Ch. 511..515: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 511-515

Chapter 511: Fighting for us

Darrien

What is happening right now?

Who is this person in front of me?

I know Jabi and this is not him.

This is not the man I love. The kind, thoughtful boy I fell in love with. There is something wrong with him and I don’t know what to do.

I am so upset right now and I don’t know how to react. I made a promise to never leave him alone. Even though I feel like walking out the door right now, I can’t.

I would rather be mad at him in the same space than anything happening to him.

"Just go to the room,’’ I tell him coldly because I don’t like the words he is spewing right now.

He sounds so fucking selfish.

Does he actually think that I want to be here? In this community? this place is the last place I would want to settle and call home. I am not the kind of person that would settle in a pack, with people. I would rather have him and no one else but I am doing this because of him.

I am doing this because of all the things that have transpired.

He is acting like I am just trying to control him.

He is acting like he doesn’t fucking need me right now. Like he can just do it all on his own. After everything, we have been through.

I live and breathe for him but all he can think about is himself.

"We aren’t done talking,’’ he manages in a stutter. This is a little of the Jabi I know. I am not saying it is a bad thing to be confident but it is borderline right now.

"I don’t have anything else to say to you. I don’t know what you want from me anymore.’’

He sighs loudly, tears well up in his eyes. He is about to cry and I don’t want to see that. I never want to be the reason for his tears.

"I am sorry,’’ he manages.

He is not really sorry.

I can feel it.

"Why are you sorry?’’ I ask him.

"I don’t want to fight; I just want to go back home,’’ he interjects.

This is frustrating as hell because no matter how many times I explain this to him, it seems like he doesn’t want to understand.

He is not listening to me.

He is thinking about himself.

"Where is home?’’

He looks up at me "The apartment.’’

I shake my head and try to convey to him in the most respectful way possible how much this is bullshit.

"The apartment is not home. It never was. Why can’t you just fucking realize that.’’ this time, I don’t even wait for him. I am pissed the fuck off and if he doesn’t want to listen to me, then I will give him the space to think about what he is saying. I hate snapping at him. I hate seeing him sad and even though all that is happening, I have no way of controlling it right now.

He needs to think about what he is saying.

He needs to know that he is fucking wrong right now. I walk into the room and close the door behind me. I am still in the same house with him, I won’t leave him alone for now.

I will not let anyone take him away from me but I need this space from him right now. I hear his footsteps and I hear him as he opens the door. I don’t turn around as he walks into the room. He is still sad and I don’t know what he is thinking.

I don’t want to see it right now.

I hear him get into the bed and I close my eyes as he goes under the covers. this is what I wanted him to do in the first place. I wanted to give him the space to think about all that he has said today. I know it is hard but I need to keep my composure right now. I need to think about what is best for him right now and realize that I am doing this for him. I am protecting him. The last thing he needs is for me to be upset right now. I just want to be okay with him again.

He shuffles on the bed; I know he is not sleeping. I hear him sniffling. He is crying again and I don’t know how to walk away from him when he is crying.

I don’t know what to do.

I walk over to the bed and linger close to him.

We need to communicate properly.

I need to let him know that I am on his side.

I will always be on his side. I am not leaving him right now.

I breathe in deeply, trying to tune out the tears in his eyes.

He is crying so hard that I am scared that he will break down. I don’t want that to happen. I want him to be happy.

"Jabi,’’ I call his name softly.

This is the tone I usually have, not the one I gave him a couple of minutes ago. He stops sniffing but he doesn’t answer me. I can’t see his face but I know that he can hear me.

"I will never do anything to make you unhappy. I might have done this the wrong way but I will never hurt you. The community is not the place that I want to spend the rest of my life with you. It is the only place that I feel is safe for now. Until I figure things out."

He remains quiet as I continue "Trust me, please just do that. I promise I will never let you down."

I sigh.

I am trying so hard to be as convincing as possible right now. I am so tired of all of this but I am fighting. I am fighting for us.

I am fighting for our lives.

I am fighting for him.

Slowly, he pulls the covers off but remains quiet.

That is a start.

At least.

Chapter 512: Reminder

Darrien

"Can I lie next to you?’’ I ask him calmly. We are not back to the way we were but suddenly, I don’t want that space anymore. The space I thought would be best for us.

I want him in my arms, I want to feel his warmth all around me. All the things that make us, us.

He nods but still remains silent.

Our fight today--if I can even call it that has created a barrier between us. He knows it is there and I know that to and I don’t know how we will go back from that but I will try. It is normal to have arguments in relationships, everything cannot be rosy and dandy.

That is all it is.

A stupid fight.

I pull the covers over my body as I lie down on the bed next to him. He hasn’t said a word since we left the living room and I don’t even know what he is thinking or how he is feeling right now.

I want to pull him closer but it also feels wrong. I need to make amends before we even get to that point.

"I remember the past, and I guess I keep reliving it all when I am here,’’ he breathes out and his voice travels through the room. I listen to him because this is good. I need him to talk to me. Like really talk. I am here to listen.

Here to be with him in any way that he needs me to.

"This place sucks the life out of me and maybe I stayed for so long because I felt like I would never amount to anything. I felt like that was all I deserved." He pauses. "Now I need to be the best person I can be.’’

I sit up, puddling up some of the covers. He looks at me for a moment. Too long. I know and I want to say something. He is pouring out his soul to me and I have always known all this.

At least, I have always known a portion of how he felt. I know how they treated him here, I know of all the suffering and torment but I also know that things are not the same with Beau’s rein.

Things are different but I know about trauma and I know that this can be traumatizing for him also.

"I don’t mean to sound selfish, I know that is how I came off. I heard it when I said all the things I did but I am scared that I will go back to the person that I was when I was here,’’ he covers his hands with his face "I don’t ever want to be that person again.’’ I lean forward, pulling his hands away from his face. I want to see his eyes. His gaze. His heart.

He doesn’t need to hide how he feels. I want him to see that he can be open with me--all the time.

"This is not permanent. I just need to figure out how to hide your scent. You are a walking pointer to who you are. Going to the outside world is dangerous for us. I don’t want to have to worry about what could happen to you. Can you just give me time to figure it out?’’ He looks at me for a moment. I know he is thinking. I know he is weighing me up and I want him to know that I am here for him. I am really here for him.

"Can you give this a chance, I am here with you. You will never have to feel the way you did before."

He reaches for his face and I grab his hand before he can wipe his tears himself. I brush my fingers against this face, slowly, almost like I am treading waters with him. This is the first time things have felt this way between us.

It makes me think that having a successful relationship is hard. We are literally soul mates but we could still break up. We will still fight, we will have differences.

I just want to be able to communicate with him.

I want him to always be able to tell me how he is feeling.

I want him to be able to see me like he has never been able to see me. He is a mirror to me. He is the one that I got to see myself through. I don’t want to shatter that mirror. I don’t want to lose what we have but I also have to remember that Jabi is young. He will be immature sometimes.

This is all new to him.

"I’m sorry,’’ he manages to say in a hoarse voice. I’m not angry at him "I don’t want to do this alone. I don’t want to live this life without you.’’

I lay my hands on his face and he leans into them. His muscles under his shirt are hard and I can feel the heat radiating from him.

I don’t want to ever forget how we feel about each other. I lean closer until my forehead is against his and he closes his eyes in bliss. I can feel the warmth of his body and I can feel his heart beating. It is pounding for me. I feel the strength of it. I want to hold him. I want to pull him closer to me.

To hold him close so that he can feel that. I can feel the softness of his hair but I just want to hold him in my arms. I want to hold him.

He opens his eyes and I feel like he is looking through me. I see his soul in his eyes. Our lips meet and it is electric, a reminder from the goddess that we belong together.

Everything else is trivial and inconsequential.

As long as we are together, we will work it out.

We will be fine.

 

Chapter 513: Distraction

Gyles

Procrastination is a fucking bad thing and maybe that Is what I have been doing for weeks. I mean, can you blame me. With everything that has happened. I don’t want to have to deal with that drama anymore.

I got so relaxed after the mating ceremony that I completely put it out of my mind. I let go of the haunting, the scares and the fact that we have to go back to the coven. Blue hasn’t said anything about it and I can tell that he doesn’t want to go back to that place. He doesn’t want to have anything to do with his mother and just knowing that she is still alive scares him.

I don’t want to be the one to bring it up but I know we have to eventually figure this out. Just because I haven’t seen the ghosts again doesn’t mean they aren’t still there.

After the mating ritual we kind of lost track of everything. We didn’t even talk about Analise. He hasn’t even asked me anything about it and I think he is hoping that I will stop seeing the ghosts. This is something that he doesn’t want to deal with and I can’t blame him.

My eyes are open as I hear Blue’s alarm go off. He sets his alarm for five in the morning every day. This is his routine, wake up, go for a run, and then make breakfast for us.

He is usually the first person to wake up every morning.

He is quick to shut off the alarm and I hear him shuffling on the bed as quietly as he can. I know what he is going to do next. Kiss Rex and then me. He does this every morning.

Even when we are asleep.

I hear his footsteps as he comes over to my side of the bed. His eyes meet mine immediately "You’re awake,’’ he manages in a soft whisper.

There is a wave of heat as we stare into each other’s eyes. Then he kisses me. He kisses me as if he is going to never stop and I want to keep him.

I run my hands along his back and over his shoulders. He takes the covers off and opens his arms for me. I don’t hesitate to climb into his embrace. I feel alive with him. He releases a heavy sigh as I feel him pull away from my mouth "We shouldn’t wake Rex up.’’ he whispers.

Rex is tucked in the corner of the bed; his breath and chest rising and falling with his sleep. His hand is across his chest. I smile to myself.

"Do you want to go for a run with me?’’ he adds.

I shake my head even though going for a run might be a good thing right now. I have been thinking about Analise and the coven since yesterday and I know I need to bring it up. I am the one that kept seeing Eleanor. She came to me, so I have to be the one to bring it up even though I know this is something that Blue is not ready for.

"You sure?’’ he asks me again.

I nod as he pulls away from me completely. Rex shuffles on the bed but he doesn’t wake up.

"I’ll probably get some coffee instead of going for a run. I’m still kind of tired.’’ I tell him.

Without another word, he starts to dress. I hear him shuffling things around and then he leaves the bedroom.

I watch him leave and then I fall down to my pillow. Rex starts to wake up but he doesn’t move. I grab his hand and he looks at me blinking. A slow smile sprawls to his face as he nuzzles closer to me "Hi,’’ he says softly.

"Morning babe,’’ I say back as I kiss his forehead. He looks at me and I could swear that his eyes are a little brighter. I hear the front door close and I know Blue is out of the house. I look out of the window and it is still dark out. We have about an hour before the sun comes out.

I don’t even want to get out of bed. Rex reaches for me and I watch him as he plays with the strands of hair on my face. My eyes remain on him as he softly kisses my neck and I can’t help but sigh as he does so. I feel his body grow heavy beside me as he continues to kiss me.

"You’re so beautiful,’’ he whispers into my ear. I kiss him again. He pulls away from me and starts to slide his tongue into my mouth.

I concentrate only on him and I don’t think. I just let my body go with the feeling of his lips on my tongue. He nibbles on my lips and I start to move my hips. I grab his shirt and pull him to me.

We continue to kiss and I feel him grow hard.

I slowly pull the shirt off his body. His skin is so soft and I want to touch it. I run a hand down his stomach and my fingertips drift across his abs. I grab his shorts and slowly pull them down. I can feel his arousal through the fabric.

I kiss his neck softly before getting around to his side. I slowly make my way up his body. I kiss his chest and then his face. He grabs my hips and gently pushes me up to him.

I feel my lips on his as he runs his fingers through my hair. I run my hands along his arms once again. I know this is not the time for this. We have a lot going on but in the spur of the moment, all I want right now is to fuck him.

It seems he wants the same thing.

He kisses me hard and I moan as I feel his hardness against me. I slow down my movements so that he can get comfortable with his pace. I kiss him again and I feel him smile against me.

Our tongues are tangled as we desperately need each other. We are lost in the moment that we don’t hear the door open.

Until Blue coughs loudly probably his attempt at getting our attention.

I look over the bed and he has a grin on his face.

Chapter 514: All the fun in the world

Rex

There is no rule between the three of us on when to have sex. I don’t know the dynamics of our relationship to the max. I know how we work. I know what our relationship is. We are three, we are fucking in love. I am attracted to the two of them equally and they feel the same way.

That is how it is but we haven’t talked about sex without one of us.

Right now, Blue is not here. I woke up with a boner and I saw one of the sexiest guys I have ever seen in my life in bed with me. He looked so amazing and when he touched me, I knew I was gone.

I let go and gave in to my primal instincts. I don’t know if this is okay. I have never known if it is okay to mess around with one of them without the other. We have never talked about it so I don’t know if Blue walking in on us right now might be awkward.

"You’re back,’’ Gyles mutters with a hint of confusion. His dick is still pressing unto me, it just makes me want him more. I can’t even focus on the goofy smile Blue is carrying right now.

"Oh, I forgot my phone but I can see that you guys were getting busy without me," he walks closer to the bed and I watch him as he climbs on the mattress until he is just above me.

"You were sleeping when I left the room,’’ he presses his lips to my forehead and it sends chills down my spine. He brushes my hair out of my face and kisses my neck and it awakens the most intense feelings in me. My heart is racing and I am ready to kiss him back.

"Blue,’’ I say softly, I feel like I can’t stop myself.

"What?’’ He asks with a hint of amusement. He kisses my lips but it is not the sexy, tongue-full kiss I was hoping for. He pulls me closer to him and kisses my neck and again, I can’t stop myself from reciprocating.

"W-why do you do that?" Gyles says.

"What?’’ Blue says.

"You like to tease him a lot,’’ he adds.

There is still a smile on Blue’s face as he shrugs "You guys were going to have all this fun without me, isn’t that teasing too?’’

He can’t stop his lips from pursing into a cute pout.

"Yeah, I guess it is,’’ I say. At this point, I want someone to just fuck me and maybe I am extra horny right now but they are both here and that just means that we can have fun together.

Right now, Blue is closer to me even though I can still feel Gyles and all his warmth. I push my back into him because the more contact I have, the more I want. Blue’s smile widens as his eyes darken with lust.

"Do I even need to go for my run anymore?’’ he asks but it is not a question that needs an answer. We both know that he is not going anywhere.

"Do you want to?’’ I ask him with a cheeky smile. Gyles reaches for me and I feel his hand as it slides into my pants. His touch is solid and warm. I can’t help but look at Blue to see if he is going to stop the hand.

"No, you keep going," he says and kisses me again. His kisses are hot and lustful. The way that his tongue tastes against mine and the way that his hand feels on me. I can’t help but push my hips into his hand. He knows that I want it, he knows how badly I need to have it.

"You like this?" Blue asks Gyles and I don’t know if he is talking to Gyles or me but it doesn’t matter.

"Don’t stop,’’ I mumble softly. Gyles’ fingers are in me and Blue is kissing at my neck. I feel his hands sliding through my hair, I feel both of them on me and it is all too much. I kiss Gyles again, I kiss Blue again. My hands are at both of them and I can’t stop myself from touching them. Their lips and tongues are doing things to me.

"I want you both," I confess because the ache is taunting me right now. They are both touching me and I feel like I am about to combust with all the pleasure that is giving me.

"Good," Blue says. He puts his hand back into Gyles’ pants and I feel the other hand going into me. His fingers are going where I need them and I am surprised to find that I am yearning for their touch. I am so ready to have them filling my hole.

"Do you want this?" Blue’s lips are in front of mine and he is kissing me. The way that he touches my lips, I want it to be him and I want it to be them.

"Yes,’’ I say.

"Then what are you waiting for?" Gyles asks and I know what he means, I know what he wants. I am in the middle of the two of them. This is everything I want. Having them both.

I moan as Blue moves his fingers back and forth and Gyles tells me that it feels so good as his hands move up and down on my dick. He is pushing my pants down and I am so close. The anticipation is killing me. I want them both to take it all. At this point, I don’t care if Blue is watching or not.

"Oh, you are both killing me,’’ I say and I can tell that they are both enjoying it. I can feel their hands on me, I can’t help but push my hips into them both.

"Take it all,’’ I say and Blue is already putting it where I need it.

"Yes, yes, yes,’’ I say. "Oh, Gyles, yes. That’s it,’’ I say as he strokes me faster. I lose all my senses as all my focus is on them.

Giving me all the things, I want.

Giving me all of them.

Chapter 515: That person that you love

Gyles

I hear the cry and I see the look on Alanis’s face. His eyes are dark, it looks like he hasn’t had any sleep at all and somehow all I feel for him is pity.

"I got to go get him," he mutters as he stands up from the bed and walks out of the room. I watch him as he disappears and in a couple of minutes, he walks in with a baby in his arms.

His baby.

"He needs food,’’ he mutters quietly and I watch him as he sits down on the bed with a bottle in his hand.

"What kind of food does he eat?’’ I ask even though I can see the milk in the bottle. I don’t even understand the whole dynamic of a vampire having babies. It is still all very strange to me.

"Baby food,’’ he answers and I watch him as he feeds the baby. A slow smile sprawls on his face and all the tiredness vanishes as he watches the little baby in his arms feed on the bottle.

"Are they human?’’ I ask. "I mean, I still don’t know how it works."

Alanis looks at me curiously.

"They are human...’’ he replies hesitantly. "Now, I suppose. But they are still vampires and werewolves. They are just like us but they need to grow into their full forms first. I guess.’’

"How long?’’ I ask.

"No one really knows. This is all new, so I want to just watch them as they grow. There is no pressure." he smiles at me and I see the joy in his eyes. The fact that he has them seems like something that he would not trade for anything in the world.

"So, what’s going on with you?’’ he asks me, changing the topic and I am glad because I actually came here to talk about the whole thing with the coven.

Alanis is a very good friend to me and I would like to think that he sees me as a good friend too.

We have this relationship that we don’t really talk about but we are there for each other. He is the easiest person to talk to in the community.

He is always happy no matter what is going on. He is always there if I need him.

So, I tell him about the whole thing and he listens intently and nods his head as I go on.

"I don’t think Blue wants us to go back to the coven. I haven’t even seen them--I mean, the people in the book but I am scared that they will come back if we don’t fix things. He is very quiet about everything and I kind of need to sort it all out."

"Do you actually think the best thing for you all is to go back to the place that messed you up so badly?’’ he asks me quietly.

Going back to the coven will only be to help them.

I don’t actually want to go back.

I just feel like I don’t have a choice. Like the only way that I can actually be free is by doing this.

I don’t know if that makes any sense.

"I don’t know, I know they are still here. I can feel them even though they are quiet. I can’t have this looming over me for the rest of my life."

Alanis looks at me and nods his head.

"What do you want to do?’’ he asks.

"I don’t know. I just need to live my life. I guess I just want some peace,’’ I answer.

"Have you told Blue all this?’’

I shake my head because I don’t want to be the one to remind. him. He seems to think everything is fine with me. I know he has been thinking about it. Wondering if I am still seeing Eleanor and I know he is happy that I haven’t mentioned anything. I don’t want to be the bearer of bad news.

"No.’’

"Do you think it is right to keep it from him?’’

I shake my head because I know that this is something that I actually need to tell him. It involves him the most because this is about his mother. "I don’t know. I really don’t know,’’ I admit.

"You should talk to him. Tell him that you need to do this. Secrets only make things worse. Trust me, I have been there. Don’t let him find out about how you feel from someone else.’’

I look at the baby in his arms and he is asleep with the bottle still in his mouth. A slow smile spreads to my face "You’ve gotten the hang of this.’’

"I think so, it is still very hard but I am getting there.’’

"Talk to him. He will only do what is best for you. Trust me."

I leave Alanis with the conclusion that he is right and I know that I need to tell Blue how I have been feeling. The fact that I still keep thinking about everything is a sign that I will not be able to let this go.

I will not be able to ignore all the things I saw in that room.

So, this has everything to do with Analise and even though she is his mother. She is evil and she needs to pay for all the things she did.

She needs to get hers back and maybe I am that person to give it to her. I walk back to the house and Rex is the first person I see. He is in the living room playing a video game.

I walk over to the couch and he drops the game console as he sees me. "Hi,’’ he leans forward and kisses me softly.

"Hey,’’ I kiss him back and we sit there for a while.

I think about how I am going to do this. I don’t want to be ’that person’, the one that they see me as. The problematic one. The one that always brings trouble into our lives but I know that is who I am.

They still love me.

That should be enough.

Right?