decided to betray me.

"I will go get you something to eat, you need to eat for the babies. I will be back soon, promise.’’

I nod my head and smile as I see him walk out of the room.

He is looking more relaxed than earlier and that just makes me feel better.

I am worried about the decision he has to make but I am not worried about him.

I know that he will be okay and he will be able to do it. I rest my hand on my stomach, in an attempt to feel them. With my hands on my stomach, I try to feel them but there is nothing. I don’t want to panic because it could be nothing but they are closer to coming out. I should be able to feel them. I try to stand up but my legs are too weak right now. The pain that has been gone is back.

Beau, I need you.

I send him a mind link.

I know that he can hear me, so I am not surprised when he barges into the room with fear in his face. His eyes are wide and he is breathing harder. The fear in his voice is evident.

"What is it, what happened?’’ he asks and then he sees, the expression on my face. I don’t even know what is happening.

"I can’t feel them, help me,’’ I reach for him but he runs out of the room and leaves me in the quiet room. My heart is throbbing as I try to take deep breaths, the more I do, the more pain I feel.

"Ogma walks into the room with worry in her eyes. I see Beau in the corner of the room, his eyes are open, and he looks completely frazzled. I stretch my hands out and he shakes his head, rushing over to me as Ogma examines me.

"You are okay,’’ he tries to assure me but the pain is just too much.

I don’t know how much more of it I can take. Ogma looks up suddenly and there is a smile on her face.

"It is time, we have to bring them out before they rip you to shreds."

 

Chapter 450: Pure Joy mixed with pain

Alanis

Everything happens so fast.

Ogma is by my side and she is making me focus on her. I can’t focus on anything else, all I can think about is my babies, my babies that are about to come into this world.

I don’t know how to feel. I am trying to be strong but this is the scariest thing I have ever had to go through. Not knowing is the worst thing about it. Two other healers come into the room and Ogma starts to talk to them. I can’t pay attention. I don’t even know what they are saying but I stretch my hand out for Beau. He is in a corner in the room and I want him closer.

He runs towards me immediately and I grab his hand. I squeeze it as hard as I can. The pain is too much. I am trying not to panic but I am failing.

"You are going to be okay, I am right here. I am not going anywhere. I am not leaving you,’’ he tells me and the pain is making me cry. I am trying to hold it in but I can’t, I am just too weak.

"You are going to be okay, you are strong. You can do this, you are going to be just fine,’’ he reassures me and his words are helpful. He is the only one I can hear, the only one that I want to feel.

I can feel the pressure in my stomach and I know that this is it. The babies are coming.

"Alright, that is good, you are doing great,’’ Ogma tells me as I feel pressure on my stomach. I don’t know what she is doing but I feel another one of the healers injects something into me. It hurts but not as much as the pain that is coming from the inside.

"I am not ready for this,’’ I cry panicking. Everything is a foggy mess right now. I am losing my mind. Scared that I won’t get through his.

"You are doing great,’’ Ogma reassures me again. I am terrified of what is about to happen. I am terrified that I won’t make it. I am terrified that what is going to happen is going to harm the babies.

"I need you,’’ I cry even though Beau is right here beside me. There is nothing he can do right now but I just want to get out of this mess.

"I am here baby, I won’t leave you. Trust me,’’ he tells me and I do, I know that he will keep his promise. He is always there for me.

I try to focus on his face. I try to keep my eyes open but I just can’t. I can’t focus on anything anymore. I am scared of everything.

"Focus on me, you are not alone,’’ he whispers and I do as he says. I focus on him.

I can’t feel anything anymore. Everything is numb, I am numb. Maybe whatever they gave me is working. I close my eyes and Beau’s hand is all I feel at this moment.

"I love you,’’ I whisper, I can feel his hand squeezing mine.

"I love you too so much,’’ He whispers into my ear, his voice is just so soothing right now. Like a warmth that is getting me through a storm. I feel pressure on my stomach but I am too afraid to look.

"Can you check? What is happening?’ I manage to ask but my voice is a bit shaky. I don’t even recognize the person I am right now. He doesn’t let go of me but I open my eyes and he is looking towards Ogma and whatever she is saying is making him smile. He looks so relieved.

"It is okay, we have to keep going,’’ I can feel a tear falling down my face. I want to cry so hard. I hate not knowing what is happening but I just want it all to be over. I try to move, I try to see what is going on but I can’t. It feels like I am out of the loop. I am numb on the bed with no idea what is going on with my body.

"Oh my God, I see them,’’ Beau cries. His voice echoes through the room. It makes me feel a little better. Beau lets go of my hand and I don’t even fight it, I want him to go to our babies. I want him to make sure they are okay.

The minute I hear the first cry, it feels like my heart is about to melt. I feel like I am floating on top of the world. I haven’t seen them, I can barely hear everyone in the room but their beautiful cries swarm all parts of my brain. I am at this point where I can barely even keep my eyes open but I want to see them.

I want to hold them.

"They are here,’ they are so beautiful,’’ Beau says and I try to look at him but it is getting harder as each minute passes by. I open my eyes again and my vision is blurry. They are here, I don’t have to struggle anymore. I use all the strength left in me to focus on him and I see him, holding one of them. I see the joy in his eyes. I want to see them too. I want to feel everything that he is feeling right now. He walks over to me and I manage a faint smile as all my focus is on him and the bundle of joy in his arms.

Ogma walks over to me and she is carrying my baby in her arms, I manage to stretch my hands out and she places him in my grip gently.

"Congratulations,’’ she smiles widely as I feel my baby in my arms. My heart is out of my chest right now as I look at the little features on his face. He is quiet in my arms, not crying anymore.

He is beautiful.

I take a deep breath because I want to see the other one. I turn my head slowly, trying to get a better view but in a split second, my hands become numb and my eyes fall closed. The last thing I see before I blackout is Beau and the fear in his eyes.

All because of me.