Ch. 516..520: The Werewolf's Vampire Mate Chapter 516-520
Chapter 516: My way or the highway
Blue
"I don’t know how to tell him."
"But you need to tell him though. Why are you silent about this?’’
I stop in front of the door even though I know it is not a good thing to eavesdrop. They are having a conversation. That conversation is about me and it seems like Gyles is keeping something from me.
"He will not be happy when I tell him. He doesn’t want to go back.’’
Go back where?
"The way you are saying things will give him no choice. This is not really about him. It is about you and you know that we both support you, one hundred percent." Rex tells him.
I still don’t know what they are talking about but I feel like I have an idea. Maybe this is about the coven. I don’t want the coven to get mixed up in this.
"I know you are afraid of this but I can’t let you live like this. You have to say something to him. This is not going to be easy but I don’t see any other way. I know you can do it’’.
I watch them. I watch them talk. They are talking about something without me and I just don’t know how I feel about it.
I take a step into the living room and they both turn to me at the same time. I see the guilty look on Gyles’s face.
"You’re back,’’ he stands up from the couch immediately and trots over to me. He puts his arms around me. "We missed you so much.’’
I smile at him as I welcome him into my arms. I need him to talk to me about whatever is going on in his mind but I don’t want to be the one to ask him.
Does that even make any sense?
"I have something to talk to you about,’’ he breathes into my ear. I can sense the tension in the tone of his voice.
He doesn’t actually want to say whatever this is.
"I am here, what is wrong,’’ I grab his hands in mine and my eyes shift to Rex who just has a straight expression on his face.
"Let’s sit down," he pulls me to the couch and I follow him.
My eyes dart between the two of them. I am the only one that doesn’t know what this is about and the feeling of that makes my heart jump.
"What is this about?’’ I say as I sit down next to him.
He takes a deep breath "This is about the coven. This is about Eleanor." he says instantly and I sigh because I knew this was going to happen. I don’t want to think about the coven and all the things that Gyles has established.
’Why are we having this conversation?’’
I genuinely want to know why he keeps digging into this. I get it, he was being haunted. The people in the book were taunting him but after the ritual, they stopped showing up.
That must mean something.
Why do we have to rehash all those things that I will like to put behind me? He is holding unto all that has happened and I just want him to let go of it all.
"Because we need to go back.’’
I shake my head immediately "There is no reason as to why we would need to go back to that place.’’
He furrows his brows like he is confused "What about Eleanor, what about all those people that were murdered in that room?’’ he asks me.
I sigh slowly running my hands through my hair. "Gyles, you are trying to be a hero and you are not thinking about us. Your family. We need to just focus on protecting ourselves. If we go back to the coven. I can’t guarantee that nothing will happen. That place is a mess. Bad things happen there and you have seen it first-hand." I pause with my eyes fixed to him, hoping to talk some sense to him. "Why would you want to go back to that?’’
He looks at me with a sad expression on his face "This is not about us. You know that.’’
He is being stubborn and I don’t want to argue with him. I know there is a reason why he wants to go back. I just don’t want to hear it. I don’t want to go back and Gyles can’t see it now but he will when something happens and it is too late. I don’t want to think about Eleanor. I don’t want to think about what happened to her. It is too much to think about.
Instead of rehashing all that stuff, I just want to focus on us.
I don’t want to think about all the things that my own mother has done.
"I have to go back,’’ he crosses his hands over his chest with a scowl. I turn to Rex. "Talk some sense into him. He is doing that thing again.’’ I say as I roll my eyes and I notice that he is now looking at my hands clenched in his lap like he does when he is nervous.
"Gyles," I look at him directly as he turns to me, "You have your reasons. Us going back will not help you. You have to stop. I will be here to protect you but if you do this, I don’t think it will end well. I don’t think it will end well.’’
He bites his lip as his eyes dart to Rex and he looks away from me and he can’t look me in the eyes.
"Don’t make me do this without you, please.’’
I sigh because as usual, he is not listening to me "I am not doing this with you. So, if this is what you want, you are on your own."
I walk away from him even though I am bluffing. I know, Rex knows and Gyles knows that I will never let him go there on his own. I might be pissed off right now but at the end of it all, I will always protect him.
I might not like this one bit but with Gyles, I feel like he doesn’t even give me choices.
Fuck.
Chapter 517: Selfishness
Blue
I walk away from him, even though there is pain in his eyes. I have to be strict right now. Maybe if I am cold towards him, he will let this go. I know Gyles, I know the things he can do, and giving in most times is not one of those things.
Thoughts run through his head and he acts on those thoughts. Right now, he is in a heroic mood. He wants to save them.
I don’t even know if this is even something good. They are in the book. I know that the book is bad.
So, he thinks that they are in need of saving but this is all part of their plan to lure him back?
He is not even thinking about that.
I walk into the room and close the door with a loud bang. I am fuming right now. I need to breathe before I completely lose it all. I rest my back on the door as I think of the way to handle this. Saying no to Gyles just sounds like control. He will take this as me trying to control him and that is not my intention. I just want him to be safe and the only way we can be safe is by staying in the community. I have to be counter to him and that means saying no. He will feel hurt but it has to be done.
I stay quiet as I walk over to the bed and sit down on it. The door opens and Rex walks in. He is hesitant but comes closer to me "Can we talk?’’ he asks.
I nod.
I know what he is going to say. I know that he doesn’t support the way I reacted. I don’t even support what I did.
"I know what you want to say. Fuck, I know but I don’t want to go back to that place.’’ I confess.
He nods "Neither do I.’’
"Then talk some sense into him, there is no need to go back there. We are only going to be looking for trouble."
"Trouble came looking for him. You can’t just expect him to move on from it all after the things he saw.’’
Rex is trying to be reasonable. But it doesn’t help.
"What? Isn’t he trying to let this go? What is all this ’boom boom boom’ bullshit?’ I demand. I feel like the world is spinning and I don’t know what to make of it all.
Rex looks at me, and at this point, I am feeling that he does not want to argue and I don’t want to argue either.
"Anyone who would go back there must be insane. I think he has lost his fucking mind.’’
I am being a jerk now and maybe I can’t help myself.
I have never been this pissed before. I know he is right and he is trying to be reasonable but I don’t even want to hear it. I just want him to go back out there and talk some sense into our mate.
"Gyles is stubborn. No one can just talk sense into him. He will do what he wants and all he wants is our support. Can you at least give him that? You don’t think it is a good idea to go back to the coven, then give him a reason. Don’t just tell him that he can’t go because it is dangerous. Prove to him that there is no need to go back.’’
Find a reason?
I fucking gave him a reason.
My mother will kill us.
She is fucking insane.
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"Dad,’’ I press the phone into my ear "I need your help. I need to figure out what the hell is going on in the coven.’’
"How?"
"I need to talk to a powerful witch. I don’t know who to ask. Can you help me?"
"I’ll see what I can do.’’ he ends the call and I know it might be a long shot but this time, I am not going to the coven blindly. This is me being selfish. This is me not wanting to face that part of my life and Gyles cannot even see it.
Why do I always have to do what6 is good for them. Why can’t I do what is good for me?
I walk out of the room and out of the house because I need some space. Gyles is outside but the front porch steps. He looks up immediately and I see the dread on his face. I didn’t want to have this confrontation right now. I wanted to fix things first but I can’t just walk away and act like I didn’t see him, especially since he is looking at me with those beautiful eyes. I walk over to him and take a seat next to him on the steps.
He looks away from me and I watch him as he picks at his fingernails nervously.
"You think I am selfish, don’t you?’’
"You don’t want to know what I think.’’
Gyles looks at me for a moment and then he sighs "Alright, I was wrong when I said that, I am trying to make you understand where I am coming from. I just wish you would support me no matter what.’’
"Isn’t that what I have been doing all along?"
He shrugs and I see the confusion on his face "You said we were going to fix things with the book and the coven but you want to act like it never happened.’’
He might be right.
You can’t blame me for wanting to forget about everything. Everything I know about my so-called mother. How she didn’t even want me, how she killed her sister and her parents. I don’t want to go back to that part of my life and it seems like he doesn’t want to think about this from my side.
At this point, I don’t know the right things to say or do. I don’t know how I can plead with him to let this go.
I don’t know anymore.
Chapter 518: Meet him halfway
Gyles
Blue is never on my side.
Sometimes, I think if we are all equal in this relationship and I know he doesn’t even see it. He thinks he is being mutual; he thinks he is doing this for my own good but now all I have is regret.
Alanis said the best thing to do was to talk to him about it all and I did that. I was honest but the way he is reacting makes me think that I shouldn’t have even been honest in the first place.
I get where he is coming from, I know what that place does to him and I don’t even want to go back there but just even knowing that his mother is still alive with all the bad things she has done, makes me want to go back there. Makes me want to try and protect the people she would hurt in the future.
This is not only about Eleanor.
Yes, she needs me right now, I have to find a way to set her and the others free but at the same time, I have to find a way to stop Analise.
Blue just thinks I am doing this to be stubborn. To be--like the way he said it ’The way I always am’.
This is not for fun. I am not doing this to risk anyone’s life. I just don’t feel completely free. Even though I have not been seeing or hearing their voices for a while. I feel them inside me.
There is an ache in my chest. Tugging at my heartstrings. I feel like I can’t fully breathe properly until this is sorted out. I feel like I can’t put my life on hold for much longer.
Alanis told me to talk to him about all the things I have been feeling but he hasn’t even given me a chance to fully talk to him.
I just said one thing and he shut me off completely.
"I need you to just listen to me. I need you Blue. Please treat me like you would Rex.’’ I beg him desperately.
I know this is not the best way to do this.
I am guilt-tripping him.
"What does that even mean?’’
He is putting that wall again. The one where he chooses to interpret my words in the way he wants to.
"Blue, why are we fighting over this. Why are you making this seem like something that I am enjoying?’’ I feel like I am at the end of my rope. I feel like this is all because of Blue’s mother.
I know this is not my fault.
I do not want to fight with him.
I just want to find a way to fix this situation without us fighting. I hate this so much and he doesn’t seem to even notice.
"Baby, I am doing what is best for all of us. I am being strict about this because I know the outcome of this. I know what my mother can do. I know the hurt that she is capable of and I don’t want anything to happen to you,’’ he sighs and grabs my hands in his "I am doing this because I love you."
I feel my heart drop. I feel like I am almost going to cry. I feel like I want to shut it all out.
"You are the one who is stubborn,’’ I tell him. This is him manipulating me. he is trying to play the ’I love you’ card. He is trying to shut me down completely.
"Fuck,’’ he lets go of me and stands up from the steps. "You are not going to listen to me, no matter what I say,’’ he walks away. His back is turned to me and he is staring out at the back gardens.
I feel like this is not fair.
I did not ask for this. I did not even want to go through all this. I hate having to be so emotional.
I feel like this is my fault.
I am the reason why all this is happening but at this point, I can’t keep on playing the blame game. I have to make up my mind and stick to it. I grab my phone from my pocket and dial Alanis’s number. I know he has his shit to deal with but he is the only one that I can talk to.
"Yo,’’ he answers immediately. I hear babies crying in the background but the sounds reduce and I gather he left the room.
"You busy? I can call back.’’ I say.
"Nah, Beau is with them. What’s up?" he asks.
I take a deep breath as I tell him everything that happened and he listens to me until I am done.
"He doesn’t even want to listen. He is just being fucking authoritative and controlling.’’ I tell him and the more I talk about it, the more it hurts me.
I hate that he handled what I told him the way he did. He basically just didn’t listen to me.
’Okay, this is not how I thought he would react,’’ Alanis mutters quietly. ’’I thought he would be supportive.’’
’Maybe I should have kept my mouth shut.’
’No, he still needed to hear this from you. You had to be the one to tell him. Trust me. You did the right thing but you can’t always control how people would react to things."
I sigh.
’He is my mate. He is supposed to be on my side."
’’Yeah, I guess you’re right,’’ he says after a pause. ’’What are you doing now?’’
’I have no idea. I will have to wait for him to come back home. He left angrily and I don’t think I can fix this."
"So, I need you to be patient with him. I need you to have a decent conversation and I need you to also compromise. Meet him halfway. So, you know that you need to go back to the coven, you know that is something you have to do. So, find a way to include him in this plan. Make sure it is thought through. I need you to talk to your mate because all you have is each other."
I listen to him and I know he is right but I also don’t know how I am going to do this.
Chapter 519: Different kind of love
Beau
I watch Lanis walk out of the room with his phone pressed to his ear and I can’t help but smile at how in awe I am of him.
I reach for Colm and he stops crying the second he catches sight of me. His eyes open wide and that look of confusion and curiosity is back on his face. Sometimes, I feel like whenever they are looking at me, they can feel the love I have for them. Like somehow, we are connected.
As if I could reach into their soul and see the real them; the real Colm and Colin. My babies. The loves of my life. I didn’t know I could feel this much for anyone. The love I have for them is different from the one I have for Lanis. I don’t even know how I can explain it. There is equality in the love but somehow, it is different too.
Lanis is strong on his own but stronger with me. My babies are not strong on their own. They need me to be their strength and I will give it all to them.
I will let my guard down for them, fight for them, be there for them.
Thanks to Lanis, I feel more from life. I have a reason to live. I have something to fight for.
I don’t even think I say it enough.
Tell him how much my life would have sucked without him.
He gave me meaning.
He gave me purpose.
Fuck, I am in my head again.
I go into this place where gratitude is all I feel. I am grateful for all the things I have. Grateful for how far I have come in my life.
The door opens and he walks in with a serious expression on his face "Is everything okay?’’ I ask him because I only want to see smiles on his face. He walks over to the other crib and I watch him as he smiles at a sleepy Colin.
"Just issues with Gyles and Blue,’’ he answers my question. He looks away from the crib and to me. A slow smile sprawls on his face as he takes a step towards me. I look away from him for a second, Colm is slowly drifting back to sleep.
"So do you want to talk about it?’’ I ask him quietly, so as to not wake the babies. He shakes his head "Put him back in bed, we can talk in the room.’’ he says. We walk over to the crib and I place him gently in the bed. I look at him and he is still smiling, it makes me feel warm all over and I give him a quick kiss on the forehead.
I take one last look at our babies and he grabs my hand in his and pulls me out of the room.
I follow him back to our room and he opens the door, putting his finger up to his lips, he gestures for me to enter.
We both enter the room and he shuts the door a little too loudly "Shit,’’ he covers his mouth. "I don’t want them to wake up,’’ he confesses.
I turn to him and he lowers his eyes. His face is flushed. He wants me to do something but he is hesitant.
I get closer to him and wrap my arms around his waist. I pull him towards me and he lets himself fall forward effortlessly against me. His head is on my shoulder and I can feel his soft lips touching my neck.
Out of nowhere, an urge to kiss him comes over me. I lean forwards and kiss him; it is soft and sweet. He kisses my neck and I can feel my insides turning. I kiss him harder, slowly at first and then as his body starts responding. He pulls back and looks at me with those gorgeous eyes.
"Wait," he manages out of breath. My heart is thudding in excitement. I like where this is going and I don’t want to stop. I pull my head back in frustration and his smile widens.
"I love you,’’ he says softly. "I love you so much. Have I told you that today?’’ he asks still breathing heavily from our make-out session.
"Yes, you have.’’
He nods his head and then lets go of me. I am on the verge of having blue balls right now. He just basically teased me and now he is pulling away from me.
"Great, I just need you not to forget that. Never forget it.’’
I don’t know the conversation he had with Gyles but something must have triggered this. "Come on,’’ he grabs my hand again and pushes me to the bed.
I fall flat on my back and he giggles as he gets on top of me. "You’re such a flirt’’ I laugh. He grinds into me and my dick hardens instantly.
Fuck Lanis.
This is making me hard. He moves his hands to my waist and starts stroking me through my pants. I let him pull them down and then he pushes them off my legs.
I reach for him but he shakes his head immediately.
"No touching me, I want to worship you tonight," he whispers into the night sky. Not touch him?
Can I even resist the urge?
He takes off his shirt, pulling it over his head. I like the view. His chest is solid and defined and his abs are rock hard. His skin is smooth and pale, just the way it has always been.
He is smiling again and he looks like he is loving every minute of this. I love the view too and I love to see him happy. He moves his hands up my chest until he is cupping my face.
"Beautiful, so beautiful,’’ he murmurs. He stares at me, his eyes roaming around my face, looking at me like he has never seen me before.
He kisses me softly on the lips. He kisses over my nose and slowly kisses up my face. When he reaches my lips, he lifts my arms until my hands are on his waist and he leans over me.
He kisses me gently on the lips, he kisses deeply and I can taste myself on his lips. My mouth opens and he slides his tongue inside and we both moan in the pure joy of it.
He slowly moves his face to the crook of my neck "I fucking love you, Beau." His words are from the bottom of his heart.
They are real.
Just like the love I have for him.
Chapter 520: The perfect partner
Alanis
I don’t even know what came over.
One minute, I was on the phone with Gyles. He was telling me about his issues with Blue and I was trying my best to be diplomatic and see reason with him. I feel for him because it is not such a nice thing to not be on the same page with your partner. Right now, Gyles is struggling in that department and even though I am trying to be a good friend to him, he has to figure this out on his own.
Somehow, my conversation with him made me appreciate mine. Made me want to show him how much I love him.
That is how this happened.
I see my life, the man I am with and I am so fucking lucky. I have it all--I think it is safe to say that now. I have a beautiful partner, two amazing kids and a family that I know will always have my back.
At the start of this year, I didn’t even know if I was ever going to find my link. I was insecure. dating someone that I never thought I would end up with. I was messed up. always angry and frustrated.
I didn’t even see myself with the life I have.
Beau has been perfect. through it all, he has been a safe space. He has been the perfect partner and I know people say there is no such thing as a perfect partner but I fucking lucked out.
I will give him my all. I will be everything to him. I will let know one come in between us. I gave him all of me, with the mark on my neck. He seems that claim and he owns it. It has been a journey, but I am happy. I am happy with my life. I am happy with my man. I am happy because I want to show him how much I love him.
His eyes are wide open, he is completely shocked at my reaction to him. I can read him and I know that this is a surprise to him. I am still on top of him, grinding slowly to the rhythm of our heartbeats. The room is quiet, the moon is shining into the window. He is looking at me, holding me and the closeness is so perfect. I can feel how it makes him feel.
His other hand caresses my neck slowly, over the mark. The one he gave me. His physical claim to me.
"Fuck Lanis, this is amazing.’’ he moans as I lean forward and press my lips to his again. He closes his eyes immediately and I feel him as he releases his hold, his grip on my back tightens and I feel him push me down. He is kissing me and his kiss is deep and I can feel every inch of him filling me. I can feel the warmth and the intensity of his grip on me and I have never felt anything so good.
I suck on his bottom lip and he whimpers my name as I nibble down his neck.
"Oh god, Lanis.’’ he moans as I release his lip and embrace his neck with my lips. He is so hot and sweaty and his touch is driving me insane. I grind on his hardness and he starts to moan again.
I feel him, gently as first because Beau is always gentle with me. He has never hurt me before. Right now, he is getting my body used to his. I close my eyes as I push him into me with a little more force. "Don’t stop,’’ I hiss, breathing heavily as I feel him inside of me.
He is always so gentle with me; it is so hot. "Oh god Lanis.’’ he moans as I grind and he rocks into me. My body feels amazing and I want to show him.
"Beau.’’ I breathe, "Fuck.’’ I say and he moans again, he is so sexy. He leans forward, I feel his teeth against my neck. on the mark.
"Oh god.’’ he moans, as I feel the sharp pain that only lasts for a second as he pierces into my skin.
He sucks on my neck and I feel the burning sensation of being marked. This feels like the first time we had sex. it feels like the mating ritual all over again. special, new, everything I have ever wanted.
The pain is replaced with pure, unfiltered pleasure as he continues to move inside me. As he continues to love me, I feel myself open up and I hear him groan as I give him all of me. I can feel his teeth on my neck. He closes his eyes and I kiss him. He feels so good, everything about him feels good.
"Fucking hell.’’ he moans and I can hear the need in his voice. "Oh fuck.’’ he sighs. "God Lanis,’’ he says and I feel his lips against my neck as he bites into my flesh and I am ready to climax. I feel as if I am coming apart and I have never felt so amazing. He groans into my neck and his body convulses as he climaxes so hard. I feel his heart racing and I can feel the heat inside of me as I begin to feel my own climax.
My body tightens and I feel the heat of him on my neck, I can feel his teeth on my neck, I can feel his hands on my body. I fall onto his chest and he grabs me tighter as I rest my head on him.
I am breathing heavily and the feeling of this is so incredible. Every nerve in my body is tingling and I am so happy.
"Fuck.’’ he moans, "Fuck, what just happened?’’ he asks me in between breaths.
I smile even though he can’t see my face.
I don’t even know what just happened.
It was so intense. And the good thing about it is that I know Beau loves all of me. I know this because he did it for me. He gave me everything he has. He has proven there is such thing as a perfect partner. We are perfect as a couple.
He fucking loves me.
I am so lucky.